Re:Zero - Starting from Zero (Natsuki Subaru)

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Watching the utterly despairing and suffocating images playing on the screen...

Petra trembled uncontrollably, and all Frederica could do was gently hold her in her arms and stroke her hair to comfort her.

"This is a scam, right? This doesn't make sense!"

"I...I...died? And died right in front of some lord, and in this way..."

Petra closed her eyes in anguish.

She didn't feel particularly wronged or pitiful...

After all, those were things that happened in the past, and everything has already been changed, otherwise I wouldn't be trembling here.

Petra dared not imagine how much pain Subaru Natsuki must be in after witnessing all of this.

Even with her eyes closed, Petra could still vividly recall the despair on Subaru's face when he saw her corpse...

I'm sorry, Subaru-sama.

I'm so sorry, so sorry, so sorry.

You've suffered so much, I've caused you so much pain...

To watch someone important die beside you, while you're still holding their hand, completely unaware and thinking they're alright...

This is too cruel...

Petra has been completely brought into Subaru Natsuki's perspective at that time.

Frandelica's expression turned very serious.

"Elsa, the Hunter, suddenly attacked the mansion, and there were even magical beasts..."

"Could all of this really be Lord Roswaal's conspiracy...?"

The answer was obvious, but Frederica was still reluctant to believe it.

Rather, it's more accurate to say that Frederica didn't know how to face Roswaal after accepting this reality.

Although Frederica was aware of her own position, she was merely Roswaal's maid.

but.

Seeing himself and those around him being used as pawns, manipulated at will, their lives potentially discarded by Roswaal at any moment...

Frandelica could not accept this reality.

Frandelica could not tolerate Roswaal like this.

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Tower of the Sages.

Everyone remained silent, but all looked at Elsa, who was sitting in the chair, with perfect understanding.

Ultimately, is the Elsa before them really different from the Elsa they knew before...?

Although Elsa has been quite well-behaved ever since she appeared in the Sage's Tower and hasn't caused any trouble...

but……

As the video played on the screen, everyone was reminded of the fear Elsa had once instilled in them...

Elsa didn't explain anything, she just chuckled twice.

Melie sat next to Elsa, her body tense.

Of course, Melly knew that Elsa's situation was probably much more dangerous than that of Elsa in this other world.

Faced with Elsa, the others could still rationally consider that this was not the same Elsa who had hurt them before, and they would not easily harm her...

They wouldn't easily pin all the blame on Elsa.

But I'm different...!

Back when Subaru Natsuki first arrived at the mansion, it was he who controlled the monsters and almost caused Subaru Natsuki, Ram, Rem and the others to lose their lives!

The same applies to what's playing on the screen now.

The monsters that appeared in the mansion were also controlled by him...

This is a sin I cannot escape...

Although Roswaal is the mastermind, it was actually himself who attacked Subaru and the others!

Before she knew it, Mary's forehead was covered in cold sweat.

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The sky curtain.

Subaru Natsuki is now covered in blood and wounds.

Beatrice slowly walked up to Subaru Natsuki and calmly used magic to heal his injuries.

Subaru Natsuki gritted his teeth.

"Are you kidding me?!"

With his last bit of strength, Natsuki Subaru tried to push Beatrice away, but he collapsed forward helplessly.

Natsuki Subaru collapsed onto the floor, panting heavily, and struggled to get up.

At this point, Subaru Natsuki's left arm was twisted beyond recognition.

Why did you save me?

"Because you're so miserable, I just can't bear to look at you," Beatrice said.

"Why me?!"

Natsuki Subaru couldn't understand why, out of so many people, Beatrice specifically wanted to save him—it had to be him!

"If you're so eager to save people, why don't you save others?!"

The faces of Frederica, Petra, Ram, and Rem flashed through Subaru Natsuki's mind.

Why did you have to save me? Why was I the one who survived?!

When everyone dies, they are truly dead. But if Subaru Natsuki dies, he can go back to before everything happened!

Compared to other people's lives, compared to everyone else's lives, isn't my own life the least important?

"You should be able to do it!" Natsuki Subaru's voice was hoarse.

Beatrice looked away, her eyes dimming.

Why did Betty do that?

"Betty had no reason to save anyone."

"If that's the case, you have no reason to save me!" Natsuki Subaru roared.

It would be better to die, better to die now, better to die sooner, better to die quickly...

Go back to death, back to before everything happened.

That way, everyone can survive!

Natsuki Subaru thought to himself, the pain almost tearing him apart.

"Who told you to save me?!"

Subaru Natsuki shouted hysterically at Beatrice.

Beatrice's pupils suddenly contracted; she never expected Subaru Natsuki to say such a thing.

Beatrice's pupils trembled slightly, and her lips trembled a few times but she couldn't utter a word.

"Do you know what you've done?!"

"It's possible that everything will be ruined because of you!"

"Everything is overwritten, making this damn world a reality!"

Subaru Natsuki roared at Beatrice.

In reality, it's just a way of venting inner fears.

Natsuki Subaru was really, really, really scared.

He has no control over the save points for returning from death.

He fears.

This time the play lasted longer than the last time, causing the save point to change.

If the save point is truly overwritten, truly frozen at the point after everything has happened, when nothing can be undone.

What should we do? What should we do? Everything is doomed!!!

Natsuki Subaru arrogantly wants to save everyone, relying on Return by Death.

If the save point has really changed, then even his only method of returning from death will be completely useless!

Natsuki Subaru hadn't been this scared in a very, very long time.

So many people have died that even death itself couldn't instill such fear in Subaru Natsuki.

Natsuki Subaru cannot accept the fear of possibly losing an important companion forever.

"You should have killed me!"

Natsuki Subaru closed his eyes weakly.

Why were Petra and Ram the ones who died at that time?

There were four people, so why was I the one who survived? Why wasn't I the one who died?

If it were myself.

I wish it were me.

Beatrice looked at Subaru Natsuki with a hint of sadness, then closed her eyes, her voice trembling.

"I don't understand, I don't understand anything."

"Fine, since you're not going to save me."

Natsuki Subaru quickly got up from the ground and kicked over Beatrice's usual table, smashing her tea set to pieces. Natsuki Subaru quickly picked up a sharp shard.

Without hesitation or fear, he pressed it against his own neck.