Why are you always thinking about dating me?

Lin An was still holding her in his arms. If only he hadn't smoked earlier, he definitely would have been more willing to kiss her, right? Xiao Chacha really liked the feeling when Lin An kissed her. She didn't know how to describe it, but she just craved that feeling.

It wasn't just simple tenderness and affection; Xiao Chacha didn't know how to put it, but when she kissed him, she felt very at ease, her heart pounding, and she didn't have to think about anything.

"It's time to go home for PE class. We can't just sit here forever, can we?"

Lin An reached out and rubbed her head, then led her downstairs. The two of them walked out of the stairs together. Su Yuejin was sitting under a tree, looking at something. Lin An did not leave Xiao Chacha behind, but went to the equipment area and took a badminton racket.

"Want to play?" he called softly to Su Yuejin under the tree.

"You're here." Su Yuejin stood up happily and jogged over, her skirt swaying gently with her movements. Lin An noticed this, of course, because Su Yuejin's skirt wasn't very long.

"I'm wearing safety shorts." Perhaps noticing Lin An's gaze, Su Yuejin whispered in Lin An's ear. Lin An gave a mumbled "hmm," then handed one racket to Xiao Chacha and the other to Su Yuejin.

"You guys play for a bit, I'll go buy you some water."

The autumn sun was still a bit warm. Lin An went to buy three bottles of water and put them there. Xiao Chacha had already lost to Su Yuejin. This was because she was slightly shorter than Su Yuejin and exercised less.

Su Yuejin is the type who knows she needs to exercise more. Because she doesn't have the body type that allows her to eat whatever she wants without gaining weight, she always pays close attention to her diet and exercises a lot. As a result, she has a slender and slim figure, but her fair skin always gives people a frail feeling.

Lin An scanned the playground and saw Luo Shuishui. She was sitting under a tree with her hands on her thighs, her legs together, and her eyes were calm and clear as she looked at them.

Then her eyes met Lin An's, and for a fleeting moment, Lin An waved to her, "Want to play?"

"Coming." She stood up and walked over.

Anyway, with the mechanism of switching players after playing a few balls, everyone has a chance to play. Of course, Luo Shuishui will deliberately let them win, otherwise it would be too boring.

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After school, Lin An waved goodbye to Su Yuejin.

Su Yuejin left, and Xiao Chacha waited in the car outside the school. Then Lin An got into the passenger seat, fastened his seatbelt, and Xiao Chacha turned to look at him, "Which bakery's cakes are you eating?"

"I know a cake shop that has pretty good cakes."

So Lin An gave directions and took Xiao Chacha to a cake shop that wasn't too far from the school. The prices were a bit higher, but the taste was really great. Xiao Chacha happily sat down opposite him, leaned forward slightly, and looked closer into his eyes.

But there was no emotion in his eyes, they were completely empty, and Xiao Chacha couldn't read anything in them.

"What's wrong?" Lin An asked her.

"No... I was just thinking that you were suddenly being really nice to me today, so I'm a little happy," Xiao Chacha said, her words brimming with sweetness.

"Maybe it's to distract myself from Su Yuejin, so I decided to be nicer to you too?" Lin An replied, taking a small bite of cake with his fork.

"I always feel like you're telling the truth in a joking tone." Upon hearing Lin An's words, the sweetness in Xiao Chacha's eyes slowly faded, and after a flash of disappointment, she became full of energy again in the next few seconds.

"I don't care, anyway... if you treat me well, I'll be very happy."

As she said this, Lin An nodded slightly. They ate a few small cakes and drank a cup of coffee together. Then Xiao Chacha took Lin An home. After Lin An arrived home, Luo Shuishui sent him the sheet music.

Just as Lin An had predicted, since it was the school anniversary celebration, it certainly wasn't suitable to sing anything about love and romance. Luo Shuishui was a literature major, so she would most likely sing folk songs.

The song she chose surprised Lin An for a moment, because he knew the song and didn't need to learn it much; he just needed to practice it a few more times.

Lillian.

But Lin An no longer had a guitar. He needed to buy one. He smashed his old guitar into a pile of pieces. As for the reason... well, he learned guitar because Qin Xueming liked it, but Qin Xueming didn't have time to learn, so she pinned her hopes on him, her boyfriend. Lin An then spent his summer vacation taking a crash course.

So Lin An decided to go out and buy a guitar. There was a music store nearby, so Lin An bought one. It wasn't very expensive, only a little over 400 yuan, which was considered an entry-level model. It couldn't compare to the one Luo Shuishui used last time. Lin An roughly knew the one Luo Shuishui used, which cost a little over 60,000 yuan.

You can't compare yourself to others; it's just asking for trouble. Many people are born with better conditions than most, and comparing yourself to them will only increase your own worries.

At seven o'clock in the evening, Lin An returned with a guitar. Xu Qinghuan, who was in her room, heard the guitar playing from the next room, came out, glanced at Lin An, and asked, "Why did you decide to practice this again?"

"Luo Shuishui asked me to accompany her at the school anniversary celebration, and I agreed," Lin An replied softly to Xu Qinghuan.

"She seems to really like you," Xu Qinghuan asked.

"No, she wouldn't even look at me. I'm just helping her out," Lin An replied. Xu Qinghuan nodded thoughtfully, "Okay, I understand."

“Su Yuejin has transferred to your class.” She thought for a moment and then added.

"Yeah, she even became my deskmate."

"So, will you be won over by her?" Xu Qinghuan winked at him.

"will not."

"Really not?"

"Life is unpredictable, who knows what will happen next?" Lin An replied, gently plucking a string. Xu Qinghuan smiled and sat down on the edge of the bed.

She was wearing pajamas, bunny pajamas, the kind that's onesie, with a hat on and two bunny ears hanging down her back.

"What a wonderful unknown." Xu Qinghuan laughed heartily. She looked at Lin An and then gently asked, "Could you play it for me?"

"So, Miss Xu Qinghuan, what would you like to hear?"

"I want to hear 'Jie Fei,' so you sing it for me."

"Okay." Lin An nodded gently, sat cross-legged on the ground, and gently plucked the strings of the zither. Xu Qinghuan looked into his eyes, her eyes sparkling with a warm light.

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It's late at night.

Xu Qinghuan nestled in Lin An's arms. Her pajamas felt soft to the touch. Lin An gently held her close. The room was dimly lit, and Lin An hadn't drawn the curtains, allowing the moonlight to stream in.

"I still don't understand your behavior pattern, Xu Qinghuan. Could you explain it to me? Maybe then I'll be able to understand."

"No, I don't want to tell you, guess for yourself."

"My skill level isn't high enough, how am I supposed to guess?"

"Then just treat me like a green tea b*tch, treat me like a bad woman, then go and like someone else. I didn't beg you to like me. If you don't like me anymore, then you don't like me anymore."

"No, Xu Qinghuan, you know that." Lin An gently pinched her cheek.

"That's not necessarily true. People change... Don't you understand, Lin An? Actually, to some extent, our personalities aren't very compatible."

"Why do you say that?"

"I... I really want to control everything about you, to completely manipulate your thoughts, to turn you into a puppet, a good little brother who only loves me. But I can't do that, I can't do it. But I love you. My desires are obsessive and twisted, so I hate myself like this. I try hard to stop thinking about it, I try hard to become normal. I give you freedom because I don't want to drag you into the quagmire and sink with me."

"But I also feel sad, and I also feel tormented because of it. You're not the only one who feels sad... But there's nothing I can do. We are all insignificant and ordinary people. We can't have everything under complete control. Whether you understand or not, the problem is still there. This isn't a problem that can be solved by whether you understand, whether I understand, or whether we've talked it out."

"It's not just me, Lin An, you have problems too. We both have big problems. Have you forgotten the time we spent together after Qin Xueming left? What were we like... You remember, right? So we should separate, we should keep our distance until one day we both change, or one day you can manipulate me and make me stop having those strange thoughts."

"If that day ever comes, I will definitely want to take advantage of you completely, Miss Xu Qinghuan."

"But at least you can't do it now, right? Hmm? You little brat." Xu Qinghuan's voice was soft and sweet. She leaned over and gently bit his shoulder, then stuck out her soft, pink tongue and licked it lightly. After a short while, she sighed.

"No matter what, I actually think that what I've been doing all along is the easiest way to provoke your desire for revenge. One day you might bring a girl to me and tell me that she's your girlfriend and that you love her very much."

"If that day ever comes, don't worry, you won't need to tell me, I'll just leave on my own, I'll leave far, far away."

She smiled, but then fell silent, closed her eyes, and rested her forehead against his chest, as if she were tired.

Chapter Ten: Want to Lick White Stockings

"No, Xu Qinghuan, no, it won't happen." Lin An said very seriously, but Xu Qinghuan lowered her head and bit his chest.

"Who knows? You can't give me a sense of security, no one can give me one. I can only rely on myself. I'm not very capable or smart. I also have many problems that I can't solve, and many troubles that you don't know about."

"You need to understand, I am not your sister, I am Xu Qinghuan."

As Xu Qinghuan said this, she took another small bite.

"Okay! Time for bed. For at least three months, you're not allowed to touch me. As for touching other people, it's up to you. You don't need to report to me if you don't come home at night. The same goes for going out. Just be happy and have fun. But... I don't recommend that you fall in love, because Su Yuejin and Xiao Chacha will never be your final destination."

"Xiao Chacha?" Lin An's voice trembled slightly.

"Are you planning to keep this from me? Hmm?"

"I think..."

"Stop. I don't need your explanation, and I don't care about your love life. I believe you can handle it." Xu Qinghuan didn't open her eyes again. "Let's go to sleep. I'm a little sleepy."

"OK, good night."

"Good night."

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It took Lin An nearly two days to accept that Su Yuejin had become his deskmate.

As for why it takes two days? Because having a highly popular school beauty as a deskmate is indeed a dream come true. Xiao Chacha is a transfer student and doesn't have much fame, but Su Yuejin does.

She had received quite a few confessions before, but Su Yuejin had rejected them all directly. Perhaps because her rejections weren't tactful enough, her reputation among the boys wasn't that good? But that's how many people are; they might curse a slut behind her back, but when they're face to face, they get so nervous they can't utter a single word.

Being classmates with Su Yuejin means she'll bring you breakfast every morning: sticky rice, hand-pulled pancakes, congee with preserved egg and lean pork, egg pancakes, and rice noodle rolls. She always gets up early and buys two breakfasts to eat with Lin An in the classroom.

Moreover, she really started to seriously complete the learning tasks Lin An gave her. She would listen attentively when Lin An explained the problems to her. Although she would often look at his profile and drift off into a daze, her learning ability was still quite good, and she learned quite quickly. There were only half a month left before the monthly exam. Lin An didn't have much to teach, but she was teaching very seriously.

Because what he said to Xiao Chacha before was definitely a lie. Su Yuejin is much better than Xiao Chacha. Who wouldn't like a class beauty as a deskmate who is obedient, well-behaved, cute, and has a pair of beautiful legs? As for Xiao Chacha, that girl is a master of causing trouble.

Well, it's not exactly lying to ghosts, but Lin An will definitely have to teach Su Yuejin seriously, because Luo Shuishui will definitely teach Xiao Chacha seriously as well. Luo Shuishui is the kind of person who will take things very seriously once she agrees to do them.

Xiao Chacha is quite obedient to her. She will listen attentively to her explanations and complete the assignments she gives. However, Xiao Chacha is eyeing Su Yuejin's position covetously. She always looks back at Su Yuejin and Lin An. Whenever she sees those two talking and laughing, she feels that they are flirting and grits her teeth in jealousy.

He was so itchy that he wanted to bite Lin An to death.

However, during this period, Lin An stopped asking Xiao Chacha to chat late at night. He was exhausted, or rather, he knew it wasn't appropriate. He rejected Xiao Chacha's several intentional or unintentional hints. Fortunately, Xiao Chacha only felt resentful and didn't show much emotion.

On Thursday, the homeroom teacher also held a small class meeting, talking about things like recent class discipline and everyone's enthusiasm for learning, and finally mentioned the school anniversary celebration in two weeks.

Each class can sign up for two programs. Since the seniors don't participate in the school anniversary celebration because they are busy studying, especially since they will be taking the college entrance exam next year, this school anniversary celebration is for the freshmen and sophomores. The seniors will also have a day off on that day, so they can come and watch and participate.

Luo Shuishui had already signed up for a simple song, and Lin An's name was added to the accompaniment. This caused an uproar in the class, with many feeling that Lin An's luck and popularity were just too good.

Xiao Chacha, Su Yuejin, and Luo Shuishui in the class all seem to have a good relationship with him. Even though he used to be a super academic genius, he was an inconspicuous presence in the class because he was a complete social outcast.

Lin An felt this point could be refuted: socially isolated individuals should not be discriminated against. Collectivity is a contagious disease; people assimilate with each other, follow trends, spin, and then become strange.

Secondly, regarding the second program, surprisingly, not a single person in the class initially signed up. This is because such things do require a certain level of confidence; if you don't perform well, it would be quite embarrassing and easily remembered for a long time.

So at this moment, Miss Xiao Chacha suddenly stepped forward, glanced at Su Yuejin, and while the whole class was silent, she suddenly called Su Yuejin's name and then turned her head.

"Su Yuejin?"

"what?"

Su Yuejin was just whispering with Lin An when she heard Xiao Chacha's call. She was taken aback. Xiao Chacha smiled at her and asked, "Do you want to dance a home dance with me?"

"Are you sure you can do it?" Su Yuejin asked with a hint of sarcasm.

"I've just learned some, what, are you afraid of losing face?" Xiao Chacha used her usual fishing-style sarcasm, but Su Yuejin still easily took the bait and agreed without hesitation.