Zongman: Please stop destroying the worldview!

I support you no matter which one you choose, but the premise is that you have to know what you want! What's the point of hesitating and being vague here, except to torture yourself and your daughter?

Qing Gao was shocked by Chen Mo's words, and his mind suddenly felt clear. He held the cup and fell into a long period of silent thinking.

It had been two years since he was kicked out of the Toyokawa family, and this was the first time he had thought about his life so clearly.

Qinggao's tears flowed down:

"I, I want to be an ordinary father. I don't have those powerful talents. I just want to make my family happy."

"But Xiangzi can't be with me. She is the heir of the Toyokawa family. I can't let her be with me because of me—"

Chen Mo folded his arms and interrupted Qing Gao's complaints: "So, you chose to degenerate yourself and force Xiangzi to go back?"

Qing Gao: "At least, she can live a happy life as a young lady in the Toyokawa family, and doesn't have to suffer here with me."

Chen Mo: "How do you know Xiangzi will be happy at Fengchuan's house? Why do you think she's stayed here for so long, even stubbornly refusing to leave when the band disbanded?"

Qing Gao was stunned. Chen Mo stared into his eyes and asked:

"Xiangzi had already made her choice. Between a comfortable life and her father, she chose you. Between her reputation as a young lady and her father, she chose you. Between the band she cherished as her life and her father, she chose you.

Xiangzi values ​​family more than your father who only talks about family. But what about you? How long will you avoid making choices?

"Let me ask you, will Xiangzi be happy seeing you like this? Will you be happy if you return to that cold and icy Toyokawa home, without a father or mother, and live with your grandfather?"

"I held the thought of making her happy, but ended up bringing her the most misfortune. Toyokawa Kiyoshi, what on earth are you doing?"

Chapter 36: The Story of Toyokawa Kiyoshi

"I used to firmly believe that family is the most important thing in the world."

Toyokawa Seikao slowly recalled the past and slowly let out the emotions that had been pent up for many years.

"My parents divorced when I was very young, and I lived with my mother. Later, my mother remarried and gave birth to several more children.

Naturally, I became the redundant one in the family."

Chen Mo: "No wonder, Xiangzi never thought of asking grandpa and grandma for help when something like this happened."

Qing Gao wiped away her tears and continued to recall, "No one cared about anything about me. What happened at school, how I did in school, which club I joined, whether I had someone I liked—no one cared about me.

My younger brothers and sisters can throw tantrums, act spoiled, and be picky about food. But I don’t have that right. That place is not my home.”

Chen Mo casually took out some peanuts, sunflower seeds, and beer, cracking some seeds while saying, "Go ahead, I'm listening. You can have some if you want."

Qing Gao hesitated for a moment, but didn't reach for the beer can. "I started drinking after high school. Back then, I was working part-time while attending university, and I left home to live on my own."

Chen Mo: "That sounds good. Isn't this quite free?"

Qing complained: "I don't understand why you think this way. No one cares about me. I feel like a person abandoned by the world, wandering around like a zombie, without a home, without a destination, just living in confusion."

Chen Mo: "Well, for me, I'm not so weak as to have to get other people's approval to survive. Even traveling through the world alone is quite interesting.

But you were still a child at the time, and I couldn't ask for more from you under the circumstances."

"Thank you. Thank you for listening to me. After Mizuho passed away, no one was willing to listen to me anymore."

Qing Gao relaxed and continued to reminisce, "Ten years. It's been ten years since I left home. I haven't seen my mother's face. Back then, I was just as decadent as I am now. Well, as Ruihui would say, no one has ever seen anyone as decadent as me."

Chen Mo munched on some melon seeds. "It's good to be alive, and it's okay to die. It's good to have money, and it's okay to be poor. Just live one day at a time, right? I used to have a friend who was just like that."

Qing complained: "I know how others see me. I'm an alcoholic, decadent, ignorant of human nature, and full of lies... But what can I do? There's no one in this world who will praise me when I do well, so I might as well just continue to be a rotten person like this."

Chen Mo: "Are you living just to be recognized by others?"

Qing Gao: "Yes."

"You are honest."

Qing Gao smiled bitterly and said, "But that's just who I am. If no one is watching me, why should I work hard?

It’s the same after graduation. As long as I earn enough to survive, I don’t mind living in a bad environment. I wouldn’t be surprised if I end up sleeping in a sewer one day.

Chen Mo: "What's wrong with sleeping in the sewer? I suspect you're plotting against me, but I have no evidence."

Chen Mo opened two cans of beer. A light drizzle began to fall outside the window. Only a single light remained on in the office. He and Qing Gao sat in the dim light, as if they were in a black-and-white space where time had stood still.

Chen Mo: "I heard from Xiangzi that when she was little, you were quite a remarkable person, a good person with outstanding abilities. Otherwise, she wouldn't be so attached to your useless father.

Tell me how you cheered yourself up."

",,,,, because I met Mizuho."

"Wow, I'm not sleepy anymore now that you're talking about this. Tell me more."

The story told slowly by the person who recalled the past is actually not a very complicated one, just a clichéd boy meets girl story, but this kind of clichéd story is the most endearing.

A rebellious young lady who runs away from home meets a confused young man who is pessimistic and world-weary. Mizuho Toyokawa and Kiyoshi are two completely different people. She comes from a wealthy family, has a cheerful personality, loves to imagine the future, and is a stubborn person for a vague future.

After falling in love with Mizuho, ​​Qing Gao went to the Toyokawa family to announce his intentions, but he naturally didn't receive a favorable reception. However, he evolved at a rocket-like pace, from a decadent young man with nothing to a multi-talented master. With his sincerity and perseverance, he managed to convince Mizuho's family to accept this poor outsider.

Qing Gao's whole body trembled as he said, "I finally have a home. Do you understand? Chen Mo, I finally have a home."

"Ugh."

Qing Gao did not elaborate on what happened next, and Chen Mo did not ask any further. This was too cruel for him.

Chen Mo changed the subject: "What happened before, 'It's really impossible without family, but don't you have any friends?"

Qing Gao: “There were some in the past, but no one could stand my bad habits, and in the end they all abandoned me and stopped associating with me.

This is my problem, but sometimes I still feel resentful towards them.”

Chen Mo: "Is it because you don't cherish them? You say you want recognition, but you don't need your friends' approval and care. Ultimately, after all the hatred, you just hate your family for not loving you."

Qing Gao reached for his beer and took a swig. "You don't understand. Family is the most important and meaningful relationship in the world! We share the same blood, and this bond is the strongest!"

If even your parents and brothers don't love you, what good can a few so-called acquaintances do?"

Chen Mo shrugged. "I really don't agree. To me, all relationships, like the love between family and friends, are just like that. We can expect them to be passionate, but we can't expect them to be strong. But if you insist on pursuing that maternal love that can never be returned, I understand."

But then again, you're not a child anymore. There are so many stories of brothers turning against each other, and fathers and sons becoming enemies. Blood is thicker than water, and that's just talk in many cases."

Qing Gao said, "Of course I know. I've always felt that those broken family relationships were caused by excessive suffering inflicted by the outside world, or by some unresolved misunderstandings. It's not their fault. It's their poor family background and low social status that led to all this."

Chen Mo: "Oh, I see. So that's why you foolishly told your father-in-law about your illegitimate daughter and insisted on bringing Hatsune back to the Toyokawa family? Do you think that as long as there's a layer of blood relationship, everyone can put aside their past grudges and live happily ever after?"

Qing Gao clenched his beer can. "I don't understand why this happened. The Toyokawa family is already a major financial group. We have no shortage of money, power, or reputation. The hardships of ordinary people are far, far away from us.

Why is it like this? Why would you abandon your own daughter and let her wander around just because you might step down as the head of the family?!"

Chen Mo: "You saw yourself in Hatsune, didn't you?"

Qing Gao lowered his head. Chen Mo couldn't help but complain, "Your father-in-law's actions have shattered your faith in Taoism. Now you're wondering if money and family are more important than you. While you're wasting your time, you're reverting to a state of self-destruction. It really made me laugh."

"Why are you always thinking about your parents? Whether it's your parents or your father-in-law, what they think is none of your business? If you believe in the right thing, you should put it into action instead of constantly nagging others for your approval."

"I, I know."

"Do you know what to choose?"

Qing Gao: "You are right, I don't want to think about the heir of the Toyokawa family anymore.

I'm a father, and I should be a normal father.

I can’t let Xiangzi become a homeless child like me.”

"That's right!"

Chen Mo patted Qing Gao's shoulder fiercely:

"Stop torturing others and yourself, and stand up straight!"

Chapter 37 Guitar Practice Tips

The next day

"I am oblivionis, welcome to the world of avemujica.

This space lacks a dancer. Are you willing to abandon your identity and transform into a puppet named fear to join me?

Come and give your life to me."

Xiaozhi deadpanned as she recited the lines Xiangzi had given her. Sitting across from her was the uninhibited Hachiman Kailing. Xiaozhi couldn't help but grumble inwardly: "When inviting someone to join a band, shouldn't they first discuss the musical style and direction of development? Even if the initial discussion was just about salary and resources, it would be understandable."

What does it mean to leave your life to me?

The other party won’t treat me as a fool, right?

Hai Ling: "Hand it over... do you really want to hand over your entire life?"

You also acted well.

Xiaozhi continued to recite his lines: "That's right, this band will be a lifelong commitment. There is absolutely no regret or withdrawal."

Hai Ling: "A lifetime... oblivionis, do you really trust me?"

"Of course I trust you."

"Okay, I'll join."

Xiaozhi pushed a contract over to Hailing, who read it over it repeatedly and seriously before signing her name.

The contract also included a mask that covered the lower half of her face. Hailing picked it up, and Xiaozhi said, as if reading an item description in a game, "This is a mask for a puppet. Once you put it on, you will no longer be Hachiman Hailing, but Timoris, the puppet without fear. Remember, don't destroy the worldview of avemujica."

Hai Ling: "I understand, you can trust me as much as you want!"

Thus, the bassist of avemujica was successfully confirmed. Xiaozhi breathed a sigh of relief. There was another lead singer named Sanjiao Chuhua in the evening. After the meeting, the task promised to Xiangzi would be completed.

It went more smoothly than expected. Maybe it's just that birds of a feather flock together. The team members Xiangzi found were all geniuses who spoke in a different way. It was also a kind of fate.

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On the other side, Xiangzi was looking for a drummer.

She was browsing online when something suddenly caught her eye. A streamer named Miao Meng was livestreaming her drum practice. Ambidextrous, she was incredibly skilled, far exceeding the standard expected of a novice.

Plus, she's wearing a mask and always says "This is Dark Miao Meng's"—surely a kindred spirit! I didn't think much of Miao Meng the last time I saw her at Chen Mo's house, but now it seems she's nailing her gothic worldview!

In addition, considering Miao Meng's influence as a host, her face and numbers also have a strong driving force on the development of avemujica.