Reincarnation with AI (Unemployment-Free)

Chapter 55 A Heart-wrenching Question

Senis's due date is getting closer and closer.

Rudyus thus became a shut-in to ensure he was there for Senis whenever she needed him.

To those who didn't know the situation, Paul and Senis's relationship seemed like that of an ordinary couple.

Previously, they were a happy, model couple who were always affectionate with each other.

Rudius had begun to consider this issue before the family crisis even occurred.

That was the first question he asked.

Why can't I interfere in my parents' marital relationship?

The essence of a marriage should be a relationship of trust between two people. Even if I am their child, I am still an outsider. An outsider has no right or ability to interfere with their relationship of trust, right?

But they both love me, and I know for sure that they will listen to what I say. So what if my interference makes them reconcile?

Does this result truly mean their trust relationship has been repaired?

Or were they swayed by my interference?

This problem is actually quite simple.

Rudeus had the ability to reconcile Senis and Paul, but this reconciliation stemmed from a sense of responsibility towards Rudeus, not from trust in his partner.

The root cause of the infidelity has never been resolved, and it may erupt in an even worse way in the future.

Now, the second question.

Let's build upon the first question and make an upgrade.

Now, I have gained the ability to foresee the future. I know in advance that my father will have an affair with the maid. Should I try to stop him?

Rudius knew that Paul's love for Senis was real, but Paul's scumbag nature was also real.

Lilia suffered greatly for complicated reasons and eventually seduced Paul.

So, was Paul's affair with Lilia inevitable?

Will it not happen just because Rudius intervenes?

Rudius had tried to stop his parents from making noise at night, but failed.

He tried to sabotage Paul and Lilia's interactions, but Lilia never crossed the line.

He remained unmoved by Paul's temptations.

That affair was like a string in my brain suddenly snapping, and then, Lilia fell for it right away.

The birth of this child was as if Loki and Rudeus were destined to meet, controlled by the will of the world.

All these conditions are coupled together, and what we see is not "probability" but "fate".

Although he wasn't entirely sure, Rudeus knew that a will existed in this world.

The Great Transfer can be seen as a byproduct of this conflict.

Rudius was afraid of this.

This fear made Rudius hesitate, so he did not interfere further.

He didn't want to be the one to correct fate, and he dared not take on the responsibility of reversing cause and effect.

So he became a guardian, to nurture, to prepare, and to accompany Senis.

The same question, when asked again, becomes a different question.

Rudius wasn't asking if it was possible, but rather: Who am I?

Finally, the third question.

This is also the most agonizing question that has arisen as the situation has developed to this point.

Is the trust that Senis and Paul have rebuilt, the love that has been restored, still the same trust and love they had before?

Is it possible that the trust and love we once shared can never be found again?

Rudius knew that it was wrong to compare these two kinds of love and trust, to put them on a scale, which was merely a subjective opinion.

But people are subjective, so won't these two kinds of love be judged as superior or inferior?

Yes. That trust that once existed is truly dead.

That family crisis was like a huge scar carved into smooth skin.

New love heals the wound, but inevitably leaves a scar.

The love I once had was like smooth, flawless skin, warm to the touch.

That love needs no explanation, no proof.

Love now is like a healed scar; its texture, color, and feel are all different.

It itches when it's cold, and it aches slightly when it's cloudy.

Its existence serves as a constant reminder that you have been betrayed.

It is so ugly.

However, scars are also the most resilient tissue.

It is thicker, more durable, and can withstand the next impact better than the original skin.

It is something that has grown back in the flames, and every line of it records the tearing and the healing.

This ugliness caused Senis to abandon her innocence, carrying with her vigilance, memories, and a scar that could never be erased.

This ugliness forced Paul to constantly prove through his actions that he deserved this love.

Rudius was startled.

Is this what growth is?

Is this inevitable suffering?

Growth is not about the scar, but about understanding "what pain is".

People often reminisce about their first love and the time they spent on campus.

They believed that people weren't as cunning back then.

So, this is what they were talking about?

They are crying, mourning not a person, a period of time, or an atmosphere.

Or is it the self that was never hurt?

Am I so lucky to have never been scarred by fate?

Why did I have to go through all this?

But isn't this the curse of knowledge?

Are you really willing to go back to the past?

Should we return to that state of complete ignorance?

Going back in time doesn't mean you'll have all the memories of the present; you can't relive everything you've been through.

In this case.

Even if you miss your past self so much, are you really willing to endure the cruel hand of fate again just to go back to the past?

This is how everyone in this world came to be.

No one's path is smooth sailing.

The curse of knowledge, at this moment, has transformed into the fear of growing up.

Everything you learn is a kind of innocence you lose.