After reincarnation, attack as a female imp!

[Yes or No?]

Qin Zhixin, can freedom be put into shackles?

[Yes or No?]

Qin Zhixin was a little annoyed by these questions, and she was distracted when playing with her mobile phone. She quit Hupu, closed her eyes, and tried to concentrate on listening to the ghost stories playing in her headphones.

But her heart was in turmoil.

Love, regret, self-blame, fear, complex emotions are like a twine, and her heart, which has been escaping for twenty years, is now forced into a dead end.

She hated the process of self-questioning. She wanted a simple answer. One that was highly feasible and that she wouldn't regret.

Just like [1+1] will always equal 2 no matter which country or civilization.

Qin Zhixin hated choices, especially those that required choosing between two options. It meant giving up one completely. She wanted the benefits of both, but was afraid to shoulder the responsibility of either. Yang Qichao, Wang Da, and Zhang Shichang arrived together. Yang Qichao happened to run into the two while getting his food, and the three of them took up all the remaining seats at the table.

Qin Zhixin plugged the earphones back into the battery compartment and smiled sweetly at Yang Qichao, a sweetness that was a little complicated.

Is there any way to have the best of both worlds?

Yang Qichao didn't know what that smile meant, thinking it was just another prank from Qin Zhixin, and his heart tensed for no apparent reason. But to others, this smile was far more stunning. The stunning beauty, even just sitting there, was enough to catch one's eye, and now her smile seemed like an invitation.

The embroidered face is like a lotus blooming with joy, the spring breeze is like jade setting off the fragrant cheeks. The spring peach blossoms are like green clouds, the lips are like cherry blossoms and the teeth are fragrant.

Wang Da's performance was acceptable. Although he was still secretly observing Qin Zhixin, his chubby face only looked slightly red, and his expression remained natural. The worst performance was by Zhang Shichang. He stared at Qin Zhixin the entire time, from her face to her nipples, from her nipples to her hands. Every part of Qin Zhixin was perfect and incredibly charming. Zhang Shichang looked as if he had just seen a woman for the first time. He accidentally dipped his middle finger into the soup bowl, but he was so stunned that he didn't feel the heat.

When he reacted, the front of his middle finger was already burned red and looked injured.

Zhang Shichang quickly lowered his head. He tried to endure the excruciating pain, but he was still more shocked.

He hadn't expected that Chao's "childhood sweetheart" was actually prettier than in the photo. When Wang Da and Yang Qichao went to pick her up, Zhang Shichang was actually convinced in his heart that the photo was photoshopped, or at least taken from the most flattering angle.

In his impression, it was impossible for a person to be so beautiful.

Zhang Shichang has dated several girlfriends. In his opinion, the prettiest of them was only 6.5 points after putting on makeup. When he got close to her, he could see that even foundation could not cover up the acne and large pores on her skin.

But Qin Zhixin was different. Zhang Shichang was certain she wasn't wearing any makeup. Her moist, firm skin was as natural as the finest white porcelain on her lips. Under the light in the cafeteria, it even had a hue similar to jade or enamel, but it was even more moisturized and looked extremely soft.

Qin Zhixin took the chopsticks from Yang Qichao and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. This action was the most girlish, pure and smart.

"Is this the roast duck you were talking about?"

Qin Zhixin pointed at Yang Qichao's plate and asked.

"Yes, I ordered some extra. You can eat it with the ginger sauce. If you feel too full, there are also baby cabbages."

Chapter 120: Birds Die and Scream

Tan Yinzhi talked about the time when she was healthy.

Back then, she was young, beautiful, and well-proportioned, a beauty who would draw a second glance even on the street, not the half-human, half-ghost zombie she is now. The monitor screen flashed red, indicating her heart rate was too high, but because the SLIENCE button was pressed, the monitor didn't sound an alarm.

Wang Tianzhuo felt that when Tan Yinzhi talked about the past, her one eye seemed to be shining.

"I sold my virginity for 5,000 yuan. It was to the boss of that Mercedes-Benz. Sister A told me that girls should make good use of their bodies. Men would envy the business of making money just by spreading their legs. She said that if I wasn't a college student from a key university, my virginity might not even be worth 1,000 yuan. My first man kept me for a week for 8,000 yuan. With that 5,000 yuan, I made more than 10,000 yuan a week. I have forgotten his name, but I still remember clearly the price I sold myself for."

"And Gu Xiaoshuang is not a virgin. She has deceived people several times using fake blood."

Wang Tianzhuo couldn't help but take a long breath through his mouth, but he held it in without saying anything.

He wanted to leave without looking back.

When he heard that Gu Xiaoshuang was no longer a virgin, he felt a sense of relief, but more of a numbness. He didn't know if this strange numbness was caused by the scent of Tan Yinzhi or the heat of Shenzhen's bright lights and nightlife.

But Wang Tianzhuo felt that he had heard enough. When he knew that Tan Yinzhi had AIDS, he should have known everything.

Everything about Tan Yinzhi, everything about Gu Xiaoshuang.

Wang Tianzhuo asked a question that he had already known the answer to. The idiot who was still hoping for luck had empty eyes and just continued to listen to Tan Yinzhi.

"I still hate Sister A. She tricked a young girl like me who had never seen the world into coming here. I'm not like Gu Xiaoshuang. I'm just a little vain, but how many girls in their twenties aren't vain? She's the main culprit. She always emphasizes that girls should live a luxurious life. No matter how many times I sell myself, I spend money even more. In the end, I became a piece of junk, a slut in the truest sense of the word. I made a lot of money, but I also spent a lot more."

"It's true that you can make money quickly by having a leg, but how much money can Biaozi save? Eazymoneyeazygo, this day will come when I make a decision. A scumbag like me will not die a good death."

Tan Yinzhi's expression was grim as she recalled these events with such intensity that the sterile gauze covering her eyes trembled as her facial muscles contracted. Her pale lips, so thin they were practically a slit, opened and closed like a dying fish thrown ashore. Her voice was hoarse, and there was a terrible odor in her mouth, like the sour smell of rotting pork mixed with vomit.

Wang Tianzhuo opened his mouth and breathed calmly, suppressing the discomfort of the smell and not interrupting her.

He had once heard Hunyuan Dachu say in a group chat that bad breath was actually a stomach problem. If a person's stomach was not working, their mouth would have a bad smell. Wang Tianzhuo had previously just used this as a topic of conversation to show off his knowledge, but when he smelled the odor from Tan Yinzhi's mouth, he thought of it again.

Wang Tianzhuo's thoughts were wandering. Is it common for AIDS patients to have stomach problems? It should be. Tan Yinzhi is immunocompromised, and her bacterial flora is out of balance. Her body must be rotting.

He thought maliciously that it would be great if Tan Yinzhi had died before he found her, so that Gu Xiaoshuang would still be the pure and innocent girl in his memory.

Yes, it would be great if this dirty thing died early.

This was a reality Wang Tianzhuo didn't want to face. He had suspected Gu Xiaoshuang might have been a bit rough in the past few years, but he already knew the outcome, so he didn't need to understand the extent of her past. Wang Tianzhuo felt his feelings were a joke, his affectionate appearances a joke too. He had pretended to be positive and encouraging after his casual flings. He had thought himself so gentle before, but now he felt hypocritical.

Hypocrisy is no different from evil, and his gentleness is nothing more than a prying eye disguised as good intentions.

"Gu Xiaoshuang isn't sick, is she? Look at the clothes you're wearing; they're so tacky and ugly. Are you a programmer?" Tan Yinzhi suddenly changed the subject from her self-pity, staring blankly at Wang Tianzhuo. "You're so dull, you look like an honest person, the kind of idiot who'd have to think twice before even telling a lie. You're Gu Xiaoshuang's boyfriend."

Wang Tianzhuo felt his entire face begin to numb, and beads of sweat on his forehead rolled down his thick nose. He didn't know how to respond. "No, actually I... Yes, you're right, I think I am her boyfriend. I used to hope that I was."

"When I told you that Gu Xiaoshuang was also a bitch, you looked upset. I'm very good at judging people. I've slept with more men than anyone you know. I'm a bitch, but I've also been to college. Don't think I'm stupid, okay? I'm also a student. How did you meet her?"

Wang Tianzhuo pulled out the small stool beside the bed and sat down. He first looked straight at Tan Yinzhi, but he felt guilty and soon avoided Tan Yinzhi's haggard face.

"Gu Xiaoshuang is my high school classmate."

"Oh, I get it. A spoiled brat returns to her hometown. She's saved some money by selling her body, and she just wants to find an honest man to take over. So how is she supposed to find one? Someone from high school has good grades. I heard he got into a good school and has a stable job, but he's still as innocent and stupid as he was in high school."

Tan Yinzhi laughed nervously as she spoke. "Is that possible? But look at his dull, fat face. He's such an honest man, and he's never had sex with any other woman except his mother. Only someone like him can avoid smelling the fishy odor on her."

"You're right, I'm the idiot. But haven't you done anything wrong? I'll ask Gu Xiaoshuang, but even if I break up with her, she'll be able to find another partner. What about you? Look at you now, you're neither human nor ghost."

Wang Tianzhuo regretted his words the moment he finished speaking. He felt that it was inappropriate for him to treat a woman this way. But the words had already been spoken, and even for the sake of his pride as an adult man, he couldn't give in. But Tan Yinzhi didn't react to his rebuttal, which left him somewhat bewildered. Her remaining eye was dead silent, like a knife slashing at Wang Tianzhuo's face.

Wang Tianzhuo felt a tightness in his chest, and he broke the silence first. "I'm sorry."

"You don't have to apologize. My father has ignored me for a long time. He already thought I was dead. I also knew I was dying. If you want to see me, ask me before I die. Even if it means exposing my scars, I won't feel sad. I said these words over and over again. My body is covered in ulcers. I already had a fungal infection on my toe removed. Guess how much money I've saved over the years?"

Tan Yinzhi started giggling nervously. "When I was diagnosed, I only had 70,000 yuan in savings. They were very generous. I must have handled hundreds of thousands of yuan. I can't remember exactly how much, but I spent most of it. I don't even know where it went. When I was most profitable, I went for beauty treatments. I'd consider a 6,000 yuan Korean hydrating injection as normal maintenance, but when I was diagnosed, I only had 70,000 yuan. If AIDS treatment hadn't been free, I might have died last year."

"People with AIDS can actually live quite long."

Wang Tianzhuo said hesitantly, he didn't know what kind of emotion made him say such nonsense.

"I don't have much time left. I'm addicted to drugs. I've spent almost all my savings on drugs. The injections have caused the meridians in my left hand to collapse. That person just said I can't live until the year after next. It would be great if I could live until the year after next. I don't even know if I can make it to the next Spring Festival. Gu Xiaoshuang is so smart. She always finds ways to avoid danger, but why doesn't she help me?"

Tan Yinzhi was mumbling again, and Wang Tianzhuo couldn't help but interject. "Not only did you do that, you were also addicted to drugs. This...even a Daluo Jinxian couldn't save you. Your current situation is 80% to 90% your own fault. The domestic ban on drugs, with so much publicity every year, can only mean that you were too clueless back then."

"No, I'm not crazy."

"You're taking drugs and doing that, do you think you're sane?"

"Awake, I'm so awake. I always knew what I did was wrong."

“But why make mistakes?”

Tan Yinzhi opened her mouth and dirty tears flowed silently.

"Can't we make mistakes if we're sober?"

"I regret it, I really do. Sometimes I wonder, if I had gone to another university, not in Guangdong Province, but to a university near my home, would things be very different?"

"I will marry a boy who likes me, who loves me wholeheartedly and tolerates my little whims and vanity. If I hadn't met Sister A, would I have a child now? I might have a dog, a tall German Shepherd, and I would have raised it since it was still nursing, letting it grow up with my child."

"I might have a lot of daffodils now, and when they bloom in January or February, it's Chinese New Year, and I can watch the Spring Festival Gala while looking at the flowers. That's all I want, but it's impossible now."

"My mom was mad at me and my dad disowned me. I'm a hopeless jerk, but I was a really good student in high school. I was always in the top ten in my class, seriously. Otherwise, I wouldn't have gotten into a top university. Before my mom got mad at me, I was her baby. I really want to go back, back to high school."

"I had a dream last night. I dreamed that I was back in high school, and everything that's happening now is a nightmare. It was so beautiful, so beautiful that I didn't dare wake up. When I woke up, there was nothing, and I would have to continue waiting to die. Even if everything is my fault, even if I admit it, so what? Why did I end up like this? I feel like I haven't made any big mistakes, but now I can only lie in bed, waiting to see which will come first, tomorrow or death."

Wang Tianzhuo felt as if his throat was blocked. He didn't dare look into Tan Yinzhi's eyes. He had many words of comfort in his mind, but these nonsense stuck in his mouth and he couldn't spit them out.

"You came to the hospital just to find out if Gu Xiaoshuang is Biaozi. I tell you, she is. She's been playing dirty. There's no one cleaner than her. But you don't have any disease. You came to the hospital just to deceive and question a Biaozi who won't live long. Don't you think you're being cruel?"

"You're neither a patient nor a family member. You're just afraid that your girlfriend might be Biaozi, and you're still agonizing over love affairs. What I'm afraid of is whether I'll die tomorrow. I hope I die in a dream, preferably a beautiful dream, where I can go back to high school, where my mom is still alive and my dad still recognizes me. But even if it's a nightmare, can it be more terrifying than reality?"

"You only see the small cloud above your head, but you can't see the storms that others are going through. I envy you so much, I really envy you."

"I don't want to die. I'm afraid of the dark. If I die, I'll have nothing. But I'm so ugly now. I'm in pain all over. I even need a catheter to pee. I don't want to live anymore."

Chapter 121 Destiny but No Fate

The night in Nanling City was quiet, with no wind and no clouds, and a big bright moon hanging high in the sky.

Yang Qichao learned last night that his father was going to Guangdong Province to develop. Before that, he had been working in a research institute of a state-owned enterprise. Recently, he switched to Huawei. The salary is very high, much higher than staying in Nanling.

Huawei is in Shenzhen, and the flight from Nanling to Shenzhen takes a long time.

Yang Qichao also had to go to Shenzhen. His parents were also going, and they were worried about leaving him alone in Nanling. His father had already handled the paperwork for him, and the school he was assigned to was also one of the best in the area. Yang Qichao was a little distracted, even forgetting to charge his electric scooter. Qin Zhixin had no choice but to take the subway home with Yang Qichao. Their homes were close, so they got off at the same station.

It was already ten o'clock in the evening, and the subway was empty. There were about a dozen people scattered in the carriage, mostly students.

Qin Zhixin found a seat near the door, crossed her legs, and leaned her shoulders against the railing. She was languid and graceful, with a natural and graceful figure. The student sitting across from her blushed at the sight of this beauty. He couldn't look at her, but he felt guilty not to look at her, so he lowered his head and glanced at her out of the corner of his eye.

Yang Qichao noticed that many people in the car were looking at her, and a few of the boys were eager to make a move, so he sat down next to her. He hesitated, but decided not to sit right next to her, deliberately leaving half a person's distance between him and Qin Zhixin. He put his schoolbag there to prevent anyone from sitting between them.

Qin Zhixin didn't notice anything at all. She always seemed to be insensitive to Yang Qichao and rarely noticed his little thoughts.

Yang Qichao tilted his head slightly to glance at the girl sitting next to him. She had been typing away on the way home, and it was unclear what she was busy with. She had put a tight silicone case on her new phone, and even applied a thick tempered glass screen protector. She treasured it so much that she almost locked it in a safe.

Yang Qichao couldn't help but find it funny. He stood up, picked up his schoolbag, walked to Qin Zhixin's side, and grabbed the handrail at the door.

Sensing someone approaching, Qin Zhixin quickly covered her phone screen and looked up to see Yang Qichao. She put her phone back in her pocket, stood up, and smiled a mischievous smile, like a kitten that had stolen some meat.

Yang Qichao was very familiar with Qin Zhixin's smile. Whenever she smiled like that, she was definitely doing something bad.

"You didn't do anything good?"

Yang Qichao lowered his voice, feeling inexplicably depressed.

Qin Zhixin had just leaned against the armrest, her hair a bit disheveled. She reached out and casually brushed it back, and Yang Qichao's heart trembled at the sight. Qin Zhixin stood beside him, her graceful figure a few strands disheveled, but this only added to her allure. Her eyes narrowed in delight, her bright and generous expression dazzling.

She smiled sweetly and leaned closer to Yang Qichao's shoulder. "No, I told you I'm in the competition class."

"The physics competition. You're so bad at math, there's no point signing up."

Yang Qichao lowered his eyes and glanced openly at Qin Zhixin's bottomless cleavage. He was too lazy to hide it now, but he didn't have much emotion. He just wanted to see her more. Qin Zhixin noticed it and bumped his shoulder in anger.

"What do you mean? I'm not great at math, but I'm not terrible either. At least I'm in the top 100 in the grade this time."

"Yeah, that's good."

Qin Zhixin felt that Yang Qichao's words this time seemed to be mocking her, and she was a little dissatisfied. "You are so sarcastic."

"I told you you did well on the test, and you're still being sarcastic. Are there many people in your physics competition class?"

"Well, I'm not sure. They said there were thirty-seven, but only twenty-two reported tonight."

"I feel like you might be the only girl here, or at least definitely not one of them."

"Yes, besides me and Zhang Tingxue from Class 1, there are only two girls in total. Why don't you go to the competition class? I saw Li Jing from your class last night. Their math competition class started quite early."

"My physics is average. I have good overall grades, but no single subject is particularly outstanding. Li Jing's math is already at the level of an undergraduate."

"But he didn't do as well as you did in the exam."

Yang Qichao took a deep breath. He wasn't sure whether he should tell her about his upcoming transfer, but for some reason he didn't want to. Qin Zhixin had done well on the monthly exam, and he didn't want to spoil her mood. He still had more than a month before his transfer, so he had plenty of time to tell her.

After sending Qin Zhixin home, Yang Qichao took a shower and fell asleep on the bed.

He felt waves of fatigue for no apparent reason, as if a tide of sleepiness was washing over his mind.

He inexplicably recalled what Qin Zhixin had been mumbling on the subway that night: Civilization, The Witcher, Resident Evil... She'd rattled off a bunch of them, like a menu. But Yang Qichao hadn't played any of them; it just sounded familiar. He felt familiar because Qin Zhixin kept talking about them.

Yang Qichao has been staying up late to prepare for the exam every night these days. This has become his habit. Before every exam, he starts preparing at least a week in advance to check for any gaps in the knowledge points that may be tested.

He was also more diligent in his studies than most of his classmates. By the time others rushed to review, he was already on his second round. And by the time exams came around, he'd usually gone over every single point more than three times.

He also thought about taking a break after the exam, maybe going to see a movie. But after the exam, his father suddenly informed him that he had to leave Nanling.

Yang Qichao felt he couldn't sleep again. Qin Zhixin leaned against him and talked to him on the subway, and he could still smell her fragrance on his nose.

A few days ago, a girl in his class even secretly added him as a friend and kept asking him questions. He was not stupid, and sometimes he could feel that the girl was doing it, but she was just asking him questions on purpose to get close to him.

Yang Qichao was still thinking about the past while lying on the bed. What was the girl's name?

Even though they were classmates for two months, he still didn't have a deep impression of her. Her skin didn't seem to be very good, she was a bit fat, and she looked gloomy when she huddled in a corner.

It's so strange. He can memorize all the knowledge points at a glance, but he just can't remember the name of this girl.

Yang Qichao felt a slight sting in his head, and his eyelids began to twitch after he'd opened them for a short while. He couldn't help himself and fell asleep, a restless sleep. He dreamed of the girl. He couldn't make out her face, but she came to him to ask questions. When he explained his solutions to the problems, she couldn't understand. In his dream, he became agitated and stood up to leave, refusing to pay any attention to her.

Yang Qichao felt strangely sad. This was wrong. He should have taken the time to explain the question clearly. This was a poor attitude towards a girl who harbored a certain amount of affection for him.