Once Loved You Quietly

Love is so interesting, it can make two strangers become intimate, and it can also make two intimate people become familiar strangers without words.

I can't help but sigh for a moment, and look back at Hao Tianyi again. That once sunny and energetic man has now faded his aura, and his whole body exudes this worldly and copper smell.

even though he is still coated with it, I am most familiar with the smell of Cologne, but it gives me a flinch.

I went to the door of the meeting room and found that the light was still on, probably in a meeting.

I went back to my desk, cleaned up, and was ready to leave

Today, I made an appointment with Lao Liu to have a drink with her and go to the movies, but to pass the time, Friday night is a weekend for most office workers.

But for Gu Liancheng, he is still working overtime for a meeting, "how can I go back later?" Old Liu asked, "shall I send you back or let your husband come to pick you up?"

"I'm going back with you. Haven't we talked all night for a long time?" I plan to go to Lao Liu's home and talk to him. I may feel better.

"Good, I this sentiment consults teacher Liu, should also go up the line." It turns out that Lao Liu has already found that my mood today is a bit wrong.

We both sat on the Mercedes-Benz subway, looking at the crowd coming and going, watching the full carriage become empty little by little.

This kind of feeling, let me instantly associate with the feelings, the beginning is always so magnificent, to the end, always so miserable.

It was Hao Tianyi at the beginning. I don't know if it will happen to Gu Liancheng later.

I've been thinking wildly recently. Maybe it's because Li Jingru has been in our company all the time. Maybe I don't believe in myself and I'm not sure about the relationship between Gu Liancheng and me.

Close your eyes, temporarily let your brain stop such inexplicable ideas, and then feel the slight turbulence of the subway, through the underground tunnel again and again, let me have the illusion of crossing the time track.

"I'll go What's going on here? " Lao Liu's surprise interrupted my thoughts.

I slowly opened my eyes and looked at Lao Liu, "what's the matter? What gossip have you found? "

"What's your husband up to tonight?" She suddenly came up with this sentence, but I was at a loss.

I seldom ask Gu Liancheng where and with whom to socialize, because many of them feel that they are a suspicious Obasan.

"Su Xin, don't you know where Gu Liancheng has gone?" Old Liu asked again.

I can only shake my head, "I only know he's busy!"

"Who is he with, you should know, or do you want to pretend to be confused?" With that, Lao Liu put his mobile phone in my hand. I looked at the mobile page with suspicion, and suddenly found a picture of Gu Liancheng and Li Jingru on one's circle of friends. Although there were people nearby, they were sitting close to each other, and they were happy to say something.

"This is a circle of friends of one of my clients. They may have business relations with your husband or Li Jingru. They are having a dinner party tonight, but is it inappropriate for Li Jingru to sit with your husband like this?"

I was uncomfortable, but the first sentence asked: "is Hao Tianyi not in it?"

"You What's on your mind? Su Xin, it's your husband and Li Jingru together now. " Old Liu was indignant. She probably cared too much about me. "What's the matter between you? Su Xin, I know you are very satisfied with all aspects of Gu Liancheng, but on this matter of principle, I hope you don't indulge so much. If you have something to say, you should make it clear, otherwise it will be unfair to you. Look at the comments below this circle of friends... " Mr. Liu Qingdiao said, I read the following comments. Three of the five comments said that Mr. Gu and Mr. Li really match each other.

I can't help sneering, jealous and helpless, "I know, Lao Liu, go back tomorrow, I'll ask Gu Liancheng, what's going on?"

"No Just tonight... " Said, Lao Liu directly pulled me out of the subway.

But I was unable to toss, "listen to me, Lao Liu I'll call Gu Liancheng later! "

"Let's play now. It's already ten o'clock. The first half of the party is almost over!"

"Good!" In fact, I don't want to talk to Gu Liancheng at this time. I always feel that there must be Li Jingru around him.

The first time the phone didn't answer, I continued to call the second time, when I was about to give up, Gu Liancheng finally answered the phone, "Xin'er, I'll go home soon, where are you?"

"I I was outside. I had dinner with Lao Liu today... " I'm talking a little uneasy.

This is clearly Gu Liancheng with his predecessor. I don't know why I feel uneasy.

When I hung up, I went out of the subway and waited for Gu Liancheng to pick me up, while Lao Liu was following me. He was always in a state of no words.The cold wind in late autumn, blowing on the body, also has bursts of cool, I will all button up the windbreaker, and then carrying big old Liu.

"Xiner, I think you have changed now." Old Liu light said this sentence, but I turned to look at her, but from her eyes, see the inexplicable emotion.

"Changed?" I also acquiesced to nod, "but my feelings with you have not changed!"

"Of course, we will not change, but your attitude towards love has really changed. You are no longer Su Xin who dares to love and hate, but a woman who flinches in love. Promise me not to change like this. Even if Gu Liancheng is excellent, you are equal in love and marriage!"

Lao Liu seldom said such emotional words, and I just listened carefully and digested them silently. Her words reminded me of a classic sentence in Jane Eyre, "if God gives me wealth and beauty, I will make it difficult for you to leave me, just as it is difficult for me to leave you now. But God didn't. But our spirit is equal. As you and I walk through the grave and stand before God equally. "

Yes, as Lao Liu said, Gu Liancheng and I are equal in love and marriage.

The subtle sense of inferiority and insignificance affected me a little bit, but I didn't find it, but now I may have to tell Gu Liancheng that I really feel it.

Old Liu bought hot coffee. We stood at the elevator entrance of the subway and felt a little warm. In fact, all the warmth I have until now comes from my best friend, Lao Liu. I like her sincerity and directness.

Gu Liancheng came late and kept apologizing to me and Lao Liu. He sent Lao Liu home first. During the 15 minute journey, none of us spoke.

's dull atmosphere, accompanied by the indistinct perfume smell of Gu Lian City, made me think of the photo he had with Li Jingru, which was a bit satirical.

After seeing off Lao Liu, Gu Liancheng and I were left in the car, "Xin'er, I'm sorry, it's a little late today!"

"Not so bad today!" With that, we were both silent.

Maybe Gu Liancheng also thinks that I'm strange today, and I don't say much. I look at his side face, and the outline of the golden ratio is always charming, but now it's so far away from me.

"Liancheng, is Li Jingru here tonight?"

"Ah?" The steering wheel in his hand suddenly moved, "well She was there tonight and met a few clients

He didn't hide from me, and I didn't know to ask again, but there was a sense of powerlessness in his heart.

"Xin'er, don't think too much. Li Jingru and I are just working. Don't think too much!"

"Do you think I'll think too much?" My rhetorical question suddenly made Gu Liancheng speechless. He accelerated the car and rushed to the red light with three seconds left.

Until we got home, we didn't say a word. At this moment, I felt Gu Liancheng's emotion. Maybe I didn't understand it, maybe I didn't understand it.

"Liancheng, I think we need to talk about it." I offered.

But Gu Liancheng said euphemistically: "Xin'er, I think we should be quiet!"

Gu Liancheng, who has always been warm, was so thorough when he refused. He went directly into the bathroom, while I sat on the sofa for a long time.

Maybe I care too much about Gu Liancheng to have such a situation, and he But did not sublimate the relationship between us to the intimate lover, sublimated to the husband and wife in the marriage.

This night, we sleep back to back together, the gap between the two seems to have, but just be stimulated to hide.

I can't sleep. Fortunately, I don't have to go to work tomorrow. Otherwise, I must be a panda eye. Looking at my mobile phone, it's already 3:30 in the morning. In such a quiet night, I can't feel sleepy, but I feel a strong sense of loneliness.

"Sleep well!" Gu Liancheng's voice was as low and magnetic as a cello in the mountains. Suddenly, it got into my eardrum and made my muscles tense.

It turned out that he didn't fall asleep either. I deliberately closed my eyes and tried not to move

He slowly turned around and hugged me tightly. I could feel the familiar temperature and moving breath, "Xin'er, rest early, don't boil Tomorrow we'll have a good talk. I've been really busy for half a month. "

I didn't answer, just nodded in her arms, with such a warm embrace, I soon fell asleep, but in the dream, Gu Liancheng's figure was farther and farther away from me.

The next day, when I woke up, it was already 11:30 at noon, but I turned around and found Gu Liancheng was gone, so I sat up slowly.