Do I really have a thing for female voice actors?

Tazaki Toru admitted that he was partly influenced by those two girls.

After witnessing their passionate and almost fiery confessions, Toru Tazaki wanted to try to be as brave as them.

"Tou-kun, you really like those two people, don't you?"

"...Yes, I like it."

"Is it the same kind of liking as my own?"

"I think the root cause is the same."

"I see."

Tazaki Toru spoke the truth as always, though perhaps his truth was not pleasant enough and full of disappointing flaws.

This is roughly the same logic as Tachibana Rin's repeated question, "Won't you lie to me?"

What girls want to hear most are often sweet words.

Only after that will they want to hear the truth.

If you put the truth first and make it sound nice, it's easy to get into trouble for what you say.

But Mika Kohinata didn't mind.

"So... what are your thoughts, Toru-kun? Do you want to be with them, date them, and have that kind of relationship?"

"I probably don't quite understand it yet. Before I met you all, I never thought I would fall in love with anyone or become infatuated with any particular person."

"This might sound arrogant, but I really did think that someone like me was destined to spend my whole life with music, and that I would never find anything to talk about with someone who couldn't talk about music."

"I used to be such a weirdo."

"Nowadays, Miss Mingyou always teases me, saying that I'm addicted to female voice actors and have already suffered from it."

I can't deny it.

"I understand that I can't stay in that vortex forever. They are all very good girls. It would be fine if only I was suffering from it."

"If I don't make up my mind, who can liberate them?"

Ah, I see.

Mika Kohinata suddenly understood.

"Tou-kun, I didn't come here today to confess my feelings so that we could become lovers."

"……sorry."

"It's alright, I knew it all along. It's precisely because Toru-kun is such a gentle and kind person that I..."

"I like you so much."

Tazaki Toru slowly closed his eyelids, as if trying to squeeze all the confusion and bewilderment in his heart out of his eyelids.

"Thank you, Mika."

Despite getting the answer he wanted, Tazaki Toru felt a sense of loss.

If someone were to ask him whether it was worth it, Toru Tazaki's answer would certainly be exceptionally uninteresting.

When you do something that's taken for granted, there's no point in describing it as worthwhile or not; you just do it.

If he didn't do this, he would probably become the kind of person he hates most.

"Perhaps I am still better off alone. I still do not want to hurt anyone. Rather than that, it is better for me to grieve alone."

"Thinking about this, I made up my mind that I had to tell you no matter what."

“Mika, you are no worse than anyone else. Your ability to play Nagasaki Motoyo is not because of me, nor is it anyone else’s achievement.”

"The world has responded to your efforts; your efforts have finally not let you down."

Mika Kohinata pursed her lips, as if she might inadvertently succumb to his words.

"Toru-kun, you're always so gentle."

"That's not gentleness."

"If honesty and gentleness go against each other, then what I have done can hardly be called gentleness."

"If you do that, they will get hurt."

"I know, that's why I have to do it."

Tazaki Toru has made her choice.

Among the many girls who were infatuated with him, he chose to treat them all equally.

Since he couldn't reciprocate the feelings of every girl, he honestly expressed his love for them and then turned and left.

If possible, Tazaki Toru would like to respond to each of them, but that is ultimately an absurd and impossible thing.

Therefore, Toru Tazaki had no other choice.

At least, no girl will shed tears for him anymore.

……

……

After Tazaki Toru left, Kohinata Mika quietly sat down on the living room floor.

In a sense, Tazaki Toru's choice hurt them all equally.

But he acted with great discretion, paying only the smallest price to ensure they could continue to identify themselves as MyGO.

He deliberately withdrew, thus preserving the band which was beginning to fall apart.

There are no winners in this relationship.

The only one who lost was Toru Tazaki.

This is his choice.

Mika Kohinata curled up her legs and let out a helpless sigh.

All of this, including Tazaki Toru's choice, was exactly as the girl had said—completely under her control.

The girl gazed at the warm yellow ceiling light in the room and murmured to herself:

Is this what you wanted to show me?

"Japanese sauce..."

565. He had already witnessed Rin's repression.

That night, Tazaki Toru returned to Tsukishima and packed his luggage in his bedroom.

Tazaki Toru often says that he is someone who doesn't overthink things once he makes up his mind.

Today, Tazaki Toru wants to add another point to this conclusion.

The reason he is like this may be because he is easily influenced by the people or things around him, thus making him indecisive.

Because I am well aware of my own shortcomings, I actively seek change and try my best not to become the kind of person I dislike.

Tazaki Toru doesn't know how to lie, or at least he doesn't know how to lie cleverly.

If he were to use lies to deceive them, he would surely be exposed without warning soon.

He wasn't trying to demonstrate his honesty or how magnanimous he was.

On the contrary, Toru Tazaki considers himself quite narrow-minded. Because of his own narrow-mindedness, the world he lives in seems narrow, only able to accommodate all sorts of female voice actors.

Tazaki Toru even began to admire him.

I admire those otaku who wave light sticks for their idols offstage. How can they so easily and equally love so many female voice actresses?

Tazaki Toru knew he didn't have a strong enough heart, so he had no choice but to slowly distance himself from the girls he loved.

He thought that perhaps it was because he was too close to them offstage that he fell in love with them in real life rather than with the voice actresses.

If we can take this opportunity to re-examine them as bystanders, we might develop a different mindset.

But in any case, Toru Tazaki had to admit that these band girls were incredibly charming to him.

He simply couldn't bring himself to make a clear choice and refuse the kindness of the other girls.

Not sincere enough, yet greedy enough, stuck in an in-between position.

In the end, I realized that what Ms. Minase said was absolutely right.

No wonder he calls himself an experienced person.

dong dong dong-

A knock came at the door.

The bedroom door quietly opened a crack, and a pair of bright, large eyes peeked out, staring intently at Tazaki Toru.

Do you need any help?

"It's okay, it's almost done."

Rin Tachibana entered the room, her eyes scanning the surroundings.

"Leaving tomorrow?"

"Hmm... I don't have much stuff, so it's not too much trouble to move it."

Rin Tachibana gave a soft "oh" and sat down on Toru Tazaki's bed, becoming unusually quiet.

Suddenly, the girl's lips moved slightly, making a soft sound.

"By the time we finish practice tomorrow and get home, you'll probably be gone."

Tazaki Toru was slightly taken aback, keenly sensing the disappointment in Tachibana Rin's tone.

"Don't make it sound like I'm going to that other world," Tazaki Toru said, trying to sound casual.

Rin Tachibana, however, was not buying it. She gently gripped the bed sheet beneath her and slowly raised her head.

"Can I visit you often?"

"It's best not to."