I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

“..Oh.”

Her response was just an unintelligible interjection.

"What...what happened?"

"Are you trying to blackmail me?" Her tone was surprisingly relaxed. "But I admit it. After all, I've known you since then. Whether you like it or not, I will be responsible for you."

"...Isn't it that the responsibilities are reversed?"

I couldn't help but complain... And is this considered a confession? I'm a little confused.

"Responsibility is mutual... I'm not sure when I first understood this, but I think it's fine this way. After all, we're not children anymore, so there's nothing wrong with thinking more about our future lives."

“…Ahaha.”

That's right.

"And my parents kept urging me to get you as soon as possible. But I kept saying there was no rush... because I knew you and I were already inseparable. From the moment you decided to help me, I decided not to look at any other man besides you."

“…I see…”

Should I say I'm happy or touched... I can't tell what I'm thinking anymore.

Looking at her now that she has grown into a slightly childish but overall very mature person, I don’t know how to deal with what happens next.

"I really miss you... When I was studying abroad, I dreamed of you countless times... And now, I want to make the scene that appeared most in my dreams come true." She looked at me seriously, as if asking for my opinion. "Is it okay? Sheji."

"Ah...Me too, actually."

It's embarrassing to say that when I dream about her, there will always be a kissing scene... Although it's just a dream, it's still quite embarrassing to talk about it... But since she has already...

"Then I won't be polite."

As she spoke, she grabbed the tie on my chest and pulled it in front of her.

"You're still as weak as before~"

After a simple sigh, her soft lips with a little moisture and warmth were already pressed against my lips - not only that, her tongue actually took the initiative to explore my side.

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"Why are you so skilled in this?" I asked her, panting.

"I can't help it. I heard from my best friend that it's very exciting." She defended herself, "Besides, this is my first time doing a French kiss."

"What have you been discussing all day long..."

I didn't hear that meeting was like this... Is this the scene you dreamed of? Isn't that too scary?

"Is that all? I've only just begun what I want to do."

"It can't be... Hey, wait a minute..."

As I was speaking, she pushed me down onto her bed.

Aren't her dreams usually too scary?!

"It's only like this when I dream of you... To be exact, I can't leave you anymore." As she spoke, she had already unbuttoned her coat. "Well, this is the first time I've done this, so please forgive me if I make any mistakes."

"I don't have any experience either—no, this kind of thing isn't important, is it? Is this the kind of scene you usually dream about?"

"What else? Even though I find it strange... this is proof that I love you deeply."

His straightforward nature made things like this completely emotionless.

"This love is too heavy!" In a double sense.

"I think you usually read pornographic books or something, right? I think making use of that will be enough."

"Don't make reality sound so simple..." And how did she know that I read pornographic books?

"Then let's make it complicated."

"Actually, I'm super nervous right now... Wait, do you want to take a shower or something first..." I couldn't help but smell my body to see if there was any smell.

"Don't worry about it~"

Well, it seems she's been exercising regularly. It's a bit embarrassing, but I didn't have the energy to resist.

Putting all this aside, how much does she like me?

Maybe the more blank space there is in my brain when I kiss her, the more she likes me.

I said...I still don't understand what love is.

Her answer was...it doesn't matter. No one knows everything in the world from the beginning...nor do they understand everything.

Compared to her before, she has become much more mature now, mature enough to understand the consequences of her actions better than her peers.

The ritual we were currently undergoing seemed to be an inexplicable act. It was simply because everyone else was doing it, and because she and I were both from the same ritual, that out of a touch of curiosity, perhaps imitation, we truly bonded lovingly.

"...I seem to have figured out some things...but I've also gained new doubts."

No matter what I'm doing, I can't help but think about something. Maybe this is the side effect of rationality being stronger than emotion.

In response to this, Jiayin’s response was much more normal.

"I don't think now is the time to express my feelings, idiot!"

I didn't expect her to be shy... even at this time. Well, whatever... I still have a lot of questions, but at least I've figured out one thing.

If there really is such a thing as destiny in the world, then my meeting her is something I cannot escape.

It was great to meet her.

.....

【appendix--】

"Should we stop showing Xiaoying special effects?" (Suddenly brought up)

"Huh? Why..." (I don't really want to)

"I'm worried that because of this, she'll become too outspoken and get too close to boys. If she meets a guy like you, that's fine, but I'm afraid she'll end up with someone like that. What if such a well-behaved daughter becomes rebellious..." (worry)

"It feels like you're bringing your old self into this." (helpless)

"This is called a lesson from the past, don't you understand?" (disdain)

"Okay, okay, I'll try to guide her. But everyone has a rebellious period, it will come... But Xiaoying is only four years old now, so she still has some time before she reaches her rebellious stage."

"Almost fourteen? Do we have to wait another ten years? I feel like ten years isn't too long, but it's not too short either."

“There’s still a long way to go.”

"...Yes, there's still a long way to go. And she has to walk her own path..."

"Actually, everyone is the same in this regard."

"...Well, it's decided—I'm going to compose a song! It's dedicated to our daughter, who just turned four. Ten years from now, when she happens to hear this old song, even if she's rebellious, she'll understand our good intentions~"

"Okay, old rules... I'll take care of the lyrics, and you just focus on composing."

"Okay, it's settled—go to sleep...what are you still standing there for?"

"...Speaking of which."

"What?"

"Since you don't want our daughter to watch special effects, then if it's a son, we should be able to raise him this way."

"...Eh, really? Are you serious? Wow, I give up on you... Do you want to reconsider this... Well, it seems like you've been plotting this for a long time..."

In short, Sheji and Jiayin's married life is indeed very happy. Despite some twists and turns, they finally got together. As for the specific plot, due to the author's limited energy, only a framework is provided. The details are left to the imagination of interested readers.

It is truly a cause for celebration that lovers finally get married.

【Good News Chapter Ends】

A girl exploring the wilderness

People who have been pursuing ordinariness are actually not ordinary, but people who have been dreaming of being extraordinary - such as me, must be ordinary people.

From the age of six until now—or, to be more precise, a year ago—I've lived almost daily hoping for a change that would set me apart from everyone else. However, aside from the normal changes in my secondary sexual characteristics, I seem to be stuck with the label of mediocrity. Perhaps it's because I simply don't know what I need to do to change, and despite my deepest desire, I can't achieve anything.

Having said that, if we ignore big things like money and status, people are generally the same apart from gender... right?

"Ah... I still can't convince myself."

Life is not as intuitive as attribute panels and skill points, otherwise I wouldn't spend time putting myself in this environment and constantly trying to see what is suitable for me.

That being said, even though everyone's talents vary, those around you often want you to be a jack of all trades... And as far as I know, anyone who knows all the moves in the game is either a free-spirited individual or someone using cheats. Putting aside the unbalanced nature of cheats, the price of using all skills generally comes from losing certain class-specific skills, like special moves and buffs. Equipment crafting and upgrades are also significantly lower than those of class-specific skills. Therefore, unless you're confident in your own abilities and financial resources, it's difficult to find a jack of all trades.

If there are things like cheats in the real world, I think they probably do—it's all about a lot of money. So, this is the most frustrating aspect of reality: the starting level of ordinary people can't compete with those with innate resources. Compared to reality, perhaps games are a more balanced world.

The more time you invest in honing your skills, the more you'll gain in surpassing others. My competitive spirit, gradually eroded by the real world, can only be temporarily preserved through games... Should I call it helplessness or something else? While I know I can't live my life solely on gaming, now that I'm thinking about my future, it really doesn't matter.

Just this is enough... As long as I can be exposed to a wide variety of games, it is enough. No matter how difficult the future is, as long as games still exist, I can continue to live.

With this thought in mind, I successfully got through a year that seemed truly muddled to others.

No one had any hope for me, so naturally no one would be disappointed by my behavior. Without any gains or losses, I just stepped into high school life.

【Meet】 A girl exploring the wilderness

After consuming something quite sweet, other sweets no longer taste quite so sweet. Similarly, after being exposed to the fascinating world of gaming, the dull real world can become repulsive and tiresome. Games are more than just entertainment and escapism, but to those who don't value gaming culture, this is simply an excuse used by "addicts."

So, compared to those guys who talk to themselves, NPCs who only give you tasks are more popular with me. It's strange that when facing those guys in real life, I just want to avoid contact as much as possible, but in the game, I want to talk more with the NPCs I like - if only the world could be more open - I have repeatedly hoped that future games can do this.

"Everyone sing together—"

Under the leadership of the class teacher, almost all the idle guys in the carriage started singing childish songs.

I don't understand why high school students like us have to sing in chorus on a picnic like elementary school students. Anyway, while everyone around me was showing off their out-of-tune voices, I was still playing GalGame on the emulator installed on my phone.

"..."

Incidentally, the person sitting next to me didn't seem very welcome.

The reason for this judgment is that he's sitting next to someone like me who's been left out. This means we both have few friends... Ah, thanks to his introversion, he didn't start a fight with the others while I was gaming. It's a good thing. Otherwise, I wouldn't be able to appreciate the voice actors' portrayals of their characters.

"..."

Well, I always feel like there is a gaze on me.

So he diverted his attention a little and looked at the guy next to him.

Suddenly, I realized the person sitting next to me was actually a girl. She had short, straight, black hair, flawless fair skin, and drooping eyebrows and eyelids, as if she had no interest in the world. Even when she was facing me, her eyes were fixed on the scenery outside the window, as if she didn't see me. Her features were very regular and beautiful, and it must be said that it's rare to see a girl like her in real life.

However, even in her daze, she noticed me staring at her, and she looked at me with a cold gaze, scanning her from head to toe, her expression not changing at all until she saw the phone in my hand.

“…”

With a hint of surprise in her eyes, her cherry-colored lips opened slightly.

Seeing this, I quickly removed my earphones. At that moment, I was intensely curious: what kind of voice would a girl like her have? I was truly hopeless for having such thoughts.

"cell phone?"

I heard her words clearly. Though brief, I managed to extract the high-quality voice of a voice actor from the overwhelming noise around me.

"...Um.."

No, I have to find a way to talk to her more, I swore secretly in my heart.

"But.."

Her brows furrowed, as if she was confused about something.

"Is there anything strange?" I couldn't help but look down at my phone screen. "Ah...is it the game?"

"Yes."

"..."

I've noticed from the beginning that she only says two words at a time... Is this the limit of her communication?

"What's the problem?"

"..platform."

As expected, it was still a two-word response... However, I didn't seem to understand what she wanted to express.