I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

Well... now that things have come to this, I'm too lazy to complain anymore.

"Impossible! You always babble a lot when you encounter this kind of situation, right? Why don't you say anything this time and don't you even complain about me?"

So you also know that I usually complain about you...

“…”

I thought about it, "Because you said you don't like me talking so much..."

At this moment, Brother Nan's expression became even more shocked, as if... as if he discovered that the person in front of him was not the ordinary Yi Sheji, but a mysterious creature that came from nowhere?

I always feel bad about describing myself...

"Hey... Sheji, are you late for school because you're sick? And your reaction just now was also because you were sick, right?"

What... Such an exaggerated reaction...

"...I'm fine..."

Is it that serious? It's just an unusual behavior... It seems to be quite serious to others.

"Are you really okay?" she asked again.

"Yeah... If you don't plan to punish me, then I'll go back. I haven't handed in my homework yet..."

"You actually did your homework?!"

Brother Nan seemed to have heard something incredible again.

"...Hmm... Well, I want to write something...something sometimes."

I don’t know if it’s correct, but I’ve written it all down for now.

"Did you take any strange medicine?"

"...this isn't funny..."

Maybe because I always had a serious expression, Brother Nan stopped joking for the time being.

"Ah, okay, okay... maybe I went a little too far... Ha, don't take it personally, I'm just worried about you."

...Well, let's just leave it at that...

"Anything else?" I asked.

"No, I don't... It's just that since you didn't come today, you didn't know about Lingcan's return to her country, right? I think it's a pity that you didn't say goodbye to her..."

Lingcan returned to China... Of course I knew, I knew it before any of you, and I understand the reason better than you. That's why I don't want to face the scene of separation...

"Hey...are you listening?"

Brother Nan seemed to notice that my eyes were a little distracted just now, so he reminded me.

"Ah...I'm listening."

"That's not right... You're not there every time when someone leaves. It always feels like it's intentional."

I did it on purpose...

"Could it be that when the graduation ceremony finally comes, you won't even come?"

That's a good suggestion...I hadn't thought of it before...

"Anyway... forget it... you go back first." Brother Nan waved his hand to indicate that I could leave.

"Oh..." So I left, but I felt like something was missing...

What's missing...

I was thinking about this question on the way back to the classroom, and it suddenly occurred to me when I saw my seat.

Ah... Brother Nan didn't seem to hold me accountable for being late...

......................

"Yi Sheji, why are you here now?"

It was the end of get out of class, so there weren't many people in the class. There were only a few guys whose names I couldn't remember and... a girl whose name I couldn't remember, although she looked familiar. That girl seemed very angry and was shouting at me.

I know the reason, because she often collects homework with Lin Yi. She must be angry because I came so late to collect homework... And she seems to have some opinions about me, but it doesn't matter...

"...I happened to meet Nan...Teacher Nan, and got scolded for being late..." I said as I walked towards my seat.

"...That's quite a coincidence..." She said helplessly, "Even though I don't think you can do it, I'll still ask you for your homework as usual."

"Hey..." I handed her the homework.

"..." She seemed a little bit unbelievable.

"Have you finished writing?" She hesitated whether to take it.

"Of course...if it's not written, it will be discovered...but whether it's right or not is another matter." Seeing that she didn't reach out to take it, I put it on the table in front of her.

"..."

She seemed to realize her rudeness and wanted to say something to me, but I turned around and went back to my seat.

It's just a normal reaction...forget about the apology.

....................

Class started, and there was an empty seat in the classroom that should have been full of people, which looked very sad.

I should have been staring at the blackboard, but I couldn't help but look at the empty seat. When I realized it, I always felt uncomfortable.

So after trying several times not to look there and failing, I just looked out the window.

The sky is really blue... Is it the same blue I saw from the plane? I haven't had this experience, so I'm not sure. And I don't have much hope of traveling abroad in my lifetime...

To give an analogy, people who often toss and turn are like flying dandelion seeds, drifting with unknown wind direction. They may not take root immediately after landing, and may be blown away by stronger winds.

Compared to this kind of life, I actually hope for a less turbulent life, with a stable job, a stable salary, and the same things to do every day... a bit like school...

In short, the kind of work that gives me time to daydream.

And don’t be a boss like Brother Nan who comes to check at any time.

It feels like time is passing by...

Is this really a good idea?

................

"Master, you may not know..."

As soon as the get out of class was over, Liu Yan turned around immediately.

"No, I know. Lingcan is gone, right?"

"...Yeah." He nodded.

"What does it have to do with you..." I asked him with a frown, and looked at that place again unconsciously.

"That being said, I don't think you should react like that... You know, when she first came here, weren't you and her very close..."

"......"

Yeah... He even called me a knight in public without my permission... I feel ashamed even thinking about it now...

"So?" My words were still cold.

"This is totally unlike your usual reaction, Master..." Liu Yan looked at the other boys, "Those boys are very dissatisfied with you, because you..."

"It has nothing to do with them... I can't stop her."

"But, when she left, she obviously wanted to see you again, and at that time..."

I held out my hand to signal him to stop.

"That's enough... Let me figure this out..."

"Huh? You..." He glanced at the math problem in front of me.

"Master, you are actually studying?"

".....Any objections?" I gave him an impatient look.

"No... I always feel a little..." He seemed to want to say something, but he held it back.

I always feel that you are a little different from your usual self.

I definitely want to say this...

........................

Looking at the three words "Tea Ceremony Society", I realized that I hadn't been here for a long time.

Now...it's just me and Rinsenkawa again...just like the beginning.

"Yo..." I greeted Rinquanchuan who was reading a book.

"Oh... You despicable forgetful dog, you still remember to come back..."

As usual, the venomous tongue is back.

But I'll accept it this time...

"Yeah... I'm back shamelessly again." Then he sat on the sofa where I usually sit.

“....?” Rinquanchuan looked at me with a very strange look.

"...What's wrong?"

"...It's okay..." She stopped talking and continued reading.

I continued to look out the window, but the female athletes practicing were missing.

This familiar silence... I miss it so much, it's like going back to the old days... except...

I glanced at the game console and game controller on the table.

A little less noisy...

"Ah..." I stood up and sat next to Rinquangawa.

"....What are you doing?" She looked at me warily.

"How about playing a game for a while?"

I said already picking up one controller and handing the other to her.

"...What's wrong with you?"

She didn't refuse and took the handle, but still asked worriedly.

"...Nothing much...Just wanted to take a look."

I want to see... which game appears after turning on the screen.

Lingcan...she usually plays games here while waiting for us to arrive, especially during the cultural exhibition, she plays this game by herself.

"Oh...it's a single player...in that case we can only take turns...who goes first?" Rinquanchuan asked me.

"...I'll go first."

......................

It's not a very difficult game, so I quickly reached a high score in my opinion. However, it became increasingly difficult, so it was Game Over.

"Ah...it's a record."

I saw the prompt.

"Oh..." Linquanchuan responded coldly.

"Enter a name... What should I enter..." I thought about it and decided to enter "YSJ".

After I finished typing, I found that a record list popped up immediately. It should be the record set by Lingcan himself.

When I looked closely, I was suddenly stunned.

Because the upper limit of records is ten, and my previous record can only replace the last one.

The first recorded name was "She Ji"

Then, the second one is "Is", and the third one is... "My"

The fourth one... "Important" The fifth one... "Knight"