Crossover anime, starting with Hachiman Hikigaya replacing Subaru Natsuki!

"Idiot, that couldn't be a joke or a consolation; that was my honest opinion."

"Hachiman Hikigaya sighed and tentatively opened his eyes slightly. The beautiful scenery that came into view almost made him forget to breathe for a moment."

"As if grasping at her only support, her eyelashes trembled slightly, her features were well-proportioned and exquisite to the point of being almost unparalleled. So beautiful, so stunning, Emilia leaned trustingly on his shoulder, exuding a soft aura. Her fair and tender face constantly attracted the covetousness of men."

"Besides that, her body, her flawless figure, was something Hachiman Hikigaya dared not look at. He gently tilted his head back and looked at the cold stone ceiling."

"After being devoured by Satella, he absorbed many fragmented memories."

"There are Beatrice's, there is Elsa's, there is Merry's, there is Garfield's, and there is Emilia's."

"After Pandora used her powers to frame Juss for killing Fortuna, Emilia, whose power went berserk, buried the entire forest. She slept for a full hundred years before awakening again."

"At that time, Emilia had nothing but Parker, including clothes."

"Her awakening, her innocent and naive nature, her pure white body, were deeply imprinted in Hachiman Hikigaya's mind."

"'Rem...'"

"He could only call out to Rem, to the girl he had decided to marry, to his hero, and even so, he was still at a loss."

"In this perilous situation, with a host of problems waiting to be solved, Hachiman Hikigaya felt no romantic feelings, no particular impulses, just..."

"The long-suppressed desire for the silver-haired girl in my arms, which had been deliberately suppressed for a long time, burst forth, tearing apart the boulder that had been pressing down on it, growing strong and uncontrollable, surging and turbulent."

What Hachiman Hikigaya saw, what was he thinking—these are things that even someone with a god's-eye view couldn't see; they could only speculate and guess.

However, his incredibly innocent expression—wanting to look at Emilia but not daring to, wanting to keep his distance but lacking the courage to push her away—perfectly illustrated his attitude.

Ram was trembling with anger and wanted to curse, but considering Rem's presence, she ultimately didn't dare to say anything harsh to Hachiman Hikigaya. She just snorted coldly and gritted her teeth.

"How dare he? How dare he? Rem has only been dead for a short time! And now, at a time like this, he still has the mind to talk about love! Don't go too far, Hachiman Hikigaya!"

Rem held her sister's hand, biting her lower lip. "Please don't say that, sister... Rem is okay, it's okay... really, is it okay?"

It's okay...? How could that possibly be possible?

Rem felt a pang of heartache, and was so sad she almost cried. But she also knew that there was nothing she could do. "Without a pillar of support, no matter how strong a person is, they can't keep going... It's just that Rem is too useless."

"If it's Lady Emilia..."

Rem shook her head slightly. If it were Lady Emilia, at least it would be barely acceptable.

At the same time, Ram's murderous intent toward Rem's biggest rival had become unshakable.

On the main street of the capital, Parker was so excited that he punched and kicked the air.

Emilia, with both hands tucked into her chest, blinked, quickly lowered her head, her face flushed. But as soon as she lowered her head, she couldn't help but glance up slightly, then turned her head away and glanced up again.

An equal amount of panic and happiness quickly welled up within her, leaving her completely at a loss for what to do.

“Puck…am I really shameless? Am I…taking advantage of a moment when Rem wasn’t around…?”

Emilia pursed her lips. She didn't regret it; in fact, she was very happy and pleased that her future self could be so proactive. However, she felt very sorry for Rem, and this feeling of apology was genuine.

"What nonsense are you talking about, Leah? If we're talking about who came first, it's you!" Puck put his hands on his hips, relentlessly lecturing, "It was the sad little maid who took advantage of your absence from the capital, understand?"

"Is...is that so?"

"Yes, that's it!"

Parker looked at his daughter, whom he had begun to mislead, and nodded with satisfaction.

181. Liar, big liar

"When he gently lifted the sleeping Emilia in a princess carry, Hachiman Hikigaya, who had just emerged from the grave, once again deeply felt how perfect this girl was, just like Rem. Her light weight could only be described as wonderful."

"Garfield and Ram, who witnessed this scene, did not say anything. They already understood that Emilia's first challenge trial had failed. After Hachiman Hikigaya explained the situation briefly, they went back to their respective places."

"Hardly and stealthily, afraid of waking Emilia, Hachiman Hikigaya only breathed a sigh of relief after he got her to bed and covered her with a blanket, and then turned to leave."

"...No, help me!..."

"The moment he turned around, a trembling, unconscious murmur made him stop in his tracks. Emilia's slender, soft little hand reached out and grabbed his arm."

"Hachiman Hikigaya turned around and looked at Emilia's terrified tears in her sleep, and involuntarily clenched his fists."

"Being devoured by the rabbits, driven to suicide in solitude, consumed by Satella... that's enough."

"Enough is enough...so many ways to die, so many deaths."

"Emilia, she died so many times, in so many ways."

“I want you to live, Emilia. I don’t want you to die anymore… I will help you, I absolutely will, so I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.”

"For the sake of your most precious life, I can't be with you, I can't sit here with you, I have to race against time."

"...Goodnight, Emilia, and...see you tomorrow."

"Click."

"It was late at night when we left the bedroom, which was filled with a faint, pleasant fragrance. Everyone in the Sanctuary was asleep inside, including Garfield."

"In this situation, only one person is still walking around outside."

"Hachiman Hikigaya returned to the grave he knew all too well. He took a deep breath and stepped inside."

"This save point, this place that caused Emilia so much pain, when we arrived, Hachiman Hikigaya sat by the wall. He didn't shout or yell. He knew that Echidna could see him and understood his intentions."

"If she's willing to see me, then I'm sure I'll be able to see her."

“If you don’t bring me into your tea party this time, I will never come to you again, Echidna.”

"Using the most understated tone to deliver the most effective threat is his insurance. As for the thirst for knowledge required to enter the tea party, Hachiman Hikigaya believes that the thirst for knowledge he possesses at this moment is absolutely one of the highest in history."

"The moment after his threat was made, his spirit surged, and Hachiman Hikigaya felt an irresistible force pulling his soul and consciousness into a certain place."

"Take a good look at this non-existent present..."

"Buzz—"

"Hachiman Hikigaya's eyes widened. The sight before him made his scalp tingle. It was more terrifying than any time before, and every cell in his body was screaming in agony."

"It was reflected, his pupils reflected, reflected his own corpse."

"Liar, liar, liar! Hachiman is a liar, a big liar!"

"That was the only time he truly resolved to commit suicide, after the defeat of Petitchius, when he caught up with the caravan transporting the white whale and discovered that Rem had been attacked."

"His body lay cold in the forest, blood gushing from the wound on his neck. He was no longer breathing, his sword clutched in his hand."

"Even Phyllis's best efforts could not save his life; she collapsed to the ground, utterly dejected, while Wilhelm swayed precariously."

"With tears streaming down her face, Emilia looked at the suicide note he left for her over and over again, then turned her head to look at Hachiman Hikigaya's body again and again, wavering between hope and despair."

"Liar, liar, liar... Why, why? Didn't you say you could come back to life? Didn't you say there was nothing to worry about? Didn't you say you wouldn't really die? Didn't you say you were my knight? You wouldn't lie to me like that, right? So... please, stop joking, stop playing pranks, wake up, come back to life, Hachiman, Hachiman, ah, ahhhhh, wooaaaaaahhhh, Hachiman, you big liar, ahhhhhh..."

"Heartbreaking, desperate, and numb, even more desperate than her cries of fear and pain after participating in so many trials."

"I'm here... I'm here... Emilia! Emilia! ..."

"The shouts could not be heard. Everyone, the whole world, was disappearing and fading away. Like a drowning person floating to the shore, Hachiman Hikigaya, whose consciousness returned to reality, gasped for breath. His eyes were filled with indescribable complex emotions."

"But before he could gather his thoughts and regain his composure, the trial of the present, following the trial of the past, struck again, leaving him no room to catch his breath."

"No! No! I absolutely will not allow it! If you must bury someone, bury Lady Emilia's body! My dearest friend, my friend, since he had Lady Crusch testify and write that suicide note, it proves he was right! My dearest friend, Hachiman Hikigaya, he will not die like this, he will be resurrected, he can be brought back to life! You all leave! Leave! All of you leave!! I will wait, I will wait, as the sinner who murdered my dearest friend, I will wait until the truth in his letter comes to light, and all of you leave!!"

"With disheveled hair and a frenzied demeanor, Julius, standing before the corpse of Hachiman Hikigaya, showed none of the elegance he once possessed as the finest knight. Like a roaring lion, he brandished his sword at everyone who approached him, and even his lord Anastasia could not persuade him to abandon that unrealistic delusion."

"Hahaha, hahahaha... How long do I have to wait? How long do I have to wait? I'll wait as long as I can, I will... As a sinner, I will... I'll wait for you, Hachiman Hikigaya."

"Take a good look at this non-existent present..."

"After being killed by Elsa in the royal capital."

"Take a good look at this non-existent present..."

"After being cursed to death by the mansion's monsters."

"Take a good look at this non-existent present..."

"After being forcibly distorted by sloth."

"Take a good look at this non-existent present..."

"Every death, every world, every outcome, every single time, every single time, every single time, every single time, every single time..."

"Take a good look at this non-existent present..."

"Take a good look at this non-existent present..."

"Take a good look at this non-existent present..."

"Ah, ahh... ahh ...

182. A man whose strings will never snap.

"Countless repetitions, replaying the scene of my failure, witnessing countless times the world after my death, drowning, unable to breathe, like a diver, diving deeper and deeper, my lungs are full of water and there is no oxygen in them, and it is still filling up, about to burst my lungs."

"From the first death to the most recent one, when I was killed by Satella, I experienced all the possibilities in their entirety, and saw them from beginning to end."

"W-what is this? What is this thing? Hey!"

Kirino Kousaka's eyes widened. She swallowed hard, trembling all over, and scurried up behind her brother Kyosuke Kousaka. Abandoning her tsundere attitude, she clung to his back, but she still felt terrified.

Although Emilia and Julius are pitiful in those worlds, in those "realities that shouldn't exist," and one can feel pity and shed tears just by looking at them, that's only if you only see them.

And her perspective—no, it should be said that the entire world's perspective is definitely more focused on Hachiman Hikigaya.

Seeing his eyes filled with blood, his jaw clenched so tightly that the veins bulged, seeing his breathing and heartbeat becoming increasingly abnormal, seeing him involuntarily shedding two lines of tears, seeing him clearly wanting to avoid it but still having to watch it all.

"very scary…"

All that can be felt is terror.

"Echidna... is really scary!"

"She's manipulating me, she's forcing me... This is too much, so much, so incredibly much!"

Even though she might curse Hachiman Hikigaya as a scumbag when her low emotional intelligence prevents her from seeing the truth, and then stubbornly refuse to apologize afterwards, even someone like that, Kirino Kousaka still feels genuinely indignant on Hachiman Hikigaya's behalf.

However, even his anger towards Echidna who was manipulating the trials and his feelings of injustice for Hachiman Hikigaya could not suppress his fear of it.

It's almost like the kind of trauma that haunts you when you see Otto being eaten by the rabbits; it's something that will haunt you for life.