Even as a "normie," I'm completely oblivious to it.

When she met Yu Zhe, she struggled with whether to try to get close to him and pursue her own love. In the end, she chose to muster her courage and go for it without hesitation.

And now... she has everything. Her part-time job with Xiaomeng pays very well, and Yuzhe gives her living allowance from time to time. She is not short of money at all, and can even have some left over to give to her father to support his idea of ​​starting a new business.

In terms of their relationship, she has already obtained Yu Zhe's permission and has already hugged him.

Thinking of this, a blush still involuntarily rose on her face as she put her laptop into her suitcase.

Ah... thinking about it, it still feels unbelievable.

In short, she has everything she had ever dreamed of, and never even dared to imagine.

Clearly

That's correct!

but...

But why does it feel like I'm more restricted than before...?

The answer to this question is actually quite simple.

When a person has nothing, they can put aside all distractions and fight for themselves.

When people have a lot, they tend to worry more, fearing loss and missing out.

Qin Ruoke slammed the lid of her unpacked suitcase shut, leaned back on the bed, and stared at the ceiling.

In my mind, Yu Zhe's smiling face, which appeared every day, reappeared.

She frantically shook her head, trying to shake that smiling face out of the sea of ​​thoughts!

But... how can something so deeply ingrained be so easily shaken off?

Giving up on continuing her futile efforts, what squeezed out of her throat was a soft, coquettish sound that she herself was unaware of!

"Yu Zhe... Waaah..."

!

Qin Ruoke suddenly sat up!

He then grasped his left breast, which was easily encircled by his palm.

Among those, the heart rate can be clearly felt through bone conduction.

Qin Ruoke herself was shocked.

What kind of pathetic sound did I just make?

Her cherry-colored eyes were filled with disbelief, and... a touch of tenderness.

He placed his palm on his left chest... That's what Yu Zhe did too that day.

Holding this position, Qin Ruoke lay back down on the bed, gave a bitter laugh, and mocked her own lack of ambition.

I'm actually more dependent on Yuzhe than I ever imagined...

In Yu Zhe's eyes, Qin Ruoke will always be that strong girl who fights for her own life in the rain and doesn't rely on anyone, full of human charm.

But in reality... Qin Ruoke herself knew that she had already undergone some subtle changes.

Every human being experiences unease, seeks reliance, and has their own idealized vision of the future.

She hasn't told Yu Zhe about being admitted to the Capital University yet.

Because Yu Zhe is not home today.

She wanted to tell him this in person tomorrow, to hear his congratulations.

Then... happily, together with everyone, we went to the airport to see her off on the first day of school, looking forward to our reunion a few years later.

That's exactly how it is... We should be happy.

But for some reason, Qin Ruoke's eyes were filled with a long-lost mist.

The tears that even the heavy burdens of life couldn't bring her to shed were now so evident.

Qin Ruoke gritted her teeth and resolutely wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes.

No...this won't do.

I need to get myself in the right state of mind by tomorrow morning!

Yes, if I want Yu Zhe to be happy to see me off, first of all, I myself should be happy to report the situation to Yu Zhe.

Tomorrow, keep smiling, and with the attitude that comes with realizing your dreams, talk to your loved ones and share the fruits of victory.

That would be wonderful...

But how do you adjust your mindset?

Qin Ruoke squinted, resting her arm on her forehead as she pondered.

Inadvertently.

"...ah?!"

Her right hand... was resting on her chest, and because she was thinking and tense, she accidentally gripped it too tightly!

this...

This feeling... is not as real as Yu Zhe doing it himself, but it's still acceptable, allowing her to recall the day she played and joked with Yu Zhe.

The memories continue to unfold.

When Yang Qiuyun was in Klomer, she once held a meeting with the girls.

The topic of that meeting was how they could alleviate their anxiety when Yu Zhe wasn't around.

Although Yang Qiuyun was just being silly... before she started this bizarre little meeting, she really didn't believe that any girl would be completely clueless about this.

As it turns out... there really were two oddballs, Xiao Lizhi and Qin Ruoke.

Yang Qiuyun was overflowing with a sense of responsibility, and she vividly and figuratively showed the two of them how to generate their own electricity.

What is Qin Ruoke's greatest strength?

That, of course, is the ability to learn!

Even though it was just a few words, she fully grasped the essence of it.

And so... her two slender hands were already in place where they belonged on her body.

She repeatedly reminded herself of this.

These things need to be done in moderation, let's make that clear from the start! This isn't because of any astringency or anything, it's just to adjust my state of mind!

Okay... shy Qin Ruoke decided to turn off the lights first.

Then I crawled into bed and started learning and practicing new knowledge.

But self-control is not something that can be easily achieved.

.............

That night... Qin Ruoke remained curled up in her blanket like a caterpillar until 2 a.m.

So much so that when she went to the bathroom to shower at five in the morning, her eyelids were drooping and she had obvious dark circles under her eyes.

"Ha... I'm so stupid, really..."

Qin Ruoke was taking a shower in the bathroom, the water flowing over every inch of her skin, which was torture for her at the moment.

Aunt Yang...you said that self-generated electricity can relieve emotions, but you didn't say...this varies from person to person.

Yes, practice has proven that this method is very unsuitable for Qin Ruoke!

She tried until dawn, but after three rounds of feeling utterly bored... she felt no relaxation or lightness in her body at all.

—On the contrary, it's getting worse! Like a fire, even a cold shower can't put it out!

She no longer dared to touch her own body.

Her mind was filled with Yu Zhe; she desperately needed that one effective way to "put out the fire."

After taking a shower... Qin Ruoke was still too shy to send Yu Zhe any messages.

The message made me want to go back to bed and take a nap.

But her occasional squirming body was telling her that wanting to sleep was out of the question!

This was the first time Qin Ruoke had realized... that her body was so arousing!

She slapped her forehead, turned over, grabbed her phone, and decided to send a message to Yu Zhe.

"I can't sleep at night. Please come as soon as you wake up. Thank you."

No need to ask anymore, every word here represents a whole night of hardship and pain.

When Yu Zhe saw the news, he rushed over. After being shocked, he spent the whole morning successfully "putting out the fire" for Xiao Ruoke. But that's another story.

In short... this was the night Qin Ruoke learned she had been accepted into a university.

It's absolutely a sight to behold!!

39. The most beautiful boast

"Ugh...! Ugh, I'm exhausted. Xiao Ruoke is really... despite being so strong, she's quite the hidden talent in some aspects."

Yu Zhe took a deep breath of the refreshing late summer breeze and sighed softly at the sky.

He's not a riddle-maker; the meaning of this sentence is very superficial, but probably only he himself understands it.

At least, Xiao Meng, who was walking beside Yu Zhe and holding his little hand, didn't understand.

"Hidden talent? In what other aspects is Qin Ruoke hiding her true abilities?"

Xiao Meng cutely counted on her fingers, "Qin Ruoke is good at studying, hardworking, strong, and cares about face... uh, caring about face doesn't seem like a virtue? Yu Zhe, Yu Zhe, what aspect were you referring to just now?"

"Little one... it's alright if you don't know this."

"What?! I'm a fully grown adult now!"

Xiao Meng stood on tiptoe, indicating that she wasn't a child and there was nothing she couldn't listen to!

Yu Zhe just smiled bitterly and remained silent.

You can hear me, but I'm a little embarrassed to say it.