A Young Woman's Heart

This is a red bean paste bread, decorated with red beans on the surface. The crust is slightly crispy, and when you break it open, you'll see that it's filled with red bean paste.

"Here, your favorite food."

Li Wanyan raised her small face: "Don't... waste money."

"An occasional luxury, isn't it?"

She finally couldn't resist the temptation and took the bread, but only tore off half for herself and handed the other half back: "Let's eat together."

"No need, Mom isn't hungry. She just ate a meat floss one."

"Hmm... Mom still loves pork floss bread so much."

"I used to eat this all the time when I was young, and I didn't think it was that expensive back then. But now it's been a long time since I've had it. It's a way of reminiscing about the old days... Time flies, it feels like a lifetime ago."

Li Wanyan didn't reply because she was looking down, savoring the delicate yet slightly rough taste of the red bean paste.

The sunset at dusk is a rare and delicious ingredient.

—If only that sunset, as bright as an egg yolk, could be taken a bite.

She closed her eyes tightly, and the sounds around her gradually became noisy and then quiet again.

The sun, moon, and stars were revolving around her, as if the place where she was located had become the center of the universe.

A breeze, seemingly coming from nowhere, made her feel slightly chilly, so she couldn't help but hug her arms tightly and rest her chin on her knees.

"Plop, plop." Something cold landed on her, and she couldn't help but open her eyes again, only to see a pitch-black night sky.

Torrential rain.

The inky raindrops stained the whole world black.

Above was a towering tree, but its once lush branches and leaves had all fallen, carpeting the ground beside it like a crunchy carpet of fallen leaves.

The rain fell uncontrollably on her shoulders, her head, her cheeks...

She clenched her fist and realized she was clutching a tattered umbrella.

I instinctively opened the umbrella, the ribs were already sticking out, and the canopy was being blown by the wind, lifting a corner again and again.

A woman was sitting on the ground covered with fallen leaves, sobbing silently.

Rainwater mixed with tears streamed down her face.

That was his mother.

"I'm sorry, Yan Yan, Mommy is so sorry, Mommy is so useless..." She lowered her head, as if talking to herself, "If we can't go on living, Mommy will take you with me to jump off a building, okay? Okay... If I die, you will suffer even more living alone. Let's go together, at least Mommy will be with you down there..."

"I'm sorry for making you live in a world of suffering..."

Li Wanyan didn't answer, but simply held the umbrella over her and then slowly squatted down.

A vulnerable expression appeared on the mother's face. She suddenly reached out and hugged Li Wanyan tightly.

"I'm sorry... but sometimes... I really... don't want to live anymore..."

Li Wanyan didn't say anything, but patted her mother's back again and again to make it harder for her to hiccup when she sobbed.

Swallowing their own tears and rain, the pain of life can only be kept in their hearts.

There were no words of comfort, only physical and emotional support.

At least there is still time, there is still a future, which means there is still hope.

Keep moving forward before the flame of hope is extinguished; keep moving forward before the darkness of despair completely envelops you; keep moving forward, for that is the best way to resist life.

Li Wanyan's eyes were open, but the world before her was plunged into boundless darkness.

She heard her mother's voice: "This is your maternal grandparents' grave. If your mother dies one day, you should bury her here. It's like returning to one's roots. I still want to go back to my hometown."

She tried to open her eyes, but could only see endless darkness.

The world before my eyes brightened slightly, but all I could see was a muddy gray chaos.

A hand reached out, pierced through the murky chaos, and pulled her out.

The mother's face was stained with blood.

She looked at Li Wanyan calmly.

"Yan Yan, let's go home later."

"Hmm..." As if controlled by some force, she turned around with a calm expression but a blank mind, leaving the home that could not be called a home.

A voice had told her long ago that she shouldn't go back now; it wasn't home, but a graveyard, a cemetery.

As she walked down the steps, she felt as if she were ascending to the clouds.

Looking around, the gray-black steps and walls covered with small advertisements transformed into soft white clouds and a pale blue sky.

In the sky, a pair of blue eyes were staring at her. Although they were so huge, they didn't frighten her at all.

It is calm, gentle, beautiful, pure, and clear...

It just stared at her like that, as if silently protecting her.

Li Wanyan walked to the highest point of the soft white clouds, standing at the same height as those eyes.

A powerful suction force pulled her consciousness away, carrying her into the depths of those sky-blue eyes.

It felt like falling into an abyss, yet also like ascending to the heavens.

The stars in the universe are within easy reach, while the Earth and the Sun are as insignificant as dust.

The smell of disinfectant suddenly filled her world, and she felt as if she had passed through...

The heavy ceiling brought my body back to reality, and my soul back to my shell.

I heard hurried footsteps and a cacophony of voices that I couldn't make out.

Something seems to have changed from red to green.

A mournful cry seemed to rise from the air.

It seemed as if something was pushing her body so that she could sit up.

One of the girls' voices sounded extremely anxious.

Her voice was muffled and indistinct.

The wheels were rubbing against the ground, making a rough sound.

"Doctor, doctor! Wh-how is it?"

In the chaotic world, the voices that answered became indistinct, only to become clear again after an unknown delay.

"I'm sorry... although we tried our best to save him, we still couldn't."

"Okay." The doctor's reply sounded somewhat indifferent.

"Please prepare for your funeral."

"Okay." The voice trailed off, but remained clear and indifferent. "That's fine too. At least we won't have to spend more money just to keep things afloat."

All the sounds have faded away.

The surrounding noise disappeared again.

It seemed that Li Wanyan had passed through the ceiling again.

But this time, someone did not let her fall into a deep sleep again.

Her shoulders were shaken violently: "Wanyan, Wanyan, Wanyan—!! Wanyan! Wake up!"

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Chapter 203 Shower

Looking up, there were rings and rings of light, until the haze faded and everything gradually became clear.

A cool breeze blew in from the window at the end of the corridor.

Li Wanyan looked up and suddenly sneezed.

"Ugh, saliva splashed all over my face..." Mo Xueyao wiped her cheek helplessly. Yi, who was standing in front of her, bent down slightly and extended a hand. "The surgery is over, let's go?"

She seemed not to have fully woken up from the dream, looking at Yi with somewhat bewildered eyes, and slowly reached out to grasp that slender little hand.

Those blue eyes were exactly the same as in my dream.

Finally, as if remembering something, she suddenly stood up: "Is it over?"

"Ok!"

"Was it successful?"

"Ok!"

Li Wanyan suddenly felt her legs go numb, as if she couldn't stand up. She leaned half her weight on Mo Xueyao, holding her shoulder tightly with one hand: "Really...?"

"Really!" Mo Xueyao pressed her forehead against her cheek and supported her with both hands. "Aunt Jiexiang has been taken to her ward. Let's go see her!"

"Hmm..." Li Wanyan took a deep breath and then slowly exhaled.

She tried to stand up straight, but stumbled as soon as she took a step forward. Mo Xueyao quickly grabbed her wrist and led her towards the ward.

The doctors and nurses were in the ward, observing her condition.

Pan Jiexiang herself was sleeping peacefully.

His dry, split hair was disheveled, and his weathered face looked even rougher under the light.

The doctor, holding the report, turned to the opened door and recognized her daughter: "Are there any adults in your family?"

"No..." Li Wanyan's words had barely left her mouth when she suddenly hesitated and looked at Mo Xueyao, who blinked her beautiful blue eyes and tilted her head to look at her. "Yes."

"It would be best to call an adult over; there are some things we need to be aware of."

“Okay—” Mo Xueyao nodded vigorously.

"Once you arrive, you can go find a nurse, and then have the nurse come find me." The doctor was wearing a mask, so you couldn't see much of his facial expression.

"Is everything alright now?"