I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

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I have always wanted you to have your own style. When you really did it, I realized that I still wanted to see your immature side, trying hard to imitate others.

is it my fault

I have no idea...

Should I regret it?

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[Easter eggs?]

"Teacher Alia, this book is very good. I hope you can take a look at it."

"Um... Mr. Alia, I'd like you to take a look at my book and tell me if there's anything you find offensive... Please."

"Alia..."

Another message like this? I'm on vacation, and you're leaving me at home reading books I don't even care about?

He is obviously not as good as me, but he really tries to force me to do things by pretending to be humble.

I'm also very busy. Besides, I'm not a professional reviewer. If I have the time, wouldn't it be better for me to find a professional reviewer myself?

“Ignore, ignore…”

I calmed myself down and tried to contact my dedicated artist - although it doesn't belong to me alone now, it will definitely be in the future.

Actually, I wanted to contact him/her from the beginning, but those messages just popped up without my permission.

"What's wrong? Didn't I send you the new character design?"

He, an artist with the online name "九朻蝶", responded to my message very quickly.

"Nothing, actually. Just wondering what you're doing."

"Of course I'm painting. If it's nothing important, don't bother me. I'm very busy."

"Oh, so cold."

"As for work, I have to take it seriously and work as fast as possible to draw as many paintings as possible."

"Hmm...I don't quite understand, but it must be very hard."

"Of course."

"Okay, I need to finish my painting quickly. Let's talk later."

"All right."

"By the way, the editorial department will be having a dinner party soon. Do you want to come?"

"Forget it."

"That's for authors, right? I'm just an illustrator who works for money, so it's not appropriate for me to go there, right?"

"You can bring your friends. Just say you're my classmate."

"...No way...We don't even know each other yet. How do you know if I'm a student?"

"Intuition."

"What do you think? We can discuss the details next time if you'd like."

"If I had time..."

"Then it's settled... Where is your home?"

"Hmm... in L City, H Province."

"No way... We live in the same city."

"That's great... So, the dinner party is also going to be held locally, right?"

"Yeah, that way we don't have to take a car or anything."

"Ahahaha, what a fate."

"Hmm, maybe we're in the same school."

"Haha, that's really exciting."

"Well, since you invited me, I'll go."

"Well, then we'll decide on a time and place to meet."

"OK."

What you think in your heart cannot be expressed

"how do you feel?"

In fact, Liu Yan didn’t know whether he should ask or not, but his hand had already touched Xiaoyou’s skin, so it would be bad not to say something.

I don’t know if she takes good care of herself, but the skin on her back not only looks white, but also feels smooth to the touch... No wonder she keeps asking me to apply sunscreen on her. It would be a pity to see such skin get sunburned.

"Are you...are you stupid? Why ask that..." Xiaoyou didn't want to answer, "Just apply it well..."

"Oh...actually my back has healed...do I need to apply it somewhere else?" But after saying this, he felt something was wrong, because there was nowhere else he could help.

"Since... since you're feeling well, just tell me! Seriously..." Xiaoyou quickly stood up, "I don't need you anymore."

Oh, how heartless...

It feels like I've been used and thrown away... Although there's really nothing that needs me anymore, it would be better if the tone could be a little more moderate.

"You can do it well, so if I need you for something next time, don't make excuses."

"Well... I'll try my best."

Actually, it depends on the situation... Although Liu Yan nodded in agreement, he was thinking this in his heart.

"Ah...it's time to eat..." Xiaoyou said as he looked around and found Rin Hanekawa who was watching coldly.

This guy... has he been watching all this time? How much free time does he have...

"Now that I think about it... Speaking of which, where are the others? We had a joint lunch, right?"

"That's what I mean...you're still running around at this time, really." Liu Yan couldn't help but frowned.

I don't know where that guy Sheji has been messing around with other women again. He has no sense of self-awareness even though he is in such a bad situation.

“Actually, we can’t blame them entirely…”

After all, two of them left because of us... Xiaoyou thought of Senior Sun and Senior Lu Yunzi... I wonder what those two are doing now. Is Senior Lu's progress going well?

"Um..." Liu Yan suddenly interrupted Xiaoyou.

"Um?"

"I sometimes wonder if you ever find me, as your neighbor, somewhat unpleasant."

For some unknown reason, Liu Yan said such words.

"...How could that be? Where on earth did this thought come from..." Xiaoyou felt a little unbelievable. After all, she had never explicitly said anything about hating him.

"I see... Since you kept calling me stupid and ignorant... I thought I was being disliked. Haha."

Liu Yan laughed to himself.

"...You are indeed quite stupid. And sometimes you say and do things foolishly... After all, I have been with you for so long, I am very clear about this."

"Ah... As expected..."

So to say...

"But I'm used to it, so I don't really hate it."

Xiaoyou said this very calmly while looking into the distance.

Did she deliberately avoid seeing him? Liu Yan never knew this.

"...oh..."

However, it seemed like the first time that the seemingly shameless Liu Yan's face actually blushed.

"........."

Looking at the two guys who were in such a good mood, Rin Hanekawa, who wanted to remind them to go find someone, fell silent again.

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Chapter 16: What is in your heart cannot be expressed

"We'll be neighbors from now on... Xiaoyou, you're such a fool! Hurry up and say hello to your uncle and aunt."

That was the first time I met him.

It was my first time moving, and I felt so out of place, yet... now I was being urged to say hello to people I met for the first time.

Obviously, it doesn't have to be like this... Etiquette is really...

"Uncle...Hello, uncle and aunt..."

A little shy and a little reluctant.

"This child is so cute..." "She's going to be a great beauty in the future."

And the people I call uncle and aunt also praise me... I don't know if it's just a polite remark.

"Um..."

Suddenly I felt someone touching my shoulder, and the voice of a stranger of my age appeared in my ears.

"Can we play together from now on?"

The person in front of me looks handsome. Although his clothes show that he is a boy, I always feel that if he grows his hair long, many people will think he is very beautiful.

"Hmm...ah..."

I don't know how to react.

This is our first meeting...it's not a good one.

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"..."

Xiaoyou looked at Liu Yan beside him and found that he was also in a daze.

In some ways, he really hasn't changed much.

He still has a pretty face and a not-too-strong body, and even wearing women's clothing might not be noticeable.

And then... the only change is that I've forgotten what I said about "let's play together in the future." Every time I go to see him, he always looks impatient.

"What a...idiot."

Is it so troublesome for me to stay by your side?

. . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Is that so... a useless person... That's probably what he is.

So far, I haven't done anything decent.

As I took the last bite of ice cream, I felt something cold sliding into my stomach and taking up space there without any hesitation.

It's over... After eating the ice cream, I surprisingly have no appetite. The dessert I promised to put in my other stomach...

Oh, maybe it’s because I’m a boy. After all, the female body structure is incredible. Otherwise, why would so many people want to know about it?

...ah...that feels a bit...aha.

"Are you finally done eating? You're so slow."

"...I'm really sorry."

"You say you're sorry, but you don't really mean anything."