Long Live Money in Anime Crossover

136 I don't want to live anymore!

Rin Tohsaka's face was full of surprise and astonishment. After all, as Reimu Hakurei, even if her memories were confused, she still knew about Mo Mo.

That was something she personally announced throughout Gensokyo; she told everyone that Momo was the man she had chosen, the man she would marry no one else. For this man, she was even willing to turn against Yakumo Yukari!

Who is Yukari Yakumo? She is the leader of the entire Gensokyo, a wise youkai among youkai. To Reimu Hakurei, Yukari Yakumo even owes her a debt of gratitude for raising and nurturing her. For that reason alone, Reimu Hakurei has no reason to refuse Yukari Yakumo.

Therefore, when Rin Tohsaka learned that she had actually gone against Yukari Yakumo for this fiancé, her jaw almost dropped in shock.

Although reason prevented Rin Tohsaka from believing it, the overwhelming public opinion forced her to accept it. After all, everyone in Gensokyo knew about it and was certain that Reimu Hakurei had said it in a rational state of mind. Therefore, the problem couldn't be with everyone else but Rin Tohsaka herself.

Furthermore, Rin Tohsaka herself did indeed have problems, so she no longer doubted it.

As for why Rin Tohsaka was unaware of her situation, it all started with an incident that Rin herself encountered.

At that time, Rin Tohsaka's will seemed to become confused; she couldn't even distinguish who she was, and thus fell into a long dream. In the dream, she seemed to have transformed into another girl, living a different life in a place called Fuyuki City.

There, she is called Rin Tohsaka. She has her own parents, a younger sister, her own school, and classmates. She lives a comfortable and happy life, and possesses a strong will and extraordinary talent. She also has a goal that she must achieve, and she is constantly striving for that goal.

But just as she was about to take action to achieve that goal, the entire world seemed to turn black, swallowed by something black. She, too, was swallowed up, and her dream was interrupted, waking her from the real-world fantasy realm.

A dream is just a dream. After Rin Tohsaka woke up, everything in her dream became blurry. Rin only remembered the general outline of the dream, what she had, but she forgot the names and appearances of her family members and her goals. Even the name "Rin Tohsaka" was something she suddenly remembered after a long time.

Later, Rin Tohsaka finally understood what was going on. According to Yukari Yakumo, someone took revenge on Reimu Hakurei while she was asleep, interfering with Rin Tohsaka's consciousness in an attempt to trap Reimu Hakurei in a dream forever and prevent her from waking up.

After discovering all this, Yukari Yakumo intervened to save Reimu Hakurei. However, because the attacker's methods were too bizarre, and because Yukari discovered everything too late, even she was unable to fully restore Rin Tohsaka.

Ultimately, although Rin Tohsaka felt her mind was in turmoil, she accepted everything, her identity and memories, and began her life as the Hakurei Shrine Maiden, Reimu Hakurei. However, despite accepting her identity, due to the confusion in her memories, she still found it difficult to adapt to her current status and position.

She is indeed the Hakurei Shrine Maiden, the protector of Gensokyo and the one who maintains its order. But she is also seen as a jinx by everyone, a figure feared by all.

Rin Tohsaka is regarded by everyone as a jinn (femme fatale), but what is a jinn?

Rin Tohsaka herself admitted she didn't know what a "cursed shrine maiden" was, and when she asked Yukari Yakumo and Satoru Komeiji, neither of them could tell her. As for the others, it was already a rare occurrence that they didn't turn tail and run away upon seeing her. Under these circumstances, wouldn't Rin's question about what a "cursed shrine maiden" was likely to scare them to tears?

Rin Tohsaka has absolutely no memory of what she did, nor does she know why she is called the Bane Shrine Maiden. This is not only due to her memory, but also because Rin, whose memories are disordered, has forgotten how to use her power, the power that a Hakurei Shrine Maiden should possess.

Without spiritual power, unable to fly, and unable to use spell cards, she was just an ordinary girl with no strength whatsoever. Even though Rin Tohsaka tried to train her spiritual power again, she still achieved nothing.

All of this left Rin Tohsaka with nothing but helplessness.

Without those memories or those powers, she was still branded a wicked priestess and feared by everyone, bearing this loneliness and blame. Even with Rin Tohsaka's broad-mindedness, she couldn't bear it all alone.

It is precisely because of this that Rin Tohsaka cherishes Komeiji Satori, a good friend who is willing to talk to her, does not look down on her identity as a witch, understands her past and present very well, and even knows her thoughts very well.

As for Komeiji Satori's identity, Rin Tohsaka didn't care too much about it. She didn't ask, because in her opinion, asking Komeiji Satori about her identity was like someone asking her if she was a witch of misfortune—a very impolite and inelegant thing to do.

Always maintaining elegance, that's the Tohsaka family... wait, what was the Tohsaka family again?

Forget it, never mind. I'll just stop thinking about things that happened in my dream.

Rin Tohsaka can explain all of this—her status, interpersonal relationships, power, and so on—as a result of her memory lapses and her inability to adapt to her current situation.

Another major aspect is that Rin Tohsaka is filled with unease, hesitation, fantasy, and anticipation regarding her fiancé, Momo.

Rin Tohsaka has accepted the premise that she herself has a problem, so naturally she believes what others say and thinks that what everyone says is the truth.

Everyone says Rin Tohsaka is a cursed priestess, and they hate her, so Rin can only accept it. Those who agree all believe that Rin has a fiancé, Momo, so Rin can only accept that as well.

Although she had completely forgotten why she knew Momo, what their past was, and even what Momo looked like, since Momo was her fiancé, and she had loved him so much in the past, even turning against Yakumo Yukari for him and declaring throughout Gensokyo that she would marry no one but Momo, then there must be a touching past between them… right?

It's not fair to blame Rin Tohsaka for overthinking or for her girlish fantasies about a prince charming. After all, Rin is in such an awkward situation.

Despite knowing nothing, she carries a mountain of accusations on her shoulders. The only people Rin Tohsaka can hold even a sliver of hope for, besides her close friend Satoru Komeiji, are her fiancé, and specifically, Momo, the fiancé she once loved and was infatuated with.

Losing memories and impressions is a problem, but it's not a problem either. Bored out of her mind and with a chest ache, Rin Tohsaka's daily routine, besides cleaning, sleeping, and sunbathing, consisted of fantasizing about what kind of person her fiancé was.

Rin Tohsaka thought: The boy she could choose must be good-looking, capable, gentle, responsible, and a perfect man!

Only an elegant man is worthy of Rin Tohsaka!

Hmm, why am I so obsessed with elegance?

However, none of that matters anymore. The important thing is that her fiancé, Momo, whom she loves and who is known to everyone in Gensokyo, has actually come to her side and into her life!

This is something... Rin Tohsaka hadn't thought of!

Why would her fiancé, Mo Mo, show up at her door when the two of them finally meet?

This is not scientific at all... oh no, this is perfectly scientific and perfectly reasonable, isn't it!

At this moment, Rin Tohsaka finally realized that she had overlooked a very important point...

Since the two are engaged, it's only natural that if they meet one day, her fiancé comes to her door, and their relationship takes another step forward, turning them from engaged couple to married couple, followed by their wedding night...

This is the most crucial point, as it triggered Rin Tohsaka's passive skill, causing her to falter at a critical moment and completely forget about it.

There's no way around it; it's a tradition of the Tohsaka family, an indispensable part of Rin Tohsaka's proud talent, and a necessary factor to trigger Rin Tohsaka's tsundere attribute.

It's innate, there's no solution.

Rin Tohsaka could instantly find countless reasons for the mistake she made: for example, she was hated because she became a demon priestess; for example, no one told her where Momo was or when she would return; and for example…

But when she actually faced Momo, Rin Tohsaka felt that her usually sharp mind had completely gone cold, losing all ability to think or function, let alone come up with an excuse to fob Momo off.

Then, thinking back to how she had just mistaken Mo Mo for Komeiji Satoru's boyfriend, and recalling the angry, disappointed, and even desperate expression on Mo Mo's face because of her words, Rin Tohsaka immediately realized just how big a mistake she had made!

It's one thing for her not to recognize her fiancé, whom she's now so determined to marry, but to put on such an attitude is to mock and reject her fiancé and Mo Mo!

But Rin Tohsaka hadn't considered the possibility of rejection; she was still looking forward to this relationship!

At that moment, Rin Tohsaka seemed to sense Mo Mo's feelings instantly. Her heart was filled with tension and pain, despair and unease. Complex emotions churned in her chest, ravaging her breath.

And so, Rin Tohsaka pointed at Mo Mo, her expression changing from red to white, then from white to red. After a series of changes, Rin Tohsaka seemed to have lost all her strength and collapsed onto the floor.

She scrambled to Komeiji Satoru's side in a panic, shrinking behind his small shoulders and trying her best to hide herself completely, leaving only a blurry outline.

That wasn't all. She hugged Komeiji Satoru's shoulders tightly and burst into tears.

"Jue, save me! What should I do? I did something wrong... I don't want to live anymore!"

She's done something so hurtful; her elegance has completely crumbled!

137 Let's discuss this further.

The scene seemed to become very awkward in an instant, and Rin Tohsaka, the one who started it all, realized that she had made a huge mistake, but at this moment all she wanted to do was run away.

After all, Rin Tohsaka at this time was not the powerful Rin Tohsaka from Fate, but someone who was prepared to give everything to win the Holy Grail War and for the glory of the Tohsaka family.

At this time, Rin Tohsaka was given the name Reimu Hakurei and believed herself to be Reimu Hakurei, a cursed shrine maiden despised by everyone. Her greatest comfort in life, besides her close friend Satoru Komeiji, was her fiancé, Momo, who embodied Rin's hopes for a brighter future.

But now, Rin Tohsaka felt like she had messed everything up. Putting aside whether this feeling, which she had forgotten but still hoped for, could continue, just thinking about Momo's angry and disappointed look just now made Rin Tohsaka lose the courage to communicate with Momo.

She disappointed and devastated Mo Mo to the point of heartbreak. Will Mo Mo forgive her?

Sorrow, helplessness, anger, and shame, along with a last glimmer of hope and a desperate plea for help from Komeiji Satoru in a panic—these are all the feelings Rin Tohsaka is experiencing right now.

In her view, the only person who could help her at this time was Komeiji Satori. After all, Komeiji Satori could always understand her thoughts and help her at the right time.

Komeiji Satoru, of course, understood Rin Tohsaka's thoughts. The reason she was here was also to take care of and help Rin, and she was doing this on a mission from Yukari Yakumo. Komeiji Satoru had already done this before Momo even entered Gensokyo.

Komeiji Satoru was tasked with monitoring Rin Tohsaka's mental state and, if necessary, erasing unnecessary memories and thoughts from her mind to maintain her stability.

Without her powers, Rin Tohsaka might not be of much significance in herself. But at this moment, Rin Tohsaka is Reimu Hakurei. In the eyes of almost everyone in Gensokyo, except for Satoru Komeiji, Momo, and those around Yukari Yakumo, she is Reimu Hakurei.

Reimu Hakurei's existence represents the order and normalcy of Gensokyo. Gensokyo needs the Hakurei Shrine Maiden, even if it's just a shrine maiden on the surface.

Rin Tohsaka, in her guise as Reimu Hakurei, is a crucial element in maintaining the stability of Gensokyo. Satoru Komeiji, who resides in Gensokyo and works under Yukari Yakumo, accepts the task of caring for and monitoring Rin Tohsaka, thus becoming part of this system as well.

As for Rin Tohsaka's own wishes... Yukari Yakumo wouldn't care, since Rin had forgotten who she was at this point. Satoru Komeiji wouldn't care either; more than Rin, she hoped her cooperation would allow her sister and pets to live carefree in Gensokyo.

However, Komeiji Satoru is not a cold-blooded youkai after all. Compared to the youkai sage Yakumo Yukari, perhaps because of her sister and pet, she has a touch more tenderness in her personality.

While her relationship with Rin Tohsaka was not based on anything real, and she wasn't a close friend of Rin's, this didn't prevent Komeiji Satoru from offering Rin some help when necessary.

Moreover… although the current situation was somewhat different from what she had expected—she hadn't suppressed Mo Mo, but instead was controlled by him, practically becoming his prisoner—this didn't prevent her from carrying out Yakumo Yukari's next order, an order that even she didn't quite understand.

It's okay if you don't understand, just do it.

Are you angry?

Komeiji Satoru spoke softly, her target being Momo. She didn't use her powers to say this, but rather made a sound, meaning that Rin Tohsaka could hear the conversation.

Rin Tohsaka heard Satoru Komeiji's voice and felt her limp shoulders relax a little. She secretly peeked out from under Satoru's shoulder, carefully observing Mo Mo's expression.

What reassured Rin Tohsaka was that although Momo was still looking at her, the anger, sorrow, and even despair in Momo's eyes had diminished considerably, replaced by a faint sense of loss.

Does that look in her eyes mean she can be forgiven?

"Getting angry is useless. I understood this when I was a child. If you want to change everything around you and get what you want, you can only use your own strength and your own command to fight for it."

Momo seemed to be talking to himself, and as he spoke, the turbulent emotions in his heart were also eliminated by Momo, and reason and wisdom returned to Momo.

Rin Tohsaka shouldn't be here, that's only natural. But since she's here, there must be a good reason.

"Yui, please contact Artoria for me."

"Good dad!"

Soon, Momo heard Artoria's voice, a calm voice containing an undisguised joy, as if Artoria had transformed into Lily dressed in white.

"Artoria..."

“I didn’t hear you clearly,” Artoria interrupted Momo rudely, “Darling, what did you call me?”

Mo Mo's heart stirred, and the corners of her mouth couldn't help but curl up slightly.

Perhaps Artoria will never be able to snuggle in Momo's arms like other girls, but at this moment, Artoria is no longer a queen, but a wife who understands people's hearts, or at least understands Momo's thoughts.

Of course, it would be even better if she became a young married woman.

"Honey?"

"Pfft, haha," Artoria couldn't help but laugh out loud first, saying, "It's supposed to be a very exciting title, so why does it make me want to laugh?"

"Because it doesn't suit our style. After all, how can a cunning old man like me, who's over a hundred years old, communicate with a clueless King Arthur using a silly, youthful romance approach?"

"Okay, I admit you're right."

The soft laughter faded, and Artoria's voice became more formal. Clearly, Artoria's playful banter with Momo was intended to help Momo adjust his mood.

“I already know what happened, and there’s not much I can tell you right now. As you know, by the time I realized something was wrong, Gilgamesh had already become an invincible king, and he had even taken control of the origins of the Type-Moon world.”

"Therefore, I don't know exactly what power he possesses, nor do I know about his destruction of the Fate world or his invasion of other worlds. However, I am certain of one thing..."

Artoria said, word by word, "I did not participate in the Holy Grail War as everyone remembers."