The Former Villainess Who Went Back in Time, She Doesn’t Fix Her Bad Personality but Avoids the Exec

Chapter 56: Can’t accept

Even after two years, he’s still noisy. It feels like his voice is still lingering even though he’s already left.

“Alise seems to like him.”

“That’s a misunderstanding. We’re just having a regular conversation.”

“I don’t know about that.”

Saying so with a pout, Julian-sama rests his chin on top of my head.

“It’s heavy! Please stop!”

“Are you referring to my feelings for you?”

“No, I’m not!”

As our conversation reaches a dead end, I twist my body and resist him with force, causing him to pout like a child.

“Alise told me once, you know? That thoughts won’t be conveyed unless you say them out loud.”

“Julian-sama, we’re too close!”

“I’m already holding back quite a bit, you know.”

As I look at him casually saying this, I can’t help but feel foolish for being so angry with a red face.

I let out a big sigh and unconsciously my expression darkens.

“You don’t really know the real me, Julian-sama. If you did, you wouldn’t say those same words.”

“Alise.”

“I’m cheating, so…”

Unexpectedly, I blurted out something I never intended to say and quickly looked at Julian-sama’s face. Unable to bear the sadness in his eyes, I lowered my gaze.

“Alise.”

“I’m sorry, please don’t mind it.”

“Listen, Alise.”

His finger gently touches my weakly hanging hand, and I unconsciously flinch.

“I know you’ve been troubled about something for a long time, and I also know it’s not easy to talk about it.”

“Julian-sama…”

“I like you.”

His touching finger suddenly feels warm to me, and I feel like my heart is going to burn with sadness.

I just couldn’t bring myself to accept his feelings honestly. After all, he will eventually fall in love with Princess Chai, who came to this country.

After all, a fake can never beat the real thing.

“Don’t cry, Alise.”

“I’m not crying.”

I couldn’t bear his touch anymore, so I quietly turned away.

Even though I realize that I am hurting him, there’s nothing I can do. Because I am scared.

I already know it. Julian-sama’s appeal is not limited to his appearance. If I acknowledge the reason for this pain in my heart, I’m afraid there will be no turning back. I don’t want to be taken away.

I don’t want to die. I don’t want to experience such a miserable end again. If I fall in love with Julian-sama now, then…

“I like you, Alise.”

As he confesses his feelings again from behind me, I hold back my voice and shed a single tear.