Inner Destroyer

　"Qi Xing, aren't you trying to save innocent lives and the poor people in this evil world of mine? Why are you still so nagging? How could you be such a person?"

　She raised her eyebrows, slammed the table, and spoke seriously and righteously!

　"Because I don't want to."

　But Qi Xing still spoke calmly.

　"Why would I get involved in this disgusting thing?"

　You ask me why I don’t want it?

　Isn't this the opposite of the question? Why?

　When the evil loli god was telling dirty jokes just now, Qi Xingzhen was a little surprised. But now that he was talking about this, he calmed down completely.

　Since Qi Xing thought this was disgusting, why did he do it?

　No matter how good his reasons were, he just didn't want to be with that nigger. Over the same thing, over the same guy, ██.

　He didn't want to do anything like re-rupping everyone and overwriting it with his own, because that was disgusting.

　“It’s the church’s job to wipe ass.”

　So Qi Xing said coldly,

　"Amos was the one who let the people in. He was the one who brought up the disaster. Let the church figure out how to solve it."

　"I'll just go and kill that nigger."

　However, just as Qi Xing finished speaking, he saw that the lovely devil had revealed a smug smile that she could no longer suppress.

　That is the smile of a devil who sees the desires of humans revealed.

　It is the smile that a cunning glutton would show when he finally sees the delicacy he has longed for.

　"In the past few days,"

　She spoke suddenly.

　"Qi Xing, I already have a general understanding of you."

　"Oh really?"

　Qi Xing frowned.

　"Of course, there are also my own thoughts, so this is purely my subjective opinion."

　Samael raised his index finger.

　"Qi Xing, I find you are very twisted."

　"what?"

　Twisted?

　"Everyone says your fighting style is sinister and despicable, full of vicious schemes. It terrifies the evil forces around the world, and reveres them. That's why I bestowed upon you the honorific title of 'Master Leipu'."

　The Loli Evil God raised his index finger.

　"But in reality, I hardly ever saw you come up with any despicable fighting strategies. Most of the time, you just went ahead with a punch, not bothering to think too much before killing...Except for the last time you

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　When I was fighting, and when I was fighting Black Spartacus just now."

　Qi Xing's brows furrowed even more. "Because I haven't encountered an enemy worthy of a fight in a long time. Usually, weak enemies can be defeated with one punch. There's no need to waste time."

　He used to favor cunning schemes because he had just arrived in this world and was still a growing lone ranger. Using more cunning tactics and schemes would make it easier to win and more likely to terrify the evil spirits.

　Now he was strong enough to defeat 99% of his enemies with a direct attack; with his reputation and status, defeating the enemy head-on was even more terrifying than simply winning by trickery.

　"Perhaps. But you still enjoy wasting time torturing them."

　Samael remained silent and raised his second finger.

　"So I discovered that you don't like being loved by others, you only like being feared by others - oh, no, that's not quite right. You still like being loved by others, but you prefer being feared by others."

　Qi Xing had never realized this, but it seemed she was right. He was certainly happy that others liked him. But he did... perhaps even prefer others to respect him.

　On the one hand, this seems to be more refreshing, on the other hand... does he feel that awe... is more useful than liking?

　"You like others to be feared, and you want even greater power—right? But I told you before on the cruise ship. If you really want great power, you should mix the overly intense Yang Fire with water. Go hug a woman, and you'll become stronger instantly."

　The devil grinned,

　"But you still don't want to."

　"You fought a desperate battle with me on the cruise ship. You were willing to sacrifice your own life to save the lives of two thousand innocent civilians."

　"And now, to save five million civilians, I tell you to launch a missile into space, but you steadfastly refuse. This doesn't make sense no matter how you look at it. If the utility function you used before and after is consistent, you can't come to this conclusion... unless you care about something more than other people's lives, as well as your own."

　She couldn't hold it in any longer and let out a giggle, showing her sharp canine teeth.

　"Qi Xing, what do you want?"

　"Power? Not only are you afraid of the power of the silver coins I gave you, you're even unwilling to quickly cultivate and form a core."

　"Save lives? Then you should go to the sky right now."

　"The awe and admiration of others? The feeling of destroying powerful enemies? The feeling of torturing criminals? You should have a little of each—don't argue. I know you take pleasure in beating and torturing those evil villains. I can see it. It's truly your desire."

　Qi Xing smacked his lips, but didn't attempt to refute. He knew a little bit about this—when Qi Xing tortured those evil villains with electric shocks and smashed their heads with his fists, he actually felt great.

　This is normal, right? It's just a hatred of evil, not a star-level perversion...

　"These are just superficial aspects, results, not your most fundamental desires and driving forces."

　Samael continued,

　"Changing the world? That sounds great, so great! But why do you want to change the world? If you're not trying to save other people's lives, or gain power for yourself, or for the love and fear of others, or the thrill of fighting... why do you want to change the world?"

　"What change would you like to make in the world?"

　The Dark Creator God counted them one by one with his fingers.

　Before he knew it, Qi Xing also felt cold sweat running down his neck.

　Don't underestimate her. Don't be fooled by this retarded deity's usual appearance, but she's truly a Satan. She's only truly competent at her job as a Satan.

　It had only been a few days, and she had already discovered the deepest fear he had hidden.

　"Why don't you find a woman? Why don't you have a family? Why are your friendships so shallow? Why do you only have bland friendships with powerful people?"

　The devil showed a devilish smile,

　"You haven't been abused by minotaurs in the past ten years, have you?"

　That's not true. Samael's words actually underestimated him.

　Because Qi Xing's mind was still very quick. Not long after he crossed over, he realized that in this world, getting married or dating was very easy to be bullied, which was very scary, so he didn't give the minotaur any chance.

　And Qi Xing himself knew that this was not just a problem with the Minotaur, and it was not just a problem with love and women.

　Do you think that friendship between men is safe in this absurd world?

　This is a world where a normal friend today can become a perverted, rage-ridden Ahegao tomorrow. This world itself is absurd. Friendship can sometimes become a weakness.

　No matter who you make friends with, you may be involved in inexplicable adult dramas.

　Therefore, Qi Xing had avoided getting too close to others over the past ten years, being cautious and only establishing bland friendships with those with great strength. If these friends were to be captured by the enemy and become hostages, or if they themselves turned evil and became enemies, he would kill them without hesitation.

　But does he really not like being loved by others? Does he really like being alone like this?

　He knew it himself, it was definitely not.

　"Qi Xing, you said you were a strong person and that you cared about other people's lives. That's a lie."

　She had accurately seen through the most fearful part of Qi Xing's heart and bit him tightly like a snake.

　"Your image of a strong man is just an illusion. It is deliberately created to make the bad guys fear and respect you.

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　Come out. Because I can't feel at ease unless I become the strongest man in the world."

　"You are just a lonely outsider, a stranger abandoned in a strange world, doing things that you are not really suited to. Even if one day everyone in the world respects and loves you, you will still be lonely in your heart."

　"You want to change the world, not out of selfless concern for others, but because you fear my world—oh, no, because you hate it!"

　At this point, Samael couldn't help but cover his mouth and laugh out loud, making a series of cute sounds like silver bells.

　"You hate this world! You're afraid, resentful, and angry! Because you know you're not truly invincible, you fear being assimilated by it—so the only time you truly feel the most satisfied is when you smash the heads of those evil villains, torture them mercilessly, and vent your hatred and anger on them!"

　Satan is a mocker and denier of mankind, and she enjoys the process of deconstructing people's hearts.

　"'Black Spartacus' put it perfectly. You only use silver coins to build armor for protection, and then use your fists to blast out divine power, because you don't dare to use your true desires to drive it. How can you possibly unleash greater power like this?"

　This hateful female devil is now going to dig out all the dark desires hidden deep in Qi Xing's heart, torture his spirit severely, and force him to submit to her!

　At this point, Qi Xing did admit that she was very powerful.

　——But he would not be defeated by a mere devil like this.

　"You're not entirely right."

　He said calmly,

　"I do know that I'm not truly invincible. I do try to create an image of myself as a strong person. But most of it is just because I kill so many evil people in my daily life that it just naturally becomes like this. This part is not fake."

　"I do care about the lives of innocent people. But I won't do something I don't want to do just to save someone's life."

　Wake up! Wake up!

　There are five million innocent people dying, and you're the only one who can save them. Can't you just hold it in for the greater good? It's just some dirty work with a nigger. What's the big deal?

　How could you be like this? Why are you such a selfish person?

　However, Qi Xing just didn't want to do it. No matter what, he didn't want to do it.

　Even if the universe is going to explode tomorrow, and the only way to save it is to let him be insulted by four gay men today, Qi Xing is unwilling to do that!

　He can sacrifice his life to fight against powerful enemies and save thousands of civilians when he "want" to; but he can also allow millions of civilians to die tragically when he "doesn't want to".

　Is this selfish?

　K.

　But a real person couldn't have just one feeling in their heart. Qi Xing didn't think his concern for other people's lives was fake. He wasn't that twisted.

　"As for your statement that my fear, hatred, and anger are the fundamental driving forces of power... perhaps you are right."

　Having said that, Qi Xing also let out a breath, sneered, and released the burning hatred suppressed in his heart.

　"Thank you, Samael. Your words have made me feel like I've overcome a difficult situation. I've learned a lot from them."

　After all, he was also a cultivator.

　The path to immortality values ​​self-awareness. The most important thing for achieving immortality is to know what "I" truly want. Otherwise, you will inevitably remain half-baked for your entire life.

　Now that you know, just admit it honestly. Then when he uses this anger and hatred to drive the power of the silver coin, Qi Xing... how terrifying will he be?

　"You're welcome."

　The Loli Evil God smiled slightly.

　"Your qualifications are indeed very good."

　Character is aptitude. Gaining power is easy—to put it bluntly, simply collecting a few silver coins will rapidly increase your power, as if using cheats. This is because silver coins are fragments of the universe's control console, directly unlocking the power of Wind Spirit and Moon Shadow.

　But nature cannot be altered. Silver coins cannot change character. For two thousand years, many have received Samael's silver coins, gaining invincible power. But their character was never worthy of the power, and they all ultimately met a tragic end.

　Only those who, despite being taunted by Samael, remained steadfast, neither escaping nor raging, but instead calmly reflecting, accepting the situation with an open mind, and using their unwavering willpower to overcome their mental barriers, and who joyfully accepted even the ultimate failure, maintaining a calm mindset, could be considered truly talented.

　Otherwise, you are a person with only desires but no soul.

　So Samael is very satisfied now - only such a person is worthy of her training and can become the future king of her new world!

　"I'm in a good mood now, so I'll teach you a way to overcome fear."

　She put her finger to her lips and smiled like a cat.

　"Didn't I just say that? Everything in the world is about █, and only █ itself is about power. █ is power."

　"So, as long as you can control the entire world and all of humanity, and make all of humanity submit to your power, you will naturally become the absolute ruler of the world, Lord Leipu—"