The person who likes me is a yandere.

"Ugh, no, no, no!"

Qianyu abruptly pulled her face out of the pillow. What am I thinking? Is it too early to give up? It seems I have to reclaim my memories. I vaguely remember that my memories of high school are very important; I must remember them. Isn't the battle to reclaim my memories only just begun?

Life is action, and the cycle of daily actions forms daily life. Qianyu has simply returned home, settled into her routine, but hasn't taken any action yet. Instead of wasting time worrying, why not take action? Okay, what to do? What should we do first?

"Hey!"

Qianyu sat down in the chair in front of the desk.

Then he started spinning around vigorously.

Great, my body is inexplicably adapting. Perhaps this is how Qianyu used to go in circles whenever she encountered troubles. This is just everyday life.

"clatter!"

Qianyu then pulled out the drawer on the side.

—Whoosh

Textbooks, notebooks, reference materials. Hmm, this is the school-related area. I opened my notebook and looked at it; it was densely covered with distinctive, angular handwriting. Looks like I was the type who diligently copied the blackboard notes. Good, I've gained a clearer understanding of my past personality. Onward, onward.

Qianyu put away her notebook and casually pulled out the second drawer. From it came test papers and handouts, all school-related. 92, 100, 100, 90… these must be answer sheets, all surprisingly high scores! What's going on? Am I a top student? Wow, Qianyu thought I was definitely an idiot. The largest drawer at the bottom of the side was left, so Qianyu struggled to pull it out.

With a praying expression, Qianyu grabbed the handle and pulled it out. Inside the shallow drawer were jewelry and watches. Okay, this is a space for storing small items. Is there...is there anything...?

The texture suggested frequent use. If Asahi was a writer before the incident, she likely kept a diary. Remembering what Aki Tomoya said, it seemed she did indeed enjoy writing—not on public social media or blogs, but in her own 100% personal handwritten diary. As a clue to recovering her memories, nothing could be better. Asahi placed the black faux leather-covered book on the table, flipped it open, and nervously turned the pages.

"In the restless days of youth, there is always a moment when you give up all the future you can dream of and slowly accept the punishment of reality."

It's so easy to let someone you gradually get to know into your life, but removing them from your memory becomes an insurmountable challenge. Life always surprises you with moments of sweetness, followed by endless longing and waiting.

I understand perfectly well that she doesn't love me, but I love her. Falling in love with the wrong person at the wrong time—perhaps it's all just a trivial joke. Yet, she remains deep within my soul. What should I do?

Reaching the age to fall in love, yet ultimately failing to meet the one I love most, is a tragedy of life and my eternal regret.

Volume Three: I Want to Say Goodbye to You Properly

Prologue

Are you happy?

I do not know.

Are you sick?

Maybe so, I don't know, I haven't seen a doctor.

Why not see a doctor?

I think I'm just overthinking things, it's just something that comes out of boredom.

So how do you feel?

I feel a bit unwell; my brain and heart aren't in sync.

What kind of feeling is that?

I know what I should do, but I can't do it; I feel like I can't breathe.

Could you give an example?

For example, I know I should be positive and motivated, but I can't do it. I tell myself I should read more books, but I don't want to do anything.

Are you afraid of being alone?

Sometimes I'm scared and feel like I should go out and talk to a friend, but I'd rather endure the loneliness and stay home alone.

Why would you rather be alone?

I don't know, the brighter the sunshine outside, the lonelier I feel, and the more afraid I am of sunny days.

So what are you going to do?

I don't know, let's just leave it at that. Actually, I wanted to see a doctor, but I think the doctor would tell me that I might be too idle, so I'm overthinking things, and that I should exercise more and participate in more activities.

Why don't you join the activity too?

No, I don't want to. It doesn't mean anything to me. Even if I'm laughing, I only feel that my face is laughing. My heart isn't. My heart tells me that I'm not happy and that I want to go home and be alone.

There's nothing I can do about it. I don't know how I can help you.

It's okay, I should be able to adjust myself. I'm just prone to pessimism, I don't know why I'm thinking, maybe I'm a bit extreme. I'll just take it one step at a time, maybe I'll see the sun shine again and stop being afraid.

Chapter 1: Aren't you guys annoying?

This summer, Tohka lost her memory!

Every time I think of her, I always picture her standing quietly alone in a classroom bathed in the glow of the setting sun.

But the most beautiful image that remains unchanged in my mind is the scene from the first time I observed someone!

I think she is the most beautiful girl in the whole school, even though her appearance may not be the most beautiful, and her personality may not be the most perfect. Please allow me to say this.

Her skin was as clear and translucent as snow, her long hair was jet black and shiny, her face was small and delicate, and her nose was high and beautiful with light red cheeks. Her small mouth and slender eyes were particularly eye-catching.

Although her slender figure may seem delicate, the vitality she exudes in every gesture can instantly captivate people.

Her cuteness is completely different from that of idol girls; she's the kind of beauty that's rarely seen.

In addition to her excellent academic performance, she is also an all-rounder in sports.

Moreover, she also holds the position of disciplinary committee member, a position that only exemplary students in the class are qualified to hold, and she has always performed her duties conscientiously and responsibly.

If you were to ask what kind of person Tohka is, my answer might be something else, but for others, you would probably get a similar answer.

"Tohka is a righteous person."

She never tolerates any form of injustice. No one questions her role as the class disciplinary committee member in maintaining class discipline. So, from the beginning of high school until this year, she has held this position. She is a person full of a strong sense of justice.

A perfect girl—I don't know who described her that way. And it probably is, in fact, as that statement suggests.

She has lost her memory.

I heard that the accident happened at a crossroads near the city center station, where there was a pedestrian overpass and traffic could pass through from all four directions.

The unexpected tragedy that happened to someone they knew ignited the gossip-loving hearts of the students, who were already extremely bored, and the news quickly spread throughout the entire school.

Some say she rushed into the road to save a child from being hit by a car.

Some say that she was helping an elderly woman who had fallen in the middle of the road when she had bad luck and was involved in the accident.

Some say that she had a conflict with her lover and couldn't think straight, which led her to have suicidal thoughts.

Someone said: "Hey, I heard they encountered danger on the mountain?"

Some people say: Wasn't it because he was provoked after being attacked by thugs?

Someone said: Hey, I heard it was caused by the black-clad man's memory eraser, is that true?

Some say: The truth is probably still unknown...

Because of her popularity in the class and school, her amnesia directly caused her classmates, whose relationships had cooled after a whole summer break, to become warmer again.

In any case, Tohka's amnesia is a topic of great interest. Just like a big star in the entertainment industry, Tohka is a star in the school. No matter what she does, people will be watching!

She is outstanding in both appearance and academics.

Fortunately, she was not seriously injured, only suffering minor cuts and scrapes. However, the amnesia caused by the concussion is still extremely serious!

She should be resting in the hospital right now!

Naturally, the students' curiosity couldn't be contained. If you ask why, I can only tell you that firstly, it's Tohka's popularity at school, and secondly, it's amnesia—something you only see on TV has happened in real life. And it's Tohka who has amnesia.

Subsequently, a plan was formed for Tohka's suitors to visit her. Of course, this was also very unrealistic, so it was rejected without hesitation by the doctors in the hospital. It was already against the rules for so many people to visit her in the hospital, and the key point was that they were also very noisy. Shouldn't the other patients rest?

Of course, don't be too disappointed. The doctor said she only needs to receive conservative treatment in the hospital for a few days and should be able to return to school before the opening ceremony. Her suitors are overjoyed...

Upon hearing this news, the curiosity that had been building up throughout the summer was about to burst forth from the entire class.

Every day, piles of gossip-filled text messages are sent to my phone.

If you're wondering why this was sent to my phone, it's because Tohka is so popular that a die-hard fan created a Baidu Tieba forum specifically for her called 'Tohka Bar'. Isn't that amazing? The power of fans is truly incredible!

Almost every day, gossip is constantly being posted to the 'Tohka Bar'. Please don't misunderstand, I didn't want to join this forum. I was forced to. As for who forced me, I won't say more!

Normally, everyone would be hoping that summer vacation would pass slowly, but this summer vacation is destined to be different. Everyone is talking about Tohka all the time. I really want to complain: you guys don't get tired of talking about it, but I'm tired of listening to it!

No matter who it is, they keep referring to Tohka-san, Tohka-san.

Throughout the summer vacation, whenever I had free time, I would talk about Tohka, Tohka, Tohka.

I have something I'd like to say, and I don't know if you'd be willing to let me, but I want to use it to express the frustration I'm feeling!

Upon hearing this question, the angel and the devil that immediately popped into my head, unusually, clasped hands and simultaneously replied, "Why not?!"

Oh, I really have to tell you!

The angel inside me turned into a demon and slapped me hard across the forehead. "You son of a bitch, just say it!"

"Aren't you idiots annoying me?!"

Chapter Two: Amnesia

I personally dislike opening ceremonies, and I was just about to pretend to be sick to get through it when I encountered the cunning health teacher who saw through my plan. Well, I had no choice but to reluctantly walk into the classroom!

As soon as I entered the classroom, I was surrounded by a group of silly classmates, which made me extremely embarrassed. I don't even want to talk about the reason. I finally managed to get to my seat by breaking through the encirclement.

As soon as I entered the classroom, Aki Tomoya had already noticed me. Seeing me looking like I was escaping from a sea of ​​suffering, with an undisguised smile on my face, I really wanted to go over and slap him!

He stood up, raised both index fingers, and pointed at me. Well, we've always greeted each other with this mysterious gesture. You can think of it as a unique way of greeting someone with chuunibyou (middle school syndrome)!

"Oh, good morning."

"What does that gesture mean?" Although we often greeted each other like that before, I felt something was off this time. Looking at the ordinary-looking boy in front of me, I knew exactly how strange his personality was!

He raised an eyebrow, a slight smile playing on his lips as he looked at me. "Oh, Qianyu-kun, what a surprise! I was sure you'd be off today."

My lips twitched. Don't let his honest appearance fool you; he's incredibly cunning. I shrugged helplessly. "I was hoping to get away with it, but that health teacher found out!"

"Of course, that health teacher is quite sensitive!"