My queen always makes my survival more difficult

Ai Luolinwei's eyes were full of distrust. I don't expect you to trust me. I don't care now. It doesn't matter even if I can't suppress my desires. Just do it and release your desires.

I have always been too conflicted. I can't continue to be conflicted. If I want to survive in this world, I have to act accordingly.

Without betraying Noelle, I wanted to live a life more freely and more in line with my previous ideals.

I stood up and dusted myself off. I had already given my coat to Lenora, and her armor was left here for now. I'd have someone send it back later. She probably wouldn't be able to wear armor in my clothes, otherwise it would be bikini armor. How could someone with such a strong sense of self-esteem do such a ridiculous thing?

"Lord Noxiu, you haven't..."

"There's no need for me to tell someone who won't believe me. It's the same for you, Elolinewei. So, as long as you don't tell me about the relationship between you and me, and I don't tell you, what happened that day can be considered a thing of the past. But I promised you that I will do whatever I can for you. This is the only compensation I can give you."

Ai Luolinwei didn't understand this man and suddenly felt that he was even more unfamiliar than before.

His eyes have changed. They used to be full of confusion and contradiction, but now they are much less confused and contradictory, as if he has found what he wants to do.

Ai Luolinwei quietly looked at the man in front of her. In this country, men's status was not good. Most men she had met kept their heads down, just like him before. He always kept his head down, but this suddenly changed...

after all...

"Lord Noshu, may I ask you a question?"

"Say it"

"Why did you change so suddenly?"

"What do you mean it changed suddenly?"

"You give me the feeling that you are two completely different people now than before."

Change? Have I changed?

I'm still that humble me, still a slave who can only stay by Noelle's side. I've simply figured out a few things. After being nearly killed by Noelle, then being protected by her, being hunted by Lenora, and nearly getting killed for provoking her, I find myself constantly thinking about the same thing: how can I survive in their hands?

It was a wish that couldn't be more humble. I thought of myself as too humble, so I couldn't raise my head.

During those five years, I even forgot what I once had. Am I really someone who would be willing to be treated like that? My self-esteem might be stronger than Lenora's.

But...

In this situation, that kind of pride is just an obstacle for me...

I sighed deeply and turned to look at Eloline. She was much shorter than me, so she could only look up at me. "If I told you I wanted you, would you be scared away?"

"Hey..."

"I'm telling the truth. I want you. It's that simple. I know you were once a slave, so you can see the shackles on my neck. Yes, I am Noelle's slave. I am just a slave like you."

Chapter 57 That's Good

slave...

Although it is true that this is a matriarchal country, Elolinwei could not imagine that a prince would be a slave.

When the collar around his neck glowed and became visible, Eloline was deeply shocked...

He was really a slave. Once upon a time, he was a slave and also wore a collar. Until the day his master was killed, the contract was terminated and he gained freedom.

"But why... Her Majesty the Queen cares so much about you... Why are you Her Majesty the Queen..."

In Eloline's heart, Noelle has always been her savior, the one she will serve for the rest of her life, and the light in her heart...

But why...

Why would such a queen turn her own brother into her slave...

"You hate Her Majesty the Queen... don't you?"

At least in Elolinwei's heart, she always hated the person who turned her into a slave.

"Hate? I don't hate Norelle. Doesn't it sound funny? But it's true. I don't hate her. As for why, you won't understand, Elolinewei. Maybe it's just a twisted feeling..."

The only thing I don’t have an accurate answer to is feelings.

Even though I have experienced three lives and three worlds, I still don’t understand what my own feelings are like.

"So"

"You've asked too many questions, and there are some that I can't answer. So, let's end it here, Elolinewei. It's for your own good, and for my own good."

"You want me, are you serious?"

"Yeah, I'm serious, but in your heart I'm probably just a hopeless scumbag. By the way, I want you, not because I like you or anything, nor because I'm attracted to your body. I just want the power you have."

"My...power...I possess...Do I possess the power you desire?"

I don’t want to answer anymore. Even if Shi Yin’s matter rots in my stomach, I don’t plan to tell anyone.

"Well, you have the power I want, you are valuable to me, so I want you."

"I am valuable to you..."

Ai Luolinwei kept muttering, "Is this kid stupid? Normally, she should have run away after hearing such words. I've already said it decisively enough. It's obvious that she doesn't want to have anything to do with you anymore."

It's a bit irresponsible, but if a kiss can change something, just a kiss...

I let out a long sigh.

"I don't believe in love, because I've been betrayed before. What may be love to others is torture to me, so I probably won't fall in love with anyone. I just think you're worth using, so... you'd better continue to be afraid of me. At least don't give me another chance, otherwise, I will definitely attack you."

Having said that, even a fool wouldn't come near me anymore.

I always feel like I can't do anything to this child. Even though she has some weird things, she's still a child after all...

Elolinewei lowered her head and said nothing. I glanced at her and turned to leave.

She also turned and ran away.

I looked at the departing figure and suddenly couldn't help but burst out laughing...

That's good, there's no need to worry about it.

I'm just doing this for my own selfish desires, so I shouldn't do it unless it's absolutely necessary. If it's absolutely necessary, even if it's Elolinvi...

Maybe I will...

(The title of the book must be changed, otherwise I will be put in the black room. What do you readers think? The content will not change, only the title will be changed... If you have any ideas, please complain or leave a message in the comment section...)

Chapter 58 Let’s discuss it

"What happened outside just now?"

Back in the room, Noelle sat on the bed and asked.

"Well, I had a brief fight with Lenora, and in the end, I won."

"Lenora?"

Noelle didn't seem surprised by this. The fact that Lenora accepted the teasing at that time said it all. Lenora didn't like men, and could almost be said to hate men. However, Noelle didn't expect that she would attack her own brother.

"Are you OK?"

"It's nothing. I got beaten up by her, but at least I won, so I got what I wanted back."

I walked to the bed and sat down. Noelle looked at me worriedly. I smiled at her to show her that I was fine.

I really couldn't say those words. My plan, my plan to change my situation, even my plan to change this country, was that Noelle was my queen. I was determined in my heart at that time. I didn't know whether I should tell her my thoughts.

But if I say it out loud, there's an 80% chance that she'll do something to me...

Even death is possible. I want to change this country, which is a feminist country. As you can imagine, to change it, I need strength or power. If I get power, feminism? Feminism will no longer exist.

I glanced at Noelle. She seemed to be thinking about something, her eyes wandering as she looked at the night outside the window.

"Lenora cherishes you, and you cherish Lenora too."

"Um"

"If I asked you to kill Lenora, what would you do?"

"I won't. Although I love my brother deeply, I also know that Lenora is very important to me. If my brother really wants to kill Lenora... I will definitely stop him."

"I won't. If I wanted to kill her, she would have died just now. I want to know, in your heart, am I more important or Lenora is more important."

"you"

Noelle told me the answer bluntly. Although I knew in my heart that it would probably be like this, the moment she said it, I actually felt happy. I really didn't understand what I was thinking.

So it's like expecting to be abused by others.

"Norel, what would you think if, I mean if, I took Lenora's place? What would you do if I got the power?"

"Will my brother betray me?"

"I won't"

I can say that I can't, but it's better to say that I don't have the chance. A slave is a slave. No matter how much I rebel, it will only take a few minutes for her to kill me. This is an absolute contract. I am just feeling out the situation now and trying to see Noelle's attitude.

Noelle sighed: "This country is not far from extinction."

Noelle was very clear in her mind what had happened to the Kingdom of Edvira. She knew very well that she was not a qualified queen, which led to the situation becoming like this.

“I’m not a qualified queen.”

The situation of the Kingdom of Edvira, in fact, if you observe its history since its founding, you will understand that it was once a very strong country, but its location was not so good. It was surrounded by three kingdoms, a powerful empire in the north, the sea in the south, and a primeval forest in the west.

Although feminism has given great power to women in this country, as the saying goes, men and women working together will not be tired. No matter how powerful feminism is, it cannot make up for the lack of thinking. Men and women think differently.

"Brother, you want power, don't you?"

Chapter 59 Brother, dress up as a woman!

Noelle seems to have seen through my thoughts...

It would be better to say that I have a slave contract, but I don’t know the content of that contract. At least in the world I was in, the master could even choose to hear the slave’s voice, and such a contract existed.

Even if Noelle saw through my thoughts, I wouldn't be surprised. Rather...

Thank god she didn't do anything to me...

"Well, that's what I think. Actually, I want to change the situation in the Kingdom of Edvira, but I don't have the power, not even the right to speak. Noelle, if you don't want me to, I will give up."

It is impossible to give up. If I don’t want to live a humble life, I have to do something. So I will never give in like that. I will definitely find more ways to change the status quo.

"If you want to gain power, how can you gain the recognition of the people of this country? Have you ever considered this?"

"Well, I've thought about it. If I want the people of this country to accept me, you have to accept me first. You are the queen. If you are willing to accept me, then I can get the recognition of others. This is inevitable."

"brother"

Noelle interrupted me and looked at me with a strange look.

"Ok?"

I felt something was wrong, she rarely had that look in her eyes, like a mischievous look.

"Women's Clothing Bar"

"..."

Maybe there was something wrong with my ears and I heard it wrong. She must be planning to get some clothes. It seems that all the clothes in this room are in the closet at the back. I will go look for them for her later.

"Noelle, what clothes are you going to wear? I'll find them for you."

"brother"

Noelle looked at me seriously.

"..."

"Women's Clothing Bar"

"I really didn't hear it wrong!"

I completely wanted to deny what he said, but I was right. This guy was going to make me dress up as a woman! Damn it! Why did he bring up the topic of women's clothing?

"So, brother, dress up as a woman."

"Why is it women's clothing? Why do you want me to wear women's clothing? I still want to live a good life as a man!"

"But brother, you forgot one very basic thing. The Kingdom of Edvira is a women's kingdom. If I let you, a man, gain power, the consequences are obvious. The most basic things will be destroyed. So, brother, the answer is no from the beginning. If you are willing to become a woman, then there are other possibilities."

"I..."

Woman... How can I become a woman? No matter how much I try, I will never become a woman!

No matter how things change, even if history repeats itself, I'm still a man! How could I possibly become a woman?