Re:Zero - Starting from Zero (Natsuki Subaru)

Ram stood in the shadows, leaning against the wall, feeling the power surging within him, and chuckled softly.

"From any perspective, Ram should thank you, Barus."

"From this day forward, whether out of gratitude or atonement, Ram will definitely..."

After reflecting on her actions, Ram realized just how wrong she had been all along, and how outrageous her misunderstandings and prejudices against Subaru Natsuki had been.

Ram could not forgive himself for wanting to abandon the amnesiac Balus in such a short time.

Even though she and Rem had killed Balus, Balus never thought of distancing himself from them or abandoning them.

Even if there's no one to talk to, no one to share the burden, and they're terrified and in agony, they'll still commit suicide to start a new cycle, just to save them.

Such is Barus.

It's no exaggeration to say that he is the benefactor of Ram and Rem.

It is no exaggeration to say that Barus paid far more than Roswaal did.

Sometimes, you can't judge a book by how much someone has given you.

More importantly, we need to see how much of his own was contributed.

Subaru Natsuki.

Without a doubt, he saved Ram and Rem's lives.

If Subaru Natsuki had left things unattended, Ram without Rem would have been practically dead.

What Natsuki Subaru offered was everything he had, even his life!

Ram's inner thoughts were unusually complex.

"Ram, you're completely wrong..."

Ram was just about to catch up with Subaru Natsuki.

After all, it would be too dangerous for Natsuki Subaru to go to the library alone to look for his Book of the Dead, since the enemies inside the tower are still hiding somewhere.

Just as Ram was about to walk forward, he spotted Emilia and Beatrice not far away.

The two of them followed Natsuki Subaru's retreating figure without making a sound.

Emilia and Beatrice were acting suspiciously, especially Emilia.

Emilia seemed to have never followed anyone before, and she was as nervous as a child who had done something wrong, but her counter-surveillance skills were surprisingly strong.

Emilia looked around, afraid that she would be discovered by Subaru Natsuki or anyone else.

Ram chuckled softly.

Then, Ram turned and walked towards the room where Rem was.

With Emilia and Beatrice by Natsuki Subaru's side, that's good enough.

There's no need for me, the sinner who hurt Barus, to shamelessly go back now.

If anything were to happen, I am confident that with Oni-horn by my side, I can provide immediate support.

……

Inside Rem's room.

When no one was looking, Rem secretly carried a small dagger with her.

Rem gripped the dagger, his hands trembling, the sharp blade aimed directly at his neck.

"Rem... why are you alive... From birth until now, Rem has always been a burden, always hurting, always dragging down the people who are most important to me..."

Tears streamed uncontrollably down Rem's face.

Rem longs to end her sinful life, but she can't.

Rem knew that the person, Rem's hero, would not give up on her even if he had lost his memory.

If I were to truly die, it would only cause Rem's heroes to suffer more and endure more deaths...

Rem is now feeling like she'd rather be dead.

The guilt, self-blame, and pain in her heart almost overwhelmed her.

"Rem!!"

Ram pushed open the door and shouted.

Rem's hand trembled, and the dagger in his hand fell to the ground.

"Big sister?"

"You idiot Rem!!!"

Ram quickly walked towards Rem, and just when Rem thought her sister would scold her, Ram simply hugged Rem gently.

"Didn't Barus already say that no one blames you? It's just that you've been torturing yourself all along?"

"No matter what, please think of the important people, Barus, and Ram. Ram can't lose Rem."

Ram comforted Rem for a long time before Rem gradually calmed down.

"I understand, thank you, dear sister."

Ram picked up the dagger that had fallen to the ground, and made sure to check again whether Rem was carrying any dangerous items, and whether there were any dangerous items in the room where Rem was.

After confirming that everything was basically alright, Ram left Rem's room.

A notification suddenly popped up on the screen in front of Rem.

Does the maid consider herself an irredeemable sinner?

If that's the case, then you should atone for your sins, right?

I happen to have a solution...

Not only can it protect you from harm, it can also greatly reduce your feelings of guilt.

[To experience everything that Natsuki Subaru went through!!!]

[Experience his troubles, his confusion, his pain, his joy, his sorrow, and his madness!]

I wonder if you would be willing...

Tianmu hadn't finished speaking.

"Rem agrees."

Rem was much more decisive than I had imagined.

It seems that if Rem's guilt isn't reduced, she'll really run into trouble.

There's no benefit to choosing this option, not even a reward!

"Stop talking nonsense... This is all because of Rem, it's Rem's fault!"

The maid is truly terrifying to me.

【So】

[New Feature: Immersive Experience (Beta)]

[Activate!!]

Current pain level: 50%

[Subaru Natsuki's own experience of suffering: 100%]

Rem frowned, about to speak, when she felt a wave of dizziness wash over her and collapsed onto the bed.

"Why... is Subaru......"

Ram, who had been staying near Rem's door and hadn't gone far, also saw the notification.

【Miss Maid, even if you don't want to atone for your sins, shouldn't you think about your sister?】

Are you really going to just stand by and watch Rem suffer all the pain alone?

"Tch, Ram has no intention of escaping his sins, nor will he stand by and watch Rem suffer 100% of the pain!"

After Ram agreed, he felt a little dizzy and slid down to the ground against the wall.

"Can I only take 50% of the blame for Rem? Oh well, that's fine too. Otherwise, Rem will probably still feel a lot of guilt..."

"It's very close to the restaurant, so it shouldn't be dangerous, right..."

"No one is allowed to hurt... Rem."

This was the only thing Ram was worried about.

Don't worry, Miss Maid, I won't allow anyone to disturb this sacred moment!

Ram and Rem closed their eyes.

When I opened my eyes again.

Ram and Rem's perspective shifts to Natsuki Subaru, at the time he came out of the convenience store.

The two of them fully experienced Subaru Natsuki's first-person perspective.

From the initial excitement of arriving in another world, to the disappointment of discovering that he was just an ordinary person, to the despair of being beaten up by thugs, and finally to the heart-fluttering feeling of being saved by Emilia.

Afterwards, he experienced the pain of dying in the stolen goods warehouse and the resentment in his heart.

After experiencing it from Subaru Natsuki's perspective.

Ram and Rem finally understood Subaru Natsuki in a true sense.

The agony of dying multiple times at the stolen goods warehouse, and the mental pressure he endured.

In the mansion arc, trusted friends and companions (Ram and Rem) were killed and tortured without warning.

Then, in order to save Ram and Rem, who had just brutally killed him in the previous round, he jumped off a cliff.

Ram and Rem experienced together all of Subaru Natsuki's feelings and physical pains from the moment he was transported to the mansion until the end of the arc.

It hurts so much, it hurts so much, it hurts so much, it hurts so much, it hurts so much, it hurts so much, it hurts so much.

So lonely, so lonely, so lonely, so lonely.

I want to escape so badly. I want to escape so badly. I want to escape so badly.

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?