The Wrong Way to Use Healing Magic

When one makes an irreversible mistake, one gives up thinking.

The only thing a person can do when he or she is unable to think is to move forward without thinking.

Even if you are wrong, you cannot stop moving forward.

Because not moving forward will only make the situation worse.

The words we spit out can neither be erased nor put back. The feelings I have for him are now known by many people, and I can't fake them or pretend to have them.

What should I do?

I don't know how to .......

"Suzune-san. Please get back on your feet! Today is the day of departure!

"Krumia, I'm in the depths of despair. So please leave me alone for a little while longer."

I respond to the voice calling me, my face pressed against the pillow, as my mind is conjuring up an escapist poem.

I am at an inn in the country of Calm Helio.

In that country, where I have strong faith in the heroes of the past, I have made a great mistake.

To be more specific, the fact that I have feelings for you, Usato-kun, has spread not only in this country but all over the continent.

But it was not on purpose.

It was just a slip of the tongue, or rather, I lost control and came out with a lot of things out loud. .......

"Oh my God, I'm so embarrassed just remembering it, I don't know why I said that!"

"Huh. ......"

It all started when we received a request to take down a huge bull that was trying to break down the walls that covered Calm Helio.

We were able to defeat the bull, though we had a hard time, but what came after that was very difficult.

To my surprise, the prince of Calmherio, Kyle Lark Calmherio, asked me to marry him. And in the middle of Kahm Helio's country... in the midst of so many people's eyes.

"So what's the matter with you?

I am lying on my side on the bed, and the only female knight accompanying me --- Krumia --- is appalled.

She is easy to talk to, unlike the other knights because of our age, but she doesn't seem to have the heart to comfort me in my heartbreak.

"Oh my God, how long are you going to stay in shock? I'm a knight myself, but Suzune-san's refusal made me feel better, didn't it?

"You may be relieved, but I have been writhing in shame ever since I realized my gaffe!

"That's exactly what you deserve, isn't it?

"Well, what do you mean you deserved it? ......!　You are a knight!　You could have consoled me or worried about me a little!

"I don't think I should go that far."　

Why?

"Just because."

What, you're going to turn me down because of something? .......

"Anyway, the town has calmed down a lot, so now is the perfect time."

"Really?"

Are you sure? His father, His Majesty, allowed him to leave in the first place, so he should have no problem leaving. ....... He was rather happy, wasn't he?　I heard that the prince was roaming around town and doing whatever he wanted.

That's true, but...

But I'm glad it didn't become a problem.

If he had tried to force me to marry her, I would have seriously resisted him, but I'm really glad that the king didn't want to make a problem of it.

"So, but won't the kids point at you like, 'Oh, he's the one who shook the oji'?

"What kind of kids? Please move already!

"U, but ......"

Right now, there are articles posted all over the place outside that have been spread by the press in this country.

And for some reason, there is a portrait of Usato-kun that doesn't look like this one: .......

Sighing at me still wrapped in the futon, Krumia mutters a small "It can't be helped" and clears her throat deliberately.

"I don't feel sorry for him,......, since he made it so easy for me to refuse and then asked me to marry him. What was it?　?　He is very passionate.

"Ohhhhhh!"

I exclaim as Krumia's words bring to mind my gaffe the other day.

Oh, you're saying that now?

"<

"Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!"

"<

"Aieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!"

I rolled over, my face redder than ever.

As I rolled up the futon and pillow and suffered from the overflowing shame, a smiling Kulmir continued to speak.

"<>It was cool too."

"Heeheeheehee?"

Stop it, stop it. ......!

No matter how much I like it, that's a pretty black history. ......!

Finally, he fell off the bed, slammed into the wall, and stopped without effort, wrapped in the futon.

"But when you said that I didn't deserve a healing wizard and that you were better than such a weakling, of course I wanted to say all kinds of things to you!

"We feel the same way.

Krumea, who had pulled the covers off me when I stopped, frowned, as if remembering the prince's words at that time.

"Usato-sama, no, the lifeguard is very special to us knights. Without them, our friends and colleagues would have never returned. It is unforgivable to undermine them just because of their healing magic, because they think they know everything.

Krumia said this with a serious expression on her face.

In the battle against the Demon Lord's army, you saved many knights.

And now he is traveling on the same mission as Kazuki and I.

.......

"......Oh, you've given up?"

"Yes, I see. Now that I know that both Usato and Kazuki are working hard, I can't stand still like this.

"......<>"

"Stop coming back to fold me while I'm getting back on my feet!"

Of all people, you can't say that in front of him even if you wanted to. ......!

"It's a different kind of buzz, you know?　Mostly among women."

"I didn't want it to be a topic of conversation. ...... Maybe that's why Usato-kun's drawings were so aristocratic. ......"

"I think it's because they beautified the original Lord Usato to make him more popular with the ladies."

"......I don't like Usato-kun dressed up like that. ......"

When I first saw his picture, I felt a little bad. Somehow, I felt that his attractiveness was covered with unnecessary decorations.

Krumea gives me a sullen look as I become grumpy.

"From my point of view, I think it's a good match, don't you?　But whether or not you will understand my feelings is another matter. Suzune-san, when you say things like that to Usato-dono, you say them in jest, so I can't tell if you're serious or not.

"G, because I have to include some kind of a phrase to say this in front of you, Usato-kun."

"Oh, you are surprisingly maidenly, aren't you?"

"I'm always a girl!"

"...... eh?"

Why do you look so surprised?

Krumia giggles as she gets up from the bed in surprise.

"Well, I'm glad to see you're back on your feet. Now please get ready, we will leave while the sun is still high in the sky.

"......I've packed my bags in advance, so it won't take that long ...... haha ......"

I've already stepped on it.

Krumia is a very silent girl when she's in battle and shoots her bow and arrow, but when she's not, she's the kind of girl who enjoys making fun of people.

I let out a sigh as Krumea leaves the room with a smile on her face, and I get dressed and grab the doorknob.

"...... okay."

There's no turning back now.

I cannot change the fact that my refusal of the prince's marriage proposal to Usato-kun has spread all over the continent.

To tell you the truth, I still feel so embarrassed that I want to wriggle around, but think about it the other way around.

---I'm just going to let it go on.

I can do it, I can do it, Suzune. I won't give up ......!"

She decides and opens the door.

"<>"

"What?　I told you to stop!

Kurumia, who had been waiting next to the door, falls forward at his words.

The resolve he has just pledged shakes strongly.

Preparing myself to be teased with this story for a while to come, I give Krumea, who is giggling, an electric shock chop as punishment.

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"Ha-ha-ha, you're a daring one, too, senpai."

Just as I was leaving the first country I visited, I saw the words on a piece of paper delivered to my lodgings and my cheeks began to tear.

I've been involved in dueling tournaments and all sorts of things, but I guess my senpai is in a lot of trouble too.

"You are in a lot of trouble too, Usato-dono.

"You think so too, Hilt?"

"Yes."

The big knight walking a little ahead of me, Hilt.

He is a reliable companion who carries the vanguard in any situation and keeps his opponents at bay with his skillful spear-handling, which is unimaginable for a man of his stature.

He has a cheerful personality and has helped me many times on this trip with his softness and good-naturedness.

When he saw the article I was holding, he smiled pleasantly.

"So you're finally getting serious about your seniority, huh?"

"I don't know much about love affairs, but I'm sure this is not what you intended."

"...... sure . Senpai seems to be a bit reserved while appearing bold."

Whenever I talk with Usato, I joke around a little, so he seems to take it as a joke.

"Well, it's pretty obvious from my point of view..."

"I guess the only one who doesn't notice is you."

The knights who are following behind us also laugh when I let out a laugh with Hilt.

"However, it may be a little too much for Suzune-dono, but ...... Usato-dono is easily liked by women, isn't he? Not by his looks, but by his actions. Even as a man, I can respect his way of being a lifeguard."

Hilt's words make sense to me.

Usato's actions are cool.

When he says he will do something, he will do it, and when I learned that he was training to help Nack, who was suffering from bullying in Luxvis, I thought it was really, really cool.

"Well, I don't think I have to say anything about what's going to happen between you and Usato. Even if it ends up any way, I'll still be friends with Usato and Senpai, you know. ......"

"It's great to have a friend who has your back. I'm sure that both Usato and Suzune feel the same way as Kazuki does."

Is that so?

Yes, I'm sure.

He scratches his cheeks in embarrassment at Hilt's words with a gentle smile.

After a few moments of talking with Usato about his senpai, Hilt turns around on his horse as if he had just remembered.

"Kazuki-dono," he said. How far have you and the princess progressed?

"Well, you're talking about that again ......."

"That's fine. We are knights of the Kingdom of Lingle, how could we not be curious about the affair with His Majesty's daughter?

I managed to dodge the question when he asked me before, but this time it's going to be difficult.

I scratch my cheek in embarrassment.

"No, no, I just promised ...... to come back safely. ......

"Hohoho."

"Hey, why are you smiling like that?　And behind your back!"

Hilt and the others, who are my reliable companions for the journey ahead, are a real pain in the ass in this situation.

I felt my face heat up as I saw them smirking at me as if they knew something, and I began to desperately try to explain to them that I had nothing to do with her.