Qingfeng Xu Xu

I have walked this road leading to the back mountain countless times over the years. Every time I walk on this road, my mood may be different, but the pace is always the same heavy, and it seems to be heavier each time. To this day, the pace is heavy. Abnormally, it was heavier than when Xu Qingjiu was walking on the stone steps holding the seriously injured Xu Mulin, dragging Xu Qingjiu's pace slower and slower.

It was difficult to move forward step by step, and the tired Xu Qingjiu had to stop and take a rest from time to time. Xu Qingjiu stood on the stone steps, looked back at the way he came, and then looked back at the rest of the way, hesitating repeatedly in his mind about whether to turn back or continue forward.

Just walking and walking like this, until it was almost dawn, Xu Qingjiu finally reached the last stone step leading to the cold pool. Xu Qingjiu was panting, thinking about sitting on the stone steps to calm down a little before going in. When he turned around, a black shadow suddenly flashed from Xu Qingjiu's peripheral vision.

In an instant, alertness, expectation, suspicion, I don't know which emotion is more abundant, filled Xu Qingjiu's heart. After Xu Qingjiu looked around, the disappointment once again diluted all other emotions. Only disappointment overflowed Xu Qingjiu's limbs and bones, making Xu Qingjiu instantly lose the ability to step into that place. of strength.

Simply, Xu Qingjiu sat down on the stone steps, raised his glass of wine, drank, and looked into the distance.

After dawn, the sun is rising, and a new day has finally begun.

Seeing the sky lighting up everywhere in sight, Xu Qingjiu suddenly laughed wildly,"Xu Mulin, I finally didn't visit you yesterday. Why don't you come and see me? Why don't you come and ask me? You?" Smiling, tears blurred Xu Qingjiu's vision again. Xu Qingjiu took a few more sips of wine, and then smashed the wine bottle far away. It fell to the ground and shattered into pieces. The pieces were like Same as Xu Qingjiu. Xu Qingjiu sat up, hugged her calves tightly with both hands, and curled up, as if like this, she could piece herself together.

"Senior brother...Senior brother, are you still angry? Angry that I acted like a fool, angry that I didn’t believe you, angry that I failed to live up to your love, angry that I liked you but kept acting like a fool, angry with me...Mad at me...Still resenting me? So I just want to never care about me or ignore me from now on. If this is really the case, then I...Then me...So what on earth should I do? What should I do..."The pain that had accumulated for many years finally screamed and was released at this moment. Perhaps it was due to the sudden onset of alcoholism, or perhaps the already chaotic internal energy could no longer support Xu Qingjiu. Xu Qingjiu felt that his vision was completely blurred, and suddenly the surroundings became dim. Xu Qingjiu finally lost consciousness completely and fell down.