Douluo Continent: Martial Soul Saint Master, Twelve Talismans Chaotic the Continent

Chapter 162 Living Towards Death

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"Since you know about his problem, how can you say there's no way to fix it?" Xue Di asked, puzzled.

"It's precisely because I know what's wrong with him that I'm completely helpless," Bibi Dong said.

"His mind wasn't clear before, most likely a side effect of coming from that hellish place, Killing City. For many years afterward, he was in a state of semi-madness and semi-consciousness, but now, he seems to be completely clear-headed."

"He has always known that what he is pursuing is impossible, but he didn't care about that before. All he sought was the fun in the process of pursuing it. But now he has come to his senses and he has more things to consider."

"But at the same time, he couldn't stop."

"He is just like I used to be. Even if he knows he has a problem, he won't admit it openly and would rather go down a dark path."

"At least, it makes him look more respectable."

Nan Feng did not break down in pain because his ideals could not be realized. He always knew that his ideals were just a fantasy, and that the human world could never be truly perfect.

Some darkness is unavoidable, because without darkness there would be no light.

A truly perfect world, and at the same time, an utterly hopeless world.

He knew; he always knew.

He just didn't care before; he was a bit slow on the uptake.

Now that his missing brain has returned, he has to face the reality.

Nan Feng is an extremely stubborn person!

Even if he's wrong, he'll just keep going down that wrong path!

In other words, even if he knew that there was a dead end ahead, he was unwilling to stop!

He refused to compromise with this damn reality!

It was precisely because she knew these things that she had no choice.

"Unless he can find a new target, he's practically asking for death," Bibi Dong said.

Help humans? Help the spirit beasts? Or oppose the divine realm?

It's meaningless.

Whether humans are powerful, soul beasts are powerful, or the divine realm continues to grow stronger, it doesn't matter to him.

Since it's essentially a dog-eat-dog world anyway, why should he try to change it? Why should he help these vulnerable people? They'll just oppress the new weak like the previous rulers once they become powerful.

Repeated cycle.

If Nan Feng himself had a desire to dominate, perhaps he would continue to work hard to become the new ruler, but unfortunately, he has no interest.

Empty despair filled him. Nan Feng had nothing left to sustain him, so he gave up and lost even the will to fight.

"So, he needs a stance?" Xue Di said.

"Or rather, he needs a reason?"

"Yes, but he has completely abandoned his previous stance," Bibi Dong said.

"And he has no interest in taking sides now."

"I'm wondering what kind of stance would sustain him to continue his actions, but I can't find one."

"Can't he think of himself?" Xue Di asked in confusion.

Bibi Dong shook her head. "His desire for self is very weak. He can't even sustain the most basic will to survive, let alone take any action."

Nanfeng's biggest problem is that his desire for self is too weak. Otherwise, so what if his ideals are shattered? Wouldn't it be enough to just be the only one who matters?

But he has no interest in these things!

The reason why Nan Feng is so crazy is because he has abandoned a large part of himself, so he is fearless.

But because he abandoned too much of himself, when he came to his senses, the little self he had left could not even sustain the most basic survival instincts.

In his struggle to balance self and ideals, Nan Feng leaned too much towards the latter, so when his center of gravity collapsed, he couldn't even stand up straight.

"Then... is it alright for someone else?" Xue Di asked.

Bibi Dong was taken aback. "That's probably not very likely."

"Why?" Xue Di asked in confusion.

"He..." Bibi Dong paused.

"He knows too much, and he's too pragmatic."

"What do you mean?" Xue Di asked, puzzled.

Bibi Dong thought for a moment, "Do you know why he would think of doing these things?"

"Because you want to do it?" Xue Di said.

"No, it's because he believes, he's certain, that no one else in the world would do what he did," Bibi Dong said.

"The reason he needs it is both that he can't do without him and that there's no other way but for him."

"If there are other paths, other choices, he has no interest in doing them."

"Anyway, there will be someone else who will do it. It's the same result whether he does it or not, so he won't do it."

"You want him to live for others, but you have to make him certain that this is something he can't do without, and that no one else can take his place."

"Moreover, there is a big problem here: he opposes others treating the individual as the only one."

Xue Di was taken aback. "What do you mean?"

"In other words, if you feel that he is irreplaceable and that you cannot live without him, he will think you are unreasonable and will not want to talk to you," Bibi Dong said.

"This...isn't this a contradiction?" Xue Di was dumbfounded.

"It's a contradiction. What he needs is the same as what he hates," Bibi Dong said.

I'm currently reading the error-free version! This is the first time I've published this novel.

"What he needs is wrong, but these wrong things are exactly what he hates."

"Then, he can't accept these mistakes, that is, he can't accept what he needs."

"..."

"Is he out of his mind?" Xue Di was completely dumbfounded.

"Yes, that's right." Bibi Dong looked helpless.

"His emotions and his reason are completely opposed!"

"These two things can't be balanced; they have to lean towards one side, otherwise it will crash!"

When emotions override reason, Nan Feng becomes frantic. He doesn't care whether he succeeds or not; he just wants to do it.

When reason prevails over emotion, Nan Feng is in despair. Faced with a world he cannot change, he will choose to destroy it.

The former is a fanatical savior, the latter a desperate destroyer.

When these two things are in balance, he gets stuck.

In previous years, Nanfeng had been switching between these two states, so his behavior was inexplicable yet somehow connected.

She thought Nanfeng would continue like this, but now, he's inexplicably stuck!

After emerging from the Yin-Yang Well of Ice and Fire, Nan Feng's thoughts became increasingly stable.

This is not a good thing.

When his mind calms down, he loses his motivation.

"So, the only way to change him is... to mess with his mind?" Xue Di said.

"But that's impossible," Bibi Dong said.

"You should have seen how capable he is now; even you are no match for him."

"To change him, you need to have more power than him and act with the intention of killing him; otherwise, you won't be able to break his balance."

"Does he know it himself?" Xue Di asked.

"He knows that, which is why he insists on moving forward," Bibi Dong said.

"He wants to test them, to lure Tang Chen, to test the God of Asura, because this is the only way to help him right now."

"He's trying to save himself, but if something goes wrong with this method, he'll be doomed."

Nan Feng knew exactly what he was doing, which was the fundamental reason why she couldn't interfere with him!

He was committing suicide, but it was also his only way to survive.

Are we just living like zombies, or should we take a gamble?

So she couldn't stop him.

I have a cold and feel dizzy, so I'll only be posting once today...

(End of this chapter)