Do I really have a thing for female voice actors?

"Some things, perhaps, you will only feel regret when you are about to die."

"I wish I had done it that way back then, or that I hadn't."

"Regret is not necessarily a bad thing, but it is certainly not a good thing either."

"Since that's the case, we might as well do whatever we want while we're still barely surviving."

He glanced indifferently at Tazaki Toru, his eyes returning to their dullness, like a flying insect that had lost interest in the light.

"You'll understand once you die."

Tazaki Toru silently pondered the meaning behind his words.

After saying this, Mr. Totsuka stopped talking, nodded to Toru Tazaki, and took his leave.

Watching the other person's lonely figure disappear into the distance, Tazaki Toru couldn't quite describe the feeling in his heart.

The only thing Tazaki Toru could confirm was his instinctive aversion to this statement.

Unlike his handsome appearance, Mr. Totsuka's words carried a hint of selfish ugliness, making it difficult for Tazaki Toru to resonate with them in the slightest.

This ugliness left a faint scratch in Tazaki Toru's heart, causing him to ponder in silence.

It would be irresponsible to only consider oneself and seek immediate pleasure in everything.

Tazaki Toru couldn't help but turn to look at Minase-san, eager to know her attitude towards this statement.

Ms. Minase rested her chin on her hands, gazing at Mr. Totsuka's departing figure, and chuckled for a long time.

"He's handsome, isn't he?"

"........."

Where is he handsome? I'm asking you.

594. Forget MyGO, let me take you back to Minamiboso, and I'll dress you up as a shrine maiden every day.

After leaving King Records, Toru Tazaki boarded the train back to Roppongi alone.

He had planned to visit Bushido's recording studio; with only a few days left until the live performance, Tazaki Toru wanted to check on their performance.

But after learning the shocking truth from Hina Aoki last night, Toru Tazaki didn't know how to face them.

Especially after realizing that they had reached a consensus, Tazaki Toru found it increasingly difficult to appear in front of them. He didn't even dare to ask the other girls if what Aoki Hina said was true.

At the same time, he worried that his presence would bring unnecessary burden to those girls.

Well, that's probably just an excuse to avoid it.

Tazaki Toru knew this wasn't his style, but now he found it difficult to continue his usual approach.

He needs time to think about his relationships with those girls and how he should get along with them in the future.

He could neither be as self-centered as Ms. Minase suggested, nor could he disregard the future as Mr. Totsuka said.

It was as if a thick rope had been put around his neck, slightly suspending him, and he could barely support himself on his toes, barely clinging to life in this precarious state.

However, it must be admitted that Ms. Minase and Mr. Totsuka's words did indeed plant a certain emotion in Tazaki Toru's heart.

Tazaki Toru even envied them somewhat, envying their ability to confront their inner selfishness with a clear conscience.

He's always talking about who's being fair and who's being unfair.

But his current almost escapist behavior made him vaguely feel that something was wrong.

It has to be said that Aoki Hina's move almost completely crushed Tazaki Toru.

By placing Tazaki Toru on a high pedestal, he was forced to confront his true self.

After getting off the tram, Tazaki Toru wandered aimlessly through the streets.

Colorful and flashy signs, the red and white Tokyo Tower in the distance, and all sorts of beautiful girls on the street.

These things failed to capture his attention; though he was on a bustling street, his thoughts remained fixed on that small music room.

Whenever Tazaki Toru recalls Aoki Hina's expression from last night, he feels a chilling sensation, almost like a razor blade pressed against his skin.

He originally thought he knew her very well.

In retrospect, his arrogant idea seems utterly ridiculous.

Tazaki Toru wasn't blaming her; rather, he was surprised that he hadn't noticed the huge secret hidden in her heart despite spending so much time with her.

For some reason, it made him feel somewhat frustrated.

Even a man like Toru Tazaki inevitably finds himself embroiled in a fierce battle when it comes to matters of the heart.

This precisely proves that Toru Tazaki is an extremely greedy person.

If he were truly devoted to Mika Kohinata, he probably wouldn't be experiencing this current dilemma and distress.

Surrounded by the dazzling lights of Roppongi, Toru Tazaki is about to lose his way back to the city and can only stand blankly in front of the traffic lights.

No matter how turbulent the crowd around him was, he remained standing still.

Tazaki Toru had never felt so helpless, even as he kept telling himself that he could not become a man controlled by desire.

But then the words Mr. Totsuka had said earlier suddenly flashed through my mind.

"Do whatever you want...?"

Compared to Toru Tazaki, Hina Aoki seems to have adhered to this policy even more thoroughly.

Tazaki Toru gave a bitter laugh to himself.

He would never have shown such a bitter expression in the past; he was always confident and decisive.

But as Toru Tazaki said, he never considered himself a chosen one, just an ordinary person who could write songs.

Ordinary people are ultimately bound by all sorts of emotions.

However, there always seems to be one girl.

He would appear at just the right time whenever he was feeling down or at his lowest point.

But this time, Tazaki Toru didn't know how to listen to her voice.

[Buzz... Buzz...]

Looking at the caller ID on his phone screen, Toru Tazaki lowered his eyes and slowly answered the call.

"Tou-kun..."

Her voice remained melodious, and even amidst a crowd, it still precisely touched the heartstrings of Tazaki Toru.

Tazaki Toru didn't respond immediately, so Kohinata Mika called his name several more times.

After a short while, Toru Tazaki finally managed to squeeze out a slightly dry voice.

"Yes, I'm listening."

The girl on the other end of the phone was silent for a while.

People often say that she is just a simple-minded country girl.

But she could keenly sense his inner feelings at that moment through Tazaki Toru's voice.

"I heard about yesterday from Hina-chan. Did you two have a fight?"

Tazaki Toru still hasn't said anything.

After a long silence, I heard the girl's soft voice.

"……sorry."

A brief apology is enough to prove that what Hina Aoki said was true.

Tazaki Toru really wanted to question her, to ask her why she apologized.

Ask her why she would agree with such an absurd idea.

But the words were on the tip of his tongue, and Tazaki Toru swallowed them back.

Just as Kohinata Mika sensed something was off about his voice, Tazaki Toru was able to guess what Kohinata Mika was thinking.

There are some things that Tazaki Toru can understand even if she doesn't say them.

This band, which always struggles to get everyone together, cherishes each other deeply.

That's why Toru Tazaki hesitated, Mika Kohinata compromised, and Hina Aoki succeeded.

"Perhaps I am not qualified to say such things, but please do not blame her."

"If I had a choice, I think I would never have gone down this path."

Tazaki transparent white.

He had just received the answer to this question from Ms. Minase not long ago.

It's likely that the person who drove Hina Aoki to this point was none other than Toru Tazaki himself.

“Hey, Toru-kun... I’m okay.”

"........."

"I am 100% certain of your feelings. The person I love so deeply also likes someone as insignificant as me."

I am already very satisfied.

"It really feels like being a princess wearing glass slippers."

"Therefore you don't need to feel that you have wronged me or that it has been unfair to me."

"I'm not very bright, and I can't explain complex principles."

"But I have a heart that can distinguish between likes and dislikes, and I am certain that you are all equally important to me."

That's why they waver and eventually give up the struggle as if to escape, selfishly throwing the choice to you.

"I'm saying all this not to convince you, but because whatever your choice, I will respect Tou-kun's wishes."

"If you still insist on choosing only me, I'm willing to try to forget MyGO, forget them, treat the past year's experiences as a dream, take you back to my Minamiboso, and dress up as a shrine maiden for you every day."

"Tou-kun... you must never forget one thing."

Tazaki Toru opened his mouth, but no sound came out.