The Most Simple Wish

One Friday afternoon, the children of dachacun primary school had lunch and had a short lunch break. Dai's summer is coming, and rainy season is also coming. But today is a hot day. Dacha village is baked by the sun, and the leaves of banana trees give off a scorching smell.

Tao Huizhen, holding a bamboo basket in her hand, glanced at the dazzling sunshine, covered her forehead with her hand and walked towards the stream outside the village. Dao Xiaotong followed Tao Huizhen, frowning and saying, "it's so hot. It's such a hot day."

During the lunch break, Tao Huizhen and Dao Xiaotong go to the stream around dacha village to wash clothes. This is not the first time for Tao Huizhen. Dao Xiaotong accompanies Tao Huizhen every time. She is willing to tell the story of dacha village to Tao Huizhen. She is more willing to look out into the distance with Tao Huizhen and listen to Tao Huizhen about the outside world.

Outside the village is a vast mountain, where grass is growing, flowers are blooming, and streams are scouring out a snake shaped waterway.

The stream is only one step wide, clear to the bottom, with fine grains of sand and colorful pebbles laying on the bottom, forming bright spots under the focus of sunlight. The water is very shallow, clean like transparent pure water, the water reflects the shadow of Tao Huizhen and Dao Xiaotong.

Dao Xiaotong can't wait to put her hand into the water, rippling on the surface of the water and said: "it's so hot, it's such a bad weather."

"The water is cool, just right." Tao Huizhen also stirred the water with her fingers. The stream is clattering. It doesn't look like there are fish here. The water is too shallow and clear. As Mr. Li said, big fish are smart and can't swim into the stream path. Occasionally, some lost fish can't be caught without fishing nets.

This stream, which is nowhere to be seen in the upstream, flows slowly to the unknown place through the bamboo forest of the village like a miniature version of the Amazon River. Dao Xiaotong said that some people tried to go up the upstream of the stream, but they could not find the source. When they went down the downstream, they did not see the confluence.

Relying on human resources, it takes three hours even to walk to the county seat to catch up with a water source. How can we spy on the whole picture? Every time Tao Huizhen listens to Xiao Tong, he smiles lightly. She does not want to touch the bubble in Xiaotong's heart. Because, as long as you have perseverance, the water in the upstream will certainly meet the source, and the water in the downstream will eventually meet the confluence

China's Lancang River starts from Yushu, Qinghai, flows through Tibet and reaches Yunnan. It is more than 2000 kilometers long. Then it extends to the boundary of foreign countries. From north to south, it passes through Laos, Myanmar, Vietnam, Thailand and other countries. The section of Lancang River in foreign countries is called Mekong River, with a total length of more than 4000 kilometers and finally flows into the sea. Mengla County, where Dai township is located, is just a section of Lancang River, which intersects Laos.

This stream in dacha village probably originates from a tributary of Lancang River, and at its end, it will flow into Lancang River and merge with the river that runs to the South China Sea.

The water will eventually flow into the ocean. Tao Huizhen looks at the upstream of the stream, the source of life for the dacha village. Along the way, how many Chinese cultures and civilizations have been witnessed and how many people have been nourished? The Lancang River Basin seems to be carrying the mission of spreading civilization along the way. The waves flow into the South China Sea and continue to grow.

"Mr. Tao, let me wash it for you?" Dao Xiaotong takes a look at Tao Huizhen's bamboo basket, some clothes in the city. The material looks good and smooth. And she is almost dominated by skirt and skirt. In Dai Township, women wear this kind of clothes. She has no other style except this kind of clothes.

"No more." Tao Huizhen smiles and shakes her head: "I have learned to wash clothes by the stream." She noticed that most of Dao Xiaotong's skirts are black bottomed, and the whole leg can be wrapped on the skirt tube, with colorful lines outlining a variety of pattern totems, some of which are face makeup, some of which are flowers and birds“ Do you make all your clothes yourself? And those patterns? You have a good hand Tao Huizhen said to Dao Xiaotong's skirt.

"Dai people can do it. Listen to my father, the skirt cut by my mother is first-class..." speaking of this, Dao Xiaotong's hand movement stagnated, her eyes solidified when she looked at Tao Huizhen, and her throat seemed to be blocked. Tao Huizhen's eyes overlapped with hers. She noticed the difference of Dao Xiaotong, and her lips were still moving. She asked tentatively, "are uncles and aunts here?"

The blood on Dao Xiaotong's face seems to have been emptied. She rubs her face with the back of her hand and shakes her head.

Tao Huizhen regretted asking. She shouldn't have asked. Dao Xiaotong never mentioned anything about her family. She seems to regard dachacun primary school as her home and the children as her family, just like Mr. Li. Tao Huizhen should have realized that there must be something hard to say. She shouldn't be so curious.

"I haven't met my aunt. She gave birth to me and died in childbirth. I don't understand what's wrong with the fetal position and my posture. I was born with a congenital physical defect. My left leg is a little shorter than my right leg by a few centimeters. I can't see it normally. If I run fast, I can see it. It's not easy to master the balance. "

Tao Huizhen's eyes are wide open. She looks at Dao Xiaotong's legs. She can only see her ankles from under the skirt tube, imagining Dao Xiaotong's staggering appearance. But Tao Huizhen never thought that it was related to Dao Xiaotong's defects. Some people's walking posture was not standard, which always caused small differences. In her eyes, it was very common.

She also thought that Dao Xiaotong was the same age as her. They were born in the late 1970s and early 1980s. At that time, death due to dystocia was nothing new. Medical treatment was still underdeveloped, and there was no medical treatment in the mountains. Most of the time, people in those days had to leave their fate to their fate, so that now people always recall that they would say thank you for living in modern times.

"Knife teacher, sorry, I..." Tao Huizhen is very sorry.

Dao Xiaotong shakes her head fiercely. She is very grateful for Tao Huizhen's asking. She doesn't feel embarrassed at all. Instead, she seems to find an excuse to talk. She lifted the water with her hand, and her eyes became distant: "my father is gone, for more than ten years. After I became an orphan, I went to dozens of villages under Mengla County to beg. Later, when I grew up, I settled down in dacha village. "

Tao Huizhen tries her best to imagine the scene of Dao Xiaotong begging for a living ten years ago. She drags her body and leaves a humble figure in the world. She is helpless and walks on the mountain road. She goes from one village to another with faith. She can also imagine the action of wiping sweat on her forehead with her hand through time and space. She has suffered a lot. Tao Huizhen finally knows how to cultivate her open mindedness and persistence that does not belong to her age. When she spoke, her eyes were clear and clear, without tears.

"When I was a child, the adults said that in the deep mountains of dacha mountain, there were Dai People's auspicious birds, green peacocks. The Lingniao has high requirements for its habitat. It can't be disturbed or damaged. It can be seen that there are wild green peacocks in dacha mountain, which shows that the environment of Dai township is good. It's the auspicious bird of Dai people. It's the spirit of a hundred birds. It's very happy that it can live in Dai. My father said that he has seen the Green Peacock with his own eyes. It's so beautiful. "

Dao Xiaotong licks her lips, her eyes are full of color of remembrance, and her thoughts are drifting farther and farther away.

She said that ten years ago, like ten years ago, or eleven or nine years ago, she couldn't remember exactly. In the depths of dacha mountain, some people were lucky enough to see wild green peacocks, but later, some people said that the green peacocks in Mengla County had disappeared. Green peacocks are very afraid of people and are strict with the environment, but they are the spirit birds of Dai people.

That year, someone found traces of wild boar in dachasan. Dao Xiaotong's father organized several people to go deep into dachasan. In order to provide a good environment for the rare wild green peacock, these people wanted to drive the wild boar out of dachasan. When he left, Dao Xiaotong's father said that if he could catch the wild boar, he would be able to touch the meat. If he could not catch it, he would give the spirit bird a comfortable and quiet home.

With Dao Xiaotong's father, there is a young couple in dachacun village. They are also fond of the Green Peacock. They have seen the Green Peacock dancing. That kind of life is the auspicious symbol of Dai people. In order to create a good home environment for the Green Peacock, the young couple left their baby at home alone and went into the depths of dacha mountain without hesitation. But these people never came back. They walked into the depths of dacha mountain, like an endless time tunnel.

Now, ten years later, the past has been forgotten, and the wild green peacock was identified as extinct in Mengla County as early as a few years ago.

Tao Huizhen listened to Dao Xiaotong's story, but she couldn't accept it. She didn't come back, and Green Peacock didn't wait. A few people's hot pillow was completely buried in the mountains, completely erased by time. As long as she looked into the distance, she could see the undulating big tea mountain. The corner of the mountain was connected with endless green hills. The top of the mountain intersected with the sky, which was vast.

This mountain is next to dacha village. Dao Xiaotong chooses to stay at the foot of dacha village. Does she think it can be closer to her father?

"It's good to say it." Holding Dao Xiaotong's hand, Tao Huizhen can't extricate herself for a long time. If she doesn't go into a person's heart, she will never understand a person, even a woman who looks so simple and pure. Tao Huizhen was silent for a long time, and she began to tell her story to Dao Xiaotong.

She started from learning classical dance, talking about how hard she has worked in the past ten years, and how Wenxiu has always been with her. How did she become the main dance of a dance company and the soul of a dance company from a small accompaniment dance? She talked about why she gave up her ten-year hard work in dance career and had to be a supporting teacher.

However, Tao Huizhen did not give Dao Xiaotong any commitment, as well as her ambition, she can not do much, she is just trying to do. There is no essential difference between her and Dao Xiaotong, but they are all on their own track of life, working hard towards a ray of dawn.

By the stream, every other distance, there is a smooth pebble paved there. This is a tool for Dai people to wash clothes. When they wet their clothes, they put them on the pebbles, beat them with a club, and beat them repeatedly from top to bottom. They shake them off and put them into the stream. When they wash them under the flow of the stream, their clothes will become clean and thorough.

In the process of beating, some dry herbs can be put into the clothes, which can not only serve as washing powder, but also make the clothes have a smell of licorice.

Tao Huizhen is doing the same thing now. She washes clothes with the combination of mallet and pebble. Her movements are very smooth and not muddy.

"Mr. Tao, I, I heard that your support teachers' subsidies are very small. You haven't given them yet. You always buy food, drink and candy for the children. It's all your own money. I know you don't have much money. You are too selfless to the children." Dao Xiaotong said.

Tao Huizhen saw her scattered hair from the reflection of the stream, stroked her hair behind her ears, and said: "children are very dependent on their teachers. Sometimes they are surrounded by them, and they feel like they are their own children. Because of their responsibilities, you can't ignore them."

Dao Xiaotong shrunk her neck and said shyly, "I'm not as knowledgeable as Mr. Tao. I didn't expect so much and so far-reaching. I don't understand the words "responsibility" and "mission" that Mr. Li only said. Maybe besides my physical defects, my brain also has some defects... "

"You didn't." Tao Huizhen looks at Dao Xiaotong.

"Oh, after getting along with each other, I really like Mr. Tao. I know everything. In dachacun primary school, Mr. Tao teaches and I come to cook. I don't know how good it is. I'm very good at teaching. I'm very good at Gu wa. I'll help you. There's never been a day like this before. " Dao Xiaotong all sweetly pursed her mouth, turned her eyes to make aftertaste expression: "I hope I can go on like this all the time."

In the evening, Tao Huizhen lies quietly on the bamboo bed. Once again, dacha village falls into darkness and silence. Dao Xiaotong has gone to sleep, Tao Huizhen recalled the day, thoughts, and soon also shallow sleep.

Tao Huizhen came to Shengjing Grand Theater. She once again passed the corridor connecting the dressing room behind the scenes and the stage. The whitewashed walls on both sides of the corridor were mottled and peeled off. On them were many photos. Tao Huizhen wants to see the contents of the picture clearly. At this time, she feels that she is blocked by a figure in front of her and can no longer see the picture on the wall.

Tao Huizhen showed a wry smile. She didn't see the content in the photo, which was a pity. She didn't know why she felt this way. She raised her head, the director of the little dance company was standing in front of her, he was still a gray image of temples, his hair was very neat, but his facial features were a little fuzzy.

"The next one is you. Don't be affected by these photos. I know there are precious memories in these photos. You still can't forget what you saw and heard in the public service performance, right? But you are Tao Huizhen, you are born for dancing The director of the little dance company said in an unquestionable tone. He looked at Tao Huizhen with pride: "this classical dance dress suits you so well, Huizhen, you are the pride of the dance company!"

"Director, I --" Tao Huizhen suddenly found that she had forgotten what she was going to dance today. The stage was at the end of the 100 meter corridor, but she didn't remember what dance she had prepared. It seemed that she was taken out of her mind. She rubbed her forehead and asked, "which play am I going to dance today? Is it "far away"

"How could it be" far away "? That's your famous work. What you're going to perform now is your famous work, women's solo "soul of classical dance". Today's Theater Hall is full. Show your strength. You are the pride of the little dance company! Everyone knows how difficult this dance is, but it's not difficult for you, Tao Huizhen. In Shengjing Grand Theater, no one is more popular than you, Tao Huizhen. "

In this case, it sounds very familiar. Tao Huizhen's eyebrows moved slightly, and she felt some heavy pressure on her body and was falling.

Nodded, she found that her body, has been stacked, is a gradual blue and white wide sleeve classical dance clothes, especially heavy. From the neckline, slit and embroidery features, we can see the shadow of Chinese classical Hanfu. With ribbon, skirt ribbon, sleeve ribbon and headdress ribbon, Tao Huizhen's beautiful decoration is extraordinary.

She blushed, thinking that Chinese Hanfu is one of the media of Chinese traditional culture. In the production of Hanfu, weaving, embroidery and dyeing fully reflect the wisdom and skills of Chinese arts and crafts. At this time, she wore this dress, and then went to perform "soul of classical dance", as if in the dark, symbolizing something, she did not dare to be careless.

She gradually remembered the melody and rhythm of the soul of classical dance. How to appear, how to set up a model, how to express the theme, how to express her feelings with dance language, she remembers all the more vividly in her mind. It's a play without any fluke, so it's better to make efforts.

She swallowed a mouthful of saliva subconsciously, and the tension spread to her whole body like the tide.

The theme of this dance is to show the skills of classical dance. The embodiment of the "soul" of classical dance requires the actors to have excellent dance skills, including form, spirit, strength and rhythm. Let the audience feel that the dancer's body is rigid and soft, vigorous in shape and spirit, with the tension of moving like a rabbit, static like a virgin, and extraordinary appeal.

Tao Huizhen has no logic to realize that "the soul of classical dance" may be her last play on the stage, and she may be saying goodbye to this stage. So her heart burst of fever, an unprecedented force, from a certain place into her body. She gazed at the stage curtain not far away, and the accompaniment tape of "a small city in the rain" was rolling to the end.

"Huizhen, and today's stage, you are no longer alone in the performance, the music is not accompaniment, that thing is too stiff, there is no emotional expression, can not reflect all your talent in dance. Today, in your performance, we invited Shenyang National Orchestra to perform live Concerto for you! It's a big band of 80 people. They will be on the side of the stage to set you off, and we will all be proud of you. "

"Live Concerto?" Tao Huizhen's consciousness returned to her body, and she pressed her mouth with her hand in surprise: "I never dreamed that I would have this qualification. The National Orchestra accompanies me live, which has always been my dream as a dancer, just like stepping on the international stage. In this case, even if you leave the stage after this dance, there will be no regret

Small theater dancers, but all the dance music, the use of almost all the accompaniment tape, that is, recorded music rhythm. It seems that only big name dancers can enjoy such treatment for live concertos. Only high-end stage can have such configuration. Tao Huizhen has never even been to such a scene. She has only seen it on TV. With the live cooperation of the orchestra and the dancers, a whole orchestra plays musical instruments for the soloists, and the stage is pushed to the full height, and the audience is also ignited. Dancing in the middle of the stage has become the focus of attention.

Every time she saw the live Concerto in the TV program, Tao Huizhen would take a deep breath. Her eyes revealed her desire to suck her lips. The flow of blood became faster and her cheeks became more red. She hopes that one day, an orchestra will accompany her. That would be her glory, marking a height in her dance career.

In fact, that's Tao Huizhen's dream. It's also the dream of every dancer to step on a broader stage and face more audiences. Although the stage of the small dance troupe is not big enough, and it is a bit awkward for such a large national orchestra to cluster around in the narrow space of the stage, Tao Huizhen still firmly believes that her dream has come true.

"Is that your dream? Go to your dream The director with fuzzy features spoke.

Tao Huizhen picked up her skirt and went to the stage without hesitation. The voice of the director of the dance company came from behind: "leave your sweat on the stage!"

Tao Huizhen felt that all these things seemed familiar, but it seemed as if they were so distant and strange in a time and space. With the sound of the flute and the clear and ethereal prelude of the flute, she stepped onto the stage. As the director said, the theater hall is full, and the National Orchestra is squeezed into the space of the stage. They are composed of bowstring instrument group, plucked string instrument group, wind instrument group and percussion instrument group. They face Tao Huizhen. Like the audience in the audience, their facial features are vague, but Tao Huizhen can imagine their intoxicated expression.

For the first time, she saw such a huge national orchestra and thought, are they really concerting for me? She felt her heart beat violently, and she could hear it as if it were coming from an open tunnel. The focus of the audience was on her. At this time, thunderous applause resounded, as if to give Tao Huizhen great encouragement.

She Leng for a moment, eyes moist thought, this is my stage ah. My audience, my applause, I have to show my sincerity.

Facing the audience, she started positioning. As a classical dancer, she has a solid foundation in dance, but in "the soul of classical dance", every body movement has to be controlled to the extreme.

The toe of the right foot is gently raised, and the leg is stretched straight, supporting the weight of the whole body. The left leg is slowly thrown back, and the toe is still stretched. After forming a 90 degree angle with the right leg, it moves up again. Tao Huizhen stretched out her arms and twirled the orchid palms. Her head swung toward the slanting stage light. Her eyes instantly focused on a certain point, as if fixed there. It was as if there was a knife in her eyes, piercing the air. There is a long tendon floating on her neck. The tip of the tongue is firmly against the upper jaw.

Next, Tao Huizhen does a series of turning over and continuous leg skipping from one side of the stage. This action is the basic classic action of classical dance, and is the hard core technology display of the soul of classical dance. It's not only the superb skills of classical dancers, but also the willpower and talent of dance. One, two, three... Tao Huizhen from the beginning of the stage to the end of the stage, made 18 groups in a row, point, string, turn over, keep the head, shake the head, all at once! She stood with her legs together without shaking, her arms lifted up as she leaned forward. Eyes gently from the tip of the foot, in turn gently draw an arc, once again fixed in the diagonal above the stage. She tried her best, the brilliance in her eyes, the subtle expression changes on her face, all performed almost perfectly.

She danced out the spirit of the dancer, the "soul" of classical dance and the "soul" of dance.

Two sweats flow from Tao Huizhen's temples to her neck, like a river dripping into her collar. She felt her shirt covered with sweat. Some beads of sweat fell on her lips, and she tasted the saltiness of the sweat. She thought, this is the only time that she has done so many series of turn over and twist leg jumping, and it is impossible to reach this height in the future. She told herself clearly that this is her limit number. With the increase of age, she will only be farther and farther away from this number, and her body will not be able to bear it.

Besides, this time a large national orchestra played for her. No matter from her own dance height or from the aspect of dance beauty, she should realize that she has reached her climax.

There were stabbing pains in her legs and ankles, and her toes were very uncomfortable. Tao Huizhen pressed the feeling down, and there was no expression on her face. She heard the applause of the audience coming from a very distant place. Pipa of plucked string instrument group, zhongruan, plays.

They sound as if someone had opened a bead curtain; It is also like the still water of the dachacun stream that Tao Huizhen has seen.

Tao Huizhen squatted down. The ribbon of her dance dress covered the whole stage. She lowered her hands and moved her arms with the sweet accompaniment. Her arms rolled like waves. She was so soft that she could breathe.

The live Concerto made Tao Huizhen feel very comfortable performing. She had never been so fluent. She was grateful to the dance troupe and the Theater Hall for giving her this opportunity to cooperate with the National Orchestra.

All of a sudden, bowstring instruments and wind music began to play together, almost like a roar. The grand sound burst into the Theater Hall, shaking people's emotions. This is the last melody. The performers of the national orchestra all stood up. The high pitched melody lifted the ceiling of the Theater Hall, and the bass vibrated everyone's eardrum. The sound of the drum seems to come from the bottom of the earth, deep and powerful.

In front of her eyes, Tao Huizhen got up from the stage. She dances lightly, from soft to hard, with strong expression. All of a sudden, her expression changed. The tenacity of a dancer perched in her eyes. She took a few steps and jumped into the air. The sharp pain from her feet made her eyebrows straighten and her pupils stare desperately at a focus in the air. The light became blurred. Her left and right legs were thrown forward and backward respectively, and the flat angle of 180 degrees was unfolded. Her waist was folded backward. Her whole body seemed to be frozen forever in the air.

At the end of the accompaniment, Tao Huizhen takes one of the most difficult movements in classical dance, "kick the purple golden crown" as the closing salute. After her whole action, her camera on the stage seems to be standing still and drawing the curtain. She closed her eyes contentedly, and a tear rolled down her cheek.

The applause faded away, as if the audience were clapping for her at the top of the mountain far away, and there was no last sound.

Tao Huizhen opened her eyes. The theater hall was empty. There was no audience, no Orchestra, and only a beam of light hit her. She was wearing a white shirt and her hair was scattered. There was no sound on the stage. Her own breathing came from the bottom of her lungs. Big sweat drops fell on the ground of the stage.

Tao Huizhen bent over the empty audience and made a standard curtain call.

She woke up with tears in her eyes.