All the goddesses in the world are lusting after my body.

But then again, women's minds are notoriously complex and unpredictable, and extremely changeable.

Jiang Tangyue was showing An Hongdou his feelings for An Qianxi.

An Hongdou couldn't help but have a thought that was completely opposite to her original intention, and even somewhat selfish.

Her narrowed eyes grew increasingly deep and dangerous.

Why is it that An Qianxi is able to have all of this that I can't have?

Why is it that she has such a gentle and handsome guy who likes her? Even in An Hongdou's twenty years of life experience, Jiang Tang is undoubtedly the number one among the men she has met.

She has it all, so why don't I have it...?

What she can have, I can have too!

Countless times, An Hongdou would wake up from her ordinary family and cramped bed, clenching her fists in the middle of the night, determined not to let tears fall from her eyes.

She wanted to be better than her sister; she wanted to have everything her sister had, and she wanted to seize what her sister didn't have.

At school, An Hongdou was known for her approachability, her lack of airs despite being a goddess, and her ability to get along with anyone on an equal footing.

Does this mean that she has never opened her heart to anyone, and that this is her so-called "perfection" requirement for herself?

However, as we all know, there are no perfect things or people in this world. Even someone as beautiful as Venus had her arms knocked off, making her a so-called "imperfect perfection."

Imperfection is imperfection, and perfection is perfection; how can they be confused?

An Hongdou is the Venus de Milo with the missing arms. Her missing arms are hidden in her heart, and only now are they beginning to show.

Another point worth mentioning is that she actually really likes it when Jiang Tang calls her "sister".

However, the premise is that the connotation of this title is not "An Qianxi's older sister".

Are you really that obsessed with my sister?

An Hongdou suddenly asked a question that was ambiguous.

A voice, audible only to herself, echoed in her heart.

—So what about me? Am I... not as good as her?

270 You become my person

Feelings cannot be described simply by the word "infatuation".

Jiang Tang didn't know why An Hongdou suddenly asked him that question, but being fascinated was indeed a way of expressing feelings.

Jiang Tang couldn't deny his fascination with An Qianxi, so he nodded slowly and earnestly.

In short, Jiang Tang will not refuse the opportunity to express his feelings for An Qianxi.

This is not a show, but a manifestation of sincerity.

He thought that as An Qianxi's older sister, An Hongdou would want to see his sincerity, his seriousness and affection for her younger sister.

But they didn't notice that An Hongdou's eyes suddenly deepened, as if they had turned from a calm lake into an abyss.

"So what's it about her that you're so fascinated by? Her figure, her looks—you can't escape the common tendency to pay attention to these things, can you?"

As An Hongdou spoke, she turned her chair toward Jiang Tang, tucked her long, dark hair behind her ear, and puffed out her proud chest so that Jiang Tang could more directly appreciate her figure and appearance.

Her lips curled up slightly, a smile that wasn't genuine, as if she were saying something.

How about it? Not worse than the An Qianxi you remember, right?

Jiang Tang didn't want to think of An Qianxi's older sister that way, believing it was just his imagination. He thought An Hongdou was a gentle older sister who took good care of her younger sister.

She certainly wouldn't put on airs in front of herself; she turned around to better examine herself, just like the question she asked.

She seemed to see herself as a man who only lusted after her sister's body.

"...Yes, I will pay attention to these things, but there are more attractive qualities in Qianxi. Her beauty and gentleness are indescribable. All the little things we did together, every time she made allowances for me, and every time she rushed into my arms, I felt the warmth."

"Everything about her makes me feel that she is who she is, An Qianxi, the person I love..."

"Sorry, I suddenly said a lot of nonsensical things."

Jiang Tang simply cannot describe the feeling of being together forever, the deep affection, and the way he looked back.

After more than a year of pretending to be her boyfriend, he had unknowingly fallen in love with her for real.

Jiang Tang's feelings for An Qianxi are somewhat similar to his feelings for Shi Xue, but also different, because An Qianxi is An Qianxi, and Shi Xue is Shi Xue.

Lilith also has her own beauty and clumsiness.

Even though he couldn't describe everything, Jiang Tang still hoped that An Hongdou in front of him could understand.

He understands his feelings for An Qianxi and wants to gain her approval.

Only in this way can we have the opportunity to reconnect with An Qianxi.

Only then can I have... a chance to win her back.

But he still didn't notice.

As he spoke, his emotions deepened.

An Hongdou's slender, white, and well-defined right hand almost crushed the armrest of the office chair. In fact, her untrimmed fingertips had left several deep finger marks on the poor leather armrest, marks that might never fade.

It seems he has been misjudging An Hongdou's true feelings all along.

She gave a cold smile.

"I can tell you really like her."

"Of course, I like Qianxi, and she feels the same way about me..."

"That's not necessarily true."

An Hongdou's eyes darted around, her tone slightly cold, as if it were none of her business.

If Jiang Tang had studied psychology well enough, he should have been able to see that this was a sign of her guilt.

Because they are telling lies, describing a situation that is completely inconsistent with reality.

"W-What do you mean?!"

But Jiang Tang only focused on the words in her words, showing panic and confusion that was completely inconsistent with his usual composure, without observing or thinking.

So... it's because of his appearance.

Such a handsome, academically gifted, and usually arrogant and aloof boy, yet he becomes so out of control because of his sister.

That's what makes people especially annoyed.

Especially...jealousy.

Deep in An Hongdou's heart, emotions that she couldn't suppress surged and surged, threatening to rise to the surface. There must be some unknown monster lurking in the deep sea.

Her beautiful eyes slanted upwards, and her thin, pink lips opened and closed repeatedly as she continued to utter hurtful words.

He continued speaking, spouting lies.

It's said that the more beautiful a woman is, the more likely she is to deceive.

"It's no use yelling at me."

An Hongdou's tone became stern, as if she were confronting Jiang Tang head-on.

But then she changed the subject, speaking in a calm tone that made Jiang Tang uneasy.

"My sister... has probably moved on from the breakup with you. The last time I video-called her, she was having a great time in another city."

"She went to a school comparable to Tianfu University, where she is studying her favorite major and living a normal and warm campus life with her classmates."

She couldn't continue weaving. Her mind kept replaying the day she video-chatted with Qianxi. Qianxi looked haggard, her eyes were always slightly red, she didn't want to talk about her broken relationship, and her feigned cheerfulness and optimism were all fake.

She forced a smile to reassure herself.

An Qianxi is a very good younger sister, An Hongdou certainly knows that.

But I'm sorry... she might not be a good older sister.

Whether An Qianxi is still the same as before, the adorable girl who sweetly calls out "sister" or not.

She can never make up for the years An Hongdou was abandoned, nor can she make up for everything her mother did to An Hongdou.

Despite her flawless performance in public, her character, personality, emotional intelligence, and social skills...

But An Hongdou's negative emotions were always there, only they were suppressed, deeply suppressed... unable to find an outlet.

Jiang Tang was, in a way, extremely unfortunate, as he happened to run into An Hongdou when she wanted to vent her frustrations.

"You've become happy too, haven't you?"

When An Hongdou said this, her tone became slightly stronger, even though it would have been easy for her to give herself away and expose that she had been fabricating and deceiving people all along.

But for some reason, she finds it hard to contain herself when talking about "happiness".

Perhaps this is because...

The happiness she has always pursued.

It was always something that An Qianxi could easily reach.

But it is something that she might not be able to obtain even if she tried her best.

"You're living a very happy life too..."

"Lilith, your girlfriend Ye Shixue, and who else... Let me think, so many people like you, and haven't you been taking the benefits they give you for granted all along?"

"In that case, what do you need my sister for?"

Having said this, An Hongdou gradually found a reason to justify her actions.

Yes, Jiang Tang doesn't need his younger sister An Qianxi; he is already happy enough.

Perhaps An Qianxi needs him, desperately needs him...

But compared to what she had lost... at least An Hongdou thought it was insignificant.

Qianxi, could you perhaps feel a little bit of the pain your sister has been enduring all this time?

Besides, you were willing to endure it in the first place, weren't you?

An Hongdou never stopped An Qianxi from contacting Jiang Tang on her own; she simply didn't have that ability.