Tensei Shoujo no Rirekisho

I honestly hate this reincarnated world. Very frustrating.

I'm disappointed first of all at the current state of affairs that few civilized things were in my previous life, and before that, when I look at the people who seem to live without thinking about it, I feel sorry for them

When I was in Galligari Village, I didn't think about it, I didn't think about it, I just left it to the stream to see the living villagers, and they seemed to disgust me, but that's why I worked so hard, thinking that my parents would recognize me and love me. I'm sure I was reincarnated to teach them a human life, and I was on track as much as I thought.

But it was sold. It was a great shock because I really wanted my parents to try and love me then and I didn't spare any effort to be loved.

After a little time, I didn't need a parent, and I decided to stay in the stream for now, too.

That's when I met Alan and Cain.

I thought they were poor kids.

I was kind of, pitying them was creating a feeling I'd never tasted before that resembled superiority.

While I was spending time with them like that, I started thinking about saving them poor me when I got on track. At first, it seemed like a very warm emotion.

But now that I think about it, it was the kindness of a lie that was formed over the filthy part of my mind that resembled superiority.

So I regretted seeing them get what I wanted and smile happily, unlike me.

I thought they were different from me.

I thought I was really selfish, but I was going to hate them.

All I hate in the first place. I hate this world, but that's not why I liked the world of previous life either.

In the previous life, it was very frustrating to see people loved by their parents, naturally.

Because you didn't do anything! Loved with a natural face!

He looked like he was grinning at me for working so hard for it.

Now that I think about it, in my previous life, I was defending myself by being alone, studying, being the best, and mocking everyone around me back. We all hated it.

I even feel like Alan and Cain are overlapping with people from those past lives and they're mocking me... even though I know that's not true, but I really do.

I like those two. That's not a mistake either. But right now, I just can't feel like it. I must have felt like I was bound to hurt them one day.

I'm gonna think about this. I must be a bad kid.

And because he's such a bad kid, he could have been sold by his parents and punished like a bandit would have caught him.

But I can't believe I'm just being flirted with in a world like this. I am, really, pride alone.