Oh no, my deskmate is a yandere!

"It's alright." Yang An finally showed a tiny bit of reaction.

His Adam's apple bobbed as he looked up at the face so close to his.

"How long are you going to keep holding me like that?"

"..."

Jiang Nianxi blinked very slowly, her neat eyelashes trembling like tiny brushes, each one clearly visible.

She tightened her grip, holding on even more.

After three or four minutes, Yang An was the first to lose his temper.

He felt as if his airways were being squeezed, making breathing difficult.

So he raised his hand and shoved Jiang Nianxi.

It's very light.

"You...you get up first. I'm not going to run away. If you keep holding me, I'm going to suffocate."

"..."

Jiang Nianxi was stunned for a moment, and only when she saw helplessness and compromise in Yang An's eyes did she silently let go.

I don't know why.

Hearing Yang An's words, I felt a strange sense of relief.

Finally, I got a chance to catch my breath...

Yang An took several deep breaths and finally came back to life.

"I'll go cook you some food..."

Jiang Nianxi sobbed and walked out of the bedroom.

This woman...

Watching Jiang Nianxi's departing figure, Yang An's eyes were filled with complex emotions. After a while, he looked out the window again.

A vast expanse of blue, dotted with layers of clouds.

The sunlight pierced through the clouds, but the sun itself hid deep within them, its true form remaining hidden.

Therefore, the entire city has a light blue hue.

The sky resembled a giant pool of dark blue water, completely immersing the towering buildings that rose from the ground.

Look up, look down, look at it flat.

Suddenly, you might have the illusion of being one with the universe.

Feeling refreshed and relaxed, my worries have lessened considerably.

Yang An remembered.

I can only recall part of it.

He remembered when he was eighteen, Jiang Nianxi used the gimmick of being his boyfriend for a day to lure him into her home.

They used violence to force the two people into having sex.

I remembered how I finally managed to escape to university, only to be coerced by a video that lasted for an hour.

Blood was trickling from the corner of Jiang Nianxi's mouth, but she couldn't hide her smile.

He sat slumped on the ground, his clothes neat and his eyes vacant.

I remembered the two of them going to the hotel.

Renting a house.

Jiang Nianxi nestled in his arms and said she wanted a child.

"..."

"I will never let you go."

On the day the college entrance exam ended, Jiang Nianxi followed him into the alley and whispered those words.

It actually became a reality.

It's like a curse etched into your soul, one you can never get rid of.

Even if you were to extract their souls, they would have already seeped into their flesh and blood, into their very marrow, through the daily interactions they shared.

Difficult to remove.

Whether you go crazy or forget it, it doesn't matter.

He can never get rid of Jiang Nianxi.

No matter how furious, desperate, or hysterical you are, call the police and have them punished.

Jiang Nianxi's shadow will stay with him for the rest of his life.

They'll be locked up in prison eventually, but they'll eventually be released.

She will go to see him again.

Whether it was the eccentric Jiang Nianxi from before.

She is still the Jiang Nianxi who genuinely wants to live a good life.

Yang An had always known that there was no difference.

She will definitely go to find him.

To the ends of the earth, we will never be apart.

Strangely... why is there a gap in my memory after the day I ran away from home?

That's why Yang An stayed here all night, huddled up with his head in his hands.

On the one hand, it's for a temporary escape.

On the other hand, it is also an effort to recall what happened after that day.

He vaguely remembered that he went to some unfamiliar city.

They were very happy there.

then……

Then there is no more.

Unlike before, the fog is now difficult to dispel.

Instead, it was completely blank.

I thought about it for hours, but I couldn't come up with even a single vague fragment.

It was like from that day until the day of the car accident.

It's as if the time in between was forcibly erased.

Only blank space remains.

An empty void.

I can't remember anything.

The only connection... is probably the nightmares I've been having for the past few days.

However, in the memories that were restored, there were no such nightmarish episodes at all.

He remembered that Jiang Nianxi had tied him up.

The memory of rape, the memory of threats.

I don't remember anything about the iron chain.

My head hurts, it feels bloated and uncomfortable.

Fortunately, after not sleeping all night, I feel much better today, and my mind is clearer.

He didn't expect Jiang Nianxi to hug him so suddenly and so tightly.

The warm and cozy feeling is really nice.

"..."

Yang An was somewhat dazed.

It seems that even the lost memories did not affect the jasmine scent on Jiang Nianxi.

Her body odor was like a kind of soothing balm.

Last night, we just held each other.

The terrifying images in my mind slowly faded away.

No matter how tough the methods used in the past.

It seems impossible to resist this strange body odor.

He did not believe this was a manifestation of physiological attraction.

after all……

It has nothing to do with love.

……

The atmosphere at the dinner table was somewhat awkward.

Jiang Nianxi lowered her head and ate in small bites.

A strand of hair accidentally fell into the bowl, so she picked it up and placed it next to the bowl.

"Hair loss?"

Yang An, who had finished eating early, looked at her beautiful hair without much change in expression.

"Hmm..." Jiang Nianxi groaned and continued eating.

Are you nervous?

"……No."

"..."

When you're lying, at least try to control your body.

The hand holding the chopsticks is shaking so badly that it's practically trembling when picking up food.

Yang An was speechless for a moment, not knowing what to say.

Jiang Nianxi, who used to be so domineering and inconsiderate of others' feelings, is now afraid?

Do you get nervous too?

Because of me?

What a joke...

Yang An preferred to believe that Jiang Nianxi was acting this way because of his unusual behavior last night.

After all, it was late at night when he suddenly yelled and then sat up.

Anyone would be a little nervous in that situation.

"...I'll go wash up later." He gestured with his chin toward the bedroom.

The pajamas and sheets that were soaked last night were still folded up there.

Jiang Nianxi paused, and her chopsticks fell to the ground.

It slammed onto the plate, making a clanging sound.

"What's wrong?"

Upon seeing this, Yang An frowned slightly.

"It's nothing... I'll go wash up now. You should go get some sleep; you didn't sleep last night."

The woman pursed her lips, trying to keep her voice steady.

She's always been like this.

Even if their emotions are accidentally revealed, they will try their best to hide them.

Just as she was about to put down her rice bowl, Yang An got up and stopped her.

"What's there to wash?"

He sighed, unsure of what to do with Jiang Nianxi's cowardice.

How should we deal with this?

"You splashed the water to save me, now eat."

He pointed to a table of unfinished food and spoke slowly.

"I'll go feed the baby first. You didn't sleep well last night either. Go to sleep after you finish eating."

"..."

The sudden concern caught Jiang Nianxi off guard.

I just picked up the chopsticks, but my hand was hanging in the air, neither up nor down.

Jiang Nianxi suddenly felt like crying.

She was almost certain that Yang An remembered what he had done last night.

She was prepared to be questioned during the day.

They called her a liar, a pervert, and unscrupulous.

But it's already noon now.

What I received was just a perfunctory expression of concern.

Her red lips parted slightly, but she couldn't hold back her emotions any longer, and her eyes quickly filled with tears.