Anime Heart

Arima Kenjiro looked at Miyazono Kaoru with some surprise.

“I’ve been thinking about my feelings for Kousei Arima.”

Kaori Miyazono stubbornly continued to offer the snacks, showing no intention of taking them back. "After careful consideration, I realized that my feelings for him, for him, may have always been those of a fan for an idol!"

"As for you, since it's been too short, I don't know how I feel yet. But I don't dislike you."

Upon hearing this, Arima Kento immediately opened his eyes wide in surprise, and his mouth opened involuntarily.

Kaori Miyazono immediately and gently placed the sweet into Arima Kenji's mouth, watching him eat it before reacting to his expression: "What's so surprising? Even Buddha had moments of enlightenment, so why can't I understand it now?"

"Of course it's accurate, I couldn't be happier!" After swallowing the food, Arima Kento suddenly felt that the snacks were really delicious.

And so, Kaori Miyazono fed Arima Kenji until he finished the snacks, taking only a moment to eat one herself, while the rest went into Arima Kenji's stomach.

When it was time to drink their beverages, Arima Kento felt embarrassed to ask Miyazono Kaoru to feed him, as it was a bit inconvenient.

She sat up slightly, enduring the pain in her buttocks, and finished the juice in one gulp.

"The snacks are delicious, and the juice is great too. Your mother is amazing." Arima Xiandong praised sincerely. He had never experienced maternal love in either of his lives, and he was truly envious.

"Of course, that's my mom!" Kaori Miyazono was also very proud to have a mother. Although her mother only ran a dessert shop, she never felt that her parents were inferior to other people's parents.

At that moment, she noticed the envious look in Ma Xiandong's eyes, and then she remembered a rumor she had heard before.

"Um, I heard your brother stopped playing the piano because your mother passed away?"

"Yes, that's right. My mother passed away three years ago, when I was eleven years old." Arima Kento's eyes were slightly red. He was also very moved by the maternal love that only existed in his memory.

"After his mother died, Kousei could no longer hear the sound of himself playing the piano, which was one of the reasons why he gave up playing the piano."

Having already begun speaking, Arima Kento told Miyazono Kaoru everything he knew about Kousei, as well as what he remembered.

Arima Kousei's childhood, his own childhood, the funny stories that exist in their memories, and the unbreakable bond between them.

Furthermore, Arima Kento also told Miyazono Kaoru about his 'amnesia,' making her understand why she hadn't seen him in that trio for the past three years.

Chapter Thirty-Nine: Terminal Illness

"You actually had amnesia? I can't tell at all now!" Kaori Miyazono's eyes widened, trying to find something different about Arima Kento.

After looking around, she found that Ma Xiandong was only slightly more handsome than the average person, but otherwise nothing special.

Arima Kento was speechless for a moment. "This is amnesia, okay? It's a problem with your head, you can't tell from your appearance. I have no idea what kind of thought process you have!"

"Hehe, geniuses are usually misunderstood!" Kaori Miyazono stuck out her tongue and said in an exceptionally cute manner.

Arima Kento couldn't help but turn his head. This scene made him lose control again, and he wanted to reach out and hug the girl. She was just too cute.

Seeing Arima Kento's actions, the clever Miyazono Kaoru immediately understood the reason.

Even with her personality, she couldn't help but blush a little, but she didn't turn her head away or do anything like that.

She has made up her mind that she will no longer run away from it.

After the somewhat ambiguous atmosphere subsided, the two continued chatting.

"By the way, why did you change from how you used to look to how you look now?"

Arima Kento's back pain has lessened, but his buttocks are still a bit uncomfortable, and lying down is quite painful.

Besides, it's not polite to stay in a girl's bed.

So he got up from the bed, walked to the bookshelf, looked at the items on the shelf, and took down a picture frame from it.

He pointed to the photo inside the frame, at a picture of a girl with long blonde hair.

It was Kaori Miyazono; he recognized her.

However, Kaori Miyazono in the photo is not dressed like this now; it should be her previous everyday outfit.

Her bangs were quite long, partially obscuring her eyes, and her hair was casually tied over her shoulders, effectively covering part of her face. She was also wearing black-rimmed glasses.

Although her face was small, almost the size of a palm, she was definitely not as pretty or cute as she is now.

With her long, flowing, pale yellow hair, rosy cheeks, slightly messy bangs, and that perpetually 'silly smiling' face, she's undeniably a lovable girl.

People are all drawn to beauty, and Arima Xiandong is no exception. A girl who possesses both inner and outer beauty would surely capture anyone's heart!

Kaori Miyazono also stood up, took the photo frame from Arima Kenji, touched the photo inside, and said with some nostalgia, "Wasn't I quite unremarkable before?"

"Yeah, it is indeed a bit unremarkable." Arima Kento answered truthfully, but his answer wouldn't stop there, otherwise the girl in front of him would nag him.

"However, if you observe carefully, you will still find your strengths." With that, Arima Kento pointed out some of the advantages that Miyazono Kaori used to have.

Upon hearing Arima Kento's words, Kaori Miyazono's eyes lit up with admiration. She said somewhat awkwardly, "It seems you have a keen eye for beauty!"

"So, do you want to know why I've become the way I am now?"

Kaori Miyazono's voice suddenly trembled, as if she was about to say something terrible.

Noticing the girl's expression, Arima Kento quickly said, "If saying this will make you feel bad, then let's not do it!"

"I didn't come to your house to make you cry. I get anxious when I see a girl crying too."

Arima Sento actually omitted a part from his words, which is "the one I like." He only gets anxious when he sees the girl he likes crying.

"Arima-kun is so kind!" Kaori Miyazono's tears welled up in her eyes without her noticing. She reached out to wipe them away, but the tears just wouldn't stop.

Arima Kenjiro wasn't stupid. Seeing this, he quickly found some tissues, took some out, and handed them to Miyazono Kaoru.

After a while, Kaori Miyazono, with slightly red eyes, looked at Kenji Arima.

During this process, Ma Xiandong also experienced the feeling of the idiom "pear blossoms in the rain".

So it turns out there really are people who can cry like a pear blossom in the rain!

"I'm sorry, Xian Dong, I'm sorry you had to see this." Kaori Miyazono's voice was slightly hoarse, a sign that she had been crying for a long time.

"It's okay, I've never seen a girl cry so beautifully. You were beautiful just now too, so beautiful it was..."

"Alright! Stop thinking of words, let's talk about that problem we just discussed."

Kaori Miyazono smiled again. Arima Kenji didn't ask her why she had just cried, and she didn't offer any explanation.

"However, Xian Dongjun, you have to promise me that you will sit quietly and listen to what I say later, otherwise I won't say anything."

Arima Sento felt something was off, but he didn't argue with the girl. Instead, he obediently sat on the edge of the bed, adopting a posture of quiet listening.

"Alright, I'll start now!"

“I have been in poor health since I was a child, and I was in and out of the hospital every few days. I spent most of my childhood in the smell of disinfectant.”

"Then, in order to make me happier, my parents wanted me to learn a musical instrument, to focus on something, and to ignore everything else."

"And that's exactly right. After experiencing your brother Kousei Arima's piano competition, I decided to learn the violin. I told you why: I wanted to perform a duet with my idol, Kousei Arima, on stage."

"Since then, I have been studying the violin diligently, following every instruction of my teacher, and never daring to overstep my bounds."

"However, the memory of that first, joyful piano competition still resonates in my heart. Sometimes I think, that was true music, the music I truly love!"

“I dare not disobey my teachers’ instructions, and I dare not play that kind of music. My teachers all want me to win awards, and I know that they are doing it for my own good.”

"But I'm really not happy. Fortunately, the world of violin music also brings me a lot of different kinds of joy, which is why I'm able to keep going."

“Three years ago, when I learned that my idol, Kousei Arima, was no longer playing the piano, I had other ideas in my mind.”

"When I was in the first year of junior high school, I fainted and was hospitalized and discharged repeatedly. The hospital stays were getting longer and longer, and I could hardly go to school. I know how bad my health is."

“One night, in the hospital waiting room, I saw my dad and mom crying. That’s when I realized something.”

“I don’t have much time left. You’ve seen that medical record, it’s that scary disease. But I’m not afraid of it anymore.”

As she spoke, Kaori Miyazono made a fist gesture to show that she was fearless.

"That's when I decided to take the plunge."

"Because regret can't be taken to heaven, I started to act recklessly."

Chapter Forty: Hope

"I put on contact lenses that I used to find terrifying, ate heartily without caring about my weight, and played the sheet music that looked amazing according to my own will."

"At that time, I realized how joyful it is to play music. At the same time, I also wanted to accomplish something very meaningful. The most meaningful thing in my life."

"That is to pull my idol, Kousei Arima, out of his slump. I want to save one last person. I will do everything in my power to accomplish it."

"So, I lied and said that I liked Watari Ryota from the next class and hoped that Tsubaki could introduce me to him. I thought that I would really like Kamima Kousei in some way, but I didn't expect that Tsubaki would bring you here."

"Actually, I had a bit of a crush on both you and Kousei Arima at first, because you look exactly alike, which I found quite amusing."

"But today I realized that my feelings for Kousei Arima are not romantic love. On the contrary, I feel something different about you."

"I had originally resolved to face the remaining time in my life and move forward without running away, but now I'm a little scared."

"I feel comfortable and wonderful when I'm with you! I'm starting to miss the time we spend together. I don't want to leave you and this world in the near future, maybe even in a month or two."

"What should I do? I...I don't want to die...I don't want to disappear..."

After saying that, Kaori Miyazono started crying again, this time even more intensely than before.

She had only shed tears before, but this time she cried out loud and sobbed uncontrollably.

If he still just hands out tissues when faced with this kind of crying, then he's destined to be single forever!

He moved his body to the girl who was covering her face in pain and gently pulled her into his arms.

The girl didn't resist and continued to cry on Arima Kento's chest, her tears soaking his thin spring clothes, but he didn't find it troublesome at all.

On the contrary, he felt that the girl in his arms was incredibly strong.

He was shocked and heartbroken that such a girl's time was running out.

In both his past lives, he had been in love with a girl, only to discover that she was terminally ill.

If it weren't for her appearance, she would have prepared to radiate the last light and warmth of her life to illuminate her brother, Arima Kousei.

According to her, she would never let anyone know her true purpose or her feelings.

She didn't want her departure to hurt those around her, especially her idol, Arima Kousei.

That's why she lied, saying she liked Watari Ryota and wanted Sawabe Tsubaki to introduce her to him, which is why she agreed to meet him.

Initially, she simply didn't want to hurt Arima Kousei and wanted to save him.