The Most Simple Wish

Students from dachacun primary school began to come back to class one after another. It was the fifth day of spring rain. Today, the continuous drizzle happened to be a week. Today, the students came in order, and the school building had the learning atmosphere of the past, but the continuous rain made the roof of the school building drip again.

The sound of dripping water, accompanied by the "creaking" sound of disrepair desks and chairs, is constantly ringing in the classroom. Dachacun primary school still uses the compound teaching method. Tao Huizhen first gives lectures to the senior students and lets the junior students listen in. When it's her turn to give lectures to the junior students, the senior students review themselves.

At noon, Tao Huizhen looked out of the glass window, the rain curtain is still orderly between heaven and earth are coated with gray water vapor. No one goes out in Dai village, which is quieter than before. In the middle of the soft soil Village Road, a small puddle full of rain water, bamboo buildings and gray sky reflected on the water.

Tao Huizhen took an umbrella and went out.

Stepping in the mud, Tao Huizhen finds that her balance has become much worse because she has not practiced dancing for a long time. She is no longer the outstanding dancer, and her aura gradually faded with the passage of time.

"In Shengjing Grand Theater, no one sells more than you, Tao Huizhen..."

Dance director's words, from a kind of encouragement and affirmation, or trust, has gradually become a kind of hurt things. Tao Huizhen thought to herself, where did I sell? My body is losing flexibility and balance. I'm not as successful as I thought.

But why did she remember it so clearly? Always in my mind. Is that the spotlight that once shone on her? It's easy for Tao Huizhen to know the answer by analyzing her heart. The farther away she is from the stage, the easier it is for her to dream about it. If it's just a kind of persistent spirit to do supporting education, and you don't want to be defeated by yourself. So the stage is still her dream. Once the dream is formed, it will not change easily.

She knew that she would dream about the stage again and again. However, the lighting on the stage in her dream was blurred, and the sound of the accompaniment tape seemed to come from the bottom of the well in the distance. She danced and felt very light. But before Tao Huizhen came to Dai Township, she dreamed that there were children around her. She silently guarded a group of children in the mountains. The background is on the grass during the day, with the breeze caressing her. That feeling is more real.

The mud at her feet drags Tao Huizhen's legs and slows her step.

She thought, whatever is good, dream, obsession, light, survival? The past will gradually go away, and the sound will disappear from the ear. No matter how real the past memory is, it will still be submerged by the present reality. What matters is not what she chooses, but what she is doing at this time. And she has persisted.

The mud under her feet suddenly became very light. Tao Huizhen didn't know where she had a sense of courage and interest. She walked "wrong step" in the wet mud, which is one of the basic skills of classical dance. When the forelegs step out, the hind legs catch up with the footprints of the forelegs, forming a "wrong step", so the wrong step is also called chasing step, one step at a time. It's kind of like the pad step in basketball. It is the same as the start of high platform diving. The accuracy of wrong step practice is directly related to the positioning of dancers on the stage. All take-off with run-up is inseparable from the adjustment of wrong step“ Every foothold of the "wrong step" technique should have an accurate calculation to the centimeter level, which is an integral part of dance jumping.

Classical dance is one of the most demanding types of dance which requires the basic skills and skills of dancers. However, Tao Huizhen was born to indulge in the classical dance. Her teacher once said that every dancer has her own field, and Tao Huizhen's charm is very good, which is the key to her soul.

Wrong step forward to help jump, her feet again and again into the puddle, as if not aware. The whole road of Dai village was empty. Tao Huizhen suddenly wanted to try the air split jump, which she hadn't jumped for a long time, so she really did it. An almost perfect high difficulty split jump in the air is completed in the rain, and she has the pleasure of letting herself go for a moment when she stays in the air. The soul and the body are greatly free.

Dance and sports are all about physical strength and endurance. They are all technical things with body development as the core. But the reason why dance can be different from sports is that the most basic difference lies in mood, because dance has the expression of mood, so it can be called "dance art".

Tao Huizhen dance is particularly focused, not a bit of entertainment. Conscientiousness is also an addiction. Tao Huizhen is still at her wit's end. She has done three or four air splits in a row, becoming more professional and more difficult. At this time, she was surprised to find that she did not degenerate. As long as she thinks enough, she can still do it accurately. Every movement in her mind became vivid, as if she was preparing for her next step.

She is a professional dancer, a real dancer. The opening and movement of every joint of the whole body can be said to exist for dance. Tao Huizhen is a classic as long as she dances at will. Even she had to believe it herself. She was born for dancing.

In the fall when a few drops of mud splashed on the cheek, and sweat fusion. She wiped the mud off her face with a smile. The little goose's face was crimson, and the smile of joy didn't fade for a long time.

Tao Huizhen came to the canteen at the entrance of the village. The hostess of the buffet warmly said, "it's teacher Tao. She's buying snacks for the kids again. It's raining outside... "I noticed that Tao Huizhen's face was covered with mud spots on her Khaki colored long gauze skirt. Especially when she saw that Tao Huizhen's shoes were almost wrapped in mud, the hostess only said half of her words and swallowed them back. On the one hand, she was attracted by the fashionable clothes of girls from the city. On the other hand, she realized that it was not easy to be a supporting teacher.

In front of the hostess's eyes, the scene of Tao Huizhen picking up the baby on a rainy day soon emerged. She brought a rag to Tao Huizhen, with care in her eyes.

Tao Huizhen took back her feet covered with mud. She was quite embarrassed. If she had not danced wantonly in the rain, she would not have been so embarrassed. The hostess would have been wrong

"Ah, if you want to buy something, it's worth rewarding the children to come to study in rainy days." Tao Huizhen thought and added: "today, the children are coming together."

"The Dai village is a place where the rain never stops. When the sun rises, it will heat people to death." Said the hostess.

"Is it?"

Tao Huizhen browses the simple food display in the buffet. This time, she didn't pay attention to the shrimp sticks and AD calcium milk she used to buy. Before she came, she was ready to be thrifty, and the voucher in her purse no longer allowed her to do that.

Last month, near the Spring Festival, she asked her parents for some money. This part of the money is almost spent on the children of dachacun primary school. During the Spring Festival, they bought a lot of candy and drinks for them. This is not the first time for Tao Huizhen to reach out to her parents. In November and December of last year, Tao Huizhen opened her mouth. After graduating from University, it was the first time that Tao Huizhen took money instead of putting it at home.

My parents seemed to expect that one day, although Tao Huizhen didn't make much money in the dance company, her parents never moved. After Tao Huizhen arrived as scheduled, her parents sent her the specified amount from this part of the money. Tao Huizhen only asked for 200 to 300 yuan each time, and she never asked for more.

There is still nearly a month to go before the next subsidy is given to teachers. During the Spring Festival, her parents told her to go home for the new year, but she didn't go back at last. Now she asked her to ask her parents for support again, and she had no face at all. She clearly knew that her parents must be very disappointed with her daughter. Although she didn't show it in detail, the smell seemed to have been conveyed from the telephone line. So she can only hold a small wallet and find another way.

She is like a small fish, swimming alone in the deep sea. Looking for the right food in front of the counter, I rolled my eyes and muttered.

"Mr. Tao, in a twinkling of an eye, it will be a whole year for you to come to our Dai Township, won't it? I heard that you didn't go home this Spring Festival? It's too hard. " The hostess showed concern again. After learning that Tao Huizhen's responsible attitude as a teacher in dachacun primary school was highly praised, she even thought about taking her child back to study in the village.

However, this idea will not come true. The qualification of dachacun primary school can not be compared with that of County Central Primary School. In terms of educational environment alone, there is a long way to go. What Tao Huizhen can make up for is still limited.

"It's going to be a year in more than two months." Tao Huizhen stopped browsing and carefully calculated the time.

"It's really amazing. Anyway, it's better to be in the city. Otherwise, why do people go to the big city? Mr. Tao, this is the one called Dagong... Eh... Dagong... Selfless!" Seeing Tao Huizhen's astonished expression and making the word "Wu" in her mouth, the hostess finally thought of this idiom.

There was a flash of panic in their eyes.

"Mr. Tao's selflessness is recognized by dacha village. The teachers who came to dacha village in the past spent more time together than you. They don't have the habit of spending money on their children like you. You don't know. In our village, everyone who comes to buy things has to mention Mr. Tao. "

"I also have some shortcomings. Although I always buy food for children, I'm very strict with them. I will lose my temper. They are not happy that they often teach them

"It's not for the kids." The hostess looked directly at Tao Huizhen's face.

"Sister, when you talk about the former teachers, we are all the same. I'm no better than them... In fact, it's because of their background that I look like that, right?" Tao Huizhen opened her voice. Eyes suddenly flexible rotation up. It's the same, but it's different. She once thought that as a supporting educator going to the countryside, she shouldn't leave so soon. Since she came, she should stick to it. Be responsible for the children in the countryside. However, when she can feel the same after she has done this job, her "self belief" has gradually faded. She thinks that her persistence is due to the deep impression left by the children on the Loess Slope in the afternoon of the public welfare performance of the little dance company

At the same time, she doesn't let herself think about anything other than supporting education, and doesn't put her doing supporting education together with her values. The sense of honor will also be a factor for her to stay here.

"Anyway, Mr. Tao and the teachers from the city are amazing. You bring hope to the children in dacha village. Some people call you angels."

In the middle of January this year, the angel education program has been in full swing. Is located in Changsha, a non-governmental public welfare organization, the creation of pure public welfare "Angel Education" series plan. Those teachers who go deep into the countryside are affectionately called "angels" by children and parents.

When Tao Huizhen heard what the hostess of the store said, she immediately thought of what she had read in the newspaper more than two months ago. Looking back at the road, Tao Huizhen is not alone. In every corner, every place that needs support and education, there are people who are the same as her.

In the motherland, there are school-age rural children receiving education all the time. In the future, they may become the pillars of the motherland. Tao Huizhen and you Rong Yan.

At this time, the hostess of the store asked Tao Huizhen if she would buy the same one this time? Twenty eight copies of Wahaha and Qinqin shrimp sticks are the standard of dachacun primary school. Tao Huizhen immediately shook her head and her hands kept shaking. In her fingers, the hostess acutely found that Tao Huizhen was holding a ten yuan note.

It seems that she has only so much money. From the strength of Tao Huizhen's holding money. The hostess suddenly understood.

"Only candy." Tao Huizhen spread the notes on the counter and sipped her lips.

When she was a child, people around her instilled such an idea into Tao Huizhen. With such an idea, Tao Huizhen consolidated her outlook on life and values, that is, as long as she paid, she would get something in return, and as long as she worked, she would get something. Now Tao Huizhen realizes that there is no place for her to work in Dai Township, so she can't realize the trade of supply and demand, and that kind of thought can only be temporarily imprisoned. When there is no harvest, or no place to pay at all, Tao Huizhen just understood the real meaning of poverty - the real meaning of poverty is that survival needs consumption, but there is no way to compensate for consumption.

Dai people are good at hard work, but the people around them also do not lack the ability to contribute. What they lack is where they can contribute. Tao Huizhen suddenly felt that in a poor place, there is no money left, just like all income has been limited, no matter how much you pay, the return is only fixed.

Self sufficiency is more than goods exchange. People are surrounded by mountains and have to be complacent.

With both hands and feet, we can create a better life. That means where the GDP is high. There is no such saying in Dai township. Tao Huizhen can't get a cent outside the fixed area. Like all the people in Dai Township, the possibilities of life have been limited. Desperation without a way out is the root cause of poverty. Apart from planting tea, Dai people do not know how to exchange for necessities of life.

So eventually, the Dai people went out one after another. Become one of the millions of floating population in the big city, dormant in the edge of the city every day, looking up at the shining metal building corner on the side of the head and a blue sky. Like Tao Huizhen and Qiu He, they are trying to find the light source.

Tao Huizhen bought lard candy and put them in different pockets of her body. Before leaving, Tao Huizhen mentioned to the hostess that there are only 27 children left in dachacun primary school.

It's still raining outside. Tao Huizhen holds lard candy in her pocket. She has never eaten this kind of candy from Guangdong since she grew up in Northeast China. All of a sudden, she had the idea of tasting one. After thinking about it, she gave up.

In the evening, the rain became very small, the day was still gloomy, and the thick cumulonimbus clouds were getting lower and lower. The air became fresh and cold. Tao Huizhen began to send students from afar home one after another. Those children from afar and muddy road all asked her to send them to the door one by one. During the period, she saw her parents on the bamboo building, noticed that she had sent her child to the door, and asked her to say something. After that, her eyes had a short contact with her. They stare at the girl from the city, like a thousand words, like no desire to speak. Most of the time, the parents didn't say anything and silently watched Tao Huizhen leave.

On rainy days or when it's too late to get to school, Tao Huizhen has to send the students home. Tonight, she gave the lard candy she bought to each of the children who had a hard time walking. She hoped that the small reward would make them not afraid of the bad conditions and insist on studying.

The last child Tao Huizhen gave away was Wu Huiyan, who was in grade five. She has always been excellent in her studies. In addition to the monitor and study committee members, few of her students can score better than her in the quiz. The child's family conditions can also rank in the upper middle of dacha village.

Tao Huizhen saw her growth during her one-year contact with her little girl. Last September, when I went from fourth grade to fifth grade, all the tests passed easily. In a year's time, her head has grown to Tao Huizhen's eyebrow position, and is almost as tall as her teacher. And Tao Huizhen is not short in the average height of most women.

Wu Huiyan's family lived a little far away. When they came to the bottom of her bamboo house, it was completely dark in Dai village. Cold rain, sporadic hit in the face of two people. They can only see each other's outline, because the night in Dai township is too pure“ Teacher, are you afraid to go back? " Wu Huiyan in the dark, trying to find Tao Huizhen's eyes, looking there quietly asked.

"How could a teacher be afraid?"

"If it continues to rain tomorrow morning, the teacher won't have to come to pick me up. I can."

"Huiyan has grown up and knows how to love her teacher."

"Go back, teacher. It's going to rain heavily. Thank you, teacher

Tao Huizhen grasped Wu Huiyan's hand, put a thing into the little girl's palm, and let her hold it. After a long time, she said, "remember to study hard, and you can't forget it all the time. You have to study hard. After you leave dachacun primary school, you can have the chance to keep up with the learning track like the students in the county primary school."

Tao Huizhen felt that when she was talking, she felt as if she had tried her best to make her body collapse for a short time. Just after that, all the blood flowed back to her head and made her dizzy. She stood up in a hurry. She had mild orthostatic hypotension.

Wu Huiyan held something with wrapping paper in her hand, and quickly blurted out, "it's lard candy." But she soon became silent. The teacher who always bought them Wahaha and prawn sticks secretly gave her a piece of lard candy.

Secretly, carefully, put lard sugar into her palm

Wu Huiyan, who is in grade five, knows what that means.

The teacher held her hand tightly. At that moment, Wu Huiyan felt that the piece of sugar was worth a thousand pounds, which made her breathless. Two crystal tears came out of the girl's eyes. She thought she must remember the teacher's advice.

Tao Huizhen did not see the girl cry, or saw her silent, watched Wu Huiyan walk up the bamboo building. The women from the city came back. The night rain is very fierce and slanting to Tao Huizhen. The rain is cool and heavy. After a few days, the light rain finally broke out. Tao Huizhen held her head and ran feebly.

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Li felt that his calendar had not turned a few pages. There is no time to experience the atmosphere of Dai village in summer. In a twinkling of an eye, time has come to the intersection of summer and autumn, the middle of September in the Dai calendar.

At this time of the year, the sky in Dai village is high and the clouds are light, and the birds are flying higher than before. Dai People's staple food, glutinous rice, is also approaching maturity in this season. All over the mountains, the fragrance of mature crops and autumn tea wafts.

The endless terraces lead to the edge of the skyline. If people who don't understand look at it from a distance with a shed, they think it's crops planted in the sky... Looking down, the terraces in the sun are shining with golden waves, like flowing gold water.

On the closing day of the Dai people, Tao Huizhen put on the traditional clothes of Dai women for the first time. The upper body is a small sleeveless shirt, and the lower body is a well-defined skirt. The peacock bird totem is embroidered with colorful silk patterns. It took Dao Xiaotong a month to cut and embroider this national dress for Tao Huizhen. Dao Xiaotong is very skillful. Her cutting and embroidery skills are first-class. When Tao Huizhen puts them on, they also fit her figure. The narrow tube of the skirt reaches to the feet. Tao Huizhen felt that she had a minority atmosphere all of a sudden.

In many ethnic minority costumes, women's lower body is mainly skirt, a small number of long legged pants are also loose, some are fringed ribbon, or the decoration is very exaggerated. Most of the upper body clothes can depict the graceful and graceful beauty of women. Whether it's top or bottom, including headdress, shoes, ethnic minority clothing, most of them are colorful, simple and generous style.

"Miss Tao, you are no longer different from our Dai girls. You see, you look smart. " Dao Xiaotong looks at Tao Huizhen's slim figure and expresses her own point of view. She pinched the thread from the skirt with her fingers, and could not find any fault in the combination of her dress and Tao Huizhen's figure. Tao Huizhen looks thinner than when she first arrived in Dai township.

"Thank you, Mr. Dao. Shall we go now? "

Seeing her appearance in the mirror, Tao Huizhen can hardly imagine what she used to be. When she came to Dai township for more than a year, she sometimes suddenly realized whether she had completely integrated into it.

Food and clothing, lifestyle. We can't see the busy streets, and we can't experience the replacement of science and technology and development of the whole society. She seems to have become the same person as those children. Looking up at the mountains, we can only feel the vastness of our motherland by imagination. She also became constantly staring at the skyline at the top of the remote mountain peak, dazed, with a trace of yearning in her eyes.

She thought she was gradually being sucked in, into a space-time without a time scale. There are only y.x and Z axes. It seems that there is an infinite superposition of three-dimensional space and three-dimensional space. All directions are like the trunks of straight fir trees.

But every time she is about to get lost, her original identity pops out of her mind. In a flash, who is she and where does she come from. I remember all the purposes of going to Dai township. Suddenly, that feeling is very wonderful. It's like two electric currents collide from different directions, emitting a pleasant "Zizi" sound.