The Wrong Way to Use Healing Magic

I ran away.

Training was hard.

I didn't want to fight Meena.

I didn't want to waste any more effort.

I didn't want to be made fun of.

There are ...... many reasons, many excuses.

All of them are pathetic and make me realize how small and weak I am. Maybe I have been that way since I woke up to the magic of healing, or maybe I was destined to be an oppressed being from the very beginning of my life.

"U......"

A dark, narrow, unpopular alleyway.

Sitting in the alleyway, which is so inaccessible that not even subhumans can pass through, I just stare at the ground, tormented by the feeling of helplessness.

Whenever I feel like being bullied by Meena and her friends, I always run away to this place. This is my secret place where no one knows or wants to come near me. No one knows that there is such a road, and even if I remember it, I forget it soon, it seems to me a place where I feel more at home than any other place.

"Ugh ...... ugh!"

In such a place, I cry as usual.

I weep in this place where no one comes, without shame or shame.

Usually I cry because I am tormented, but today the reason for crying is different.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry ......, I'm sorry ......."

I ran away.

Not from Mr. Usato ...... but from Mina.

I was terrified by her face yesterday, the way she looked down on me, mocked me, her innocent smile that showed no mercy at all. I understood. I understood the insanity and obsession hidden in her joyful expression, as if I had been imprinted with the years of abuse I had been subjected to.

My body trembled. Undeniably, any glimmer of hope of victory was crushed.

I thought I could grow. I thought I could grow up, be accepted by everyone, and become as strong as Usato, even though my life had been turned upside down by the nasty magic of healing .......

That's how I managed to endure the hard training.

Even when I almost fainted, I gritted my teeth and persevered.

Even when I was chased by a blue grizzly, I pushed down my fear and ran desperately.

I tried hard not to let Usato-san's abusive voice be directed at me.

But the innocent malevolence of Meena cooled me down at once.

What's the point of training just to run?

What's the point of training your legs?

Why do I have to do healing magic while running?

Why do I have to go through all this pain and challenge myself to a game I can't win?

No.

It's all a convenient excuse.

Usato's training was meaningful. The proof is that my legs and body are so light that I can notice a distinct difference from the person I was a few days ago. My physical strength has also improved remarkably.

This is the result of only two days of training. Usato's training was not wrong, it was clearly me who was wrong.

Yesterday, I would have been running by now, but here I am, sitting in a place like this, crying pathetically and despairing on my own.

"......I'm an idiot. ......"

I'm afraid to fight Meena.

I'm more afraid of fighting her than anything.

If I lose, I'll be punished even worse. I can't imagine it getting much worse, but I wouldn't be surprised if Meena shows far more cruelty than I can imagine.

So be it.

If I'm the only one who suffers the misfortune ......, but if I lose, Usato and one of the brave men will be made to pay for it by Meena. Because you made me play the game like I was going to run away,.......

"I didn't want you to get your hopes up. ......

I should not have clung to hope if this was going to happen.

I should have just let myself get hurt.

I should have been the only one hurt.

Then no one would expect anything from me, and I wouldn't expect anything from anyone.

I wouldn't have had to deal with Usato, or the heroes, or Kiriha the beastman who ...... lent me a place to sleep.

"......ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!"

I couldn't stop crying thinking about it.

It brought back memories of the past two days.

All I had done was hard training.

Even if such hard training was forced by good intentions, it was the first time in a long time that I was touched by someone's kindness.

Usato-san was trying to train me, even though I was a failure.

He never gave up on me, even though I was using a useless healing magic.

He encouraged me as I fell unconscious over and over again.

He carried me back to Kiriha-san's dormitory when I was too tired to go home by myself, and served me warm meals.

I have fond memories of being stunned to see Usato-san, who was enjoying chatting and laughing with me, transcending the boundaries between beastmen and humans.

Kiriha, Kyou, and Satsuki didn't seem to mind.

I remembered that the dinner I usually had alone was so much more colorful when we all ate together.

"Oh......a......a......a......a!"

I destroyed those memories and the future that could have been.

I let go of a happy moment so that I could forget the warm memories of my abominable family.

This time I have nothing left.

All I can do is wait for Meena to punish me.

But this is my fault for giving up. At least I won't cause trouble for Usato and the others. If I alone can keep Meena away from Usato and the others at any cost, that's all I have to do.

"......!"

He swallows a sob and wipes his eyes frantically.

Let's go. I may not be a beast, but I'll do whatever it takes.

It's better to choose the best future where no one but me gets hurt than to challenge Meena with a broken heart and be miserable in defeat.

"I gotta go. ......"

"Okay, I've got it."

"Yeah. ......"

Just as I was about to get up on my knees, a voice, so bright that it seemed out of place, echoed through the dark alleyway.

I sat down on the ground again, and when I turned my head in the direction of the voice, I saw a boy in a white coat standing there, standing out of place in the ...... dark space.

His face is too dark to see, but his lips naturally move at the sound of his voice and the way he stands.

"Usato,Mr......."

●

Finding Knack was very easy.

I would have had to run all over town to find him by myself, but with Bulrin and Amako, it was a different story.

The first thing to do is to follow the knack with Bulrin's nose. We can't pinpoint the exact location of the knack by just following the scent, but we go around to the places where we think the knack will land. While we are doing this, Amako looks into the future in case <.

We narrow down the area with Bulrin's nose and search for the knacker who would be within the area narrowed down by Amako's prediction. It's a perfect coordination ......, even though I'm not helping at all.

As a result, we were able to find Nack in a short time, but when we first found him, I was quite upset because he was sobbing and crying with a stifled voice.

Was the training that hard! No way. ...... I tried to be as gentle as possible.

The fact that they take breaks every so often makes them more conscientious than Rose, but wait a minute, isn't it normal to take breaks in the first place?

..........

I try to have a one-on-one discussion with him, while pushing the little fox and the little bear who are looking at me accusingly behind me out of the alley for now.

I talk to him as lightly as possible and sit down next to him to make it easier for us to talk after seeing his reaction.

I look at Nack, who has turned his head down after having me in his sight, escaping from the reality that the ground in the back alley is cool and cold because the sun is not shining, and he remains lying down as if he is uncomfortable to face me.

"Oh, yeah, ...... what, so?"

"It's such a small city. It's no big deal for us to find you."

I didn't do anything myself.

Nack looks up at me with incredulous eyes and smiles to himself.

"I'm sorry. I guess I was a little too hard on you. I'm not used to teaching people anything, so I shouldn't have done that at all.

"No, no ......, that's not it. I ran away not because of you, Usato, but because I wasn't ready ...... to fight Mina and I got scared ......."

"You got scared ......?"

You're not sick of training?

Then why were you crying here? As I tilted my head and wondered why he was crying, he began to tell me why he was crying here.

As I listened to him, I realized that his fear ...... of Meena, something more like an imprint, had deeper roots than I had imagined. It was enough to break his heart once he had made up his mind, just by meeting her face to face.

It's something I can't even imagine.

"Was Meena tormenting you because you are a healing magician?"

For the past two days, I didn't dare ask. But if things have gone this far, you should know.

"......... back home, we were just acquaintances. However, my family was close to each other. ......"

If you are only acquaintances and your family members are close to each other ...... Huh? I heard that Meena is the daughter of a nobleman, but maybe Nack is too?

No, but even if it is, it makes more sense. If Nack's house belonged to a noble family, he would be treated the same way as Meena.

But in reality, it is the complete opposite.

"As you are wondering, Usato, I come from a wealthy family. I am aware that I had a reasonably good life before I came here."

"So what?"

Most of the people in my family are awakened to the water magic of their lineage. My mother, who married the man who was my father, was deliberately chosen to be a wizard with a water lineage. ...... Naturally, I was supposed to learn water lineage magic under the guidance of a wizard instructor my father hired. ......"

"...... healing magic?"

Yes, on my ninth birthday before I came here, my sister and I were going to find out what kind of magic we could use. Naturally, my parents thought that both my sister and I would be in the water line of magic. ....... But the results showed that only my sister showed an aptitude for the water system."

His self-mocking smile was somehow hollow.

At this point in the story, the worst possible scenario emerges.

Looking at Nack's current situation, a foreigner born into an aristocracy that prides itself on family and blood, his parents probably would have .......

"Then my daily life changed. My father and mother, who were so kind to me, became cold as if they had changed, and I couldn't see my sister, with whom I was so close. ...... haha, I feel like an idiot, don't I? I'm not sure if it's a good thing that I'm not a good person or not, but I'm not sure. So they ended up kicking me out of the house and putting me in Luxembourg. At that point, I had nowhere to go. ...... but my heart was lighter than when I was in the mansion. I was finally released, or so I thought. ......

I wonder if the reason Nack was so upset when I first met him was because he was desperately trying to take his classes to avoid being kicked out of the school, which was probably his last place.

It was understandable for him to be in such a panic since his place was at stake.

But for him, even the school, his last place, could not be a place of ease.

"So Meena, who I didn't get along with very well, took you in, you know, ......."

"I don't know why Meena torments me. I have a lot of ideas that it's because of my parents or because of healing magic, but either way, I ...... don't want to go back to ...... my old house."

"........."

Heavy .......

Why do all the people I know have such heavy worries? Is it my constitution to attract such people like Kazuki and Amako? If so, it's too bad for my mental health.

Even if that were the case, abandoning him when you hear about his problems would not be an option.

"So you're saying that Meena is a pain in the ass who doesn't get along with you, but for some reason she's bothering you, is that right?"

"No, it's not that cute. ......"

"I also found out that your parents are pretty stupid. We know you have nowhere else to go. So what are you going to do now? When you graduate from here and have to leave, what will you ...... do?"

"Well, that's ......."

This world is tougher than you think.

It's easy to forget when looking at the Kingdom of Lingle, a country ruled by a peaceful and kind king, but in other countries, you have to be very careful with slave trafficking, bandits, demons, and even moving from one country to another.

In such a situation, if you ask him if he can stand on his own with only one skill, healing magic, without any contacts or connections, he would answer that it would be quite difficult.

He knew that, too, and looked at the ground with a distorted expression on his face.

I smile at him and slowly stand up.

"You should come to the lifeguard."

"...... eh."

"I told you about the lifeguard service, didn't I? There are three more healing wizards like you and me, and one of them is different from you ......? Well, they have similar healing magic. It's a nice place to live if you don't mind the ...... unreasonableness of the Commander and the petty complaints of his fellow demon tribe members and the noise of the monsters."

From what I have seen of him over the past two days, he should be able to handle the level of training at FERM with some getting used to.

As for the healing magic, if he can heal his body, he can become a lifeguard in black just like those tough guys. Either way, Rose would not refuse.

"If you can't, you could try coming to the Kingdom of Lingle. A friend of mine, a healing wizard, wants to help out at the clinic. If you don't want to go through the training at the lifeguard station, you can start from scratch there.

He will do well with Olga and Uluru.

Even Nack's healing magic might be restored.

"Wait a minute! Oh, what about the fight between me and Meena! If I don't fight like this, Usato-san will ......"

"Well, we don't have to go to all the trouble of getting what we deserve, and if we can threaten them to a certain extent and keep them quiet, we'll be fine."

"Yeah, yeah, yeah!"

Frankly speaking, I didn't need to accept Meena's retribution, and in any case, I was thinking of overstepping my bounds if the demand was unreasonable. Well, it was only a last resort.

To be honest, a nobleman is just a little girl without the power of his family, and I'm willing to be very ...... hard-hearted, even though it pains me greatly.

I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to do.

I'm not sure if I'll be able to do it.

I'll make a place for you to come home. So don't worry about it. It would be foolish to be crushed by idiots who mistake magic for fashion or something, wouldn't it? You should be happy where you can make the most of what you have."

"........."

"I can't take you directly to the Kingdom of Lingle because I'm on a very important trip. So I'll write you a letter instead. ...... I'm not used to writing yet, so it might take me a little while."

He takes a breath and looks down at Nack.

Now, after all this time, I'm starting to wonder if it's safe to go ahead with this on my own. Olga and Uluru will be fine. But it's Rose... "Since when did you become a member of this group? I can only feel fear because there is a very high possibility that they will get angry and beat me up.

I wonder if I'm going to be treated badly when I get back safely?

......So, let's not think about that.

"Now that you mention it, what are you going to do?"

"...... Are you sure you want to ......?"

"No, it's your choice. It's your choice. I'm just trying to show you the way.

Just as Rose did for me when I came to this world, now I will show you the way.

Nack looks up at me and holds out his hand. His eyes widen at the sight of the offered hand, and he wipes his eyes with his sleeve before approaching the hand fearfully, stopping just before he does so.

"I'm going to fight Meena after all. ......"

"You don't have to do this, okay?"

Don't bother taking the risk.

He shakes his head slowly at my words, and his red, swollen eyes look straight at me. His eyes, dark and stagnant, had changed from gloomy and gloomy to reassuring and reassuring, with a faint light in them.

"I'm not qualified to go to Usato-san's place now. I'm not going to be satisfied until I've cut the ties with her and can face her properly. That's why I'm going to ......."

After a pause, he grabs my proffered hand and stands up.

"Give me ...... my training!

For the first time, I felt as if Nack and I were on the same page.

Maybe it was just my imagination, but I didn't mind the feeling of our intentions meshing so tightly.

Then ...... I'll stop projecting myself onto him and being naive. This naivete is not in Nack's best interest, and it's rather rude to go easy on him.

"Fine. But this time I won't be nice. I won't stop when you pass out or when you want to stop. If you faint, I'll knock you back up, and if your leg stops moving, I'll fix it. No matter what happens, I'll keep moving you as long as your magic power lasts."

"Yes, ............, I'll do it! I won't whine or complain anymore!"

What's the pause?

I felt like our intentions were about to be separated for a moment.

...... Well, let's not worry about that.

"Well, let's get out of this dark place as soon as possible. We'll start training when we get back to the academy.

"Yes, sir!"

We head out of the dark alley toward the street where Bullyn and Amaco are.

There are only three days left to train the knacker, including today. I've lost a little time, but it doesn't matter. Nack is motivated and I can train him without worrying about him.

My experience has made me reluctant to use such a method as Rose's, but his willingness to use it has made the idea of sparing him go away once and for all.

But I wonder if I can train like Rose. ............. No, you can't, you do. Knack trusts me. It's kind of my mission to reciprocate that trust.

Let's put aside all good intentions, all compassion and sympathy.

Let's be fierce for him.

I don't care if he calls me an outcast.

All the running techniques that were given to me were put into my body, not my head.

Three days left, I'm going to be a ---- devil-dozer.

"...... Ugh, I'm getting chills ......."

"?"

Nack, who is walking next to me, suddenly turns pale, and I wonder what's wrong.