Love's Gone

If it is said that being unable to foresee the future makes it impossible for me to avoid the disasters ahead, this is a disadvantage, then being unable to foresee the future also allows me to enjoy peace in front of me.

Time often tramples on the night, climbs up and falls down, and starts again and again. In a twinkling of an eye, from the steep cold spring caused by moisture to the warm summer, it was full of flowers and often accompanied by summer rain.

This morning, the rain that had been raining for a whole week finally showed signs of stopping. I was about to grow moldy balls on this rainy day. I took a small flower umbrella out of the door. I skillfully threw away the steaming breakfast and fresh flowers hanging on the door bolt, clapped my hands and went out.

Dissatisfied with the fact that most of the sun was blocked by green trees in the community, I wandered from the community to the subway station and ate soybean milk and beef brisket noodles. Seeing that the sun became bright, I thought it would be a waste of life to go home and watch TV this weekend. I opened my umbrella to block the sun a little, and then walked slowly along the subway station towards the street in front.

It's still early. Usually, the bustling streets are sparsely populated, and the lonely wind blows from all directions. The fragrance of flowers and green grass in the air fills my heart. I can't help but slow down my steps. I stretch out my hand to catch the shallow dew on the nearby leaves. I also think that no matter how busy I am, the weather will be so good next week, I have to go out on foot to get fresh air.

I've even begun to toss around in my mind looking for places to move.

I was completely unaware that the danger had stretched out terrible fangs towards me and was about to devour me completely.

I still indulged in the beautiful imagination and couldn't extricate myself. At this time, an impatient exclamation came from behind me: "Liu duo'an, get away!"

An exciting spirit, I clearly want to follow the voice's command and run far away, but I seem to be stabbed by a ghost. My feet lag for three or two seconds before I lift them up

It's too late.

The billboard next to it, which is always shining with colorful lights all night when night falls, has been brilliant for so many days and nights. Today, the oil is exhausted and the light is dry. It is crazy and falls hard in the direction where I stand.

I can't run six or seven meters in half a second. I can only watch those iron shelves covered with hard cold iron sheet approach me like a flood.

I think I'm going to die today.

My brain was blank, and my sight seemed to be cut off by fear. My eyes were blurred. My mouth was dry and I couldn't make any sound at all. In this way, I welcomed the arrival of death in a particularly messy state.

At this critical moment, a dark shadow suddenly rushed towards me like a gust of wind. Two strong arms threw my head in completely. My eyes were black, and then I fell to the ground by the huge impact.

I just fell on the ridge of grass next to the sidewalk and was relieved of most of the impact by the soft grass. I only felt the trembling of my liver and gall at the moment when I was thrown on the ground. The pain was still painful, but the pain came and went quickly. I fainted for a few seconds. I finally felt that I had just clung to my arms, It's like a deflated balloon.

It was like being stung by something. My body stiffened, and my soul wandered and returned. I didn't care to get up. I crawled close to the grass and turned around. Zhou Wei's face jumped into my eyes in a manner that made me unprepared.

His once well-defined and vivid face is now as white as gray and white as paper. His eyes haven't been closed yet, but there is a state of shallow mydriasis inside.

Even at that moment, when I was about to die, I was really deeply afraid, but those fears did not override all, nor did they erase all my thinking and calmness, but at this moment, it finally completely defeated me.

I can no longer use the placards that have been rooted in my bones for years. I knelt on the ground like crazy and stretched out my hand to break the billboard on Zhou Wei. Before I broke my tears, I kept falling down: "Zhou Wei, hold on, hold on, I'll move these messy things now, I'll move them away in a minute. You haven't been hit in the head. You can't pretend to be dead. Don't close your eyes. Open your eyes right away. Don't pretend to be seriously hurt. You can't be so childish anymore. "

At this time, while my nose smelled the smell of blood, my hands also thoroughly touched those dripping from warm to cold blood. They opened their teeth and claws on my palms. It was shocking. My eyes were hot with this red thorn. I finally saw a thin steel pipe inserted into Zhou Wei's back, The blood on his body still came out from the edge of the small gap.

Such a picture is too tragic. It's easier to arouse my madness than letting me die. I threw one hand heavily around. I looked at my fingers and was soon covered with blood. I raised my head fiercely and looked around. I saw the crowd slowly surrounded and whispering, My eyes were lax and I shouted at them: "who can help me call an ambulance? Who can help me save him? If he dies, I can't live. Who can help me save him."

I don't know whether it was because I cried too badly, or whether the crowd around today had enthusiastic people willing to take the lead. Finally, several men hesitated to look at each other and came forward. Although they failed to completely lift the heavy iron frame, they infected more and more people to participate, and Zhou Wei was finally carried out with all hands and feet.

At the same time, the ambulance roared to Zhou Wei. A group of medical staff finished the simplest care for Zhou Wei and carried him to the ambulance on a stretcher. I climbed onto the car like a walking corpse. Before I could sit still, I pulled the doctor's coat with my bloodstained hand: "doctor, you want to save him. I'll pay how much. You really want to save him. He's less than 30 years old, He's not halfway through his life. You must save him. "

He shook his work clothes with his hand. After the doctor hinted that I let go, he might be used to seeing such a scene. He said in a business tone: "calm down, miss. We will try our best to save the life and health of any patient."

After stopping, he asked, "what is the relationship between miss and the patient, is it a family member? Or friends? "

My heart is planted with ten thousand hectares of Coptis chinensis, and the bitterness pierces my throat. I say in my throat, "I'm his ex-wife."

With the same look on his face, the doctor said lightly, "Oh, can you find a way to contact the patient's family. The patient's back was punctured by a steel bar and there were signs of massive bleeding. Everything was unknown. Anything could happen in the rescue process. There were many places where family members needed to make a decision. If family members were not there, it might affect the rescue process. "

My whole body was still shaking badly. I pursed my lips and tried my best to calm myself down. I kept stirring a blank brain for a while. I dialed Deng Junying.

These days, I often make an appointment with Deng Junying for dinner and shopping. As soon as she received my call, she smiled: "why, Liu Duoan, did you call early in the morning to invite me to dinner or did you want me to invite you to dinner?"

I wanted to keep my voice steady, but my mouth trembled: "Deng Junying, Zhou Wei... He... He is now sent to Peking University Hospital for rescue. I don't have the contact information of his family. Can you contact him?"

The head was silent for a few seconds, and Deng Junying's breath hurried up: "don't worry, hold on, you go with him first, and I'll take the rest."

The phone hung up over there.

The car is still running fast. In this process, Zhou only had a few bad times. The medical staff isolated me. I was anxious and helpless. The short journey was as long as centuries.

Zhou Wei was finally pushed into the emergency room.

I don't know what strength I used to support me. I ran up and down several times and walked through some essential processes.

Fortunately, I was busy. When I calmed down, I sat alone in the corridor in front of the few emergency rooms, and the overwhelming sense of fear came again. I was too afraid that Zhou Wei would die. I clenched my fist and recited all the gods I could name in my heart.

How sad.

Now I'm really the most typical negative teaching material of holding Buddha's feet temporarily without burning incense. I despise myself too much. However, I don't really despise myself who is successful and violates atheistic dogma. I hate myself more. How can I not pay more piety in ordinary times, so that those omnipotent gods can have mercy on me more easily, Create me a miracle that Zhou Wei strides across unharmed.

At this moment, I finally face the real myself in my heart. It turns out that even if I still hold resentment against him that can't be dissipated for the time being, even if I can't hold hands with him, hug and kiss each other and keep company with the world of mortals, I still want to see him face to face across the bank, stable, peaceful and healthy life.

I suddenly became more resentful of him.

I resent that he once happened to enter my world. I resent that his smile was too bright on the night he first met. I resent that he gave me the most missing hug and warmth in my countless lonely days behind him. I resent that he tried so hard to make a reunion with me. I also resent that he came towards me in the crowded subway that day, He leaned in my ear and told me that he loved me.

He created a dilemma and a cage for me who lacked love. He enclosed me in it, but he could not send the Buddha to the west to do it to the end. He failed to give me a shelter from the wind and rain as he promised. The painful memories he brought me are completely above the beauty of the little way. He wants to wake up when I want to get out completely, Taking his fresh life as the most tragic feedback, he rushed at me so neatly. He put his hand around my head and pushed me out. In such a tragic way, he pushed me into another cage.

If he dies, I will never be reborn. If he is lucky enough to live, if he asks me to stay, if I still walk away as resolutely as before, I'm afraid I'll be hit by heaven and lightning.

Although I'm afraid of the cage he gave me, I still hope he can live. Long life, happy life.

My thoughts floated higher and higher. Just as they were about to cross the windowsill and run outside to play, a series of disordered footsteps sounded in the silent corridor. I was still in a semi dull state. I was delayed for more than ten seconds before turning my face to find the source of the sound.

In an instant, Mao Jieqiong had killed me.

She raised her hand towards me. Mao Jieqiong's palm was about to slap me down. She shouted angrily, "you broom star, I told you to stay away from my son. Why don't you listen! I asked you how much you wanted to hurt him, and you were willing to stop! "

The farther back, the more harsh Mao Jieqiong's voice was. She seemed to be afraid of hitting me hard enough. She raised her hand higher and swung it down.

No matter how much I usually don't care about Mao Jieqiong, but now her scolding sounds too much to me to ease my inner panic. I even expect her to throw more ears at me, so that I can take a breath from the suffering I can't take away.

However, my hope failed.

Deng Junying came up soon. She hugged Mao Jieqiong's arm: "aunt, don't be impulsive. We haven't figured out the matter yet. Don't rush to a conclusion first. If Xiao Wei was uncomfortable, Liu duo'an saw him for the first time and sent him to the hospital. You beat Liu duo'an. Isn't that revenge for kindness? Don't worry, ask first. "

While talking, Mao Jieqiong's lips trembled badly. She glared at me: "don't ask, I can guess that Xiaowei was hurt by this broom star woman. Poor me, Xiao Wei, I haven't had more colds since I was a child in Dalian. Since he put up such a woman, he hasn't had a good life. One thing is this and one thing is that. He broke his finger only a few months ago. It was not easy to connect it. He recovered almost. He was hurt by this woman and lay in the hospital. Everything was hurt by this woman! "

It can be seen that Deng Junying is also very worried about Zhou Wei's comfort, but she still protects me. She took Mao Jieqiong's hand off completely. She said: "aunt, Xiao Wei is still in the rescue. We have to have a conflict outside and disturb the doctor, which will affect the doctor's play. Calm down, you. Sit down and I'll ask what's going on. "

Push Mao Jieqiong half to the rest chair. Deng Junying or considering Mao Jieqiong's presence, she adjusted her tone to me: "Liu duo'an, please explain to me what's going on."

After looking at Mao Jieqiong, who was staring at me, I looked at Zhou Jinyang, Zhou Tianquan and Xie Wei, who were slowly coming up behind me, as well as Dai Lianghui, a subordinate of Zhou Jinyang who had knocked on my door before. My eyes turned back to Deng Junying: "it's me. It's my sweeping star that has harmed Zhou Wei like this. To save me, he was hit by a fallen billboard and his body was pierced by a steel bar. Deng Junying, I'm afraid. I'm afraid he won't survive. Why should he be so stupid? How can he be so stupid... "

Before I finished, a heavy slap stuck to me and fell on my face.

The crisp voice rippled away, and the hot pain on my face.

The person who slapped me was not Mao Jieqiong who just shouted at me to kill, but Xie Wei who always looked at me with a small white face!