Why are you always thinking about dating me?

She stopped hugging Lin An, and instead pressed his shoulders to turn his head around. "She's not that kind of person? You know that? You understand? How long have you known her? Less than three days? And you're already speaking up for her?!"

“It’s been a long time since you disobeyed your sister, Lin An.”

Looking at her clenched teeth, Lin An really wanted to reach out and stroke her head, hug her and comfort her, but there was still a thorn in his heart that made him feel inexplicably irritable.

He was just dumped today.

“Sister, I just feel that it’s not right for a girl like Su Yuejin to go down a path she doesn’t like because of me. It would make me feel very uncomfortable, so I think I have to go see her and correct everything.”

"You'll be completely devoured by her!"

"How could that be? That guy is stupid."

“But when you fall in love with someone, you also become very stupid, Lin An.”

"Is that so?" Lin An looked at Xu Qinghuan, but the expression in his eyes spoke volumes.

If that's the case, sister, have you become stupid? Aren't you still able to completely manipulate me and train me to submit willingly? So what am I to you? A crutch? A toy? Or a lover?

You want to control my life, you want me to only find refuge in your arms, but do you really love me wholeheartedly? Xu Qinghuan.

Lin An didn't want to discuss this topic with her. Discussions often yielded no results and only left people mentally exhausted. His tone was somewhat ingratiating. "I'll just go see her. I'll be back before eleven."

"Are you really that persistent?" Xu Qinghuan stared intently at Lin An's face.

"Mm." Lin An nodded.

"Great...great...pretty girls are great, young and rich ladies are great! My obedient and sensible little brother has been completely infatuated with drugs in just a few days...you want to go, right?you want to go, right?"

Xu Qinghuan kicked Lin An in the back, her eyes filled with seriousness.

"You want to go? Fine, but don't come back tonight!"

These weren't just words spoken out of spite; they were serious commands, word by word, uttered by Xu Qinghuan.

“This is our home, sister.”

Xu Qinghuan was completely naked, her chest rising and falling with her breath, but at this moment, even though she should have been so angry she couldn't breathe, Xu Qinghuan laughed.

He was so angry he laughed.

"You say you don't like her? Go ahead, I'll give you a chance. You can sleep wherever you want tonight, but you're not allowed to come back. I want to see if you're so self-disciplined, aren't you? Aren't you so adamant that you won't like her? I want to see what you'll do tonight."

"Don't be angry, sister. I told you to go, so you went. Tell me what happened last night tomorrow morning. I want to see if you are really that determined and pure."

"If I keep controlling you and don't let you go, you'll get tired of me, right? So I'll give you freedom. I'll give you the space to flirt with girls and play with them. If you can't ruin her for me, you can forget about getting any tenderness from me in the future."

"If I really did that, wouldn't you regret it, sister?"

Xu Qinghuan's eyes seemed to shimmer with a slightly moist light, and her voice finally calmed down as she let out a soft sigh.

"Lin An, you and I are the same kind of people. We both lack love, but we depend on each other. This love can never be made up for, and we will always have to suffer this torment."

“I’ve been thinking lately whether I’ve gone too far in some ways. So this time I’m letting you go, whether you sleep with Su Yuejin, make her love you madly, or make her willing to do anything for you, it doesn’t matter.”

"But there's only one condition: Lin An."

Xu Qinghuan stared into his eyes, "You are not allowed to love her."

Lin An was slightly confused, but Xu Qinghuan's voice remained calm, though her words carried a turbulent undercurrent.

"When I realize one day that you've fallen for her, and truly want to be with her for the rest of your life..."

"Xu Qinghuan will disappear from your world without telling you in advance. She will leave secretly on her own, so that you will never find her in this lifetime."

Lin An nodded and said okay.

Xu Qinghuan leaned in and gently bit his lip.

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P.S.: I drank too much yesterday and forgot to update at midnight.

Chapter Nineteen can be interpreted as foolish, not necessarily malicious.

When Lin An walked out the door, his expression was somewhat complicated. He had brought his ID card with him because he estimated that he would have to stay in a hotel tonight.

Xu Qinghuan wasn't hysterically insane or being unreasonable. From Lin An's perspective, she might just feel that it's time to change the way she's tormented her? This wasn't Lin An's paranoia; it was simply his consistent impression of her.

But Lin An didn't believe her words, didn't believe that she would leave after he really said he liked Su Yuejin. She thought her sister was just being stubborn. Regardless of whether she really loved him, they were each other's support and couldn't be separated.

That's the truth, so Lin An isn't worried. So-called promises are just empty words; anyone who believes them is a fool.

Lin An simply wouldn't like Su Yuejin. He wouldn't chase after illusions or things he could never obtain. Su Yuejin's current affection for him, whether expressed by Xu Qinghuan or as he himself understood it, was actually correct. It was like the snow on the top of a volcano; it would melt away in an instant.

If he didn't go tonight, Su Yuejin might act impulsively and do something she would regret, and she would probably only hate Lin An afterward. That was the result Lin An wanted, but he still had to go. He didn't want her to become a bad person because of him.

What can be understood as foolish doesn't need to be understood as malicious.

So he dialed Su Yuejin's number. It was nine o'clock, and it was raining outside. Lin An had brought a transparent umbrella. The call was answered quickly. Lin An was silent for a second, then asked her, "Where are you?"

There wasn't any loud music on the other end of the phone, just the sounds of traffic and the patter of rain. After about two or three seconds, he heard Su Yuejin's response.

"You've remembered me again?" Su Yuejin's voice was somewhat hollow.

"Hmm, I'm worried."

"You're worried again now? You just said you would never come, but now you're worried?" But the girl on the other end of the phone didn't sound smug; her voice was empty.

"Hmm, I'm worried."

“But I suddenly don’t love you anymore, so you don’t need to come anymore, Lin An,” she read aloud.

Lin An was silent for a second or two, then said softly, "Okay, then go home and get some sleep."

"Who goes to bed at nine o'clock? I'm going to have a drink!"

"Go ahead, be careful."

“I’m going to that bar again, and I’m going to find a guy who looks really well-behaved to drink with me.”

"it is good."

Lin An remained silent for a few seconds. The other end of the phone hung up. He had already gone downstairs. He had just opened his umbrella and looked at the moderate rain, listening to the sound of raindrops falling on the leaves. Suddenly, he felt a little lost and confused.

In the end, all I could do was laugh it off. I couldn't go home anyway, so I'd just wander around and enjoy the scenery.

..............................

Lin An didn't know where to go, so he wandered aimlessly through the streets, putting away his umbrella and walking under the eaves of each house. He watched the streets gradually become more lively and colorful, which made him feel a little confused.

The raindrops kept pattering on the umbrella, and he wondered if he had made a wrong decision. This decision made him feel a bit bad. In fact, he had been in a bad mood lately, otherwise he wouldn't have gone to a booth to drink instead of finding his sister.

Lin An was reluctant to part with the money, and as he walked, he arrived at the snack street. However, he wasn't very hungry, so he continued walking, seemingly aimlessly. Anyway, he was in good health, and he walked in the rain with his umbrella, his clothes getting slightly wet.

After walking for forty or fifty minutes, he arrived at the entrance of a bar, next to which was a coffee shop where he could take shelter from the rain under the eaves.

He didn't go into the bar, but went under the eaves because he really didn't like the environment inside. It was just that he didn't like it. Many people were venting their stress there. He used to not understand why everyone could look so stupid, but later he realized that when he couldn't fit in, he was actually the idiot in everyone's eyes.

Fortunately, the eaves of this coffee shop were clean, so Lin An simply sat down there, watching the raindrops dripping onto the street and splashing up.

Cha Cha called him and asked where he was.

"Something came up, so I can't play games with you."

"You haven't played games with me for two days. You won't get any rich guys by just playing with them like this. Maybe one day the boss will get angry and won't play with you anymore."

"I know, I'll definitely be able to get a number tomorrow."

So where are you now?

"At the entrance of the bar."

"Do you like going there?" Cha Cha asked.

"I don't really like it," Lin An replied.

"Then what are you doing at the door?"

"Watching the rain."

"...You're really amazing! Okay, okay, I'll go to bed early tonight. Next Saturday, I'll set the location, you have to come, okay? An'an."

"Okay, go to sleep early, goodnight."

Goodnight, mua~

Cha Cha hung up the phone, and Lin An put down his phone. His phone still had 37% battery left, which would last quite a while if he didn't play games. He didn't know why he came here; maybe he just wanted to take a look.

Su Yuejin should be inside right now, but he doesn't know what she's doing. Lin An just wants to know if she'll come out alone or with someone.

If it were two people, he wouldn't do anything. It's their own choice. Why would he go up there and become a sand dune?

Lin An started looking at cheap hotels nearby, but no matter how cheap the hotel was, it wasn't as cost-effective as staying overnight at an internet cafe. He could also take on a game boosting job and play some Silver-ranked games. Lin An thought this was a great idea. He would wait here until Su Yuejin left, then go to the internet cafe for the night and sleep at school the next day.

So he watched time slowly pass by, and watched the men and women who came out of the bar one after another. The corner where he was was actually quite secluded, and others would generally not notice him.

I watched like that for a long time, two hours, maybe three hours.

Lin An saw the figure walk out of the bar. To his surprise, Su Yuejin was wearing a white dress, with light makeup on her profile, long hair draped over her shoulders, and her skirt swaying. She looked like a well-behaved girl.

Or rather, a gentle older sister.

She was alone, but her steps were unsteady, and she walked in circles. She hadn't brought an umbrella, and after a few steps, raindrops began to fall on her.

She stood in the rain for a while, as if it would help her clear her head. She didn't notice Lin An, and Lin An wouldn't come over to hold an umbrella for her, because there was no need. She was going home to sleep now, and after she woke up, she wouldn't have any thoughts about Lin An in her mind tomorrow.

He was probably heartbroken. After all, they had only known each other for a couple of days and hadn't been in much contact. Good feelings can be worn away very quickly.

After standing there for a while, Su Yuejin suddenly burst into tears, feeling wronged. She took out her phone from her bag and made a call, but just as she dialed, her phone rang behind her.

Perhaps because she had drunk too much, she didn't hear him. She awkwardly brought the phone to her ear and asked, "What are you doing? Sleeping with the girl you like?"

"Oh, yes."

"Did you hear the sound of water?" Her voice was cold.

"heard it."

"I'm taking a shower, and someone else is going to fuck me soon."

"Well then, have fun."

"Why...can you really be so heartless?"