It is impossible for the girl to find the evil god in the textbook

He slowly loosened his clenched fists, where the skin in his palms had been completely punctured and crushed.As a possessor of divinity, Hyde certainly meets the conditions in the rules and is one of the few people in the world who can hurt himself.

The long-lost pain made his mind clear.

Hyde Belusay still couldn't let go of his performance in action. At least in a certain moment, his actions were completely free from the shackles of reason, which was not a good sign.The dangers of divinity had been revealed to Ayla before he fell asleep, but it wasn't until he was unknowingly affected so much that he realized its true meaning.

Chapter 32 Principle

Hyde finished his meditation. He noticed the breath of another person in the room, but he didn't hear the knock on the door.

There are not many people who would appear in this way in Kraft, and there is only one person at the moment.

"Is it Mephisto?"

Hyde opened his eyes and ended his short sleep. He had been waiting for this expected conversation for a long time.

The short-haired girl threw a dusty and blood-stained coat onto the hanger, nodded as a greeting, and then closed the door silently.

"is this necessary?"

Hyde pointed to the closed door and forced an ugly smile.

As the office door closes, a very powerful soundproofing magic is also activated.

"Whatever you say now, you are acting as the executive officer. You have to save a little face, and it will not be a good thing if the conversation afterward is spread outside."

She cuts to the chase.

"I've heard of it."

But Hyde just nodded and changed the topic intentionally or unintentionally.

"How's your mission over there?"

Ling's movements seemed a little unnatural.

"There is an apostle who has infiltrated the high-level military. It only took me a few days to expose him, but it has been solved now."

Only then did Hyde notice that there was a bandage wrapped under the other person's cuffs, and it seemed that he had suffered some minor injuries during the mission.

The acting executive officer's expression changed slightly, because he was very aware of Ling's fighting style. The latter gave up almost all defensive abilities and focused on offense and speed in the position and research direction of several solidification magics.

This allowed her to perform miraculous decapitation actions in battle. Generally speaking, Ling would not be injured in battle, because the opponent was often decapitated before making an effective counterattack and response.

On the other hand, if even she was attacked to a certain extent, it meant that the opponent's reaction was enough to keep up with her attack and speed.In such a battle, both sides could die from a single mistake.

Noticing his gaze, Ling snorted and waved her hands.

"It's just a little skin injury and it should be fine in a few days. Compared to my case, how is Shadow doing now?"

This question made Hyde's eyes dim a bit, and his expression was stained with a haze of guilt.

"She is seriously injured and may need to rest for a while."

Ling was silent for a few seconds to organize her words, and her tone became stern.

"I've read your mission report this time—I just told Hyde, your performance in this operation is very problematic."

"Let me not say that you, as an executive officer, were attracted by the enemy's bait and left the battlefield for a long time to leave a hole. After all, compared with the combat power on paper, we have enough manpower on the scene, and none of us can achieve it." Thinking that Michelle still has that kind of power beyond the record."

"But if it's an error other than calculation, your subsequent performance will be even more disappointing."

"After you returned to Bayer, your actions were still impulsive and stupid. At that time, you could definitely use your best spiritual magic to do more things. Even if you couldn't completely control Michelle or Farminie, you could Plant a hint for them, and use this to find the stronghold of the Albion Brotherhood and kill them and other dark wizards."

"But what about you? You choose to use the power that you obviously don't fully grasp, Hyde, you don't have much experience in confronting the enemy head-on, even if you have divinity. You are not Ella, you only rely on power to suppress and use personal power. won the battle? Then you are far inferior to her."

When Ella was mentioned, Ling's voice fluctuated less obviously.And this was quickly overshadowed by her strength.

"Our executors bought precious time with their lives, but you didn't seize the opportunity. This is not like you at all!"

Hyde just listened to everything silently, without interrupting or defending himself.

Indeed, what Ling said was all true, and his performance in this operation was really terrible... But if this was just due to his negligence or stupidity, if it was just like this, it would be a big deal. Good thing.

He will take the blame and resign and give his position to someone more suitable.

--But.

"When did you become like this? Since when did the influence of "it" expand to this extent? "

After scolding, Ling suddenly raised this question.

"Have you guessed everything? I also feel that it is time to have such a conversation with you. After all, you have been with Ella for so long, and I think only you can understand what kind of state I am in now." .”

"At first... its impact was not obvious. I first noticed this when I was issuing arrest warrants and secretly interrogating several dark wizards."

"Under my power, all the lies they fabricated can't hide... I found that those people are all scum who deserve to die ten thousand times, human trafficking, living sacrifices, plundering, tourists from other places Then throw the corpses into the wilderness, and even use living babies to refine soul power. As long as it is the evil deeds you can imagine, they have not stopped. In less than five years, the lives they have killed have reached a shocking level. imaginary numbers."

The muscles on Hyde's face twitched a few times, and the blue veins squirmed like twisted snakes under his forehead.

After breathing heavily for a few times, Hyde calmed down again, and the vision in his pupils also faded.

"...When I came to my senses, they were all dead."

"It's just killing a few scumbags, and they really deserve to die, but what does this mean?"

Ling listened carefully and asked questions.

From her point of view, if she were responsible for interrogating those dark wizards, the result would probably be the same. This cannot be used as conclusive evidence.

"You're right. If it's just like this, it really doesn't mean anything."

"But they didn't die from my anger and killing intent... At that time, I entered a rather strange state. I was still me, but I no longer acted according to my own common sense and rationality, In that prison cell——I seemed to be a god aloft, condemning them one by one according to my own laws and instincts."

"From the perspective of a bystander, I watched with my own eyes not out of my own will, but driven by some instinct that I can't understand. Crushed, crushed, cut into countless pieces or crushed into a pool mud."

"There is no anger or emotions or reasons that are enough to support me. I am as cold as an alchemy instrument that executes the most basic logic. People violate the rules, and I issue a ruling... That’s all.”

"This is probably the effect of the so-called divinity. Just like Ella said, it's like a strange thing awakening in your body. This is indeed not a comfortable experience."

Hyde laughed bitterly at himself. .

"During this period of time, the shadow has been doing some dirty work for me. She thinks that maybe as long as I stay away from killing and destruction, this recovery will come slowly. I used to believe this too, just need to pay more attention That's fine...but it's just arrogance after all."

"The same was true in this operation. The failure of the operation resulted in the escape of the target, and unprecedented heavy casualties. Even Atwood died."

"...Even the shadow was severely traumatized by my loss of control. I began to be afraid, afraid that one day I would become another strange existence, facing the things I once cared about with an indifferent and condescending attitude. everything of."

He looked at Ling.

"It wasn't until today that I realized that Ella is actually far stronger and has to go further than me. I need her experience to stay conscious and do more things before the end of the world - but how can I resist? This terrible erosion?”

"In the manuscript she left behind, it was mentioned that the road to the throne created by Norbert Williams and summarized by Ulysses Philip. The concept of "anchor" was mentioned in that manuscript, Philip believes that the so-called "anchor" is a portrait of a personality drawn by an intelligent creature with respect and belief from the heart, and the result feedback brought about by this drawing process.Every meditation and description of the believers will make the humanity of this object clearer. "

"Before the decisive battle with Ulysses Philip, her state was obviously more stable than me now."

"I tried to spread the honorable name pointing to myself like her, but it didn't bring obvious help. As far as I know, Ella didn't create a religion and become an idol for believers to worship."

"So, what's the anchor point that she has?"

Ling thought for a few seconds. She had never really been exposed to questions of this level, and could only rely on her intuition to give a relatively well-formed answer.

"...perhaps an emotion other than faith."

Ling recalls the time she spent with Ella and what they've been through along the way.

"Faith is not the same as an anchor. I'm afraid you misunderstood what Philip said."

"what does that mean?"

Under Ling's reminder, Hyde seemed to notice something that was inconsistent.

"If his theory is correct, then the key point of the "anchor" lies in the description and outline of the personality portrait by external forces, and this feedback can strengthen the humanity of the described person.In this way, the weight of the anchor is the most important thing - not necessarily faith, but also other things. "

"Do you understand? Divinity is a tsunami or a storm, and the humanity you maintain is a precarious ship on the sea. If you want to stabilize your own existence, the weight of the anchor is everything - as for whether it is made of gold Whether it's made of silver or not, it doesn't matter."

"As for why they all chose to describe themselves through beliefs, it's very simple-because this kind of emotion is the most blind and easy to control and spread. Compared with other things, its quantity is the largest."

Chapter 33 The reassuring weight

"But what kind of personality description is more effective than the blind faith of believers?"

Hyde asked puzzledly,

"You have to ask yourself - what is the most important emotion for you. It is clearer and stronger than belief. It may be someone or something, or it may be your obsession and ideal. .....I said, you have to ask yourself."

"Ask me...myself?"

Strolling by the Half Moon Lake in Glamis Manor, Hyde Belusay recalled the conversation he had with Ling last night.

The climate in May has begun to change to summer, and rows of tall and dense plants form an emerald green barrier not far from the lake shore.

It is now [-]:[-] in the morning, and the clouds in the distant sky have been dimmed into a light white by the light below the horizon.

He came to the lake and stood there looking at his own reflection in the lake.

It was a thin young man with a pale complexion under the stand-up collar of a thin black windbreaker, and some messy blond hair mixed with morning dew.

Hyde and himself in the water looked at each other, but felt a cold back, and the image of the man in his eyes became more and more unfamiliar.

His eyes were full of irreversible indifference, arrogant and noble like an emperor who had been in a high position for a long time. Everything around him, even Hyde himself, did not stay in his eyes for a moment, just like a giant who could not observe the ground. of ants.

A circle of ripples spread out in the sleep, and the picture was broken enough in the trembling - it was really just the most common reflection, and the previous staring at each other was just his illusion.

Hyde withdrew his gaze and lowered his head in thought.

"I think the most important emotion..."

According to his own habits and logic, he began to sort out the people and things worth remembering from the starting point of his life.

Is it his miserable and pitiful mother?

From the beginning of my memory, I hardly felt any feelings related to "love" from her.

Is the negative connotation of fear, resentment, and longing for something that never existed enough to serve as an anchor for him to depict humanity?

No—this kind of emotion was indeed clear and strong, but it has already faded away with time.Hyde can't even remember the appearance and voice of his mother.

Or his unapproachable father?

Straw Belusay is a cold and unfeeling man, an excellent chess player and wizard, but by no means a good father in the traditional sense.He respected the man, but the father and son had no affection for each other.