The Wrong Way to Use Healing Magic

After the dinner at the rescue team, I was standing in front of the leader's office, a little nervous.

Looking back, Rose looked more emotional than before, yet there was a slightly different ...... atmosphere, as if she had made some kind of resolution.

I visited the Commander's office on the premise that I had something important to discuss with him.

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The piles of papers that had piled up during the day were now completely gone.

"Make yourself comfortable."

"Yes, sir. Excuse me."

I follow his words and sit down in the chair that has been prepared for me.

Feeling a little uncomfortable in the silence for a while, Rose suddenly opened her mouth.

"Until a moment ago, I was thinking about the time you came to this world.

"When you came here, you mean when you were involved in the summoning of the heroes?"

"Yes."

Rose's words made me think of the time when I came to this world.

Looking back, I guess you could say that that day marked the beginning of who I am today.

Well, I was forced to join Rose from the very beginning, and I was forced to do something like a full house in hell, so I have a lot of deep emotions about it.

"Looking back now, I guess it was a miracle that I found you."

"What?"

I am taken aback by Rose's words as she mutters this without taking her eyes off the window.

It may be rude of me, but I was surprised to hear the word < come out of Rose's mouth. It doesn't fit the image at all. .......

Rose finally turns her head toward me as I am taken aback.

"Usato, you are a real ordinary person. It should not have been possible for you to have been involved in the summoning of the heroes and to have come to this world.

"Well, I don't have the qualities or talents to be a hero. I wouldn't have been summoned normally."

Senpai and Kazuki are far superior in terms of talent as wizards and fighting sense.

Their magic power is just a little more than normal.

All I have done up until today is to train my body.

"If you hadn't taken me out of the castle when I came to this world with my seniors, I'm sure I would have taken a different path from the one I'm on now.

"Of course. You would have learned magic from Welshy or Olga, and you would have become a proper healing wizard."

They would not have been fighting with brute force or running in the middle of a battlefield like we are doing now.

As I was feeling a little emotional, Rose's mouth twisted into a smile.

"What?　Would you have preferred that?"

"No way, I like it better now that I'm here."

Rose says this in a teasing way, to which I reply with a wry smile.

"Besides, there are people who were saved because I trained here.

In my mind's eye, I see the people I met in the kingdoms I visited on my journey to deliver the letter.

Sometimes I was in a pinch, sometimes things got out of control, but in the end I was able to help them.

"In my original world, I was just an ordinary student. I wanted a chance to change myself, to make a difference in my life. But that changed when I came to this world."

As my daily life changed drastically, my thoughts gradually changed as well.

I believe that the reason for this change was Senpai and Kazuki, the two heroes and the lifeguard squad.

"At first, I wanted to help my senpai and Kazuki, so I trained hard. I didn't want to be a nuisance to them, and I thought my talent for healing magic might be useful."

At that time, I think I was pushing forward with my lifeguard training.

In other words, I was trying to move forward with vague reasons.

"Then, in the battle against the demon king's army, I ran to the battlefield to save the lives of all the knights. The battlefield was ...... terribly scary, but I am glad that I was able to save Senpai and Kazuki."

"......"

"So I thought. Me."

I was pushing forward, but I found the path that I was directed to follow.

The path of a lifeguard who heals the wounded on the battlefield,

"I want to protect the everyday life where someone can smile and live a normal life. If someone is sad, I want to reach out to them, if someone is hurt, I want to help them."

Rose looked at me and fell silent for a while, then put her hand on her forehead.

Her expression seemed to be grim for some reason.

Had I said something that might have offended her?　No, though I think I said something embarrassing.

Usato.

"Yes, sir."

"...... your idea is a praiseworthy one. I myself would like to praise the idea, but ...... you haven't said what you really think yet."

"What?　No, that's not what ...... says."

I was not expecting to be told such a thing, so I was dismayed.

"Usato, what did you see on the battlefield?"

"......"

I felt as if my heart had been grabbed by the finger.