Girls und War

Rush looked up in the direction of the sound with a look of surprise on his face.

"What are you doing sitting here? Are you unhappy?" Xia Shu stood in front of her and asked with a smile.

Rush shook his head.

Xiaojie still blinked and greeted Xia Shu. Xia Shu touched it with his fingers, as if teasing a small animal.

Although Juncus shook his head, there was an obvious look of loss on his face.

"If you're unhappy, I'll walk with you." Xia Shu said, bending down, holding Juncao's hand, and helping her stand up.

Rush held Xia Shu's hand and did not let go for a while.

Xia Shu took a look and then took her hand and walked towards the runway.

The two girls, accompanied by a guide robot, began walking on the track in the training ground.

After a moment of silence, Rush suddenly asked Xia Shu, "Am I useless?"

"Hmm?" Xia Shu turned around and looked at her, frowning and asked, "Being bullied?"

Rush quickly shook his head.

She hesitated, as if unsure of what to say.

Xia Shu didn't ask any more questions and just waited for her to tell it herself.

After a while, Rush said, "I can't see. They all humor me."

"Ok, I know."

Xia Shu would occasionally chat with Juncao's classmates and knew that the girls in their class all treated Juncao as a treasure.

"But I can't help them." Rush said a little disappointedly, "They have always helped me."

"Ah."

Natsuki waited for her to continue.

"I heard them say today that they lost the match," Rush whispered, "They... are very disappointed..."

Natsuki laughed and patted her head.

"So you think that we didn't win because your class was short of one person?" she asked Juncus.

But Rush still shook his head.

She said, "Actually, they don't really care about winning or losing. Even though they were beaten badly, everyone still found it quite entertaining. It's just..."

Rush showed a heartbroken look, "But I can feel that they are secretly still feeling very unwilling and regretful."

Xia Shu said "hmm".

Rush is very sensitive and can read other people's emotions. Xia Shu has a deep understanding of this.

And her inner thoughts were more delicate and inexpressible than the little bit of emotion she could understand.

She is very easily influenced by others.

If she's around someone who's upset, she'll feel bad too. If she hears someone crying, she'll feel sad too.

So after feeling the pain buried deep in her companions' hearts, she also felt uncomfortable in her heart.

"But I don't know how to comfort them." Rush said helplessly, "Because I don't know what happened at all.

"Even if they told me what they experienced, what they saw, and what happened, I wouldn't understand at all.

"Seeing teammates shot and lying on the ground, being pinned down, being scared by gunfire during a charge—I didn't understand any of that.

"But I really wanted to comfort them. I also wanted to go through this with them.

"But that's just what I am—useless and weak."

This is often the case with human empathy.

People who are good at observing other people's emotions and feeling other people's emotions - when other people's emotions are a little abnormal, they can always uncontrollably receive and capture these emotions.

Whether these emotions are positive or negative.

The rush lost her light, so she began to seek replenishment from other places.

In order to protect herself, she will subconsciously double her exploration of hearing, smell, perception, and even emotional commonalities.

In this way, she can gain a more three-dimensional understanding of the world she cannot see.

Therefore, the ups and downs of a syllable when speaking; the subtle pause of a step when walking - these information will be collected subconsciously by her, helping her to know more clearly the environment she is in, whether it is safe and reliable.

Sometimes this information has a positive impact, and sometimes it doesn't.

If those around her are happy, she can also feel the subtle joy.

If people around you start to suffer—

Then, things changed.

This is the dilemma she is in now.

Xia Shu smiled and said very decisively, "No, you are not weak at all."

Rush looked up.

"You're not a weak person," Xia Shu said calmly, "A truly weak person won't make any effort or sacrifice.

“They will shut themselves off in their own world, refusing to communicate or feel anything outside.

“Like a turtle.

“Are you a turtle?”

Natsuki said, pinching Junco's nose.

Rush chuckled.

"I see you constantly trying to connect with others. Exercising, thinking, training, and looking for your own shortcomings. Do you think someone like this would be called weak?

"You just feel more deeply than others and can empathize with their pain.

"Do you feel that your mood is easily influenced by others, so you think you are weak?

"That's not weakness, that's too much empathy."

Natsuki looked at her again and asked, "Do you know what empathy is?"

Rush nodded and said, "I know. Lieutenant Hua explained it to me."

"Isn't that better? Did she ever explain to you that you're so easily influenced by others because you're so emotionally sensitive?"

Rush nodded again.

"See, that's right." Xia Shu said with a smile, "Being emotionally sensitive is a good thing. I also want to be more sensitive in this regard, but I always can't do it.

“And what you said is useless, let alone.

"Everyone has something they're good at. For example, you're good at sensing other people's emotions.

"Don't be fooled by my training prowess. I'm a complete idiot when it comes to this. Often, when someone hints something at me, I simply don't understand. I have to make it clear to them before I understand what they mean.

"Comparatively speaking, I envy your ability even more. It feels like a superpower."

Rush laughed again.

Xia Shu continued, "And you can see things in the Imaginary Sea, right? So, you will be able to experience these things with them soon. Am I right?"

Rush nodded happily.

Seeing that she had come out of the darkness in her heart, Xia Shu finally breathed a sigh of relief.

At this time, Rush stopped on the playground again.

Natsuki turned his head with a puzzled expression.

"what happened?"

Rush said nothing, but took a step forward and threw himself into Natsuki's arms.

Xia Shu was stunned for a moment, then hugged her helplessly.

"Thank you." Rush said softly.

93. Emotions about Miyu

Mi Yu walked out of the psychological counseling room happily.

Her mental rating is very healthy and the pain has not left any shadow in her heart.

In comparison, Shan Mei's inner shadow is the biggest. She said she can still feel the dull pain in her legs.

These are actually manifestations of psychological self-healing ability.

Come to think of it, maybe Miyu's self-healing ability is not that strong, but she seems to have received some kind of encouragement.

What encouragement?

Mi Yu touched the corner of her lips with her hand, revealing a look of regret.

"Ah - I'm hungry." Sheng looked up at the sky, his face full of confusion.

This monster is the most peculiar. It seems that battlefield trauma does not exist for her at all.

Not only that, her current mental rating is even better than before the battle!

I'm afraid he's not a Saint Seiya.

The three girls who came out of the counseling room discussed whether they should go to the logistics store to get something to eat.

Mi Yu touched her little belly, and finally made up her mind and decided not to eat.

"Then will you go back to class directly?" Shan Mei asked her.

Miyu smiled slyly and said, "I'm going to the training ground!"

"Eh? Xia Shu may not be there, right?" Shan Mei was a little confused.

"Hehe!" Miyu smiled confidently and said, "The radar told me that she is at the training ground!"

As he spoke, the hair on Miyu's head moved inexplicably.

Shan Mei exclaimed "amazing".

Then Mi Yu walked towards the training ground with cheerful steps.

The footsteps were jumping and skipping, like children on a spring outing.

Then she became eager again, like a girl on a date.

But after jogging for a while, the pace gradually slowed down.

From a certain point in time, it seemed as if a spell of immobilization had been released.

The pace gradually slowed down.

Growing weaker and heavier.

Eventually, it stopped.

Right there, both feet are standing side by side.

stood for a long time.

Then he turned around and walked back the way he came.

The heavy footsteps, for some reason, make people feel heartbroken and helpless.

His steps dragged like a prisoner in shackles.

From the bright place, gradually walked into the shadow.

Natsuki waved goodbye to Rush with a gentle smile on his face.

Rush also waved goodbye to her.

Although she couldn't see Xia Shu waving, she didn't know whether Xia Shu could see her waving.

Seeing Juncus walk into the dormitory area, Xia Shu also breathed a sigh of relief.