Why are you always thinking about dating me?

"No, no, you can't leave!"

"what?"

"Come up here."

"Oh."

Lin An climbed back onto the bed, but Su Yuejin told him to take off his shirt because it was uncomfortable to hug her. Lin An had a feeling of being watched by a female hooligan, but he still took off his shirt and lay down.

Su Yuejin immediately leaned over and hugged him, rubbing her cheek against his chest.

Like a dog clinging to a bone.

"I love sleeping with something in my arms, so remember that!"

"……Why?"

"Because I'll be holding you all the time, and once I get used to you, I won't be able to fall asleep without holding you."

"It's best to have as little as possible."

Lin An lowered her head, and she happened to raise her head as well, their eyes meeting.

"Because I will always leave eventually."

"I will keep you here, and then... I'll only be good to you."

"You can't do it."

"But I can learn. You can't call me stupid or dumb anymore. I just don't want to learn. If I want to, I can definitely do my best."

"A classic example of childish, chuunibyou (middle school syndrome) speech."

"You dare to curse again?!" Su Yuejin said angrily, gently biting his chest.

"Okay, go to sleep now." Lin An gently stroked her hair.

"I can't sleep," she murmured, her voice sweet and her eyes sparkling like stars.

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P.S.: I'll be updating the new book twice a day for a few days.

Chapter Twenty-Two: All That Has Passed

Lin An really wanted to say more, but after thinking about it, he ultimately didn't say anything.

Because it's meaningless.

Now he really wanted to tell Su Yuejin, to point out that her current level of giving herself away was a bit too fast. "You are Su Yuejin, many people want to pursue you, you should be proud and aloof, not like this."

But in reality, Lin An still firmly believed in his own ideas. Su Yuejin was just a long-standing void in her heart that he had temporarily filled. But soon, she would feel bored and empty, and that would be the time for her to get rid of him.

Therefore, Lin An would not let himself fall in love. Love is always like this: the more someone gives and cares, the more heartbroken they become, while the person they love the least can easily walk away.

Since that's all there is to it, let's give her the care and attention she needs now, as a way of making up for what we've done wrong.

"Do you want to tell me who you like?"

"I won't tell."

"Then tell me, how many relationships have you been in?"

"twice."

"One was Luo Shuishui. She was a very well-behaved and gentle girl, so gentle that people were afraid to get close to her, lest they hurt her. The other one was in junior high school. The ending wasn't good either. In the end, I broke up with that girl and was ridiculed by everyone. That feeling wasn't pleasant." Lin An read softly. When he mentioned the second one, his eyes seemed to have a trace of reminiscence and regret.

Why were you ridiculed? And what was the reason for the breakup?

"It was probably because of the unequal family backgrounds. Although I was only in junior high school, I didn't think about so many things. At that time, my family was actually quite well-off. My adoptive father had his own company, which was very profitable. Later, my adoptive father got into trouble, and his subordinates devoured the company. During that time, my girlfriend stayed by my side."

“Her family was quite well-off, but about a month or two later, she left me. It was probably because her parents found out about the relationship, and things didn’t go very well.”

"What kind of love is it if even parents are afraid of it?" Su Yuejin muttered to herself.

"You," Lin An gently stroked her hair, "so your view on love is pure, impulsive, and you act on impulse without thinking, willing to do anything for the other person. But in reality, there are many things to consider in a relationship, not just empty fantasies. Love is not a firework; it needs to be carefully cultivated."

"You're using an adult tone again, I don't want to listen." Su Yuejin covered her ears and shook her head, the scene was inexplicably cute.

"Anyway, we broke up after that, and I never saw her again. She never contacted me either. Then I went to high school and got to this school. In my second year of high school, I started pursuing Luo Shuishui. I was lucky, but also unlucky. We broke up now."

"You haven't commented on your third relationship yet."

Where did the third paragraph come from?

Su Yuejin looked at her with a reproachful expression and pointed to her own face, "Me."

"It's not a relationship," Lin An said, pursing his lips.

But Su Yuejin wasn't angry. She reached out and stroked his face, saying, "What's wrong with dating me? Is it shameful? You've won me over, which is something to brag about."

"But what's the point of showing off? My life principles are firm enough, I don't need to show off to gain any sense of satisfaction. And besides, I don't want to be the one who gets dumped. I've experienced that feeling twice already, and it's not pleasant at all."

"Let's make a deal. As long as I don't say 'break up,' you can't mention breaking up with me, okay?"

Lin An shook his head again, "Of course not."

"Why this time?"

"That's just torturing and binding yourself."

"Why are you so...stubborn, Lin An?" Su Yuejin leaned closer and bit his ear.

"Because your mind is too easy to read. You're the kind of girl who likes to fantasize, but I bet you only have a short attention span for a lot of things," Lin An said slowly.

Su Yuejin's eyes widened, but she couldn't refute it because it was the truth.

"But if you date me, you can have sex with me, right?" Su Yuejin's voice was as cunning as a little fox.

"I suspect that after you were made to cry, you awakened some strange attributes. Although it seems that the ultimate purpose of love is indeed reproduction, I am actually more like you. I also believe in ethereal and empty things. But I am more practical. I would rather the person I love love me wholeheartedly. Until then, it is okay to be alone."

"I love you with all my heart now too." It seems she's determined to win the debate with Lin An before she'll go to sleep.

"Time will tell." Lin An didn't want to argue with her anymore; arguing with someone in love was a brainless thing to do.

"Then tell me a story to lull me to sleep."

"I'm really sorry I can't tell stories."

"Then sing me a song."

"I'm really sorry for being tone-deaf."

"So what can you do?"

"Unfortunately, I didn't invest any points in the flirting skills tree. I put them all into weird places."

"Hmm? What can you do?"

"Playing games, writing, reading, cooking, taking notes while reading, and being able to perform a certain amount of physical labor."

"..." Su Yuejin was speechless, choked by his words.

"I don't care, you just have to coax me to sleep today. I want to sleep, but I can't."

This put Lin An in a difficult position. How could she coax someone who didn't want to sleep? But sometimes, what needed to be analyzed was not the demands, but the core of the action. Why did she insist on coaxing her to sleep herself?

Because she doesn't want to sleep, then why doesn't she want to sleep?

Because she didn't want to leave on her own.

Once you break down this logic, everything becomes clear, but even if it's clear, it's useless. This guy is like an octopus, clinging to him and impossible to shake off.

Let's do something disgusting and ruthless then.

"Su Yuejin, you should think this through."

"Ok?"

"Staying up all night once is no big deal, but if you drink heavily for several days in a row and smoke, there's no way you can fix it no matter what skincare products you use. If you don't sleep now, you'll have eye bags when you wake up, and it will take at least three days to get rid of them with normal sleep."

"Hehe, I'm not afraid."

This time, it was Lin An's turn to be stunned.

"I want to be beautiful because I want to look at myself and be able to smile with satisfaction. But now there's another reason: I want you to think I'm beautiful. But you don't seem to be the kind of person who's just obsessed with looks. Since my beauty doesn't work for you, it's not that important. Anyway, even with eye bags, I'm still pretty."

This guy is saying really annoying things.

"Then please don't smoke anymore, okay? It smells like smoke when I kiss you." Lin An lowered his head and gently stroked her hair.

"Okay, I'll do as you say."

This answer surprised Lin An. He looked down into her eyes, and her gaze was unusually gentle. "If it's what you said, then I'll listen. I won't smoke anymore. I mean what I say."

Su Yuejin caught the moment when Lin An's expression froze, and a strange sense of joy welled up in her heart.

"Aren't you moved? Are you tempted?"

"No, I didn't." Lin An turned his face away.

Lin An suddenly realized that her face was actually a little pale and her voice was a little hoarse. She had tonsillitis and was probably sleepy, so why was she talking so much?

"Hey."

"Hmm?" Su Yuejin let out a soft hum.

"Your tonsils are inflamed, so try not to talk too much. How about this, I'll hold you until you fall asleep, and then I'll tell you what kind of person I am?"

"Okay, okay."

"Me... I actually hate girls the most."

Just as Su Yuejin was about to respond and make the conversation seem more normal, Lin An gently silenced her with his finger.

Just listen.

“I was an abandoned baby. I was sent to the gate of an orphanage more than ten years ago. Who knows who my parents were? Maybe they were girls who were taken advantage of and then abandoned, and when they found out they were pregnant, they just threw them away because they didn’t want them? Or maybe it was for some strange reason that I grew up in an orphanage.”

“That orphanage had good welfare benefits and received donations from many kind-hearted people in society, so my childhood was not bleak. I was able to go to school. I loved reading back then. As I grew up, I was adopted by my adoptive father when I was ten years old, and then I came to this city.”

“My adoptive parents treated me very well, and I was willing to call them Dad and Mom. My family’s financial situation was good before, and my life was always smooth sailing. Later, my adoptive parents unfortunately passed away, and our finances gradually dropped to zero. I continued to study because I stubbornly believed that I was still smart enough and that studying would definitely lead to a good future.”

"My life now consists of nothing but studying and doing some part-time jobs that can earn money, such as playing games with clients, writing articles for public accounts, writing online articles, learning to draw, and learning anything that I can earn money through hard work."

"Because I'm arrogant and think I have some talent, I think I'm hardworking and self-disciplined enough, and I plan my life very tightly because I have goals and plans for the future."

"But I know that I'm just fooling myself. I don't like this kind of life. I prefer something casual, simple, and free. Even if everything stays the same in the future, and I get into a good university, will I be able to relax? Will I have the life I want then?"