Shamer

Today, Seiran High School’s soccer team had a tournament match.

After watching the soccer team’s game, in which Kinu participated, I went home with Kinu and Touya, who had also come to watch the game, and immediately changed into my casual clothes. By the way, Seiran High School won the game.

“Kinu was amazing today.”

He was passing the ball so fast to Kudo-senpai. I couldn’t catch up with my eyes.

While I was so excited, I received a MINE from Maki-chan.

It said, “Let’s play a game now.”

I was the manager of the soccer team, but I didn’t stop gaming.

I said, “Okay,” to Maki-chan, and turned on the game.

Then — I turned on the voice changer.

“Ah, I don’t need this anymore.”

Inadvertently, I tried to remove the voice changer.

…Uhh, I kinda want to play around with it a bit.

Then I turned on the voice changer and spoke.

“Hey there. My name is Marumaru.”

My voice had been changed to a nice male voice.

It was Marumaru’s voice.

I was in the third year of middle school. After Kinu stopped coming to school, I wanted to help him somehow.

But when I went to his house to visit him in person, I couldn’t find the courage to press the intercom, and I was wondering what to do.

It was at that time when I happened to meet Kinu’s mother at a supermarket.

Kinu’s mother was worried about her son and told me that he had recently started playing games and using social networking services all day.

So I secretly asked Kinu’s mother to give me his account so that I could contact him through games.

I sent him a lot of messages and managed to set up an appointment to play a game together, but I was worried that maybe he would recognize me by my voice when we were playing games and having a conversation.

I desperately searched for a good voice changer and bought one.

I used it and I became “Marumaru”.

This was the biggest lie I have ever told Kinu.

“Kinu would be amazed if he knew.”

…but I wasn’t going to reveal it yet.

I have made Kinu wait for my answer.

I couldn’t forgive myself for hurting Kinu and Touya because of my half-heartedness.

But if the day comes when I can forgive myself and become a girl worthy of Kinu…

Then—this time, I will confess my feelings to him.

I might even tell him about “Marumaru” as a bonus.

I tried to save the person I love, even with a big lie, and that makes me — a harmful human.

A harmful person who accepted her wrong self and expressed her feelings in a helpless and pathetic way.

This was the story of two such harmful people who would one day be together.