My daily anime romance in Tokyo

"Aragaki Jun, myself after I lost my memory. As a reward for finding this notebook, I tell you that you can completely and unconditionally trust Nangong Natsuki and Kisara."

"If one day you find out everything, please say 'I'm sorry' to them on my behalf."

"I'm sorry. I deceived them. It wasn't a white lie. It was exploitation."

"Aragaki Jun, I have a plan, a plan that can reverse everything."

"Everything that is lost, dead, and gone can come back again."

"I don't have to have the same dream every day, missing the day I met them."

"Destiny may have owed me something, but He will not. I always believe this."

"Aragaki Jun, in order to get everything back together, what I did was probably wrong."

"But I don't know. I really can't help it. I... I'm so eager to see them again."

"You don't have to look for memories of the past, because the memories in Kisara's place are actually less than one percent."

"Those memories were specially selected by me. Some of them are cruel, but also very beautiful."

"When the time is right, she will give you those memories. Please savor them, those beautiful memories that have replayed countless times in my dreams."

"As for the other 99% of my memories, they are all in XXX (write and black out)."

"She will complete the real plan for me. I'm sorry that I lied to Nangong Nayue and Kisara. I really... miss the past too much."

"Aragaki Jun, having a good memory is actually a kind of pain. I remember too much. After forgetting, I will actually be free."

"Aragaki Jun, did I give you freedom?"

"..."

The amnesiac boy sitting on the tatami looked at the words in the notebook over and over again.

He didn't know what mood the 'Aragaki Jun' was in when he wrote these words, but as he read on, he unknowingly burst into tears.

Between the lines, there is full of guilt and unwillingness. 'He' was living in pain, so he was given freedom.

Chapter 187 Playing Chess with Destiny

Aragaki Jun sat on the tatami, looking at the words left by 'him' in the past, and couldn't calm down for a long time.

Aragaki Jun knew himself quite well. He didn't know how desperate he was when he wrote these words.

At the beginning of the message, 'he' revealed the truth of the matter -

'Aragaki Jun' came to this world a long time ago, but the memories left by those experiences have been lost.

By this calculation, Aragaki Jun is indeed a person with amnesia.

The video footage shot by Nao Tomori was indeed taken by 'him' himself, but he has lost his memory of it.

The following words explained that 'he' had met Yukinoshita Yukino a long time ago, when she was only two or three years old, which was thirteen or fourteen years ago.

This also confirms that when Yukinoshita Yukino bumped into him on the first day of high school, it was not an accidental car accident, but something that "he" had arranged long ago.

It is hard for Jun Aragaki to imagine that the 'he' who designed this incident is actually a love light novel author. Is this schizophrenia?

"The pen name is... Wangchuan?"

Aragaki Jun picked up the light novel next to him, searched the author on the Internet, and found out that he was a very famous light novel author.

No, he is no longer just famous. His works rank first in sales among all books and he is a household name in the island country.

Although after reading the reviews, many people accused him of publicity fraud and the content of the book was all dark and cruel.

Even though 'he' has retired for three years, readers of the book are still divided into two camps, and the online war of words seems to have no end in sight.

Aragaki Jun searched and found that the books hidden under the tatami were all of Wangchuan's works, without missing a single one.

"Find some time... go to the bookstore and buy the complete set, and then read them in order."

Jun Aragaki moved these books into his own cabinet and collected them as if they were very important items.

The first half of the message in the notebook should be written in a more relaxed tone, while the second half should be more serious.

The reward for Aragaki Jun finding this notebook is a very easy to understand sentence:

He could trust Nangong Nayue and Mu Geng completely and unconditionally.

"It turns out... I've never been alone."

Aragaki Jun recalled the rare contacts he had with Nangong Nayue and Mu Geng. When he came to his senses and reviewed those experiences again, he could vaguely see the care between the two.

Unfortunately, the next sentence mentioned about the two people was to apologize to them.

Aragaki Jun didn't know what he had done in the past, but from the words he read, he could guess that 'he' had a plan to reverse everything.

This plan would definitely come at a great cost, and Nangong Nayue and Mu would definitely not agree to it.

So 'he' deceived the two of them and used them to fulfill the premise of his plan.

In other words...even now, Nangong Nayue and Mu Geng are still kept in the dark.

They knew that 'he' had lost his memory, but the reason for this behavior, they knew was false.

At this point, Aragaki Jun is even closer to the truth than the two of them.

Based on what Aragaki Jun knew about himself, he guessed that 'he' told the two that the amnesia was only temporary and everything would be restored in the future.

But the truth is, only one percent of Aragaki Jun's lost memories can be restored, and they are in Kisara's place.

The other ninety-nine percent had been handed over by 'him' to 'someone' to complete the plan.

Therefore, what he was going to do required past memories as consumables.

Later, 'he' spent a lot of space explaining that he could not escape from the past and ultimately chose this dead end.

'He' even admitted that what he did might be wrong.

But, 'he' had no choice and no regrets.

Aragaki Jun suspected that the reason why 'he' left this notebook behind was because 'his' plan had already begun and was irreversible.

Be it Nangong Nayue, Kigen, or even the current Aragaki Jun, it is impossible to stop the plan.

What has already taken shape cannot be changed.

The 'Aragaki Jun' of the past will never come back.

'He' named 'someone' who completed the plan for him, and judging from the wording used, it seemed to be a female.

Aragaki Jun currently knows very little information. He only knows that there is such a plan, and he doesn't even know the most basic name.

Of course, Aragaki could understand the above information. The only thing that puzzled him was this sentence -

"Destiny may have owed me something, but He will not. I always believe this."

"He? This is the third person pronoun for God, Jesus, or the gods..."

Aragaki Jun can be sure that he has never believed in religion and has no fear of God.

However, the tone of his message was full of respect and trust for this high-ranking being.

"My past self...did I really see God? And receive a promise?"

Aragaki Jun was unable to confirm these speculations, and he didn't even dare to tell others this information.

For the time being, Aragaki Jun intends to keep the contents of the notebook strictly confidential.

It's not that he doesn't trust anyone, but he can't confirm the meaning of these messages, or even the trouble and disaster they may cause.

"My life is pretty good now, really... I don't want to change it."

Aragaki Jun is really happy now. You can say he is greedy or cowardly, but he really wants the present days to last longer.

Just like the last sentence of his message -

"Aragaki Jun, having a good memory is actually a kind of pain. I remember too much. After forgetting, I will actually be free."

"Aragaki Jun, did I give you freedom?"

"Thank you, I am free now."

Aragaki Jun took a pen and wrote his answer at the end of the message. As if some condition had been met, the notebook suddenly began to combust.

Aragaki Jun hurriedly threw down the notebook, but the fire burning the paper pages seemed to have no temperature and did not ignite the tatami it touched.

It was a black flame, as if the message on the paper was burning, and the entire notebook burned up in a few seconds, leaving no ashes.

"You... don't want to leave any evidence?"

Aragaki Jun didn't know what 'he' had done, but without this notebook, it would undoubtedly be more difficult for Aragaki Jun to convince Nangong Nayue and Mu Geng when he told them the truth.

This shows that 'he' is not indifferent to the possibility that the two girls might try to stop him.

"Reversing all the plans, what a huge price it would cost."

Aragaki Jun never believed that one's wishes could be fulfilled at only a small price.

In the past, 'Xinyuan Jun' used himself as a chess piece to seek that ray of hope.

Regardless of whether the plan succeeds or not, 'he' will never come back.

And now, what Aragaki Jun has gained is freedom and an unknown plan.

"Aragaki Jun, why bother..."

Chapter 188 Kasumigaoka Utaha's Desire

After reading the messages left by his past self, Aragaki Jun knew the truth about certain things, but he became even more confused.

Aragaki Jun didn't know if he would ever have the chance to understand those secrets that were buried deep in the past. All he could do was wait.

Maintaining the status quo, pretending that he had not read the message, and continuing his current happy life is a kind of cowardice on Aragaki Jun's part.

"It's shameful to escape, but it can be of some use."

Aragaki Jun went to the bathroom to wash his face, and then took another look at the books in the cabinet. There were a total of 32 light novels. After the notebook with the message spontaneously combusted, there was no change in them.

After confirming the titles of the books one by one, Aragaki Jun took photos of the covers and decided to go out and buy the books right away.

Aragaki Jun planned to read the publicly published version first, and then read the ones left by 'him' to see if he could find some differences.