The day I shared a flat with my female boss

At this time has entered September, Begonia flowers have withered, those once white and beautiful petals have turned into dust, a thumb sized fruit in the branches and leaves looming.

Xi'er's BMW is parked under several tall Begonia trees.

I touched my nose, took a long breath, and went straight over.

Xi'er had seen me in the rearview mirror for a long time. She had opened the front passenger's door for me. I went to the door and looked at her with a smile.

"Gu Yang," she also gave me a smile, bowed her head, raised her hand and gathered her hair. She said, "shall we talk in the car?"

I nodded and stooped into the car.

At first, for a moment, we all sat quietly in the car, and no one spoke. Xi'er's eyes went through the windshield and looked at the crabapple trees above the car, with a sad look and lonely eyes.

I looked at the conch on the front platform and nervously raised my hand to touch my nose from time to time. I knew that the conch was picked up by me from the seaside and given to Xi'er!

"Gu Yang," she turned to look at me and said with a smile, "look at these crabapple trees. They are blooming and withering. Now they are bearing fruit. In early autumn, the fruit will mature."

I nodded and looked at her. I didn't know what she wanted to express with this Begonia tree?

She sighed, and then said: "the flowers bloom and wither. The Begonia trees are in strict accordance with the laws of nature. If the flowers and trees go against the laws of nature, everything will be in chaos. Breaking the law leads to disorder. "

Is she suggesting the hidden rules of this society? Are you implying that she and Ouyang Ze are also bound by hidden rules?

I touched my nose and said, "there are no rules. It can't be square and round."

"Gu Yang, do you have Begonia trees in your hometown?" Xi'er looked at me and said with a smile.

I said: "there are many, many, in front of and behind the house!"

"Have you ever eaten Begonia?" Xi'er asked me.

"I did," I said. When I was a child, I loved to eat it, but it didn't taste very good. Just picked fruit, oral not sweet, very sour, very sour

Just like the feeling in my heart at the moment!

Xi'er's eyes picked out the window and fell on the crowns of the crabapple trees. She said quietly, "the taste and shape of the crabapple fruits are all like hawthorn, which can be eaten fresh or made into preserves. The crabapple that my nurse can make is sweet, sour and delicious. Xi'er and I liked it very much when we were young! "

I touched my nose, forced a smile, said: "is it?"

Xi'er nodded to me and said with a smile, "Begonia fruit can't be picked and eaten. It's sour and astringent, and it's bitter! To get rid of the bitter taste, we should store the Begonia fruit for a period of time before eating. I remember I didn't have refrigeration equipment when I was a child, but my nurse had a way

"What can I do?" I said.

Then Xi'er told me about the unforgettable scene that her nurse helped her and her sister to make Begonia when she was a child.

Xi'er said that her nurse first put the fruit into the hay basket and put it in a cool and ventilated place. Until the snow around the winter solstice, the northwest wind blowing, the fruit surface from a layer of light frost, at this time, the special flavor of Begonia fruit fully show sweet slightly sour, slightly crisp fruit aroma, and at this time the sour, by no means comparable to apricot plum! No matter how cold it is, the fruit will be frozen. Put the fruit in the yard, and the fruit will be frozen into hard ice lumps. Like the frozen persimmon, pull it out in cold water, wait for a thin layer of ice to come out of the fruit, then you can eat it. However, eating frozen Begonia is really not a bite to eat, the juice is white and dross, you have to put the whole fruit in your mouth, and then pull the handle of the fruit. The handle is connected with a small red bead like core, which is pulled out. The flesh left in your mouth is cool, sweet and sour, natural and delicious, and the taste is beyond words. At that time, peddlers would sell these Begonia fruits in the streets, usually in "bingzhan'er" cars. But the taste is not as good as the frozen Begonia made by my nanny!

After Xi'er finished, I said: "maybe what you miss is not the taste of frozen Begonia fruit, but the taste of childhood! And that smell is gone forever, and it's irreplaceable, right? "

Xi'er nodded and said with a smile, "it's like love. I remember someone saying that we don't fall in love with someone. We fall in love with the feeling of being with someone and the happy time of being with someone. "

I can understand this. As far as Liu Qing is concerned, I have not loved her since the day when she fell into the arms of that rich old man! The reason why I can't forget for a long time is that I was fettered by the past time! After she left me, what I can't forget is not Liu Qing, but the happy time I spent with Liu Qing, the kind of happy and sweet feeling I had with her!

I seem to understand the reason why Xi'er uses local materials to talk about Begonia trees. She just wants to explain this! But why did she explain this to me? Did she want to tell me that she didn't love me, but just fell in love with me, or did she want to tell me that I didn't love her, but fell in love with her?Xi'er didn't go on talking about this topic, but directly turned to the fact. She truthfully confessed to me the relationship between her and Ouyang Ze, from their acquaintance two years ago to now!

Frankly speaking, when I saw her with Ouyang Ze in the Mediterranean commercial building, I really hated her! But this kind of hate can't stand the test of time. It's hard to survive in the cracks of love. This kind of hate gradually fades away in the sieve of time until it's invisible. Finally, it's still love.

Frankly speaking, I don't hate her any more now.

"Gu Yang," Xi'er sighed and looked at me, "in fact, I already knew about you and Xi'er."

I Leng for a while, the heart also suddenly shook for a while, I looked at her, opened a mouth, did not say a word.

She said with a smile: "probably when we met for the first time, I realized that Xi'er had fallen in love with you!"

"The first time? When I robbed your driver's license downstairs in Xuguang building? " I was surprised.

Xi'er nodded and said with a smile, "Well! At that time, I didn't know you. I thought you were a thief. I was going to call 110 at first, but Xi'er didn't promise

"Because of this?" I said.

Xi'er shook his head and said, "it's because of a word from Xi'er."

I said, "what's that?"

Xi'er said, "Xi'er said," sister! Don't bother me! If you take that hick to the police station, I'll have to go and bail him! "

"That's it?" I said.

Xi'er said with a light smile: "Xi'er is my sister. When we grow up together, I can easily see her mind! I don't know if she fell in love with you at that time, but I know she must like you! "

My mind suddenly crossed over what happened that day. That day, Xi'er was in the elevator when she got off work. When I didn't pay attention, she grabbed her driver's license back, kicked my crotch and threatened me with the police!

Now think about it, if Xi'er really likes me since then, as Xi'er said, Xi'er is definitely a first-class actor! Is the most inconsistent girl! Because at that time, she gave me the feeling that she hated me!

"Later, I saw Xi'er take you to haiyunjian Hotel, take you to the birthday party, take you to Simei to the proposal meeting, as if you will appear where she appears. Although she told me that you are just her acting boyfriend, I feel that Xi'er is slowly falling in love with you!" Xi'er looked at me and said that there was a deep sadness in her eyes.

Xi'er's words still surprised me. I didn't feel that Xi'er liked me until before and after I went abroad. I didn't expect Xi'er to see it! Is love really a spectator?

I said, "but..."

"But, knowing that Xi'er loves you, why should I love you?" Xi'er looked at me and said.

I took out a cigarette, lit it and took two puffs!

Xi'er looked at me and said, "because my emotions are out of my control, because my heart is out of my control, because my eyes are out of my control, because I fell in love with you unconsciously, because I fell into your world unconsciously Because I think my love for you can break through everything! Because I think I can fall in love with you! Because... "

Xi'er's emotion became excited and her voice choked. Her eyes are full of tears, which are ready to go and will overflow uncontrollably at any time.

My heart suddenly pulled up, I said: "Xi'er, I don't mean that..."

Xi'er's eyes are shining at me.

I said, "I mean, when I fell in love with you, I didn't fall in love with Xi'er? When you love me, you don't love Ouyang Ze, either? It's natural that we love each other! We really love each other! We are all right! "

"But have you ever thought that we are so sorry for Xi'er?" Xi'er looked at me, tears finally spilled out of her eyes, flowing down her beautiful cheek.

My nose is sour, my eyes are astringent, and my heart begins to ache!

Impulsively, I grabbed her hand, lowered my head and pressed my lips to the back of her white hand. After a long time, I looked up at her eyes and said in a soft voice:

"I don't know if you have thought of me in the past half a month? I don't know if what we've been through with each other will go with the wind? I don't know if my attitude in your heart will become miserable? yes! I don't know, I want to know, but I'm afraid to know! Who can really understand my heart? "