Why are you always thinking about dating me?

"Yeah, yeah." Lin An entered his account information, opened the game, and Cha Cha had already created a room and was waiting for him. After he joined the room, the game began, and Cha Cha once again instantly picked Riven.

I don't need to elaborate on the ingredients, right?

The two chatted casually, and before she knew it, Cha Cha steered the conversation toward Su Yuejin, asking Lin An what his feelings were for Su Yuejin.

"She said she liked me, but anyone could see it, anyone could tell it wouldn't last long, so let her be. I don't have that much time. I'll spend time with her occasionally, and she'll gradually understand. Once she's come to her senses, she'll leave me on her own."

"Is this your idea, Lin An?"

"Yes."

"Did Su Yuejin tell you about me?"

"She told me some things later... but I don't know if they're true or not."

“If what she’s saying is that I used to pursue her, I can confirm it for you and tell you it’s true, and not just for a while, but for three years.” Cha Cha’s voice carried a hint of self-deprecation.

“Three years…” Lin An murmured in a daze.

"I know that being a simp will only embarrass the other person, but I just can't suppress my feelings. I want to be good to her, I want her to say she loves me, I want her to be with me. But at that time, Su Yuejin was indifferent to love and as proud as a swan. She disliked my feelings and mocked me. But even so, I still liked her for so long."

"Now, several years have passed, and I've let go of it all. I've figured it out, but when I heard you say that you slept with her that day, I buried myself in the blanket, but I still couldn't..." Cha Cha's tone seemed to carry a hint of sadness.

"I still couldn't help but laugh out loud," Chacha added.

"..."

"Let her be. She's a little princess. She thinks she's different from others. She's just a child who never grew up and is still indulging in her fantasies. Do whatever you want, Lin An. I won't interfere... It's just that I feel a little sorry for Su Yuejin."

"I see."

"After all, it's been three years. But speaking of which, the fact that you managed to win her over means you're not simple either. You look so gentle, but you're just hiding your true colors?"

"No, I'm not very good at dating, so maybe she's just a bit silly."

"Have you ever been in a relationship before, An'an?"

"We talked about it, back in junior high."

"and then?"

"Then they broke up due to some unforeseen circumstances..."

"Why? I'm curious, can you tell me?"

"Back in the first year of junior high, I got together with a girl by chance. Maybe we really liked each other. Neither of us actively pursued the other. We naturally became a couple. Later, because of her family situation, she broke up with me."

"Is that so... Then do you hate her?" Xiao Chacha coaxed gently.

"If you're going to talk about it, I can understand it. We're ultimately from different worlds, and we were both young back then. Our families were our only support, so I can understand why she broke up with me. Maybe even if she hadn't said it, I would have brought it up anyway... I didn't want to ruin her future."

“But I still had some despicable and selfish thoughts in my heart. At that time, I encountered some very sad things, and I would think... If only she had been by my side at that time, if only she could have firmly said that she liked me at that time.”

"So, as for hatred, there shouldn't be any left. As for love, I'm not worthy of it." Lin An's voice was tinged with a cold self-mockery. He could only laugh and tap his fingers on the keyboard. The Blind Monk used Q, Smite, W, and Flash to steal a Baron Nashor.

He let out a long sigh of relief and continued, "Riven, don't feed, play well, we can turn this around."

"Oh my gosh! Charge!!" Cha Cha snapped out of her daze.

She didn't know why she had been lost in thought for a few seconds. Perhaps it was because of the way Lin An spoke those words, as if he had already let go of everything and was recounting past memories, like someone outside the story.

Things that once made him cry, he can now talk about with a smile.

Chapter Thirty-One: The Trivial Things in Life

On the computer screen, Lin An made a rare high-risk move, using Lee Sin's QW3 kick to kick four people. Xiao Chacha, controlling Riven, followed up in a team fight with QER3AQWAQR, securing a triple kill.

Lin An breathed a sigh of relief; it was over.

Xiao Chacha was still shouting loudly, probably something like, "Whoosh!! Take off!! One wave!!! My Riven!! My Riven!!"

These are some of the strange things he said. This guy seems quite quiet in real life, but he's noisy and boisterous like a puppy when playing games. Lin An thought to himself, after he and she destroyed the enemy's base, Xiao Chacha calmed down a bit. "Lin An, you still know how to show off your skills. I used to see you play so steadily, but today you made such a cool kick."

"Because the risk is very high, if I make even a small mistake or the opponent is a little faster, the game is over. If things can develop steadily, there is no need to pursue excitement."

"Don't you like excitement, Lin An?"

"I wouldn't say I like it or dislike it. After all, I just drift along with the tide and let things take their course. Whether it's exciting or mundane, as long as I can get by, that's fine."

"You should have more expectations for life. Life becomes more interesting when you have more expectations," Cha Cha said sweetly.

"Is your life interesting? Cha Cha, what kind of life do you lead?"

"Wouldn't it be great to spend your days reading, shopping, drinking bubble tea, dancing, and occasionally going on dates with pretty ladies?"

"That does seem really great." Lin An agreed, and to get her to play another game with him, he continued, "You only like girls?"

"Hermaphrodite".

"That's good."

"What? You don't have any designs on me, do you? Lin An, you're scary."

"It's not that bad."

"So you mean I have no charm at all and can't catch your eye?!" Cha Cha's tone was like a cat with its fur standing on end again. Lin An was a little helpless. "Of course not. People have to know their own limitations."

"Weren't you two all lovey-dovey together?"

"I play along with her in this ambiguous game because she needs to, but I don't. I can walk away anytime, and I hope she can too. Let's take it slow. As long as no one gets hurt in the end, that's fine."

"If someone has to be sad all the time, would you choose to be sad for yourself or for her?"

"Of course it's her. As for me, I'm a very selfish person." Lin An's voice was firm and clear, which made Xiao Chacha pause for a moment before she curled up her lips.

"Then it seems you are quite an interesting person, Lin An."

"Thank you for the compliment."

"I'm playing Fiora this game!"

"You play, the enemy team has Renekton and Elise, I'll take Nidalee."

Lin An finalized his decision with the leopard woman, glanced at the sky outside the window. It was gloomy, and he wondered if it would rain tomorrow. The curtains were being blown by the wind outside, but it wasn't very cold; it was just a cool breeze.

Tomorrow is Monday.

Lin An wanted to cherish the time he spent playing games with Xiao Chacha. It would be best if he could play a couple more games with her. Each game was worth twenty yuan, so two games would be forty yuan. Forty yuan could actually do a lot of things, such as buying two jin of pork.

Lin An and Xu Qinghuan don't eat much; a plate of shredded pork with green peppers made from half a pound of pork can last them a whole day.

Actually, the siblings aren't that short of money. They each have different ways of making money, and neither of them is unintelligent or lazy. In fact, relatively speaking, regardless of whether someone is unintelligent or not, as long as they're not lazy, their lives won't be too bad.

So Lin An played another game, gently enticing Cha Cha with his voice, saying that she played Fiora very well in the last game, and asked if she wanted to play another game while she was still in good form. Cha Cha was flattered by his praise and completely forgot that she had been solo-laned twice in the online game.

Then Cha Cha locked in Camille, and Lin An locked in Renekton. He focused on ganking the top lane. No matter how much the others begged and pleaded, it was useless, since they didn't give him any money. However, his top laner was prone to recklessness, and he got flamed for it. But it didn't matter that he got flamed; Lin An helped Xiao Cha Cha reason with the other side.

Arguing with someone can be very interesting, but it's best not to start by using foul language, because that makes you look bad and like you've been broken down. There's no need to be sarcastic or sarcastic either; that kind of behavior doesn't have the right mindset.

What's truly disgusting is this: "It's just a game, your manners are so low. Don't let the game control you, be more civilized." Attacking someone from a position of superiority, leaving them speechless, only proves this point the more foul-mouthed they become. As long as you don't get angry, they'll become incredibly enraged.

All emotions are determined by oneself. As long as one can control one's emotions, anyone can live a good life.

So at midnight, Cha Cha got sleepy, and Lin An coaxed her to sleep. Then he turned off the computer, stood by the window, and looked at the stars outside. The city night sky no longer had many magnificent stars, but the vast night sky was still beautiful.

..............................

Lin An wasn't asleep yet, and it seemed Xu Qinghuan wasn't either. He heard a noise and saw Xu Qinghuan fiddling with the bartending tools he had bought earlier. When she saw Lin An come out of the room, the girl in the white nightgown looked up and asked, "What would you like to drink?"

"Gin and Tonic."

So Xu Qinghuan went to get tonic water, lemon, and gin. This cocktail is very simple. Add half ice cubes to a tall glass, then pour in 80% tonic water (tonic water is a beverage that you can buy), then pour in... gin depending on your mood, add a little lemon juice, or you can use water-soluble vitamin C if you don't have lemon juice. It's simple and delicious.

Xu Qinghuan and he sat on the edge of the balcony. Although the balcony was not big, it was enough for the two of them to sit. Xu Qinghuan's fair legs swayed gently, and her small feet lazily twisted her toes. The evening breeze blew some of her dark hair up and fell onto her fair cheeks.

Xu Qinghuan is actually very beautiful, and many people pursue her, but she never acts like a social butterfly or a manipulative woman, nor does she flirt with these men, because she knows that if she does, someone in her family will be angry.

Xu Qinghuan is an even stranger person than Lin An because she has very little moral sense. She instilled in Lin An the idea that selfish people can find happiness and that people who abandon love can find happiness. She is also the one who can easily control all social circles. She can show many facets and knows a lot of knowledge.

But Lin An understood that she was very tired.

The more knowledge a person has, the more tired they become, because they can see the outcome from the beginning of a matter, or the beginning from the outcome, but they are powerless to change the status quo of everything, or rather... it is too mentally and physically exhausting.

So they nestled together in this little house, confiding in each other for warmth when they were sad. Most of the time they didn't say anything, just had a drink, hugged each other, and slept together.

Lin An had not been hugged by Xu Qinghuan for a long time before meeting Su Yuejin. Perhaps it was because of this that he became greedy and behaved in the way that Su Yuejin would most like on the day he met her.

To be precise, both he and Xu Qinghuan were like this, saying one thing to one person and another to another, used to wearing a mask so that the other person could not see their true selves, and used to trying to gain the other person's favor in order to get benefits, which is why they lived hypocritically.

But being a little hypocritical is fine, it doesn't really matter.

However, Lin An did not want to deceive the other party's feelings, so he broke off completely the next day. But after being entangled, he eventually softened. Su Yuejin was like an octopus with tentacles all over its body. Several of the tentacles' suckers were stuck to him hard. Even if he pulled them off, they would still be sticky. But Lin An was afraid. Would he feel pain when he tried to pull them off completely?

Lin An had already experienced pain once during junior high school, although it wasn't as painful as Kaneki's.

The departure of their adoptive parents during junior high school was indeed a huge blow to Lin An and Xu Qinghuan, because they lacked love since childhood. However, their adoptive parents truly loved them, so they reciprocated with equal love, but unfortunately, they didn't have time to repay them... and everything became a regret.

So he was very sad at that time. The world had lost two people who truly loved him, and his heart ached with emptiness. But at that time, the girl he truly loved, liked, and wanted to be with for a lifetime also left his side.

It was at that moment that Xu Qinghuan finally broke through his defenses, entered his world, and left her unique mark, one that Lin An could never forget and could never be separated from.

However, Xu Qinghuan couldn't make Lin An completely forget his ex-girlfriend from junior high school. But that was fine too. Xu Qinghuan knew that Lin An would no longer love her, but hate her. It was his own hatred, and also the hatred that Xu Qinghuan had guided him to hate.

Xu Qinghuan's thoughts were actually very simple... I allowed you to stay by his side back then because he truly loved you, while I couldn't make him love me. Perhaps... letting you two be together wouldn't be bad, but it was your own choice to leave. From now on, you will absolutely not have the slightest chance to regret it!

However, those are all old stories, and Lin An doesn't think he will have any further contact with that woman from junior high school. He doesn't even want to think about her name, appearance, or voice; he should have forgotten her long ago.

Lin An finished the glass of gin and tonic, but Xu Qinghuan still had a small sip left. She said she couldn't finish it. Lin An looked into her eyes, and Xu Qinghuan slurped up the rest of the gin and tonic by biting the straw, her cheeks puffed out.

Then Lin An moved closer, she grasped his lips, and kissed him carefully. The carbonated water burst in her mouth, sweet and sour.

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The next morning, Lin An got up early, made breakfast, and walked downstairs to school without carrying his schoolbag.

Today is Monday, and the results of the last monthly exam should be released. Lin An could roughly guess how it would turn out, so he wasn't looking forward to it at all. There was no point in looking forward to it, and these things weren't worth showing off.

Campus life shouldn't have so many dramatic events, nor should it have clichéd plots like breakups, fights, school violence, relationships, or abortions. A school should just be a school. How wonderful it would be if everyone were pure and innocent.

Although Lin An really dislikes children.

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P.S.: Two single updates a day, double updates will resume on the 10th.

Chapter Thirty-Two: Her Pure Beauty

He always arrives at the classroom early, but he didn't expect someone to arrive even earlier than him today.