Magic card gods

I stayed up late yesterday, and today I feel very depressed. It feels so meaningless to live in such a muddle every day.

Mainly unhappy and anxious.

I don't know what I'm doing all day, but I feel guilty and anxious for not doing anything this day.

I don't want to close my eyes at night, I always feel that tomorrow will be tomorrow, and this day will be wasted again.

I feel so conflicted.

I've been in this state before, probably in high school. At that time, in the dead of night, I liked to sit on the windowsill and watch the dark and silent night scene downstairs. Think about nothing, but you can have a moment of peace...

To be honest, I have been fantasizing about living in the wild recently. Bring simple tools and resources, and go to work every day to survive.

It would be even better if it could be broadcast live and communicate with the outside world. Release from this anxious emotion.

Obviously I have given up buying a house, getting married, and having children, so why do I still feel anxious?

What am I looking forward to? Could it be that there is some mission waiting for me? (wry smile)

Confused, wasted life...