Douluo Continent: Transmigrated as Qian Renxue's follower, forced to become a god

Chapter 445 Id, Ego, and...Superego

At this time, more than ninety years had passed on the Douluo Continent, but their appearances had not changed much; they still looked the same as when they were fighting the God War.

After making up their minds, they went to the realm of gods together and restored their cultivation and strength.

In the realm of gods, they met the deities of the Spirit Hall who were already waiting there.

During an exchange at the Divine Realm Committee, Shi Yueyi proposed that she and Qian Renxue travel to another dimension.

"There's such a thing? How interesting!" the Evil God King asked with great interest.

This development is completely different from the original story. He and the Kind God King did not relinquish their divine positions, but chose to remain in the realm of gods.

Shi Yueyi glanced lightly out the window of the Divine Realm Committee, then said softly, "Yes, in a sense, that spacetime is where Miss and I are our last and greatest enemy. Now, they are just one step away from returning."

Suddenly, as if remembering something, one of his memories was suddenly revived.

That was the first time he noticed Shi Yueyi, when she was preparing to kill the Dark Demon Evil God Tiger in the Star Dou Great Forest.

At that time, a very mysterious being came to their door, said a lot of mysterious things, and explained the task on Shi Yueyi's mind—to bring back the soul essence of someone.

"So that's how it is!" the Evil God King exclaimed in surprise. "Now I want to go and take a look too!"

Qian Renxue paused for a moment, then said, "No need. This trip is too dangerous. Xiao Shiyue and I will go together. In fact, the elders of my Spirit Hall originally didn't plan to take them with us."

"This...?" The Evil God King hesitated for a moment, then said, "Then we'll wait for you to return!"

"Relax, Miss." Shi Yueyi stood up and walked behind Qian Renxue. "You must trust me, and you must also... trust yourself!"

"Alas, there's nothing I can do to help you." The Evil God King sighed. "Since that's the case, then... the Arena of Life and Death is yours. I've modified it, and with your God King power, it will be even more powerful than before."

Shi Yueyi thought for a moment and agreed: "Thank you very much."

……

Some time later, they stood at the central position of the divine realm. Shi Yueyi took the key she had borrowed from the evil god king and activated the central position of the divine realm.

"Little October!" a voice rang out. "You really want to abandon us old folks like that?"

Shi Yueyi and Qian Renxue were taken aback, then looked over together and found that it was Qian Daoliu, who had become the God of Light Angel, Bibi Dong, the God of Death who had recovered, and other worshippers, elders and others who had become gods.

"Little October is worried about our safety, Big Brother!" Guang Ling, who had become the God of Light, said with a smile. "However, I agree with what Big Brother said, we should go together."

"After all, without Xiao Shiyue coming to our side, our Spirit Hall wouldn't be where it is today." Feng Shen Qingluan still had her usual serious face. "Now that Xiao Shiyue needs help, we naturally have to do our best to assist her."

"Yes, yes," the other elders echoed.

"Evil!" Shi Yueyi said with a hint of helplessness, "You entrusted the Arena of Life and Death to me in the first place so that I could lead an army there, right?"

"Hehe." The Evil God-King revealed himself, still with that same frivolous demeanor. "To be honest, I've actually been wanting to run away for a while now, and then go to the mortal realm with Goodness to experience all walks of life. But I think working with you might be more interesting, so you can't die over there!"

"We won't go and never return. After all, I promised the Deep Sea Demon Whale King that I would help him break the bond that prevents soul beasts from becoming gods," Shi Yueyi said. "During this time, I absorbed a lot of the malevolent energy on the Golden Dragon King, and Miss also purified a lot of it. When we return, we will be able to fulfill our promise to him."

The God of Destruction and the God of Life appeared simultaneously and handed one item to each of Qian Renxue and Shi Yueyi.

The God of Life gave Qian Renxue a green-gold fruit, saying, "This is a primordial fruit that I, as the Ancient Tree of Life, nurtured. It cannot be compared to anything in the nursery of the God Realm. It has only one effect: to form a connection between the two of you, similar to the connection between me and Xiao Zi: no matter how far apart we are, we can sense each other's presence through this connection."

Qian Renxue solemnly accepted the gift: "Thank you, Aunt Green."

There was a contract between her and Shi Yueyi, which was similar to a "summoning from afar". Previously, when Qian Renxue was in seclusion under Yangquan, she would use the power of the contract to summon Shi Yueyi to the Ice and Fire Yin-Yang Well to keep her company when she was bored.

However, the God-King of Life was unaware of the contract between them, but precisely because of this, he understood the preciousness of this gift.

The God of Destruction then presented Shi Yueyi with a pure seed: "This is my will as the God of Destruction. When I was born, I did not possess the power of thunder; it was only after the fall of the God of Thunder that I inherited this authority. Now you need it more than I do. Take it and destroy the final enemy!"

Shi Yueyi accepted the Seed of Thunder, held it in her palm, and said softly, "Actually, in my original timeline, I also had a significant connection with you. My teacher was your successor, and I received your guidance on my path to godhood. You subjected me to the Trial of Destruction to help me grow."

The God of Destruction paused slightly: "No wonder your star felt somewhat familiar to me. Well... remember to give my regards to the other [me]."

At this moment, the central hub of the divine realm was activated, and the members of the Spirit Hall entered the arena of life and death together. The Eternal God King Shi Yueyi and the Angel God King Qian Renxue completed their fusion technique.

A vast, chaotic power emerged, and the two god-kings, relying on their combined immense strength, began their ritual. At the same time, the image that had flashed through Yu Shiyue's mind at the beginning of this story reappeared.

That's a signal, or rather, a coordinate for transmission. This is a safeguard for time travel; otherwise, if you're not careful, you might get lost in the turbulent flow of time.

A flash of light, and the Infinite Angel vanished.

……

When the Infinite Angels reappeared, they were in a starry sky, and the surrounding temperature suddenly became somewhat cold.

The moment she arrived in this space-time, Qian Renxue suddenly felt a headache coming on, and countless memories flooded back.

"Where am I...?" Inside the Infinite Angels, Shi Yueyi frowned slightly. "Why hasn't anyone come to pick me up?"

Qian Renxue also looked around: "Why is it so cold? Even in the starry sky, the temperature here is abnormally low."

"Bang—"

Just then, a voice appeared.

The Infinite Angel was startled, then immediately looked in the direction of the sound. He saw an asteroid hurtling into a star system, like… a goal!

A figure with a scorpion's tail shouted, "We're in! We, the Ice Jade Scorpion clan, have won this competition!"

"Ugh—! I'm so angry!" On the other side, a humanoid woman shouted in embarrassment and anger, "If I hadn't burned my mouth while eating ice cream today, how could I have lost to you guys!"

Qian Renxue recognized them. These were... the Ice Jade Scorpion Clan from the far north of Douluo Continent, and also the Snow Maiden Clan.

"Hey! Ice Jade Emperor!" Shi Yueyi shouted over there, "What are you doing? Kicking stars like balls? So leisurely?"

The person with the scorpion tail looked over: "Huh? Is that the Pope? But why do I also hear the acting Pope's voice?"

In this timeline, the Pope is Qian Renxue, and Shi Yueyi is the acting Pope.

"Shuashua——"

Two other figures appeared and rushed directly to the side of the Infinite Angel.

One of the women, tall and dressed in a pristine white dress, grasped her arm with delight: "You're finally back!"

"Hyotei-nee, Yuki-tei-nee," the Infinite Angel softly called out their titles. "Long time no see."

"You two really got together?" Hyotei winked at them. "Congratulations, congratulations!"

"Where am I?" Qian Renxue ignored Bingdi's teasing.

"Oh, she's in seclusion. I'll take you to her." Hyotei flicked her tail. "Little October, where's your tail?"

Shi Yueyi's real name is Shen Yuanyi, and the Ice and Snow Emperors are her friends. A long time ago, Shi Yueyi drew a picture for Qian Renxue. The four-person team in the picture actually had five people, including her, the Ice and Snow Emperors, and Qian Renxue's two personalities.

Recently, when using the fusion technique, the little devil Qian Renxue disappeared. Shi Yueyi also understood why, because in this story, Qian Renxue is the "origin of angels," that is, the most essential angel.

When Shi Yueyi didn't appear, the little devil stayed with her. After Shi Yueyi appeared, the little devil left temporarily, leaving only the little angel.

After the little devil left, he found the Ice and Snow Emperors and briefly told them about Shi Yueyi's situation, then said that she could call her Little October.

They came to the depths of the starry sky, to a space where they found another Qian Renxue.

"You guys keep chatting, we still need to teach a few of our people how to walk upright!" said Ice Emperor, and then she and Snow Emperor left first.

"When the Snow Emperor goes crazy, one person goes crazy; when the Ice Emperor goes crazy, a whole bunch of them go crazy," Shi Yueyi whispered to Qian Renxue.

They had separated and were looking at the figure with its eyes tightly closed.

One of the figures opened its eyes: "Welcome back."

The other figure still had its eyes closed.

Qian Renxue gazed at the little devil: "Thank you for your hard work. You've been doing so much for me for so long."

"When did you become so sentimental?" Little devil Qian Renxue raised an eyebrow. "Haven't we always been working together? Who thanks themselves? We're all Qian Renxue."

Qian Renxue stared at her, then looked at the other little angel whose eyes were still tightly closed: "You know what I mean."

"I knew I couldn't hide it from you, but I didn't expect..." The little devil glanced at Shi Yueyi, "She guessed it too."

Shi Yueyi stuck out her tongue: "Am I that stupid? Before this mission started, I said you still owed me an answer. Now, I've already guessed it myself."

"Tell me about it?"

Not a single mistake, not a single poem, not a single post, not a single piece of content, not a single look!

Shi Yueyi lowered her head, as if she was thinking about something.

After a long while, she slowly spoke: "To make things clearer, please allow me to refer to some people by their real names."

"Ten thousand years ago, during the Battle of Jialing Pass, Qian Renxue used a divine sacrifice technique to self-destruct her divine position; at the same time, Bibi Dong used her own body as a price to block the fatal blow of the Asura Demon Sword."

Upon hearing her voice, Qian Renxue and the Little Devil both looked at her.

"The angel's divine position was shattered, but Qian Renxue had a secret hidden deep in her heart: there wasn't just one soul in her body, but two. Thus, the story took a turn: the little angel found the little devil and asked her to take over the body and kill Tang San."

"After a battle of gods, the little devil controlled Qian Renxue's body, trying to push Tang San's broken body into the dimensional barrier high in the Douluo plane, thus causing him to vanish into nothingness. But unfortunately, at the last moment, Tang San was rescued by Poseidon, who descended to the mortal realm again, and Poseidon threw Qian Renxue into the dimensional barrier."

"Because the God War occurred in the Douluo plane, coupled with the collapse of the Angel God's position, various reasons prematurely awakened the plane's consciousness, which was still in its nascent stage. It saved Qian Renxue... and then made a secret deal. It's just a pity..."

Shi Yueyi said slowly, "At that time, the little angel had already died; what was actually awakened was the little devil."

"The little devil hid the little angel, hiding her deep within Qian Renxue's consciousness, because she understands how much she was drained in that battle. In other words..." Shi Yueyi looked at Qian Renxue beside her, "You... have been hidden away."

"I've heard a fairy tale about a timid child who was afraid of losing her only friend," the little devil chuckled. "So she hid her friend. Even so, the child was still afraid that her only friend would be stolen."

"How can you protect the person you love most?" Shi Yueyi smiled and said, "So you thought and thought, and finally came up with a solution: just hide the person you love most in a place where even I can't find them, right? From then on, you will never have to worry about losing your little angel again."

"Yes..." The little devil covered his face, concealing his ecstatic expression, "So, after hiding her away, I 'imagined' another little angel, and then had her appear on ordinary days to control the Angelic Martial Soul... while the real her has always been hidden in the deepest part of my spiritual sea, being nurtured and restored..."

The little devil moved his hand away: "Even though the little angel suppressed me during the angelic trial, preventing me from appearing, she still didn't erase me in the end. So she's the person I love most, how could I possibly let her... go through that kind of pain again?"

"I remember that later on, the little angel and the little devil could appear at the same time," Shi Yueyi said. "That's why I never had any doubts before."

"Oh, that's easy to explain," the little devil said. "Because the little angel I imagined is also real, so after cultivating the Angelic Martial Soul, it's natural that I can do these things."

"The only problem is that she lacks humanity and will choose the most effective method," Shi Yueyi said softly. "That's why Qian Renxue killed none of them in her wars against Shrek Academy, the remnants of the Sea God, and even the reclusive Haotian Sect, simply because it was the most convenient and safest way to deal with the enemy. But after conquering Shrek City, she stopped and never raised her sword against any human again."

"I promised her I would help her kill Tang San, and kill everything that could threaten her." The little devil's blood-red eyes looked at Shi Yueyi and the original Qian Renxue. "I would protect her, just like every time before. But I failed. I couldn't sever all the karmic ties ten thousand years ago."

Her voice began to tremble.

"Back then, I believed in an ironclad rule: even if it meant deceiving myself—"

"Only I can protect you."

"Only I can save you."

"Only I can—"

"I'll let you live."

Her hand moved away, and memories were peeled away layer by layer, revealing smiles and the truth, cruel yet tender.

When Qian Renxue looks in the mirror, she always unconsciously touches the mirror surface, as if she wants to touch that delicate skin.

But it wasn't actually someone outside the mirror doing the work; it was the entity inside the mirror.

The little devil cared too much about the little angel, because in the past, in the depths of her empty consciousness, only the little angel was with her.

The bloodshot eyes reflected in the mirror constantly reminded him of all this.

"Xue'er, you've always been by my side."

—See? You've successfully fooled the whole world, even everyone after the resurrection.

But at the very last moment, Shi Yueyi saw through your little trick.

Come to think of it, Shi Yueyi is a clever girl, like a fox, and she also realized the cruelty of this world very early on.

Qian Renxue still has the Porcupine Douluo and the Serpent Spear Douluo to clean up her messes, and there are also thugs lurking in the shadows ready to strike at any time. What does Shi Yueyi have? She has nothing.

So, your clever little tricks might make the officials in the palace think you're fools, and you think you can fool them?

You simply captured her heart at a certain moment, which is why she willingly suppressed the cunning in her eyes and settled down to be your devoted follower, hoping to grow old with you.

So you've never heard your own heartbeat because you've never lived for yourself. This so-called living for yourself is just a facade to deceive yourself, because deep down you know your own inadequacies. If you hadn't forced yourself to 'believe' in certain things, you wouldn't be where you are today.

This was their last conversation, and it was because of this conversation that the little devil sent Shi Yueyi back, so that she could give the little angel a wonderful life.

"And what about her?" Shi Yueyi looked at the last little angel with her eyes closed. The other person looked calm, as if she had transcended, and it was impossible to even feel her presence.

"She knows all of this, but she doesn't say it because she is now a completely rational being. To put it in more colloquial terms, I, the 'little devil,' am very similar to the 'id,' representing desires, but also subject to certain restraints. This restraint is accomplished by the little angel I've imagined."

"And this completely rational 'little angel' is similar to the 'ego.' On the one hand, she restrains my impulses, while on the other hand, she satisfies my desires in a relatively reasonable way—the desire to crush all enemies into dust. On the other hand, she also constantly pursues a higher level."

"As for me," Qian Renxue, standing beside Shi Yueyi, said softly, "I am not entirely consistent with my superego."

"I am the most essential part of Qian Renxue, the emotions and virtues that have been stripped away. That's why I was able to restrain myself from going mad when judging the Sea God and the Asura God. Otherwise, those officials would probably have died for 'obstructing the law' when they rushed in."

"But why do you have to do that?" Shi Yueyi asked.

"Even without a shadow, the main body can survive." Qian Renxue opened her eyes one last time. "But without the main body, how will the shadow cope? Yuanyi, I'm sorry, I can't respond to you because I don't understand what 'love' is at all. I'm sorry."

Shi Yueyi's eyes darted around, and it was unclear what she was thinking.

The three Qian Renxues looked at Shi Yueyi at the same time: "So, Qian Renxue is right here."

"Yuanyi/Xiao Shiyue—" They both looked at Shi Yueyi, "Will you be disappointed?"

Shi Yueyi exclaimed in surprise, then said, "My goodness—I thought there would only be double the happiness, but it's triple!"

Her words immediately lightened the rather somber atmosphere.

She looked at Qian Renxue beside her: "What did you just say you're not entirely consistent with?"

"Superego." Qian Renxue didn't react for a moment and blurted it out.

"I'm here!" Shi Yueyi pounced on him like a hungry tiger.

The finale is tomorrow (I'm sure).