Having cultivated myself into an immortal, all I want to do is raise female disciples.

"From that moment on, the Chiang family was destined to perish."

"Do you understand what I'm saying, Yuan'er?"

He gazed at Lin Yuan before him and stopped drinking.

Yuan'er did not speak.

She remained silent, deeply shocked by the truth revealed by Jiang Yuetian.

Seeing this, Jiang Yuetian gave a wry smile and then said, "Yuan'er, if you came here to find me... then go back."

He turned to the side, his gaze fixed on the numerous fragments of memory scattered on the ground, his eyes remaining devoid of any light.

In the darkness, as if trying to merge with it, Jiang Yuetian said this—

"I will not go back."

"The days I spent with you... and with my teacher were wonderful, and that's enough."

"Yes, that's enough."

48. A self-satisfied bastard

"I won't go back."

Jiang Yuetian's words were a judgment on himself.

Born from darkness, his very existence is an extremely malevolent curse. If his life had any meaning at the beginning, it was to be a cursed being used to destroy everything—a lone star, isolated from the world, a prison that no one can approach.

Everyone has probably pondered this question: What is the meaning of life? What is the purpose of our existence? And why do people live?

When unable to sleep at night, or feeling down because of some sad event, it's inevitable to think about the value of life itself and reflect on the meaning of one's own existence.

Unfortunately, most people will associate this with deeper questions, such as the origin of the universe, and link their own existence to the entire universe, which is precisely a manifestation of human arrogance.

The truth is that human existence itself has no meaning, not even from the beginning. If we must assign meaning to it, the only way is to find meaning in others.

It is extremely unfortunate.

Jiang Yuetian's significance, from the very beginning, is a vicious curse.

Perhaps it's because I've gotten used to the darkness.

Young Jiang Yuetian suffered a lot of bullying in the Jiang family. He understood the feeling of disgust, but he didn't know why his brothers and sisters hated him. He also understood pain and resentment, but he was always unable to fight back against the bullying.

There are two reasons.

Powerlessness and atmosphere.

The former is easy to explain. It is a situation caused by the powerlessness of the person involved. If he had awakened his spiritual root earlier and had the ability to protect himself, he might not have had such a dark and desperate childhood.

Secondly, it is a bit more complicated.

Atmosphere.

It's like joining in the fun. Even if it's something you don't want to do, something you're afraid of or can't stand, you'll be forced to do it in a certain atmosphere—in order to conform to that so-called atmosphere.

Because everyone says so.

Because everyone does it.

Because everyone thinks you're a freak, an oddball, a useless piece of trash.

So that's you.

The minority must obey the majority; not conforming is considered being unsociable, being unsociable leads to isolation, and isolation is tantamount to social death.

Therefore, Jiang Yuetian never resisted.

Silently enduring all of this, suffering beatings, bullying, and pain, she persevered until she became numb, until she got used to it, until she took it all for granted.

until a certain day.

He learned another astonishing fact.

……

……

"Are you sure you want to use Tian'er as bait?" Jiang Huaru's expression was not good.

Jiang Tianyou's face was solemn, like an unmelting block of ice: "There is no other way. You know that Tian'er's birth was a mistake from the start."

Upon hearing this, Jiang Huaru nodded in agreement: "But he is not qualified to be Xuan'er's guide yet. Although his spiritual root aptitude is good, his cultivation level is still a bit lacking."

"So we have to wait until his cultivation level is higher. It won't be too slow. With his spiritual root aptitude, he will be able to reach the Transformation God stage very soon."

Jiang Huaru sighed, her eyes full of regret: "Alas, what a pity for such a fine spiritual root. It would have been better if it had been born in Xuan'er."

"What, feeling sorry for him?"

"No, just a bastard." Jiang Huaru sneered, "He's just a product of the Xun family's curse. Killing him is killing him. After he dies, he can be used as a medicinal ingredient to improve Xuan'er's spiritual root aptitude. For him, that's a great achievement."

“...That’s true.” Jiang Tianyou glanced at Jiang Huaru and said in a very calm tone, “Xuan’er will be the pillar of our Jiang family in the future. He has a high talent and good comprehension. When his spiritual root aptitude improves, he will probably be qualified to surpass me.”

"Let's wait a few more years. In a few more years, he should have grown up by then."

"Hmm, let's wait a bit longer."

……

That day, Jiang Yuetian learned something terrifying.

Why does the Jiang family have so many exceptionally talented individuals with remarkably fast cultivation speeds?

Why do siblings often talk about a drug they've never heard of?

And... why did my favorite maid, who had taken care of me for so long, suddenly disappear?

That day, he understood.

The Chiang family was a purgatory, a giant sieve.

Those who are not qualified will fall down, then rise up again, becoming nourishment for those above.

So he ran away.

Scared.

He was afraid of death.

So they ran away.

Perhaps it was a stroke of luck, or perhaps it was the end of his suffering, but he met that man, that man in white who was more beautiful than snow.

That small academy, and the small hill outside Jinglin Village, hold his most beautiful memories of this life.

After the destruction of the Jiang family, he once thought that this small academy would be his final resting place, and that he would stay in this academy until his death.

But later...

Yunping disappeared.

He was unwilling to give up the light that kept him away from the darkness, so he rebuilt Yuntian Academy, hoping to wait for that man to return.

He didn't wait.

A fire destroyed Yuntian Academy.

A cursed lone star.

He understood the meaning of those four words.

He originally thought that after the Jiang family was destroyed, he would become a complete, normal person, escape the darkness, embrace the light, and live peacefully behind that man.

He wanted to focus on his cultivation, cook for his junior brothers and sisters, occasionally ask his teacher for tips on spear techniques, and water and fertilize the spiritual plants with his senior brother in the backyard. Occasionally, when he felt itchy, he would sneak out to the casino in Jinglin City, lose all his money, and then return in a sorry state to receive a good scolding from his teacher.

but……

Gone.

It's all gone.

Everything's gone!

Darkness is his destiny.

That fleeting glimmer of light was merely a brief stop on the cruel road of life. He went in, had a drink, stayed overnight, and the next day, he would once again embark on that dark, bottomless road of no return.

When you can't walk anymore, you collapse and pass out; that's when your life ends.

……

……

"Is this what you're thinking..."

Lin Yuan kept her head down, her fists clenched, and her shoulders trembling uncontrollably.

In the darkness, no one could see her face. Only she knew that blood was flowing from her once clear eyes, and the scarlet light stained her pupils, turning them blood red.

Jiang Yuetian stared at Lin Yuan with an unchanged expression, and he could sense the change in her emotions: "Can't you understand?"

"Yes, I can't understand it at all, I just don't get it!"

Lin Yuan raised her head.

A dim light suddenly flashed in Jiang Yuetian's eyes.

At this moment, Lin Yuan's hair was disheveled, tears streaming down her face, and her eyes were completely blood red. Her eyes were filled with a complex mix of sadness, pain, and disbelief, creating the eyes that made Jiang Yuetian's heart tremble.

Completely different from the girl's clarity and innocence, what replaces it is a struggle from the bottom of her heart.

"Why... just because of this? Just because you suffered that kind of unfair treatment in the past, just because you have a dark past, do you think you were born to live in darkness? Just because you were born under a curse, just because you are the product of a blood sacrifice of thousands, do you believe that your existence is a mistake?"

"What about Yuan'er?"

“Yuan’er is the incarnation of three drops of the Demon Slayer’s true blood, and her nature is hundreds, thousands, even tens of thousands of times worse than your damned curse!”

"Even that girl Yuan'er knows how to suppress her inner feelings and act the same as always, just so that those meddlesome idiots in the academy won't worry too much! But you're not even as good as a little girl, all you know is to stay in this godforsaken place, with despair and hopelessness in your mouth, acting like you don't care anymore. What's the essential difference between this and escapism?!"

Jiang Yuetian was slightly taken aback. He realized that the person talking to him was another personality of Yuan'er.

But undeniably, that was also a part of Yuan'er.

He stood up, stared at Lin Yuan in front of him, and said coldly, "The nature of our actions is completely different. My existence is not only malicious, but more importantly, it will implicate those around me."