Jobless Reincarnation: The King with a Mental Problem

A short time ago

[Trevor's Perspective]

Finally, I held Senis in my arms...

what......

Although Senis hasn't woken up yet, her safety is basically guaranteed, which finally puts me at ease.

I just used a divine-level detoxification technique on Senis, but I don't know how effective it was or if it worked.

But there's nothing we can do about it now...

Next, we'll take Senis to the room we prepared earlier, let her rest for a bit, and wait for her to wake up.

We will then make further plans based on Senis's actual situation.

Maybe Senis is alright.

How am I supposed to explain my white hair to her after she wakes up?

Um......

Let's just say that back in Sharia, a very sophisticated upperclassman took me to get my hair dyed...

This is popular in big cities now~

The senior's name...

Let's call her Izawa Ruti~

And white hair and blue eyes are actually quite handsome. Now there's also the limitless, ultra-high temperature Crimson Emperor Azure Star, ultra-high pressure Honkai Domain, and can even combine them to unleash a nuclear explosion. Maybe he can even cosplay the Prison Master a little bit~

After this matter was handled smoothly...

She must also be very worried about Rudy, Noren, and Paul...

And then you want to go find them, right?

Norren is currently with Lilia and the others, and I have no intention of letting them meet. It's best to keep it a secret as long as possible...

If Paul's affair, including cheating on his wife during her pregnancy, can't be kept secret, heaven knows how heartbroken Senis will be...

I, the King, also don't know how to comfort Senis...

For some reason, I suddenly remembered a female-oriented novel whose title I'd occasionally seen in my previous life: "I Fake Died After Cheating During My Pregnancy, What's with the Stealing My Ashes?"

I only regret that I'm not a female reader, so I didn't click in to read it carefully...

But it's not a big problem!

I'm capable of making things up!

It's probably just a matter of faking my own death, then seeing my husband regret it and be heartbroken, losing little pearls or something. Then I can secretly discuss it with the witch and make up a story together, to show Senis in advance.

Maybe it will be useful?

Perhaps this would make Senis feel less bad, but unfortunately, she's thinking about getting revenge on Paul first, venting her anger or something...

......

Let's just forget about it...

It felt a bit too bumpy...

And Senis doesn't seem like that kind of person either...

Let's keep it a secret for now if we can...

So I'll have to go to San Miguel first, and then talk to that stinky Paul...

Tsk!

What a disgusting guy...

After leaving Senis there, they just need to wait a while, and Rudy might be able to reunite with them.

Then I will go to the Kingdom of Xilong to see what the situation is like in Lilia's area and resolve the matter there.

Maybe Norren doesn't know anything at all?

After all, she's the most normal kid in our family of geniuses.

I wonder if all those little stories I wrote for Aisha have turned her into a kind and understanding little girl. Will she bully Norn...? Probably not, right? Aisha is actually quite understanding...

Aisha... I really want to hold Aisha and replenish my Guga energy...

correct!

I'm going to give Nina a good beating!

But...

Isn't that idea too idealistic?

It's like getting paid right away, having lots of money, dreaming of buying all sorts of things, only to find yourself with just enough left for living expenses after paying the mortgage, car loan, water bills, phone bills, and electricity bills...

More likely, after Senis awakens, her divine-level detoxification technique will fail, and she will remain in her divine child state...

This is a bit troublesome...

We need to spend time figuring out a way to cure Senis...

"well......"

This is such a headache...

This has made me so tired that I can only sigh...

I really don't want to think about those unpleasant things right now...

Or should we take a look at...the witch?

"Um?"

The witch's expression...

I see...

It must be because of low self-esteem, right?

Too......

She prepared so many things for this operation, yet I barely paid any attention to her...

Honestly, that sad yet pretending-to-be-okay expression...

It's really... annoying... why did you have to do that... it's like looking in a mirror...

But it probably doesn't look that similar, right?

My acting skills are much better; after all, when I lied to Senis, she didn't notice.

"What's wrong?"

What else happened...?

How about I turn into a mirror for you to see...?

Let's offer some comfort...

"I'm sorry... I know this isn't the labyrinth adventure you were hoping for... but... no, it's nothing."

[After a short period of time]

My answer was without the slightest hesitation, but the witch still cried...

The witch asked, "Why?"

She must be worried that I'll find her useless and just leave her aside, right?

How could I possibly do such a thing!?

"No way!"

"Huh?"

"Huh? What's wrong...?"

"You don't know anything...?"

Well... I spoke too quickly...

"What I mean is, I will absolutely not abandon you..."

"I see. But what I'm asking is, why won't you abandon me...?"

"What do you mean by 'why'... Would you really abandon me?"

"...Probably not."

"Hey, feed me... What do you mean by 'should'...?"

"Wouldn't I just be a hindrance if I stayed by your side? After all, you're so strong, your only weakness is the people around you..."

"You mean... you might choose to leave because you feel you are my weakness?"

"Um......"

......

this......

What is this?

"Even if you use this reason... please don't do this..."

Why?

"Because I don't want to be left alone..."

"...Even if the people around you are holding you back?"

"Um......"

"This is so irrational, it's not like you at all..."

"There's no way around it... Being abandoned... it's a fear etched into our DNA..."

"What do you mean?"

"Hmm... how do I explain this...?"

It's probably like it started from ancient times...

If a group of people go hunting and someone is injured and abandoned by their companions, the outcome will be either being eaten by wild animals or slowly bleeding to death...

Death can happen in an instant...

But being abandoned is a long, conscious, and agonizing experience of watching yourself perish...

So he was left all alone...

More terrifying than death...

"That's really scary... but... what does DNA mean?"

"Tsk..."

Did I let something slip?

"Besides... you're a special case, right? Because you're so strong... you can live well even when you're all alone."

"But I don't want it to be like this..."

Why?

"..."

yes......

Why?

I remember now...

How could I possibly forget...?

But...should I...explain it to her?

......

still......

Give it a try...

only......

Let's double-check...

"Witch... will you... abandon me?"

"As long as... you don't mind that I'm useless... I will never abandon you..."

"..."

To be honest, when I asked the question, I didn't dare look at the witch at all...

So embarrassing...

Although I couldn't see the witch's expression, I could tell from her voice... the witch was... very serious...

Fortunately, Brother Dragon's bracelet is still with me...

"Hmm...that's good...then I can rest assured...put this on, once you put it on, you can't take it off~"

"What... a proposal... isn't that a bit too early? And this isn't even a ring..."

Despite her complaints, the witch still put on the bracelet that could shield her from interference by gods and humans.

"This isn't for a proposal, but it's still very important. Besides, didn't I already give you a ring before?"

Where?

"Back in Buena village, didn't I give you a lot of diamonds?"

"We were talking about making it into a necklace," said Luo Qixi, pulling a necklace from around her neck. "Here, it is."

"Alright... I must have misremembered... We can talk about the ring when he's older..."

"Um......"

Next...

I need to explain this properly...

I took several deep breaths before finally mustering the courage to speak...

"If I were left behind by my comrades and all alone, I would be heartbroken."

But I, the king, would never attempt suicide; that's the thinking of the weak.

But I am still alive, and I can live well even if I am all alone.

Even in this situation, one person can be more efficient...

The quality of life will be higher if we lower our moral standards and such.

There are so many more fun things to find in this world, and whatever you want to do afterward will be much easier...

"Yes... if it were you... you could definitely do it..."

"Yeah... I can do it... but... so what if I do it? Am I just waiting to be praised for being amazing?"

"That's really impressive..."

"But if someone has risen from their lowest point, relying solely on themselves and not on anyone else, do other people's opinions really still matter to them? Maybe they'll feel a little happy when praised, but that's about it, right?"

"So...you mean...you handled everything by yourself...and therefore didn't need anyone else, right?"

"yes......"

"Hmm...I understand..."

"I knew you'd understand."

Why?

"Because your hometown is on the other side of the world, that's practically traveling from one end of the world to the other. How many people can be as amazing as you?"

"I'm nowhere near as good as you."

"Everyone pales in comparison to me!"

"Yes...that's true...compared to you...no one is good enough..."

"But actually... that's not how it is..."

"What do you mean?"

"Next... shall I vent my frustrations?"

"Um."

"Don't tell anyone!"

"Um!"

"That's good......"

Where should I begin?

never mind......

I'll just say whatever comes to mind...

......

......

"well......

……

If you're sick, go to the hospital yourself...

I was bored, so I went to the movie theater by myself...

I bought the furniture and carried it myself...

If you're in a bad mood, just deal with it yourself...

No one's help is needed...

I don't owe anyone any favors...

Then you'll find out...

One person is fine too...

One person can do it too...

One person can even live a better life...

Other people aren't that important...

Even when you're extremely sad and need to talk to someone or get comforted, you can handle it all by yourself.

After all, most people simply don't care; they either feel sorry for them, find it noisy, or think it's pretentious.

Even those you care about can't help much; telling them will only make them worry unnecessarily...

The only people willing to listen attentively to complaints and offer genuine advice are psychologists, and they have to be reliable ones...

But often, just having someone listen to your complaints can make you feel much better.

After all, one's own feelings... are subjective; you just need to change your perspective...

But unfortunately, the real world is materialistic.

Even if my mood improves, the current situation won't change. What can change the current situation is...

Only myself...

Once you realize this, you'll understand that what others think is actually not very useful.

The emotions that need to be derived from interpersonal relationships are merely a burden.

After all, it always takes a long time for a group of people to work together, so it's more efficient for one person to do their own thing.

Maintaining relationships with other people is really tiring and a waste of energy; it's simply not worth it...

The result is

I don't want to communicate...

Unwilling to communicate...

Unwilling to compromise...

Because she didn't want anyone to see her when she couldn't handle things, she shouldered everything by herself. Once she had solved everything and gotten through it all by herself, she no longer needed anyone else.

The world is materialistic.

If you take good care of yourself, your material life will improve, and your mood will also improve...

Moreover, being alone is actually incredibly free and peaceful, and you don't have to cater to others.

Then people will say that this is maturity, clarity, and awesomeness...

Everyone loves this kind of person...

Oh......

But this kind of person doesn't need anyone else's love, right?

Even if it enters the body many times, it will never enter the deeper parts of the heart...

After all, anything superfluous is a burden.

When someone makes an effort, you should first question what their expectations are.

Even when they try to befriend someone, one has to guess their ulterior motives.

True concern for someone is also a weakness.

If you depend on someone, you will be hurt by that person.

If you need someone, you will be controlled by that person.

When you fall in love with someone, you will be heartbroken for that person.

The returns are completely disproportionate to the risks; a rational person wouldn't make such a deal...

It feels really great to be cut off from the world.

That's really great!

only......

It's not that great...

Because pain and pleasure share the same emotional system in the brain.

If you turn off the valve to pain, happiness can't get in either.

Therefore, one needs increasingly exciting things, such as doing bad things and enjoying the suffering of others.

But unfortunately, I'm not that bad; I can't do anything too wicked.

Then one day, after being exhausted, I suddenly fell into a philosophical question about life: What is the purpose of all this life?

Is it all just for the continuation of life? That's so shameful! It's no different from animals.

Later, someone said that all a person wants in life is to be able to sleep peacefully every night.

That's so true!

but......

The happiest and most peaceful thing I imagine is being able to hold someone and drift off to sleep peacefully together.

All I can imagine is being in my mother's arms...

Perhaps it would be okay if we had children...

Unfortunately, I no longer have the body I had in my previous life...

At most, I can only sleep with a bitch, and I'll still have to worry about whether she'll steal my wallet the next day...

How could there be a child...?

In the end, I was just too bored, so I didn't bother to dodge the big luck.

As it turned out, fate truly gave me a second chance...

This is a rare opportunity. How bad can things get in this lifetime?

Let me indulge myself a little in this lifetime...

"In short, I realize that it's not that I don't want companionship, it's that I don't trust it."

It's not that I don't want to love, it's that I'm afraid to love.

That's cool, but it's just for self-defense.

Because I am afraid, afraid of being hurt again...

But I have no intention of lowering the standards or anything like that.

so......

Even if...

I still hope there's someone who can love me unconditionally, and someone I can trust unconditionally...

so......

Please don't leave me alone...

I'm getting more and more long-winded...

They've long been so immersed in their own world that they've forgotten all about the world around them...

Can she glean anything from my words?

have no idea......

but......

The witch hugged him...

Oh, I see. How about expressing it through actions?

Just like me~

"Phew~~~"

Deep within the labyrinth.

My mom's in my arms, and a witch by my side... if only Aisha were here too!

All three wishes can be fulfilled at once~~~

hehe~

Hehehehehehe~~~

Ok? !

Senis is awake!

"Mom...Mom? Are you alright?!"