I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

【True Title】

Awaken! Melos's Will!

Contact Your Courage

It wasn't until the moment I started running that I realized... I had no idea where Linquan had gone.

Isn’t there a saying that goes, “If you run without a goal, you will definitely end up back where you started.”

By the way, I said this.

As he ran around the corner of the corridor, he almost bumped into Ling Shen who was also about to turn.

"Wow! What are you doing, you useless knight? You scared me!"

After seeing clearly that it was me, he showed an impatient expression.

"Well... do you know where Rinsen River is right now?"

I asked after ignoring her hurtful look.

"Huh? Isn't she in the club?"

"No...something happened, so I don't know where she ran off to..."

"Huh?" Ling Can seemed a little surprised. "There's actually something in this world that could make her run away... Please tell me what happened."

Even if you get excited, it's useless. I won't tell you.

"Ah...it's hard to tell anyone about this..."

After all, it's a conflict between sisters... I'm the only one who knows about it, and even if I tell Lingcan, it won't help solve the problem, and it might even have the opposite effect.

"Don't tell anyone... let Rinquanchuan escape..."

Ling Can pondered these two conditions over and over again, and then the expression on his face suddenly became much more tense.

"Did you... harass Rinquanchuan?"

“Not at all!!”

How did you come to this conclusion? How can you have such a strong imagination when you are not tall?

"You really didn't do anything weird to her?"

She looked up at me and asked.

Ling Shen's face flushed as his speech became intermittent.

So why are you blushing?

"Absolutely not! Well, judging from the direction you're going, you should be heading to the club, so go ahead. I'm leaving first."

After saying that, he immediately ran away.

"Hey...ah...well, never mind..."

Although I didn't see it, I could infer from her tone that she was shaking her head helplessly.

But now is not the time to be dazed.

Chapter 15: The Courage to Touch You

"Ah, Sheji!"

Kanon's voice came from behind.

I hesitated for a moment and then stopped.

"Well, Kanon, what's going on?"

"Even though it's after school, you're still not allowed to run in the corridor."

Jiayin said this while shaking her index finger.

"Now is not the time to talk about this... I have something urgent to do now..." I said and was about to walk away.

"Wait a minute, tell me, maybe I know something." Jiayin said as she pulled my sleeve.

"Hmm...I see..." I was surprised to see my heart racing at such a normal action. "Well, have you seen Rinsen River?"

"Ah, I just saw her, and she seemed to be crying... But she ran quite fast, so I'm not sure..."

"Where did she run to?" I couldn't help but get excited.

"He ran upstairs." Jiayin pointed to the stairs over there.

"Thank you, it's been a big help."

"It's nothing, I just happened to see it. Then you can go and do your work." After saying that, he let go of her hand.

Just as I was about to leave, I suddenly remembered something and hurriedly said to Jiayin, who was already behind me, "Just to be clear, I didn't do anything bad to her, don't think the wrong way."

"Hmm?" Jiayin turned her head and smiled helplessly. "I'm not overthinking it. But only people with something to hide would be nervous, right?"

"I go first."

After saying this, he left in a hurry...

"Eh? Well... Seriously..."

It seems like I have dug my own grave.

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The school building has four floors in total. If I search one floor at a time, not to mention how stupid it would be, the consumption of time and energy alone is enough to make me give up the idea.

Well, speaking of places to go in Rinsen River...it should be a place where there are no people and few people want to go at this time of year...

What a simple answer! It’s just the rooftop.

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Ah... I'm so tired... I've used up so much energy. If I can find the Rinquan River, that'll be fine. If I can't...

That’s not right... The entrance to the rooftop is right in front of me. Well, although the door is a bit old, it is not locked and there are obvious signs that it has been opened.

Considering that the noise made by opening the door suddenly might scare Rinsenkawa, I chose to open it slowly...If there were other people there, I could also leave quietly.

"call..."

Perfect... a large gap was opened without making any obvious sound... Ah, as expected, Rinquan River is there.

At this moment, he was facing away from me, with his arms resting on the railing in front of his chest, looking at the distant scenery covered by a thin layer of night. I wonder what he was thinking.

Melancholy or sadness? Maybe a bit of both...

I'm afraid everyone has experienced being hurt by someone.

The sources of harm the most are the people around us, or the people we are close to.

However, even if you are hurt and feel bad, the close feelings cannot be erased. Even if you talk and see each other less often, you will still miss each other.

Because feelings, especially those called "family feelings", are the most difficult to erase. As long as this is made clear, it will be possible to persuade Rinquanchuan.

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"Oh, so you're here."

I first tried to attract Linquanchuan's attention by talking. Although I succeeded, she didn't seem to have any special reaction. She just turned her head to glance at me and gave me a cold look.

"What are you doing here? I have nothing to say to a dishonest guy."

Did you forget your habits when you were excited?

"Well, strictly speaking, I did abide by the agreement, but you just unilaterally disagreed..."

"Hmph, you call that a method? It's just... Hmph."

Probably because he couldn't find an adjective, Rinquanchuan used an interjection to express his dissatisfaction with the proposal I proposed.

It seems that we need to change the subject now.

"Well, let's not talk about that... Hitting someone is wrong... And she's your sister..."

"Don't mention her!" After saying that, his face showed annoyance again.

It seems a bit scary, most people would know better than to mention it, but...

"Your sister is doing this for your own good," I continued.

"I told you not to mention her again!"

ignore.

"How about giving up your principles once in a while?"

"...Shut up..." Rinquanchuan said and bit his lips.

"actually..."

Actually, I don’t know how to make her angry next, but she should be angry now.

"..."

Huh? What's going on... He didn't yell or come at me or anything, but just stood there...

Hey, wait, is that... not true?

If you listen carefully, you can detect a small sob, and Rinsenkawa's body seems to be trembling...

Did I make you cry?

"Yes... I'm sorry, maybe what I said was a bit too harsh..."

silence...

"Um..." I hesitated for a moment and decided to walk over to Rinquanchuan.

"Right..."

Before he could finish his words, his right leg was hit hard by Rinquanchuan's powerful and swift kick.

Are you still playing tricks on me at this time?! Give me back my sympathy!

When I looked at Rinquanchuan despite the pain, I found that there were indeed tears in her eyes.

"Ah... that..."

For some reason, I was speechless when I looked at her face.

"Why..." Rinquanchuan said, blinking rapidly several times, as if trying to hold back tears, "Why is everyone like this..."

"..."

"You always make me do things I don't want to do, and you always have high expectations of me..." Her voice trembled, and as if she was trying to hold back tears, she stopped what she was about to say and bit her lip.

"I'm afraid too... I'm afraid I won't be able to complete these things... I'm afraid they'll say I've let them down..."

"I don't want to disappoint them...but..."

However, one's power is always limited, there are always things that one cannot do, and even if one has the ability, there is a possibility that one may not succeed.

In short, there are too many reasons to fail, but almost no reasons to accept failure.

What often accompanies family affection is expectation.

It wasn't just Rinsenchuan; everyone was being expected and hoped for. However, everyone had a 50% chance of success and 50% chance of failure in everything they did, even without factoring in the influence of various factors.

Therefore, expectations and hopes will always be dashed, and people cannot always succeed; they will fail. However, failure is not terrible, but what makes us think failure is terrible...

It's something called "letdown".

Since I was the one who was entrusted with the task, I felt obligated to complete it properly. If I completed it, it was my duty, and if I failed to do so, it was my fault.

Whether it's due to carelessness or lack of effort, it's always the fault of the person being asked to do something, because the person who is doing the asking often pays a price and then demands a reward, and they absolutely demand a reward.

In fact, hard work does not always pay off. If you don’t believe it, try investing in stocks or buying lottery tickets and you will find out.

But it's such a simple truth, but those who only know how to send out tasks don't understand...

"I understand..."