Lonely Rock for the Blind.

When did I realize that happiness wasn't actually that far away?

After drinking alcohol?

Or... was it after you got drunk together at Qing's house?

At that time, I also started to look forward to the future a little.

I feel so uneasy... When I look forward to the future, I feel more uneasy than anything else.

Because I probably can't hold onto that kind of happiness.

I can only see bad things, and I can't live without alcohol...

Someone like me is incapable of bringing happiness to others.

Should I just wait for him to bring me happiness? That would be too terrible!

Selfish person...

He has the right and the ability to get better, not me…

So I had thought about this a long time ago, but I didn't expect him to be so greedy.

But... all of this is no longer relevant to me...

Because... I'm the worst...

[Unlucky constitution]

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Chapter 267 Beginning

"Um... excuse me... are you interested in forming a band?"

That was one of the bravest decisions I've ever made.

Seeing the impressive performances of my seniors on stage made me dream that I could do the same.

If you want to get rid of loneliness, go play rock music... That was my idea when I started getting into bands.

Head bowed, head bowed low, not daring to look at the other person's expression.

Kikuri Hiroi is afraid of rejection, even if the probability of being accepted is 100%, she will still be afraid.

Because she firmly believed that she would always be the unfortunate one.

If it were me, the probability of something good happening would never be 100%.

The voice in my head kept telling me that I would be rejected.

But I still want to try…

Why is this?

"…Who are you?"

The other party asked a question.

"I am Kikuri Hiroi!"

Kikuri Hiroi shouted.

"... "

The woman with burgundy eyes took the recruitment notice from Kikumi Hiroi's hand.

"How many people are there?"

"Eh?"

Hiroi Kikuri raised her head.

He met those seemingly calm, wine-red eyes.

I asked, "How many people are in your band?"

"…just me…"

"Yeah."

The woman with burgundy eyes looked down at the recruitment notice carefully and nodded slightly.

Hiroi Kikuri's hand slowly clenched.

Next... I'll probably be rejected...

Since the other party has already said that, they don't seem to want to join at all.

But that's to be expected, because there's practically nothing in the band except someone like me.

You'll definitely be rejected... and you might even get a severe scolding.

In that case, why don't we just run away now...

I don't want to be scolded, nor do I want to face a future where I might be rejected later.

As expected, they were going to run...

"Okay, I'll join."

The woman with wine-red eyes handed the recruitment form back to Kikuto Hiroi.

"My name is Iwashita Shima. How did you come up with the idea of ​​contacting me?"

"...In the past, some people talked about you, saying that you can play the drums and that you don't have a band."

"... "

Iwashita Shima nodded, then asked.

"When does practice start? Tomorrow? Or now? Speaking of which, if two people can't form a band, what's your position?"

“Bass…”

"A bassist? Then we also need a vocalist and a guitarist."

Iwashita Shima nodded and said.

"No...that..."

Hiroi Kikuri slowly raised her head.

“I am… the lead bassist.”

"... "

Iwashita Shima frowned.

"Lead singer?"

"Um…"

"I didn't see it, but if you're confident, there shouldn't be any problem."

Iwashita Shima nodded.

"That means all you need is a guitarist."

Iwashita Shima slowly smiled, then tentatively extended her hand.

Hiroi Kikuri subconsciously took a step back.

"... "

Iwashita Shima paused for a moment, then withdrew her hand.

"Then the practice will start tomorrow, is that alright?"

"…Can…"

Hiroi Kikuri nodded, still keeping her head down and not daring to look at Iwashita Shima.

"... "

Iwashita Shima tilted his head and thought for a moment before speaking.

"I'll book the rehearsal time. You can come over then. Please add an 'e' to the end."

"Yes…"

Kikuri Hiroi presented the phone with both hands.

"...What are you doing?"

Iwashita Shima couldn't help but sigh.

Hiroi Kikuri's pupils contracted slightly.

"I'm so sorry!"

"...Why did you suddenly apologize?"

"Because I..."

Was she laughing at me when she smiled?

They mocked someone like me for wanting to be the lead singer... wanting to shine on stage.

How long will she stay after joining?

What if, after a few days, she leaves because she can't stand my personality?

I shouldn't think like that. Ms. Shima is such a good person...

But I still can't help thinking that way.

...

……

.........

It seems that someone like me doesn't have an independent path to walk.

When I encounter obstacles, I think about running away or crouching down and waiting for my fate.