My Romance Simulation with Them

You've become friends with Goto Ichiri, and you tell her that the idea of ​​teaching her for three or four hours every day was just a joke; she already finds it enough that she can dedicate some of her time to guiding you.

Hearing this, Goto Ichiri finally felt relieved, but behind this relief seemed to lie a hint of regret typical of young girls.

[A new day begins. You wake up according to your usual routine and go to class as usual.]

[The fact that you took the initiative to look for Goto Ichiri in Class 3 of the first year yesterday seems to have spread among the students. Everyone is talking about it, and some don't understand why you, who are in the heart of the school, would take the initiative to talk to someone as difficult to get along with as Goto Ichiri.]

But you don't care. For someone with your highly self-disciplined personality, the opinions of others are completely irrelevant.

Lunch break has arrived as scheduled, what do you decide?

Part 1: Going to keep the appointment to learn guitar.

[Secondly, learning guitar is just an excuse; Goto-kun, be my girlfriend! Let's go straight to the point!]

[3. Anime heroines are really hard to handle, maybe I should try dating other girls instead.]

[IV. Personal Simulation]

Nanxiang glanced at it briefly, and after confirming that it was an easy question, he chose the first option.

Having had previous encounters with Goto Ichiri, he knew exactly what kind of socially anxious woman she was.

The second option is a recipe for disaster; there's no need to even consider it.

As for the third option... why does he always want to play with other girls? It's just a simulator after all; it can't imitate his pure and devoted heart at all.

You decide to learn guitar from Goto Ichiri. Although the guitar is just an excuse to get to know her, you feel that you should give it your all rather than just going through the motions. After all, if you're going to spend a long time together in the future, this is a responsible way to show your commitment to your relationship with Goto Ichiri.

You diligently practiced guitar for a week. And in your spare time, you also chatted with Ichiri Goto.

In the borrowed music room, you chatted with Goto Ichiri. Under your witty and engaging conversation, Goto Ichiri gradually forgot her nervousness and started making small talk.

Memories begin to surface.

Having already taught Nango Toki basic guitar chords for a week, Goto Ichiri, who had relaxed somewhat, cautiously began to speak:

“Um... Senior Nango.”

"what's up?"

To Ichiri Goto, Nango Toki still shines as brightly as ever today.

Bathed in the afterglow of the sunlight, he held the guitar at an angle with his fair hands, his handsome face displaying an indescribable sense of focus.

It seems that compared to the sunlight,

This made Goto Ichiri, who was used to hiding in dark and damp corners, feel ashamed.

She looked anxiously at her toes, her fingers unconsciously twisting together.

"Why, why do you want to learn guitar from me? Senior Nanxiang, if you just clap your hands, there should be plenty of girls in school who can play guitar willing to teach you, right?"

Yes.

Although he had been instructing Nango for a week, Goto Ichiri still didn't understand.

As a popular figure on campus like Nanxiang, if he just asked, many girls who had learned guitar would be willing to come up and teach him—not to mention two or three hours, even more than ten hours, or even one-on-one all night long... that wouldn't be a problem, right?

Rather than being with someone like her who doesn't fit in and even has difficulty communicating...

Aren't there many, many more suitable candidates?

She didn't understand, so she wanted to ask.

But just asking this question seemed to have used up all of the girl's courage and strength.

After she spoke, she only dared to shrink her neck and lower her head, and didn't even have the courage to look Nanxiang directly in the eye.

"It's better to be with someone like Goto than..."

It seemed that he had seen through her thoughts.

Nanxiang put down his guitar and fell into deep thought.

Senior Nanxiang is thinking. He really does think I'm simply not good enough, right?

No...maybe this is better...rather than spending all my time with a clown like me...this week has been fun enough.

Nango's silence plunged Goto Ichiri, who was born with an inferiority complex, into even deeper self-doubt.

A bittersweet feeling welled up inside me.

Socially anxious individuals are creatures extremely adept at self-harm.

They can become so happy and elated by the approval of others that they become carried away with pride.

They will also feel heartache and sadness because of the harm done by others.

Just then, Nango Toki spoke up, his expression calm and sincere: "What if I said that I just want to learn guitar with Goto-kun?"

There was not a trace of falsehood in these words.

"Why...?"

The timid Goto Ichiri shrank back, clearly not expecting such an answer.

"What's so surprising?"

Nango Toki pressed his fingers on the guitar strings again: "Gold always shines. Goto-kun plays the guitar so well. Putting aside his cute appearance, there will always be people who will be willing to learn about Goto-kun's outstanding qualities in the future."

"My...my strengths...?"

Goto Ichiri muttered the word softly, his gaze timidly shooting from behind his bangs at the boy in front of him.

Nanxiang's sincere words, devoid of any lies, deeply moved her, who had lived in darkness for many years and whose life was devoid of any color.

Social anxiety disorder, if it were presented in an animation, might actually be a very interesting concept.

But no one has ever truly considered the feelings of someone who actually suffers from social anxiety disorder.

They have an intense desire to communicate with others.

But deep down, he felt apprehensive about this kind of communication.

Afraid of making others uncomfortable, they can only close themselves off.

Conflicted, contradictory, withdrawn.

Over time, they become taciturn, unable to communicate with others, and may even make others feel uncomfortable.

This long-standing sense of loneliness has lingered in my heart for years, and the sky is always gloomy. The only way I can escape reality is to retreat into the online world, practice guitar diligently, and gain some satisfaction from my inner vanity.

She knew that many things in the online world were virtual, but it was her only social and emotional refuge.

Feeling inferior and self-pitying, yet also indulging in self-pity.

After talking with her for a week, Nango learned that this was the main theme of Goto Ichiri's life, which was filled with extreme fear and anxiety.

Difficult woman!

"So, how about I be the first person to get to know Goto-kun?"

So, in the sunlight, he reached out his hand to Goto Ichiri, who was cowering timidly in the shadows.

hesitate.

A long period of hesitation and silence.

Just as Nanxiang was sighing inwardly, wondering if he had been too hasty.

Her fair, slender hand, trembling slightly, suddenly and with imperceptible speed, grasped his outstretched hand.

Nango looked at Goto Ichiri with surprise as he quickly withdrew his hand.

"I...I will try my best!"

She spoke in a trembling voice in the sunlight.

The gaze hidden beneath Liu Hai's head remained timid.

But her overly pale face was flushed with a rosy blush.

Goto Ichiri mustered up some courage.

She was as beautiful as a flower.

Your importance in Goto Ichiri's heart has increased.

Chapter Six. Everything seemed to be moving in a positive direction.

Your relationship with Goto Ichiri has deepened, and you hold a more important place in her heart.

After chatting, you realize that the girl's nerves are as delicate as a hair, and would snap if stretched too tight. She is filled with fear and anxiety towards the outside world, and her humble attitude towards others is the only way she can protect herself.

[Because she spends most of her time practicing guitar, Goto Ichiri's grades are very poor. She has never had any friends, never speaks to anyone, and has even considered dropping out of school several times. You, who are willing to become her friend, are the only bright spot in her school life, and you also gain a deeper understanding of this girl.]

Online, she's a YouTuber with 30,000 followers and a master guitarist; in real life, however, she's incredibly vulnerable. She's already content just having you willing to talk to her.

During a casual conversation, you hear her mention that she joined a rock band outside of school, but she lacks confidence in her playing. She also worries that joining the band might reduce her interaction time with you, and she's considering quitting.

[When Goto Ichiri confides her troubles to you for the first time, you decide—]

[1. Since Ichiri thinks giving up is the better option, then let's give up.]

[II. Just a couple of perfunctory sentences]

Thirdly, this might be a rare opportunity; encourage her to give it a try.

[IV. Free Simulation]

"Um..."

Looking at these options, Nango Toki fell into thought.

The second option is completely unnecessary to consider; it's simply a death option.

Therefore, the final choice should be between the first and the third.

They followed up on what Goto Ichiri had said and tried to persuade her to give up.

Should we encourage her to keep trying and keep going?

Undoubtedly, going along with Goto Ichiri's own wishes and persuading her to give up would increase her positive feelings towards him. Similarly, having completely lost communication with the outside world, she would definitely rely on and trust him more as the only person willing to listen to her troubles.

but...