Love's Gone

His question left me speechless.

The experiences between me and him have long been so heavy that they can't be covered by an angry or not angry false proposition?

I want to laugh at his mental disability and mental retardation at this moment, but I also want to laugh at myself at this moment.

Before I met him, I was slapped in the face by life long ago. I had tasted the bitter wine forced by human nature. I should have known that most people in the world, the heart across the belly, never know what kind of beautiful interweaving it hides in the dark, and I can't see how many hidden ugliness it hides. I shouldn't have seen it completely, I was so free to deliver my life. I shouldn't have started with him. I fell into the trap of thinking he would be my life.

I want to laugh at myself more than I want to laugh at him.

I was not so polite to myself. I finally closed my mouth and engraved a smile into my eyes. It desperately squeezed my eye nerves, making it dry, cold and foggy.

I was forced to close my mouth. I didn't say a word and just took a bigger step.

But there was no sense of asking for nothing. Zhou Wei followed suit. He still whispered in my ear: "Liu duo'an, are you angry? I asked you to consider Luo Zhizhong that day? Do you think I don't respect you enough, the past between me and you? "

I really want to catch his last words and hate him back. What's the past between you and me.

But my reason taught me to let him go.

If I can still quarrel with him, it can only show that I am not so determined to save myself from the hell he gave me.

What I care more about than how I'm doing is that I hope he realizes that I, Liu Duoan, really want to draw all the boundaries with him.

However, it was obvious that this man had frustrated my hope.

Zhou Wei followed me more closely. His voice, which once made me drunk, still rang in my ears: "Liu duo'an, since I started this head tonight, I'll make it clear that there is still you in my heart, but I know I don't seem to have the qualification to tell you anything again, and I have no face to recover. During this time, I think time is very slow. It seems that one minute is broken into hundreds of seconds. Whenever I stop, I will be easily dragged back by memory. I will think about my relationship with you again and again. I desperately want to peel off those scenes I treat you and put them aside to see if they can pile up into a mountain, See if they can become the courage and confidence for me to ask you for peace, but I sadly find that in addition to seeing your cooking hot, I'll learn to cook. It's the only thing I'm really trying to do and take action. For the rest, I have only infinite mouth guns against you. I paid so little for you, and I hurt you so deeply. Now I often dare not close my eyes very late at night, because I often close my eyes and can't sleep quickly, I will easily think of your blood blurred into a piece that night. I still feel numb when I think of it. What bastard am I? I killed us... I almost killed you. "

I don't know if Zhou Wei came to the back. He thought of the word "child" in the room of lightning and flint, which may arouse my mood change, or it is also his lingering devil. However, I was sensitive and exaggerated by bad mood, and my reason was quickly invaded and poisoned by this virus. I completely forgot that I wanted to get rid of my relationship with him and ignore his original intention, I fiercely stopped my steps, stretched out my hand against his chest and gave him a heavy push: "roll, don't say what you have or don't have in my ear. No matter what you say, I feel unstoppable nausea!"

However, sometimes things can't develop as I expected. I think it's best for me to push like this. It's not important to just fly Zhou weitui up and fall into the sea to feed the fish, but the reality is that my strength is terrible. Instead of moving, he grabbed my hand and gave me a kickback, I hit his chest like a catkin in the wind.

His arms came up quickly, and Zhou Wei imprisoned me like a desperate force. He ignored all my struggles and stubbornly put his chin on my shoulder. The heat from his breath burned around my ears for a while. He continued to sink in his words and couldn't extricate himself: "Liu duo'an, I have no face to beg your forgiveness. When you woke up in the hospital that day, you didn't want to eat, drink or cooperate. I was very afraid. I was afraid that you would drag your own body down in order to fight me because you hated me. I didn't say much to you and didn't dare to walk around in front of you. Later, you went to the nursing center. I looked at you with my glasses across the street every day, but I didn't dare to see you. I didn't dare to face you. I dare not say anything more to you. It seems that all the old things mentioned again are a stimulus to you. I... i... forget it, I don't make excuses for what I've done wrong. I know I'm wrong. I'm too wrong. A while ago, I asked you to consider Luo Zhizhong. It sounds to you that those words are suspected of being forced under the guise of goodwill after committing evil, but I... I'm a little incoherent. But Liu Duoan, i... "

After many struggles, I finally escaped at this moment. After I kicked Zhou Wei's calf hard, I grabbed him with my hand and threw him away from his arms around me. I staggered out of his arms. The first time I took off my little coat that he rubbed and threw it on the ground, I ignored the chilly spring cold from the sea, I stared at him, "don't talk to me so much anymore. I was wrong, too. My fault is that I shouldn't have slept or slept at the beginning. I talked to anyone on the Internet. I should have moldy and rotted in those lives that made me unable to breathe. I don't want to talk to someone with a hot head for a while. What's more, I shouldn't have been so devoted to talking with you at last. I'm also wrong that I shouldn't have met you. If I could bear those loneliness, I could bear the impulse to see you again countless times, or I wouldn't live my life like this today. These words, I hope I will tell you for the last time. No matter how many mistakes you or I have made, don't mention them again and don't take them out to whip the corpse. I also ask you, Mr. Zhou, to know what advance and retreat is, what respect is, and what shame is. You'd better not do this again. You admit that you have no face, but you can't cooperate in your behavior. Please don't touch me with any part of your body, not a hair. If you touch me, I will easily think of the disgusting memories you gave me, and I will hate myself who once had my IQ pressed on the ground. "

Then he bent down and Zhou Wei picked up my coat: "Liu duo'an, don't do this. It's cold at the seaside. Put it on."

I said coldly to him, "I won't want anything you've touched. I'd rather die of cold than want what you've touched. "

Zhou Wei's face was gray: "Liu duo'an, i..."

I immediately interrupted him: "don't say anything. If you are ashamed of me, please respect me with silence. Between you and me, it's meaningless to discuss right and wrong again. Some things are meaningless if they are discussed after their due timeliness. "

His eyes dropped, Zhou Wei lifted them carefully, and his tone lightened a few degrees: "Liu duo'an, I didn't dare to tell you more before. You were in a fragile mood at that time. I was afraid I would say more and make more mistakes, and I'm not sure if I would repeat the mistakes later. I'm afraid I'm closer to you, I'll only make you worse... I... Liu Duoan, i... i... I don't know how to make up for you, i... "

Hehe, he wasn't quite able to say before. Now come and pretend to stutter!

I stepped back again and again: "don't me, you, I just want you to shut up and let me go. Let me go, I'll thank you here. You don't want to stir up my life, let me live my life quietly, is the greatest kindness to me! "

After putting down these words, I turned and raised my feet and left. The sharp heels of my shoes knocked on the wood board, and the dull noise poured into my ears, completely covering the sea breeze from afar. I indulged in my own world, walked out of the plank road and went all the way north facing the street lamp. I completely forgot that I was wearing high heels, and I also completely forgot that this new pair of shoes often hurt me, I keep walking. I think as long as I keep walking, I can completely get out of the past that imprisoned me.

However, God wants to join the fun at this time. I just came to the intersection connecting Shatoujiao. It was already clear and sunny, and it began to rain cats and dogs. I was forced to retreat under the eaves of the closed shopping mall. I've thrown away my little coat. I'm wearing a sleeveless skirt. With the wind of raindrops, the water splashes and soon wet my skirt. I can't help shivering. I cross my arms with my hands to keep warm. I lift my eyes and look at the unbreakable rain curtain. My heart is gray.

Suddenly, in the rain, there was a dark figure running towards me not far away. I didn't react yet. Zhou Wei appeared in front of me like a drowning dog.

He tilted his head back and scrawled the drops of water on his hair. He straightened his waist. He took out his hand curled up in his coat. He presented the small coat I had just thrown away to me: "Liu Duoan, how about putting it on? It's too cold."

He was wet all over, but the coat he held in his hand was dry and noisy. Such a strong contrast could not stimulate even a little ripple in my heart. I was shivering with cold. I didn't want to put this on again, and I didn't want to respond to him. I just moved my body and stepped back. I stuck it on the stone pillar beside me and pursed my mouth in silence.

Obviously, the meaning of my resistance to contact with him was obvious enough. If Zhou Weizhi ignored it, he followed him: "Liu duo'an, don't make fun of your body in order to fight me. It's raining and cold. Will you put it on?"

I was so annoyed that I was angry: "you've done enough * * right? Well, you stay here and play slowly. I'll go, I'll go!"

Zhou Wei quickly put the small coat into my hand. He swished into the rain curtain. He let the rain wash over his head, waded over his face and fell on him. He hurried: "Liu duo'an, you stay there. You don't want to be under the same roof with me, I'll stand here. I'll never go there."

At this moment, most of my clothes are still dry. I'm still shivering with cold. Not to mention that fool Zhou Wei is soaked through.

Even if I don't want to admit it, I can't control the surging waves in my heart. I can't bear that he is beaten by such a ruthless cold rain like a wandering dog. I really want to spit on myself, but I still failed.

After gritting my teeth, I finally forced myself to put on my coat. I looked at him again: "I lost to you, I put it on. You can go away and stop playing these bitter plays in front of me. This doesn't work for me. "

Zhou Wei didn't move: "there's no one here so late. I can't leave you here alone."

I realized that he was going to fight me to the end. No matter what I said or did, he would still go his own way and follow his own ideas.

But think about it, He Zhou Wei has always been a person with strong subjective consciousness. At the best time, he and I still don't want to step back for me, not to mention today when he and I are torn apart and can't return to tenderness.

Exhausted, I completely lost the impulse to continue sawing with him. I said coldly, "it's up to you. Anyway, you're not in my rain. "

The lips moved, and Zhou Wei opened his mouth, but he didn't say anything. He closed up again, and he finally calmed down.

The rain seemed to have no intention of stopping. Those rain lines in series constantly scattered all things within my sight, and constantly rolled up small things such as thin leaves, paper and cans on the ground. Those things surrounded Zhou Wei's feet several times. People who loved cleanliness to the extreme like him didn't raise their feet to kick them away, He was as quiet as a silent sculpture.

I turned around and turned my back to him. I said in a hard voice, "this eaves is not from my family. If you want to come in to take shelter from the rain, come in. Don't pretend to be so forced."

Behind him, there was no sound of water brought by his walking, only the sound of the long rain.

After a few minutes of stalemate, I pretended to be indifferent and glanced back. He still stood still.

I was suddenly angry: "are you deaf, dumb, or can't you walk with your broken leg? Labor and capital don't want to see you standing there like a fool. You either roll or come in to take shelter from the rain. Don't stand there. The more the rain accumulates, the deeper the rain. If there is electric leakage over there, don't fucking electrocute you. The police uncle has to take me back to take a statement and ask me how you died! I can't control whether you want to live or die, but can I ask you to die and don't make trouble for me at that time? "

There were some changes on Leng Yu's dark face. Zhou Wei's calm body was also loose, but the next second, he seemed like a clay figurine that couldn't be supported by blisters and fell to the ground without gravity!

Where he fell, the water splashed several meters high, and the huge water curtain rushed at me.