I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

【Node】The feeling that can be gradually understood

"Aren't you planning on going home straight away?"

After finishing her call with Yehui, a voice that was all too familiar to Rinquanchuan came from behind her. It was school time, and it wasn't impossible for the owner of that voice to appear at this time. But normally, she would try to avoid meeting Rinquanchuan.

"...It has nothing to do with you."

In fact, Rinquanchuan himself couldn't explain the source of his dislike for her. However, whenever he saw her, he would feel disgusted and would turn away.

"...I actually have a lot of things to ask you. Although I keep thinking it's still early, to be honest, I really don't have much time left here."

"..."

Unlike her usual commanding tone, Rin Hanekawa's behavior at this moment still made Rin Izumikawa quite curious - however, if he really accepted her change of attitude and stayed to talk with her, it would be too simple. So, based on this reason, Rin Izumikawa decided to ignore her.

"Really? But I have nothing to say to you."

"...Don't do that again."

"...Huh? What does that mean?" The tone was as if I was the one who was always doing the wrong things - Rinquanchuan felt disgusted by this.

"I've certainly done a lot of things that have offended you in the past... but you should also be more aware of the situation. This isn't about me, so why don't you consider your own situation?"

"...What are you talking about? You don't have to mind my business."

Should I say it's willful or escaping?

At this moment, Rinquanchuan did not choose to carefully understand what his sister said, but was eager to interrupt the conversation and disappear from her sight as soon as possible.

"If I hadn't cared about you, what kind of life would you be living now... Don't you really know?"

What kind of mood was she in when she said this?

As if something had touched her, Rin Hanekawa's tone, for the first time, revealed a fragility that wasn't her style. Yet, it felt genuine, as if it had always been that way, something she'd never shown to anyone else.

"..."

Only then did Rin Izumikawa realize that she had not actually thought about these things. At this moment, she also suddenly realized that her behavior all along was actually quite selfish towards Rin Izumikawa.

"Before, because I was too impatient...I did a lot of things that disgusted you...But, if possible, let's forget about these things for now."

"..." In fact, Linquanchuan was no longer angry about this. He even said that he could not remember what happened. As for wanting to leave as soon as he saw her, it was just a habit.

"I won't forget it—but if you want to say something... I'm not against listening to you." Rinquanchuan said, glancing at the time, "I'll give you ten minutes."

"...It won't take that long. I only have a few words."

It looked like she had made up her mind. Rin Hanekawa didn't look like a rich girl, nor like the student council president - but like an older sister who wanted to talk to her about something she had been worried about.

"Um... whatever, whatever you want."

What the hell is going on? Lin Quanchuan thought with a little trepidation in his heart, but he was still prepared to listen carefully.

"hiss--"

He took a deep breath. His chest, which was a concern, trembled slightly. This made Rinquanchuan very concerned.

"Just go ahead and do what you want to do."

"....Eh?"

Rinquanchuan was not sure what this sudden statement meant for a moment.

"From now on, I will be responsible for all the tedious things at home."

While the Rin family's fortune wasn't large, it was nonetheless quite powerful. Their parents only had two daughters, and without a male heir to the family business, maintaining it was a difficult matter. Rinsenkawa had never been a natural at socializing, so only Rinsenkawa knew how much Rinsenkawa had done for her over the years. But she never told anyone about it.

Except, that guy.

This guy who gives people a very incredible feeling - maybe it's just that I have come into contact with too few men - Rin Hanekawa convinced herself like this, trying her best not to be too curious about the guy named Yi Shaji.

If it weren't for him, Rin Hanekawa wouldn't have made up her mind to say these words. And she would never know that what he had been talking about with her was not the current country, but... another personality.

"...What are you talking about?"

What kind of courage and determination it takes to be able to say "I can handle it all by myself" is something Rinquanchuan, who has never tried how to socialize or talk to that group of people, naturally cannot imagine.

"You can do whatever you want. You don't have to worry about maintaining your business, or whether you'll have to deal with people you don't like, or even worry about marrying someone you don't like... You don't have to worry about any of that. I've already told my parents... Even though I've been so active in front of them, and it's always made you feel like I'm vying for their favor, I don't really want that."

"..."

Yes. Rinquanchuan suddenly remembered when his dislike for his sister began. Ultimately, it was just a small sprout of jealousy, growing over time in the soil of misunderstanding.

In fact, I should have realized it earlier... Although this girl in front of me said something strong, it was obvious that she was holding back her tears, and she actually cared about me very, very much.

"I want you to live freely... It's strange, isn't it? I find it strange too, but seeing you being so willful, it's like you're just being naughty... Seeing you minding your own business, I feel like my efforts have paid off. Just this alone is enough for me."

"......"

Why didn't I realize it sooner? Why am I only speaking up now? Why hasn't anyone mentioned it... Why...

Similar questions kept popping up in Linquanchuan's mind, but she couldn't say anything. Progress was happening too quickly, so she suddenly began to doubt whether what she was experiencing was real.

"I thought it didn't matter if I didn't tell you, because you would understand one day anyway...but..." When she said this, she couldn't help but sigh, and took a step forward, so that she was quite close to Linquanchuan.

"Well..."

Now Rin Izumikawa could clearly see the tears that were just hanging in the corners of her eyes, but it seemed that she had held them back in an incredible way - before she could think more, she felt pain in her cheek - Rin Izumikawa's hand had already gently pinched her right cheek.

"But what on earth are you doing now—"

"Ugh—let go."

Even though he understood her good intentions, compared to this, Lin Quanchuan still felt very disgusted by being touched like this. No matter who it was.

"Are you still afraid of pain? Sorry, sorry, maybe I used too much force~"

"..."

It seems like this is the first time in all these years that two people can get along so normally.

"But seeing that you are still content with the status quo, I find it really unacceptable." For Rin Yukawa, this is what he really wanted to say.

"...?"

However, Rinquanchuan still looked like he didn't understand anything.

"Look, are you only going to use these eyes to read, play games, and show off your cuteness?" Rin Hanekawa said, unable to help but raise her hands to rub Rin Izumi's cheeks. She suddenly realized that rubbing her sister's face was...quite pleasant. She hadn't had any contact with it before, so it wasn't too late to realize it now.

"Go away—"

At this moment, Rinquanchuan stretched out his hands with double disgust and slapped away her hands that seemed to be stuck to his face and rubbing against him.

"If you want to talk about something, just say it. Don't be like this...it's disgusting."

"Really? But the little guy under me looked quite happy when I rubbed his face like that."

"...Tsk, don't tell me that. If you have any objections to what I'm doing, just point it out."

"So you really didn't realize..." She said as she tried to reach out and touch Rinquanchuan's face again.

"...Don't think I can be so careless just because I forgive you."

"...Ah, don't be angry." Although her tone was casual, she quickly withdrew her hands. "Actually, there's something I've noticed a long time ago. You have someone you like, right?"

"..."

It's actually a pretty interesting reaction.

Rin Izumikawa, who always had a blank expression and it was hard to tell whether he was happy or angry, had a normal expression now, but... after hearing Rin Izumikawa's words, his cheeks began to turn red at a speed visible to the naked eye, and then he finally revealed an extremely shy look.

"Wuwu... Ugh, you you you you... What nonsense are you talking about! Are you trying to get close to me just to make fun of me like this? Damn it, damn it, I actually believed you so easily..."

Is this considered cursing? Anyway, Rinquanchuan said this and was about to turn around and leave, but was grabbed by Rinhanekawa's wrist.

"...That's not a good reaction. If the person confessed their feelings to you directly, would you run away like this? Anyway, what I just said wasn't a confession."

"Let me go—"

The frail Rinizumikawa naturally couldn't break free from Rinhanekawa. Although Rinhanekawa's strength was very small compared to the average person... they were indeed sisters.

"Don't always think about escaping."

"None of your business! None of your business, none of your business! Go away!"

Looking at Rinzekawa who still wanted to escape at this time, Rinzekawa, who had originally not been angry at all, suddenly clenched his teeth for some reason.

"If you don't care, then it won't matter if I take him away, right?"

"..."

After hearing this, Rinquanchuan finally stopped struggling. Of course, the reason for this was unknown.

"...Well, ahem, even if I don't take action, someone else will—" Rin Hanekawa couldn't help but cover up the words he had just said impulsively, "Even so, are you still planning to do nothing and let things develop like this?"

Looking back

Chapter 15 Review Before

How far back should we go? Perhaps the specific date isn't important; if someone wants to know the whole story, simply knowing what happened is enough. So, let's focus on a few months ago. Was it Sheji's original personality... or was it a personality that suddenly appeared? In short, this personality was completely different from everyone's impression. Although the reason is unclear, he still has a considerable curiosity about the people around him... In fact, it's not an exaggeration to say that it's a different kind of concern.

But there weren't many people who could catch his attention. Aside from some negative emotions after learning about Ye Hui's situation, he had always been quite interested in that guy he had met before.

This conversation took place during that incident, when Rin Hanekawa came into contact with him.

"By the way, you always seem to be concerned about your sister's situation."

By this time, Sheji had been warned not to cause trouble at school, and had received information that Rinquanchuan was currently in a bad mood. However, these warnings fell on deaf ears. The issue with Yehui had been resolved, and the school had sanctioned the person who orchestrated the incident, even though he had been the one who had instigated it. As for Rinquanchuan, Sheji had little interest in her at the moment.

"Aren't you talking nonsense? She is my sister. If I don't care about her, who else will—"

"But from what I know, your relationship with her isn't very good. In fact, she actually dislikes you."

"...Would you mind if you didn't repeat something you already knew?" Faced with Sheji's question, Rinhanekawa displayed an expression of being accustomed to it. She didn't mind being brought up... Of course, Sheji was the only one who knew about this; few others were aware that Rinhanekawa had a younger sister at this school.

It's quite interesting to think about it. They both avoided seeing each other at school, albeit for different reasons... Otherwise, Rinsenkawa's daily life wouldn't be quite as normal now that her identity was exposed.

There are probably a lot of people who want to use Rinquanchuan to ask the president to do things for them, and Rinquanchuan is least good at dealing with such people.

"I'm just a little curious... Have you ever thought about changing this situation?"

"Are you showing off your bad taste?" Rin Yukawa showed an impatient expression at this question, "Why would I ask you to help me if I didn't want to?"

"Yeah, why do you need my help?"

"...Are you being angry on purpose?"

"You're just too prone to anger..." This was something both Miss Rin and I shared. "Think carefully, even if I put in a lot of effort, it only improved our relationship. It didn't really have much effect on you."

"...Huh? What on earth are you talking about now..." She frowned slightly, realizing that he was not just chatting with her today.

"Actually, you still like going out and playing."

"...What do you mean by that? Do you think I'm someone who works diligently in the student union every day and then does nothing at home?"

"On the contrary, I don't think so."

Judging from the fact that she took the initiative to invite everyone to the beach during the holiday and used the excuse of asking me to play with her, she is not actually the kind of person who is good at work. She is just forced to act that way for some reason... This is actually what attracts Shaji.

"That's why I'm curious, why not just show your true self...whether it's enjoying the crowds or going out and having fun. If you enjoy it, there shouldn't be any reason for others to stop you."

After all, she was someone who had her way. How could someone like that control her willfulness? That was what Sheji was most curious about.

"...You're right. There are indeed very few people who can stop me from doing what I want...and my parents trust me quite a bit. But..."

It seems that he has no intention of hiding it.

This was quite surprising to Sheji. After all, he was just an outsider with whom Rinyukawa had a very weak relationship. But now he was about to speak his true thoughts... could he be trusted so easily? - Sheji began to doubt himself.

There was nothing strange about it. Rin Hanekawa just treated him as an ordinary person. In her eyes, he was a man who kept his mouth shut and could be trusted.

"But I understand I need to exercise restraint... Isn't it ridiculous? In the end, I'm the one who's limiting myself."

“…”

There was no hint of anger or complaint in his tone...but it was also completely different from his usual tone.

"I can tell from your confused look that you definitely don't know the situation in our family." Looking at Sheji's thoughtful expression, Rinyukawa suddenly felt like laughing for some reason.

Just looking at him brightened my mood. It was a rather strange feeling; among all the people I had met so far, there was no one else like him.

Sheji, on the other hand, thinks... this is complete bullshit.