I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

"I see... That's quite unexpected. I was already prepared to deal with you... Well, this saves me a lot of effort."

This is a joke...right?

"But this isn't about her."

That's really rare... Ever since I met her, she can't stop talking about Rinquanchuan in almost every three sentences.

"Who is this about...it can't be me, right?"

It was just a joke at first, but when I saw Rin Hanekawa nodded and there was no joking look in her eyes, I realized she was serious.

"No way... then... what do you want to ask..."

About me? If she wanted to investigate, she'd definitely know more than me. I really can't imagine what she doesn't understand...

"I'm asking you... do you like my sister?"

"...ha?!"

. . . . . . . . . . . . .

Unbelievable, oh my god, wow, holy shit, this is unbelievable! This is amazing, this is awesome, this is fantastic.

Suddenly, the exclamatory voices of various professions appeared in my mind.

What...I just heard...

Ask me...like...that kind...not that kind...like...right?

I was speechless for a moment...and my heart was beating faster than ever...Why...was it because of the identity of that person...Oh yeah, she's a young lady, if everything goes well, then I won't have to worry about my future life...

But I'm not interested in this kind of thing.

Haven't you thought about this before...

...So that's not the reason for the tension.

"Can you...tell me what this...means."

It's so strange. My mind is clearly in a mess, but my tone of voice is very calm.

After all, I still don't understand her intention in asking this.

This kind of question without any preparation is really hard for me to answer. It's as if Hua Xiong, who was showing off his power, was suddenly ganked by Erye who emerged from the crowd...

After hearing my question, she did not refuse, but began to explain to me.

"Because I've always found it strange... For no reason, you joined a club that no one wanted to join before. People who just met her would hate her personality, and... now she seems to only want to communicate with you. It was you who found her when she disappeared at the cultural exhibition... So I feel very strange, what on earth are you..."

"Why do you do so much for her?"

...I seem to understand.

“Everyone needs a reason to do something.”

This guy in front of me...

"I don't think there's any other reason other than 'liking'... That's why I want to ask... you..."

Even though he looks like he knows everything...

"You..."

I interrupted her.

But actually...

"I still don't understand anything."

..........................

Am I angry at this moment... I don't know, because I may have forgotten how to be angry... After all, I am the kind of poor guy who can't even get angry properly.

But, regarding what she said, no, it would be better to say it was a questioning.

I felt very upset about the things she questioned.

Do people need reasons to do things?

"Do you need a reason to do something? No? Do you need a reason? No? Do you need a reason..."

Of course it is necessary, but it is not something that is so clear.

For someone like her...it's probably hard to understand, and I don't want to explain it to her.

"You might be mistaken..."

"Even though I'm helping... well, I should say taking care of her. But that's just my willingness... I'm simply worried about her. Putting aside her identity, she's just a girl who longs to communicate, and I just happen to be able to talk to her... that's all."

That's it... probably.

"So... you don't like it?"

She checked with me again, as if she hadn't heard what I just said.

"But I'm not disgusting. I'd say it's just okay."

Why do we have to discuss this kind of thing...

"You think this way... do you also think this way about those girls? You're just worried about them, and you don't have any other thoughts at all... right?"

Other girls...thoughts...

"I think... no."

I already clearly feel that I am lacking confidence... What is my real thought...

"In that case, I'm still very worried..." She sighed rarely, her eyes seemed to see through everything.

"You're still worried about others."

What a surprise.

"Of course...and you're a troublesome guy." She shook her head helplessly.

"What's the problem..." And it's not your turn to worry about it.

"Hmm... the Shiraraba route... huh? What a courageous fellow." She muttered to herself.

Hmm? What does that Japanese-sounding word mean...

"Is there something wrong..." I asked her.

"It seems like nothing I say will make any difference... Anyway, keep going."

"What are you cheering for..."

"I don't ask for anything else from you, just don't make her sad."

"..."

However, this is indeed the case

Don't let her be sad... Why does it sound like I'm going to do something terrible? I'm not a morally corrupt person, I wouldn't do anything bad... Maybe.

"So...that's it?"

I thought he would say something serious, but now it seems that he didn't say anything... serious.

"What do you mean by 'just like that'? It's easy to say, but hard to do. Besides, I'm really worried about you."

"So what are you worried about..." If you were worried, why did you call me into the room?

"Don't you know what you're worried about? Are you really stupid or are you just pretending to be stupid..."

“I think it’s neither…”

"You're just being stubborn..." She made a gesture as if she wanted to tear my mouth apart, but perhaps because she felt it was not appropriate for a girl to touch a boy like me, she did not put it into practice. She just said with a little disdain, "You really don't know how to please others."

"Why should I please you?"

Ah, actually it was just a natural reaction... I said it before I could even react.

"...Can you please speak properly..."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I just said it unconsciously..."

Actually, I was telling the truth... After all, I wouldn't deliberately try to please someone. But seeing that she looked annoyed, I thought it would be better to apologize.

"Forget it... Actually, I just saw that you and that girl were getting along pretty well tonight, so I wanted to confirm your thoughts..." She stared at me as she said these words, which made me feel very uncomfortable... It was like being stared at and scolded by a teacher.

"So...what conclusion did you come to?"

"Don't tell you."

So you're pretty much the same as me! Why did I need to apologize to you just now?

"That's all I have to say... You should go back to your room. There will be activities tomorrow... By the way, have you finished your homework?"

"Don't add that last sentence!"

Chapter 37: However, it is true

what can we do about it...

After coming out of Rin Hanekawa's room, I couldn't help but start thinking about some things... She really saw my current situation.

That’s right, I was just playing dumb.

Of course I understand what she means by "sad"... It's just that I don't want to face these problems now, because in my opinion, such a thing will never happen... I am obviously just a guy who is not worth paying attention to... Although I really want to say that, they may not think so.

I certainly don't want to upset anyone.

Although there are already people who are saddened by my decision... How can I make amends... I don't know, maybe there is no way at all. Ah... What a hassle.

"Master, why are you so gloomy? You've been standing there since you came in. It's a bit scary."

...Have I opened the door unconsciously?

"It's okay... just wondering."

"Oh~ What are you thinking about? I'm not good at giving you profound lectures, but... you really do care."

Generally speaking, isn’t it “still possible to share your burden”?

"Well...it's not really that difficult..." I scratched my cheek and said a little embarrassedly, "I...seem to be too popular...what should I do?"

Ah, the air suddenly became quiet. I seemed to know what he was going to say.

"You... shameless old thief!"

This familiar tone... Is that you, Zhuge Cunfu?

"No, no, no... I'm really troubled."

No one may believe it, but I really am...

"Stop quibbling. Guys like you should be killed by the Real-Life Hunting Association!"

I think if there were such an association, you would be targeted as well...

"I'm not kidding."

"You think I'm kidding? To be honest, my sword..."

"..."

Although I really want to, I no longer have the desire to complain.

"...Is it possible that you are still troubled?"

Maybe because I didn't say anything, he finally realized that I was not joking.

"...I already said that."

"So many people like you, aren't you happy?"

"It's not that I'm unhappy...but I feel...it shouldn't be like this."

This doesn't seem like it should be happening to me.

"Now that I've encountered it, I'll just accept it honestly." He seemed to think it was nothing.